(ooc: I wanted to do a cd part of my rp, but i constantly drew a blank. Apologies to Entity, I appreciate the opportunity. but I'm just having trouble finding the right thing to write for the character as that is why i am retiring him.
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Lost in the darkness
I fade from the light
Faith of my father, my brother, my Maker and Savior
Help me make it through the night
Blood on my conscious
And murder in mind
Out of the gloom I rise up from my tomb into impending doom
Now my body is my shrine
The blood runs free, the rain turns red
Give me the wine, you keep the bread
The voices echo in my head
Is God alive or is God dead?
Is God dead?
A piece of paper with the opening lyrics of Black Sabbath’s Is God Dead? Lyrics scratched and pinned upon a wall with a dagger. Candles are burning on either side of the piece of paper as a hand can suddenly be seen resting against it, digging its fingers into the wall as we hear a heavy breathing mixed with soft coughing.
“Is God Dead?”
The raspy voice can be heard, soft laughter follows as the heavy breathing continues as the breathing causes the fire to move from left to right.
“A question that in one fashion or another has captivated our fucked up minds for an eternity, questions that keeps the human brain pondering why we you idiots are such a foolish morons when it comes down to faith. But then again, for some reason we cannot live without can’t we??”
The fingers dig in the wall, causing drops of blood to drip down the wall until it comes in contact with the floor underneath. The muscles upon the arm start to tense due to the strain that the figure is putting on it. Another hand places itself upon the other side of the candles, repeating the same thing that happened earlier.
“It’s almost the question, is Goth really retired? Or is he a hypocrite that cannot stay away from the six sided ring?”
“Whatever it is, people just don’t want to believe the reality when it is presented in front of their eyes, blinding them with the truth as they wish to believe in lies and deceit. And what happens if I wanted to go away?”
“I got sucked back into that one thing I started to hate”
The coughing continues, the sound of the man having trouble inhaling the foul stench of oxygen inside the dirty room is visible. We see the camera slowly start to turn towards the shape of Goth, a shape that we cannot identify with the man that we have grown custom to throughout the last few years. The man that promised to retire if he did not win the world title, a promise that he had kept until the strange Entity attacked him. An assault that had caused him to wonder why, even if it was for a few moments as he had realized that there is only one medicine for him to turn his back to the sport that made him infamous by crushing it with his own two hands.
“Entity…., I guess the saying of everyone’s entitled to his fifteen minutes of fame has surely been one of high importance isn’t it?? Because I cannot remember to have ever faced someone that would dare to hide his miserable identity behind a mask…. And that includes a man by the name of Metamania… a luchador that had an identity crises beyond the years of his existence. But for you? For you it is nothing but hiding a lie isn’t it?? A lie that you wish to hide for everyone that cares, sadly for you that I have to inform you that as long as the Herald of Fath does not care…. That nobody else will either…”
“But you already knew that didn’t you?? It’s why a coward like you tried to tug upon my wardrobe, remembering how that caused Jesus to notice a sick woman from draining some of his power to be healed. But what is your purpose little cockroach of a liying son of a bitch?? Do you wish to be healed? Or do you merely wish to look into the eyes of the man that has stared into the dark realm of death over and over again as it has bored me… IT BORED ME!!!”
Goth places his bloodied fingers upon his chest, slowly dragging it down his chest as we see a trail of blood following its path.
“I WANTED TO RETIRE!! START A FAMILY!!! TRAIN MY WIFE AND LOOK ON WITH PRIDE WHILE LETTING MY CAREER BEHIND ME!! But no, I cannot do what I want to do right?? And all I have to do is to crush the life out of a man that is a bitch, a man that is a cockroach and a lying son of a fucking asshole. You know something? I am not even going to listen anymore, I am not even going to react to reason. Hell, I my not even going to show up just to watch the misery drip down from your masked face just like the blood that is upon these hands.”
“Are you still following me Entity??”
A loud sinister laugh can be heard, Goth crosses his arms across his chest, staring at the bloodied ends of his fingers as if he is mesmerized by the dripping of the blood.
“And what tale should I tell you Entity? What Biblical reference can I use for the Serpent act that you tried to pull on me?? Oh I know, the classical tale of the Devil who put doubt upon his brain and tried to rationalize everything with him in the hope of questioning HIS very own destiny?”
There’s a moment of silence
“I will tell you a funny story Entity, a story of the chicken that tried to cross the road.”
The sinister laughter can be heard as it echoes within the four walls of the small room that is dimly lit.
“Tick Tock, hear the cackling of the chicken that is outside of it’s normal habitat, clueless to where It’s destination may lead it… The promised land? Or merely being subdued to the hellacious fires of damnation??”
“You may ask yourself whether I have lost my mind, or whether I should start to write children stories of the mentally deranged human beings that apparently is taking over the world. But that’s the problem of you being so similar to the mindless chicken. Because neither of you know what direction that you are seeking, just using your animalistic nature to take over without just asking this one simple question.”
