Book 1: Who am I?
Chapter 8: Focus
Part 1: Following up (#NP: “Coming undone” by: Korn)
Melanie Gabrielle heard the sound of the clock ticking. She sat alone in the dining room, waiting for Sam to return home. She knew what had happened and it didn’t bother her. It was an open marriage and Mel was seeing the Father of some of her kids. Her long pink dress sat on her as she waited. Mel sighed and checked her phone as the doors opened. Sam walked in with a smirk on his face.
Sam: Sorry to keep you waiting.
Mel: It’s okay, you’re home now…how was he?
Sam: It was very interesting to say the least my wife.
Alistair walked out and placed dinner in front of them. Mel smiled a thank you to him and turned back to Sam.
Mel: Glad you had fun.
Sam: It was your idea.
Sam heard Mel chuckle at him.
Mel: Of course it was. But you do know that I’m never second place.
Sam: Oh I know. I’m just surprised that you agree to all of this.
Mel: You shouldn’t be. I love you and I trust you Sam. Anyways…you got a match soon right?
Sam nodded.
Sam: Let’s not talk about that. I want to enjoy this night with you.
Mel: Sounds good to me…
Sam: I’m focus and ready for this.
Mel: I know you are.
Sam smiled up at her and took a sip from his glass.
Sam: I enjoyed it; he’s worried about you not accepting.
Mel: But I do, don’t worry about it Sam.
Sam nodded again and the scene fades.
Part 2: Talking. (#NP: “Back for more” by: Five Finger Death Punch)
I bounce back and I come back better than you expect. For those wondering, it's true - I am pissed off. I mean, some might think that doesn't necessarily mean a lot to me, just another loss but nah. It's only really my fourth loss, I think, here and so it's pretty devastating. I'm not giving up, though.
I face Mr.TNA
So this is our opportunity. I am aware this is also your opportunity. You've had plenty already and to be honest, you've just let them all pass you by but perhaps this will be the one that works out? I mean, it's not going to but false hope is one hell of a thing. You can believe all you want that something is attainable when it's not. We can all hope, we can all dream. The difference here is that I have found a way to overcome the obstacles in front of us whereas you'd have no clue where to start. That's a strong negative against you, guys. You might think that your pure aggression and anger is enough but it's not. You need much more to survive in this business.
I mean, that is what you want, isn't it? You want to be able to say you had at least a decent career and actually ended up being proud of yourselves? That is the ultimate - and actually realistic - goal, isn't it? You want to show that you had something to be proud of at the end of the day instead of just getting angry over repeated losses, right? Well, either way, this isn't your week. I don't necessarily have any personal issues with you but I have personal issues with other people, who have been waiting to see me fail and slip up. They saw that last week and there is no fucking chance in hell they'll see it again. That just means your are in the wrong place at the wrong time.
Look at this in a more optimistic manner if you wish but with the way that I'm feeling right now, you're not anywhere even close to being safe. When I'm pissed off, I fight harder than ever before - if that's even possible. Unfortunately, since you're the ones standing in the way, you're about to get hurt. I've seen you look confident in the past but you still found a way to fuck yourselves over by not focusing. But you see, when myself , I’m confident, that has a more positive effect – I’ll get the job done. I’ll win. I’ll dominate. I’ll leave with the victory. I’ll destroy the competition. I’ll live up to our expectations.
I know that you want the win, right? You want to take these from me and finally after working so hard yet unsuccessfully, don't you? You're going to have to kill me to even get a shot. I have no problem in that. So maybe, just maybe one day you'll get that shot but you won't get it by going through the usual formality of talking shit. That's just one goal of yours that is out of reach. Add it to the fucking list of how many times you've tried to get somewhere.
I know that you want this and for once, you are actually showing passion about what you do but it's not going to be enough this week and I hope you know that. I'm sure that deep down, you do. I'm sure that you do know that you're up against a team that just can't be stopped. I'm sorry things just can't work out for you but I probably need this more right about now. I need that and I’m going to take it.
Fade to black.
