[MiloKasey]

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Turnberry Towers
Las Vegas, NV

The condo almost feels foreign. The new front door closes with a heavier, more solid sound than the original one. It locked differently too, the reinforced deadbolt engaging with a metallic click that sounded reassuring and unfamiliar all at once.

For the first time since Miles had bought the condo, Turnberry Towers didn't feel like home.

The familiar scent of Carter's candles and freshly brewed coffee had been replaced by latex paint, fresh lumber and the faint smell of drywall dust that somehow still lingered despite the cleaning crews having finished their work days ago. Plastic sheeting remained taped across one side of the hallway where the last of the trim still needed to be stained, and blue painter's tape clung stubbornly to several baseboards as though the contractors had simply stepped out for lunch and forgotten to come back.

The dining room stopped all three of them before anyone realized they had stopped walking. The table was gone. For years it had sat in exactly the same place after Carter had finally convinced Miles that the old secondhand table they'd been using belonged in a college apartment instead of the home they'd built together. There had been birthdays around that table, holidays, late-night takeout after shows. Kevin's homework spread across it while Carter complained about algebra despite secretly helping him with it anyway.

Now there was nothing. Just an empty space on the hardwood floor waiting for something new to take its place.

Miles' eyes drifted toward the living room. The new sliding glass doors stretched from floor to ceiling, perfectly clean and almost unnaturally clear. There were no little nose prints pressed against the bottom corner where Ms. Thang liked to supervise birds from the safety of the living room, no tiny paw prints smeared across the glass after she'd inevitably decided the outside world required closer inspection.

It looked wrong. It was perfect, almost unnaturally so, and somehow that perfection made it feel even more out of place.

His eyes traveled slowly around the room, taking in every fresh coat of paint, every replaced piece of trim and every repaired wall. Each improvement reminded him exactly what had been there before it. He didn't see fresh drywall.

He didn't see fresh drywall; he saw Carter's blood soaking into the floor while Kevin knelt beside him, terrified. He didn't see smooth white paint; he saw the hole where Lazarus' face had gone through the wall before the fight spilled into the living room.

Every repair reminded him that something terrible had happened there before it reminded him that it had been fixed. Repairs covered the damage. They didn't erase the memories.

Kevin had already wandered quietly toward the hallway. There wasn't any urgency in his steps and none of the excitement that usually came with coming home after a trip. He simply disappeared around the corner until he reached his bedroom, stopping in the doorway without crossing the threshold.

The green walls were gone.

When he'd first moved in, Carter had spent nearly an entire Saturday helping him pick out paint because Kevin had insisted the room needed to feel like it belonged to him. They'd laughed over paint swatches spread across the kitchen island, debated three different shades before Kevin triumphantly settled on the one currently sitting in a landfill somewhere beneath fresh coats of warm beige.

The room smelled new. There was fresh beige paint along with fresh trim. Fresh bedding folded neatly across the mattress. If someone had walked into the room for the first time, they never would have guessed that it had once been a crime scene.

Kevin stepped inside and slowly brushed his fingertips across the wall where he'd slammed into it. He stood there for several long seconds before giving the smallest nod imaginable, almost as though he was convincing himself the room really was his again.

Carter watched quietly from the hallway. He started to say something and then thought better of it. Instead, he simply turned away and let Kevin have the moment to himself.

Miles found himself walking toward the balcony without consciously deciding to. He stopped in front of the new glass. The reflection staring back at him almost catches him off guard. For just a moment, his brain refused to accept what his eyes were seeing because only two weeks earlier there hadn't been glass there at all.

Just a couple of weeks ago, there wasn't any glass there, just shattered pieces scattered across the floor. Only blood and only sirens.

He reached out carefully, laying his palm flat against the cool surface.

The reflection mirrored him perfectly. It took longer than he cared to admit before he finally believed it. He can visually see that his reflection does the same but he still has to will himself to believe it’s real.

He quietly says, "We'll get there."

Not to Carter, not to Kevin but to the home itself. To the home that had been violated, to the place that had somehow survived alongside them.