Goth turns his attention towards the piece of paper that is stuck against the wall with a sickening smile.
“Is Goth dead??”
There’s a moment of silence, he turns his head back before starting to talk to himself, whispering something that is unable to be detected by the microphone as he closes his fists. Digging the knuckles into the flesh of his chest, heaving heavily in an attempt to suck in as much oxygen into his lungs before letting out a low sigh.
“The answer to your mindless stupidity is that I will live on forever!! Yet I choose to be dead for people like you. No longer can you hide behind the excuses of that I have died for your sins, no longer will I listen to your mindless promises to change your life for the better. Because you only run to ME when you are in trouble isn’t it?? Just like a little child that runs to his daddy, telling him that the bullies in his class room have been picking on him.”
“The only difference is that you try to be the bully, trying to punish me, trying to laugh and point at me as a mindless little hyena. Laughing in the shadows, hoping for me not to notice isn’t it?? Wishing that I would stay away, in order for you to claim that I have hid in the darkness and you are the big winner of whatever deranged belief that you uphold!!”
“And all I can say is that I don’t care Entity…, hell. I could even call you Larry. Because that is the impact that you have made upon me, the fact that you need to lower MYSELF to your level is beyond me. It is frustrating to realize when you hear these words that you will be lying in bed awake, asking yourself whether everything that I have said is true. Asking yourself what it all means?? Because all you are accustomed to hear is that people tell you that they will beat you, that they are better than you and that you are nothing but a desperate attention seeker….”
“Does that cover it all Entity?? Does that make you remember all the frustrating people can be because they are only focused upon your identity?? Do you promise the winner to give them the opportunity to rip off the mask and reveal your face? Just like a desperate father would promise his bitch of a child an ice cream if they keep their mouth shut for five single minutes. And you know why people are this desperate Entity??”
We see Goth breath heavily through his nose, watching his nostrils open and close with every breath he takes and exhales before slapping his face a few times with both hands.
“Because they are without direction!! They base their lives with how much money they have and all the expensive properties that they have bought!! People want to have establish their superiority through everything that is meaningful to them!! And yet, all that you need is me…. And you could not take it that I didn’t offer you that opportunity to stand in the same ring with me. You were screaming like a sixteen year old girl, that isn’t happy with the car that she has received upon her sweet sixteen because it is a manual instead of a stick driven car!! You want to be the one that deserves everything that I got… and yet you will be left empty handed after our match Entity. Because even though I am in this match for the obvious reasons, you will garnere nothing. Because it’s all about me, the fact that the people will get to receive a bonus match on my storied career. Ticket sales have gone through the roof ever since that this match was announced. Because they want to tell their children one day that they were at the final match, the match that was shoved down my throat, because I wasn’t allowed to retire on MY OWN TERMS!!!”
“Does it make you happy? Believing that you had driven a knife in my back?? Having sold me out for a few gold coins?? You do know that the man who did that ultimately hung himself right?? Talking about staring onto the opposing direction that you had believed it would direct you into. Oh no Entity, there will be nothing that you will gain besides just another x in your match column. A forgotten memory eventually behind the mediocre career that is yours.”
Goth mocking applauds the right hand in his left, a slow and steady pace that echoes in the vicinity that he is standing in.
"Congratulations, be proud of finally achieving something. Because after the bell has rang it will be me that will turn my back to you for the final time. Signalling that what you have already knew beforehand. That I have never cared about you, that I never considered you to be anything BUT a joke. And that you can run off to management, run your mouth and plead all that you want. But you will never get the taste upon those lips once again of what it is like to have been in the ring with a legend like me.”
“Because you will realize that you didn’t deserve to be in my presence, you weren’t even ready to get yourself mentally prepared for the man of my calibre. A man that you watched and lose his last shot at the world title, thinking that you could hover above my head as a vulture that is waiting for me to surrender to the unbearable heat of the desert… Right?? RIGHT??!!!!”
“Don’t fool yourself Entity, I am going to retire after this thing that you hold so dear. I am going to walk away and hang up my wrestling tights and boots for the very last time. And I suggest for everyone that has the wild ideas of attacking me afterwards, I can already tell you that my contract is already over and I intend to laugh you in the face and tell you that you are too late. Just like I should have done to you, but I guess I will have to make an example out of you to maintain that grip I want to hold upon everyone else out there. That I am off limits after this Sunday. And that I am the most dominant legend that has ever… EVER graced the six sided ring of Sin City Wrestling… So in answer to the seemingly unanswered question…”
He turns his gaze towards the letter and smirks.
“Is Goth dead???”
He smirks as he shakes his head.
“I will make you wish that I was Entity, because I will live on forever in the misery that is your life… And that I will haunt you for eternity as you realize that you will NEVER see the end of it…. And that you have failed…. Farewell to you my friend, farewell…”
With that the shot fades for the very last time.