Diary Entry #234
August 8, 2014
Getting back into this game when I joined SCW was something I was so psyched for. I had the support of my family including my usually very outspoken and opinionated husband.
I'd trained hard. I'd done everything I was supposed to and you know what happened?
I saved one of my best friends. I made some new friends. I made a whole lot of enemies and...
I won a title. A top tier title at that.
Then, I lost it. Not just the title but that energy, that new found drive to succeed and to prove that I wasn't just some old dog in a new game. I let myself get too comfortable and I had to step away. I almost didn't come back too if it weren't for Spike.
Spike has been a shoulder to lean on when I didn't know where to turn. He gave me the motivation to come back and even further to that... he gave me shit for even thinking that I was done. Not many people would do that. Most would pat your shoulder and tell you everything is going to be just fine and you know that whole 'buck up champ' and you can 'do it' and 'well if that's the way you feel..."
No he wouldn't let me give up just because Vixen had taken away from me the thing that I'd set out to do here in the first place.
But...
You know what I learned.
It's not about just winning titles. And I had nothing to prove to anybody. The only person I need to worry about impressing... is...
Me.
I had let myself down. No one else was going to care more or less what I decided to do.. well to a point of course. I mean of course my family and friends didn't want me to just quit but the person that I needed to do this for is myself. I set out to prove that I could still be in this game just as good as all these girls that are years younger than me. And frankly, I think I look pretty damn hot for a woman in her early 30's. Not that I'm trying to get the attention of the male roster. Happily married!
This week I saw that my return is in a tag match with Roxi. A woman I helped to bring back from a dark place and a woman that has been there to pull me back from going to a dark place as well. Just as much as Spike has been instrumental in my return to a ring, Roxi has been there, well as much as she can with her getting married and honeymoon, and she's been there to calm this hot head down when something has been said to really push me over the edge.
I am disappointed that it isn't the mean girls we're facing. You kidding, me and Roxi together as a team taking on those Barbie dolls would be like handing us a win. Maybe other teams have gone home with an upset but they haven't faced us, further they haven't faced me when I'm at my best.
In the matter of Delia's claims about me hiring her to get me the win of the bombshell title. It's pure fiction and on top of that she has no evidence to support it. I don't even nor have I ever had her phone number listed in my phone. I hardly check my twitter nowadays unless I'm tagged or happen to see something that gets me hot under the collar. In all my time here the most I've spoken to her has been when she came down to say I'd committed this fake crime.
But you know what else... even if I were to hire someone to help me win.. I'd pick someone better in the ring than you sweetheart. What's that you guys say? Sorry bout it.
Our opponents this week, the team of Zuri Justice and Katie Kensington.
From what I've seen and heard this is kinda an odd couple of a team here. You've got a girl that wears a mask, says she's got super powers and has a hard on to make the world pay and then you've got self proclaimed Daddy's girl with more money than she knows what to do with.
i'v'e got an idea what you can do sweetheart, donate some of it to charity. Help a homeless shelter, build a library and don't just do it just to have your name on a plague. Do it because inside those designer duds I know there lies the heart of a girl that is good and kind. that's just gotten the wrong idea about society and how ti works.
Let's put it this way, I'm not a poor woman. Between my husband and I were are more than able to enjoy retirement well into when we have to be put in the ground. on top of that, we have our children's futures taken care of as well. But I don't spoil my children to the point that you were. I mean who am I to judge, your father obviously loved you. Wanted you to have the very best...but the thing is... money doesn't buy everything and it's not going to buy you a win at climax control either.
You know I don't hate you, I don't even dislike you. I see you desperately pleading for Delia and the other mean girls to accept you and I just want to wrap you up and give you a big hug and tell you that you don't need people like that to feel special. Genuine friendships don't require you to give out your bank account records or your resume.
As for Zuri. Well... what do I say. besides laugh at how young and naive and misguided you really are.
Playing on my PAST nickname as fodder for this match is just... laughable.
I am no longer that person and you're right I do consider myself more wholesome. It came with giving birth to two beautiful children and deciding to be a role model rather than a cover model. And oh you wanna ask what man would lay a finger on me? How about my husband... every night I'm home.. but you know... the guys clamouring over themselves to be with you...you're the damn expert on the subject aren't you?
to say that you have nothing against me personally and then lump me into the same category as the mean girls is an oxy moron. You have something personal against the same people I do. So if anything... you shouldn't be shitting on me for my beliefs, we should be forming an alliance to rid SCW of the surge of empty headed bimbos that are filling up spaces for women who actually have talent. Talent like the beautiful Natalie McKinley. Whom I had the pleasure to meet last week and get to know.
So since you wish to write me off so easily I will give you something to chew on. I'm going to be the one either standing over you as you damn yourself for your over zealous attitude with my hand held high with Roxi, or your going to be the one that's knocked out after I kick you in the head. Take your pick.
We don't have to be enemies Zuri and so I will give you another chance to take back your words and give someone with more experience and more appeal the respect she deserves. Besides... Zuri... I already held the bombshell title once and I started around the same time as you... where's your title huh? Just saying.
Now I normally don't get petty or angry but lately people have been pissing me off and I'm just about done with the garbage around here.
So here's my final words:
Misty... If you ever need backup I am there. You don't even have to ask. You want help shutting up the people here that seem to think they're entitled to things because of some attitude they don't deserve. I'm there.
Simply. I am here now and I'm not leaving again. I'm going to give this everything and my all and I'm going to make people see that I am Bombshell championship material again and I'm not afraid to get my hands dirty either... hopefully with Mean girl blood.