There were no speeches after that, no promises and no tears. The three of them simply moved through the condo gathering enough clothes and necessities to last while the renovations continued, each carrying a duffel bag through rooms that still felt unfamiliar, leaving again just as quietly as they'd arrived.

Not because they were abandoning their home. Quite the opposite. They were giving it the same grace they were trying to give themselves. Like the people who lived inside it, it still needed time to heal.

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Recoup
Olympia, Washington

The first thing Miles noticed when they stepped out of his Jeep Rubicon wasn't the house, it was the smell. Fresh pine carried on a cool breeze rolling off the lake, clean enough that it almost felt foreign after spending so much of the last several years surrounded by casinos, concrete and desert heat. Somewhere high above, an eagle circled lazily while the gentle rhythm of water lapping against the dock echoed across the quiet morning.

The house sat exactly where it always had, tucked back beneath towering evergreens with its wide porch overlooking the lake. Time seemed to move differently here, nothing was in a hurry and here nothing demanded attention.

This wasn't just another place to stay while contractors finished rebuilding the condo back in Las Vegas.

This was Carter's home that he inherited when his dad passed away. His dad had intended for it to be the home that he and his wife Joanna would raise Carter in, but it hadn’t happened. This was supposed to be a place where his father had taught him how to fish, where summers were supposed to be spent jumping off the dock until sunset and winters had meant fires in the stone fireplace that still stood proudly in the living room.

When Cillian passed, he left what could have been with his only son with the hopes that he would be smarter than he was about life. From the get, they attempted it. This was where Miles and Carter had stood in front of everyone they loved and promised each other forever. But for everything this house had witnessed since, it had never seen them arrive needing it quite like this.

The very next morning, Carter had everyone outside before breakfast had properly settled, "You can't come to this house sitting out by this beautiful lake," he declared while carrying an armful of life jackets toward the dock, "and not spend the day on the water."

Connor looked at the collection of tubes, skis and ropes piled beside the boat, "...I have a feeling I'm about to make several poor decisions."

Kevin grinned, "Oh, absolutely."

Miles climbed into the driver's seat, pushing his sunglasses up onto the bridge of his nose as he laughed, “You'll be fine."

Connor looked at him suspiciously, "That wasn't exactly reassuring."

"It wasn't meant to be."

Carter burst out laughing as he untied the boat from the dock, "I married the right man."

Connor's first attempt at tubing lasted approximately forty-five seconds. He held on surprisingly well until Kevin leaned forward from the back of the boat.

"Miles!"

Miles glanced over his shoulder, "Yeah?"

"I think he can handle more."

Connor's eyes widened, "No, I can't!"

Kevin ignored him, "A little faster!"

Connor immediately pointed toward Kevin, "He's lying!"

Miles looked at Carter, "...Which one am I listening to?"

Carter watched Connor bouncing across the wake while Kevin was practically vibrating with excitement, "The one that's laughing."

Miles looked back, "Oh..." A grin spread across his face, "...that's both of them."

He eased the throttle forward and Connor's scream echoed across the lake, "NOOOOOOO!"

The tube skipped once, twice and then caught the wake at exactly the wrong angle. Connor disappeared in a spectacular explosion of water.

Kevin doubled over laughing before Connor's head finally broke the surface, "You absolute—"

Connor sputtered through laughter, "YOU DID THAT ON PURPOSE!"

Miles circled the boat back around, "I have no idea what you're talking about."

"You accelerated!"

"I made a slight adjustment."

"A SLIGHT...." Connor couldn't even finish the sentence before he started laughing again. By the time they pulled him back into the boat, he was soaked from head to toe and grinning so hard his cheeks hurt, "I hate all of you."

Kevin immediately threw an arm around his shoulders, "See? You fit right in."

The afternoon somehow became even more competitive. Connor insisted on redeeming himself, Kevin insisted he could water ski better and then there was Carter, who decided to demonstrate "proper technique." He promptly wiped out in spectacular fashion. Carter surfaced a few seconds later, slicking his hair back dramatically before raising one finger into the air, "I meant to do that."

