[Kate Steele]

If I can be honest competing at Summer XXXtreme is something that should have put a huge smile on my face. After all it had been a while since I was a big time active member of the roster. It’s not often that a person walks into a match and has the chance of a lifetime. The opportunity to walk away with earning a shot to challenge for the one title that I have never held within SCW in the form of the World Bombshell Championship, it saddens me that I wasn’t able to win that big multi person double or nothing match. Not only did I fail in winning but out of everybody involved in that match I was the one who was pinned the most.

It sucks knowing that I felt short but what makes things even more hurtful is knowing that I failed and that other faux Phoenix is the one who has earned the right to compete for yet another World Championship match. That in itself isn’t gorgeous, it isn’t even beautiful. I am supposed to be God’s greatest creation and his gift to the bombshell division and by failing not only am I deprived from a dream that should have come true but now my adoring public has to be subjected to watching Andrea and Kayla fight for like the hundredth time.

What a bore fest, and there’s a piece of me that knows I could have done better. if I gave my all I wouldn’t be standing here having my doubts but now I am forced to be on the outside and don’t even know if I am even in the conversation of somebody looking in. If that wasn’t bad enough it sickens me knowing that Harper Mason actually managed to win the Roulette Championship and end the streak of Victoria Lyons and that is something that I had my mind set on.

So now here I am in the state of flux not knowing what’s going to come next while women like Bea Barnhart who have never amounted to anything and will never be anything get to be in the main event of Climax Control competing for a shot at a title that I know should be mine. What is there to fight for anymore?!

I have a lot to be disappointed about and the only person I can blame is me, I know I can sit here and cry about it but at the end of the day the only thing that I can afford to do is fight. I need to fight my way out of this situation and prove to the entire world that I am worthy of a roster spot. I deserve to be here and I am among one of the best women to have entered an SCW ring.

I know it may not seem clear and there are going to be my share of haters who won’t believe in the hype and think I am not worth it. Going back to last cycle there was a battle between management which was explained on one of the cards if Kate Steele should be here or not.

I know there is always going to be controversy that surrounds anything I do but if it means starting at the bottom and working my way up to the very top so be it. Rome wasn’t built in a night and the legend of Kate Steele isn’t going to be something that will be dictated by just having a bad couple of years. It has to be the bigger picture and right now I can see the dream on the horizon. I will be a champion in this company and I will turn heads when it comes to how people view me.

None of what I say even means a thing if I don’t apply an action to these words that are spewing from out of my month and that’s why I need to back them. I need to earn my keep. Failing hurts, being embarrassed makes me feel ashamed but at the end of the day it’s all part of the process.

The reason we fall is so that we could eventually pick ourselves back up, and being a Phoenix means s that I will eventually burn out. The flames are going to fan out until the point they become nothing ashes.

Just when all hope seems lost there will be something that rises up from out of those ashes. I will be reborn and I will fly higher than I have ever flown before. I feel that is where I am now in my career. I have been reignited and now it’s time to soar higher and to go to places that I haven’t been too before.

I really don’t know what the future holds for me but one thing I do know is I can’t afford to look back now. I entered this company 13 years ago when I was 21 year old brat who didn’t accomplish much. I was fresh from wrestling school and full of life.

It’s time to channel those things again. I know I have all of the tools and it’s time to showcase that I believe in me. Working hard to try to earn respect from the masses doesn’t mean a damn thing if I don’t respect or believe in me. That’s why I need to channel everything into this cycle. It’s time to put up and shut up, and only by doing that will I be in a place where I can be happy with how things are.

As far as now is concerned, it’s time to focus on the next thing that is in front of me. Summer XXXtreme is in my rearview and what’s in front of me is the road to Violent Conduct but more importantly getting into the ring with Frankie Holliday. Frankie is tough competition but I am not afraid. As great as she might be she isn’t me and it’s time for her to feel the heat of the Phoenix, and show her that she will get burned. Mark my words on that...