Miles laughed so hard he nearly steered the boat into the reeds, "I saw nothing."

"You absolutely saw it."

"I'll deny it under oath."

Kevin pulled his phone out, "I've got video."

Carter groaned, "And here I thought that we raised you better than this."

"You absolutely did." Kevin smiled, "That's why I filmed it."

It didn't take Carter very long to decide that revenge was in order. After lunch, everyone had wandered back down to the dock where the giant inflatable floated lazily beside it. Kevin had claimed the prime spot, stretched out on the edge closest to the water with his eyes closed, enjoying the sunshine without a care in the world.

Oh... this was going to end badly.

Connor spotted the look on Carter's face almost immediately and slowly backed away, "You know what? I think I'm gonna grab some water."

"Smart man," Miles chuckled as he reached for his phone.

Carter climbed onto the higher platform overlooking the dock while Kevin remained blissfully unaware.

"Babe," Carter called.

Miles held up his phone, "Rolling."

Kevin finally cracked one eye open, "...Why are you recording?"

That was all the warning he got as Carter jumped. The inflatable compressed beneath him like a giant spring, launching Kevin high into the air with a scream that would've made Goofy proud before he disappeared into the lake with an enormous splash.

A second later, Kevin surfaced sputtering, "WHAT THE HELL?!"

Connor was doubled over laughing, Carter was trying to pull himself back onto the dock through his own laughter, and Miles simply held up his phone with a grin.

"Oh yeah..." He looked at Carter, "I got the whole thing."

Kevin pointed at both of them, "I am surrounded by children."

Carter couldn't stop laughing, "And yet..." He pointed toward the lake, "...you're the one who went swimming."

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The sun had long since slipped behind the line of evergreens, leaving only a deep orange glow reflecting across the lake. The fire pit crackled softly in the backyard, sending tiny embers drifting lazily into the evening sky while the smell of burning cedar mixed with the cool night air.

Down at the dock, Kevin and Connor had disappeared into another world entirely. Every so often their laughter carried back across the water, followed by the unmistakable sound of somebody insisting they hadn't cheated despite overwhelming evidence to the contrary.

Miles sat alone in one of the Adirondack chairs, a blanket folded across his lap more out of habit than necessity. A mug of hot chocolate rested on the arm of the chair, forgotten as he watched the boys down by the lake.

He didn't notice Carter until he felt the familiar weight, without asking and without warning, he simply climbed into his lap sideways, one arm slipping around Miles' shoulders as naturally as breathing. He stole the blanket in the process, wrapping it around both of them before settling comfortably against his husband's chest.

Miles laughed quietly, "You know..." He adjusted the blanket around Carter's shoulders, "I had that first."

"I know."

"And yet somehow I don't anymore."

"I have absolutely no idea what you're talking about."

Miles snorted, "Liar."

"Proudly."

They sat together for a while without saying anything, simply watching Kevin and Connor silhouetted against the lake. Connor skipped a rock that bounced three times before sinking. Kevin immediately tried to beat it and failed spectacularly. Connor celebrated like he'd just won Olympic gold.

Miles smiled to himself, "They're good together."

Carter rested his head against Miles' shoulder, "They really are."

"They needed each other."

"Sounds oddly familiar."

Another comfortable silence settled between them as the fire cracked and somewhere out on the lake, a loon called into the fading light. That caused Connor to turn in surprise and yell out, “WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT??”

Carter finally spoke, "You've been quieter."

Miles didn't pretend not to understand, "I know."

"Want to tell me why?"

Miles watched Kevin shove Connor's shoulder just enough to knock him off balance on the dock, Connor retaliated immediately, "They're going swimming."

"Probably."

"They deserve it."

"They do."

Then Miles sighed, "For a while...I honestly felt like I'd failed."

Carter frowned, "Miles..."

"No." He shook his head gently, "It’s hard enough for me to admit it but please...Let me finish."

Carter nodded.

"I lost the championship." He shrugged, "I can live with that. Championships come and go. Hell, I've spent six years proving that."

His eyes drifted toward the lake.

"What I couldn't stop thinking about..." He swallowed, "...was the condo."

The words hung between them.

"I kept replaying everything. The package. The drive home where I must have broken 20 million laws....The broken door. You and Kevin."

He closed his eyes for a moment.

"I wasn't there. I keep telling myself there wasn't anything I could've done differently because I didn't know. I know that's the logical answer....I know it." He stared into the fire, "Logic doesn't matter much at three in the morning when all you can think about is that you weren't home."

Carter reached up and gently threaded his fingers through Miles'."You got there."

"I got there after."

"You got there."

Miles looked down, "I've always been the one who fixes things. I've always believed that if I worked hard enough... if I trained hard enough... if I stayed one step ahead...planned well enough..."

He laughed bitterly.

"...I'd always get there in time." His eyes remained fixed on the flames, "Turns out life doesn't care how prepared you are...I'd be able to protect the people I love."

His eyes remained fixed on the fire.

"And I couldn't."

Carter was quiet for several seconds before speaking, “You know what I saw? I saw my husband kick a front door off its hinges."

A tiny smile tugged at the corner of Miles' mouth.

"I saw him throw himself into a fight without thinking twice because his family was on the other side of that door. I saw him stop himself from becoming somebody he never wanted to be because two people he loves needed him more than they needed revenge." Carter squeezed his hand, "That doesn't sound like failure to me."

Miles looked back toward the dock, Kevin and Connor had abandoned skipping rocks altogether. Now they were simply sitting with their feet hanging over the edge, talking about something neither of them could hear.

"You know what this place reminded me of?"

Carter smiled, "What?"

Miles looked around at the house, the lake, the fire, then back toward the boys, "There's more worth fighting for than championships. I've spent so many years chasing titles because I thought they were the biggest thing I'd ever accomplish. I was wrong."

He nodded toward Kevin and Connor, "That."

Then toward the house behind them, "This."

Finally, he looked into Carter's eyes, "You. That's what matters. The championship..." He shrugged, "I'll fight like hell to win it back."

A smile slowly spread across his face.

"But if I never hold another title for the rest of my life..." His fingers intertwined with Carter's, "...and I still get to come home to this?"

He looked back toward the dock where Kevin's laughter once again echoed across the lake.

"I'll still be the luckiest man in the world."

Carter didn't answer immediately. Instead, he reached up, cupped Miles' cheek and kissed him softly. When they finally pulled apart, Carter rested his forehead against his husband's, "You know what I think?"

Miles smiled, "What?"

"I think..." He glanced toward the dock, "...you've spent six years fighting to become World Champion."

Then he looked back into Miles' eyes.

"And somewhere along the way..." A warm smile crossed his face, "...you accidentally became something even better."

Miles didn't ask what he meant, he already knew. Down by the dock, Kevin's laughter carried across the lake once more. Miles smiled because for the first time in a long time, he wasn't thinking about the championship he'd lost.

He was thinking about everything he'd found and he realized he hadn't actually lost as much as he'd been afraid he had.

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And Get Back What You Earned

The day had settled comfortably by the time Miles slipped away from the house. The laughter from the backyard still drifted through the open windows as Kevin and Connor continued whatever competition had somehow evolved from roasting marshmallows into seeing who could launch one the farthest into the darkness. Carter's unmistakable laugh carried after them, followed almost immediately by his mock outrage when one of the boys declared him the loser before the contest had even officially begun.

Miles smiled to himself as he stepped outside onto the gravel path that led toward the attached garage. He had always loved it here. There was something about this place that forced the world to slow down. It had been doing those things long before Miles Kasey had ever set foot here, and it would continue doing them long after he was gone.

The garage itself wasn't extravagant. It matched the house perfectly, painted the same warm earth tones with white trim that had weathered decades of Washington rain. Cillian had always believed garages were for protecting memories, not showing off possessions, and this one had been built with the same care as the house itself.