Ibiza, Spain
Booze Cruise



As if being humiliated on one cruise wasn’t enough I really can’t believe I let my family talk me into going on a booze cruise in Ibiza is something that wasn’t on my radar. I know I should be in a gym somewhere training as hard as I possibly could to prove to Frankie that I was the best woman in the ring, but somehow I felt like I NEEDED this. I just needed to relax and to just a day to get some sun and to get away from it all, all of the Gem Stones which consisted of my sister Sapphire, my cousin Ruby along with her wife Courtney Pierce along with Emerald had decided to join this cruise. Shots were poured out into various cups and it was just one big party fest upon the boat. I had a shot of Jameson in my hand and I didn’t even take a drink of it. Ruby on the other hand was completely wasted as she wobbled towards me.

Ruby: Katey-Kins why aren’t you drinking Luv?! You need to take a shot, take another shot, and another shot! We are in Ibiza and this is what being in Spain is all about…

I watched her take her eighth shot. I have no idea how she was standing up at this point. She covers her mouth as she looks at me and begins to cough loudly.

Ruby: I don’t think I feel well… I feel like I am going to…

And with that she immediately arches her body over the side of the boat and begins to puke into the water. I just shake my head as I watched Courtney Pierce walk over towards me. I smirk as the two of us make eye contact with one another. I look at my drink and just pour it overboard as I shake my head in disgust.

Kate: I don’t think I am really in the mood to drink. I just can’t knowing that things really didn’t go well for me on that cruise. I think you should go check on your wife I doubt she is going to have a great night after drinking so much.

Courtney: I know she won’t have a good night. It goes with the territory of drinking so much. I told her she needs to calm down a bit but you know how Prudence can be when she has her mind set on something. This is not out of the normal though.

Courtney takes a moment to look at her wife. She pats her back as a smile slowly emerges from out of her lips.

Courtney: She will be fine. As long as she stays arched over the side of the boat she isn’t in a position to hurt anybody. I will make sure she eats some bread and drinks plenty of water. My concern isn’t on Ruby though. What I want to know is how do you personally feel?! I know it’s tough to come back and to not get what you were working for.

After spending so much time in Jet City South together Courtney knew me like an open book. Not to mention being cousin in-laws who were more like sibling in-laws didn’t help either. I look into the eyes of the Jet City Sports Lab graduate as a sigh escapes my lips. I look out into the ocean as I deep a long deep breath.

Kate: If I can be honest I didn’t get what I was looking for. I feel like I have been at this for so many years and none of what I do is paying off. How much do I have to put in until I finally can get what I want?! I have been wrestling in SCW for 13 years and the only thing I have to show for it is two World Championships where I my efforts just weren’t enough. Meanwhile there are those who can come right in and have an immediate impact. I wish I could feel better. I wish I could be in a position where I could drink my life away.

I turn my attention to Ruby who is puking her guts out. I look across the boat and see my sister Sapphire and Emerald enjoying their drinks and dancing to some music. They all look like they don’t have a care in the world. I just stand there and shrug my shoulders as I glance deeper into the eyes of Courtney.

Kate: Everybody just looks like they are having such a great time. I don’t feel the way that they do though Courtney. There should be a reason to party but the only thing I have ever managed to do was be a big failure. If I couldn’t celebrate on the cruise why should I celebrate out here?! I don’t give a damn if this is supposed to be one of the biggest party tours that SCW has ever had. I don’t feel it because I have nothing to celebrate.

Courtney: And if you keep feeling that way you will always keep making excuses. I think you should stop being so hard on yourself. The more you punish yourself is the more that you won’t end up accomplishing anything and you are going to miss out on the more important things of life. I have been exactly where you were. I remember winning the Blast from the Past and immediately hurting myself and not being given my World title shot. Not getting my shot hunted me for a long time. Eventually when I did come back it’s like I didn’t miss a step. I went on to win the World Championship and followed it up by winning the Internet Championship.

Kate: That’s you though. You had a sense to complete on what you missed out on. I don’t think I have that ability in me. Even if I wished to pour everything into trying to accomplish that I doubt I would ever be in a position to do something like that.

Courtney just looks at me as she shakes her head in disgust. She walks closer to me as she gazes right into my eyes and tries her best to reach out to me.

Courtney: For starters you shouldn’t speak of the things that you don’t think you can. Instead keep up a positive attitude and you need to at least portray like you are the best woman in the room. What was the purpose of doing all of these things to change who you are?! I respect you getting surgery to change your looks, and you even got the implants and everything to go with it. If it makes you feel beautiful cool but you need to start changing things beneath the surface. Only by doing that will you get what you are really after…

Kate: And what is it that I am after?!