Miles reached into his pocket and retrieved the small ring of keys Carter had handed him earlier that afternoon. He slid the key into the lock and turned it. The mechanism clicked softly before he reached for the handle and slowly lifted the garage door. The familiar rattle of the tracks echoed through the quiet evening as the door climbed higher and higher until the overhead lights, triggered by the motion sensor inside, flickered once before bathing the garage in a warm yellow glow.

There she was. Even after all this time, the sight of her never failed to stop him. The fully restored 1969 Ford Mustang Mach 1 sat exactly where he remembered leaving it, angled slightly toward the door as though patiently waiting for the next drive. The deep Raven Black paint reflected the overhead lights like polished glass, interrupted only by the unmistakable matte-black hood treatment and the bold red Mach 1 striping that ran confidently along the sides. The chrome bumpers gleamed without a fingerprint on them, while the iconic shaker hood scoop sat proudly above the 428 Cobra Jet that had made the car legendary long before either Miles or Carter had been born.

She looked less like a car and more like a piece of history.

Miles stepped inside, allowing the garage door to settle shut behind him with a low mechanical hum. He walked slowly around the Mustang, his footsteps echoing faintly across the smooth concrete floor. His fingertips drifted across the front fender, barely making contact with the cool paint.

It was immaculate, not because it had spent years hidden away, but because someone had loved it enough to make sure it stayed that way.

Cillian had poured years of work into bringing the old Mustang back to life, refusing shortcuts, insisting that every original part that could be saved deserved to be saved. Carter had once joked that his father knew every bolt on the car by first name, and after seeing the finished product, Miles had believed him.

When Cillian passed away and the will had been read, Miles had been genuinely stunned to learn the Mustang hadn't been left to Carter. It had been left to him. He remembered trying to argue about it afterward, insisting that it should have belonged to Carter instead.

Carter had simply smiled, "Dad knew exactly what he was doing."

Miles had frowned, "Why me?"

Carter had looked toward the garage before answering, "Because he trusted you to take care of it."

At the time, Miles hadn't fully understood what that meant. Standing there now, alone in the garage with one hand resting against the smooth black paint, he thought maybe he finally did.

This had never been about owning a classic Mustang. It had been about responsibility and about being entrusted with something that mattered deeply to someone else and understanding that your job wasn't to possess it your job was to care for it.

Miles smiled quietly to himself before walking around to the driver's side, he opened the door. The unmistakable scent of aged leather and polished metal greeted him immediately, carrying with it decades of history preserved with almost obsessive care.

He lowered himself into the driver's seat. His hands settled naturally on the steering wheel. He simply sat there for a long moment, looking out through the windshield as memories drifted quietly through his mind. Only after several long minutes did his eyes finally lift toward the small camera that had been quietly recording from the workbench across the garage.

He drew in a slow breath, and a faint smile crossed his face.

"Raven..."

He let the name hang in the air for a moment, speaking it without bitterness and without disappointment. There was only respect.

"I think it's about time you and I had a conversation."

Miles rested both hands on the steering wheel, his thumbs absentmindedly tracing the worn stitching that Cillian had wrapped himself decades earlier. He could almost picture the older man sitting exactly where he was now, one arm draped over the open window, talking about carburetors or baseball or anything else that happened to cross his mind while the engine idled beneath the hood.

For a long moment, Miles simply looked through the windshield before finally speaking again.

"You know, I've heard every opinion there is about what happened on that cruise. Some people think I let the moment get away from me. Some people think you caught a lucky break. Some people think I should've seen it coming, and there are probably a few people out there who still believe you somehow had another trick hidden up your sleeve because, well, you're Alexander Raven and that's been your reputation for a very long time."

A faint smile crossed his face before he slowly shook his head.

"I don't believe any of those things."

He leaned back comfortably in the seat.

"I've watched that finish more times than I care to admit because that's what wrestlers do after they lose a championship. We don't just watch ourselves lose; we dissect it. We slow it down frame by frame until we can see every shift in our weight, every decision we made and every opportunity we either created or let slip away. We convince ourselves that if we watch it one more time, maybe we'll discover the one little thing that changes the outcome."

His eyes drifted toward the windshield again.

"I watched myself lock in the Asuka Lock. I watched myself take your breathing away. I watched myself roll you into the middle of that ring and pull you farther from the ropes because I knew exactly what I was doing. I had wrestled that match almost perfectly. And then you reminded me why your name has been synonymous with this company for as long as it has."

There wasn't an ounce of bitterness in his voice.

"You didn't panic. You didn't start throwing wild elbows hoping something landed. You didn't look at Jasmine St. John expecting her to save you. You stayed calm, planted your feet against the turnbuckle and trusted your instincts. In one split second, you used the momentum I thought was going to finish the match to roll everything back onto me."

Miles let out a quiet laugh, though there wasn't much humor in it.

"I remember lying there after the three count thinking, 'What the hell just happened?' Not because I thought you'd cheated me, and not because I thought the referee had missed something. I knew exactly what had happened."

"I got out-wrestled for half a heartbeat." He held his thumb and forefinger barely apart, "That was the difference. Not ten minutes. Not one move. Half a heartbeat."

"And here's the funny thing about this business, Raven. Half a heartbeat is all it ever takes. One hesitation, one instinct, one decision, and suddenly the man walking into the building as World Champion is walking back out carrying his gear instead 20 pounds lighter. And the hardest part about watching it back wasn't seeing where I lost. It was realizing that if our positions had been reversed... I'd have done exactly the same thing."

Miles looked down at his wedding band before absentmindedly turning it with his thumb.

"When I climbed to my feet and offered you my hand, I wasn't doing it because I was trying to prove I was a good sport. I wasn't doing it because I thought it would look nice for the cameras, either. I did it because you earned it."

"You earned that championship. You didn't steal it from me. You didn't manipulate your way into it. You didn't survive because I made some catastrophic mistake. You found one opening, one opportunity, and you had the experience to capitalize on it before I could stop you. That's what champions do. But here's where our stories start to separate."

Miles rested one hand on the dashboard, his fingers lightly tapping the worn vinyl.

"You spent the last several weeks talking about quieting your mind, about silencing the doubts that have followed you for years and proving to yourself that Alexander Raven still belonged at the top of this company. I listened to every word you said because I respect you enough to hear the man speaking instead of the character everybody thinks they know. And I believed you."

"I believe you've changed. I believe you meant every word when you said you wanted people to trust you again. I believe you when you say you're trying to become a better man than the one who stood across the ring from Carter all those months ago."

He spread his hands slightly.

"But believing you've changed doesn't mean I'm going to make the mistake of forgetting who you are when the bell rings."

Miles leaned forward, resting his forearms across the steering wheel.

"Because that's the part I think people misunderstand about respect. Respect isn't lowering your guard. Respect isn't assuming the man across the ring won't try to beat you because you've shaken hands or shared a conversation. Respect is looking at someone and saying, 'I know exactly how dangerous you are, and I'm preparing for the very best version of you.'”

"So when we meet again, I'm not preparing for the man who questioned retirement. I'm not preparing for the man who wanted redemption. I'm preparing for the Alexander Raven who found a way to beat me when almost nobody else could."

He gave a small nod.

"And that's exactly why I'm looking forward to seeing you again."

He rested his hand once more on the steering wheel of the Mustang.

"Because if there's one thing this car has reminded me of over the last few days, it's that the things worth having are never handed to you forever. They have to be cared for, respected and, sometimes earned all over again. You earned the World Heavyweight Championship."

"Now it's my turn to earn it back. The difference this time is that I'm not walking into that ring trying to prove that I belong, because somewhere between losing the championship, watching my family heal and spending these last few days in Olympia, I realized that question was answered a long time ago. I know exactly who I am now, Raven. I'm the man my husband comes home to, I'm the man Kevin trusts when life falls apart, and I'm the man Cillian believed would take care of something he loved long after he was gone. If I become World Heavyweight Champion again, it'll never be because I needed that championship to tell me who I was. It'll simply be because I earned the right and privilege to carry it once more."