Courtney: Come on, you should know the answer to that question Kate. Even if you don’t it should be something you are looking to get answered or at least know a direction that you wish to go in.

Kate: I know what I want to do but I doubt everybody is going to be as enthusiastic about it like I am. One day I will be a World Champion. I will be a Grand Slam Champion and I will be in the Hall of Fame. I can change my appearance as much as I want but I until I accomplish that I will still be the same little girl on the inside.

Courtney:  Well the only advice I can give to you is don’t become your own worst enemy. If you get down on yourself then you don’t have a right to assume that everybody else is going to believe in you. For now just live in the moment and enjoy what’s in front of you. Let’s just party it up!

She looks at me before checking over on her wife again. I roll my eyes as Ruby slowly brings herself up from her hunched over position, the music starting to get louder as people started to dance all across the boat. It was a bunch of women in bikinis dancing, drinking, and even some were grinding against each other. I just laugh before I watch others popping some special pills as the song I took a pill in Ibiza started to play loudly. A random woman walks over to me offering me a pill but I just shake my head as I watch Ruby cross her arms at me.

Ruby: Kate why are you being such a big baby. We are rock stars and this is all about having fun! Sing it Kate! KATE SHOULD TAKE A PILL IN IBIZA!!! SHE’S JUST A SINGER WHO ALREADY BLEW HER SHOT!

Kate: Courtney I think you need to get your girl, she’s acting really ridiculous. Had she put in the same effort that she does into wrestling as she does partying she would have been a multiple time champion by now.

Ruby: Funny coming from a woman who hasn’t managed to win a Blast From The Past like I have. I mean at least I can say I made it all the way and been in a real chance to accomplish what I set out to do. Can you say the same though?!

I look at Ruby as her comments get the best of me. I quickly walk past all of the dancing lunatics as I make my way indoors. I find myself in the rest room and it is there where I take a long glance and stare at my reflection in the mirror, no matter how much I had changed my appearance, and behind all of the plastic surgery that I had gotten. I didn’t see any of that. All I saw was the same little 21 year old that had walked through the doors of SCW all of those years ago. I closed my eyes and opened up hoping that all of it would have gone away. I didn’t want to see my past in front of me but at the same time maybe I needed to confront my past in order to have a better present and future. As soon as I opened my eyes that is when I saw my reflection again. This time that younger version of me offered a grin

Kate: What the hell is going on?! I wasn’t even drinking. This just doesn’t seem right.

Diamond: And why doesn’t it?! Sometimes the truth hurts about things and you really need to face it. I want to give you two options Kate. You can either take the blue door or take the red door.

I don’t know why but the rest room door had changed colors in front of me. It’s as if I was seeing two doors with two different handles.

Diamond: You are free to leave but if you want to continuing dealing with the harsh reality of life and always second guessing yourself take the red door, but if you want to feel good. If you wish to feel what the other gem stones are feeling. Take the blue door once you take that door you will feel…

I can’t believe that my own reflection is talking to me. I don’t know what is happening on this cruise but it didn’t matter if my mind was playing tricks on me. I quickly reached for the blue door, and I found myself back at the boat party. Women were dancing and I starting to dance as well. I stood on top of a table and let loose.

Ruby: About time Kate! Your moves are totally OUTRAGEOUS! I can’t believe I had to put something in her drink to get her loose!

Kate: Who wants to dance with me?!

I couldn’t stop dancing. The party was amazing, the boat was amazing, it felt great to be in Ibiza and I didn’t want this moment to ever end.

Ibiza Spain guess what, I am officially in you and the road to getting back on top seems like it’s going to start in this very city. As the most gorgeous woman in all of wrestling it’s going to be amazing to be in the most famous club in all of world and you know it’s going to be one huge party. You want to know why it’s going to be a party?! It has nothing do with the party tour but it’s more along the lines that the world is going to have the privilege of watching me compete inside of the ring. I know I can climb back to the top and I will prove myself worthy of being at the forefront of a division. However in order to get to where I want to be I have to go through a woman who has been on an absolute tear and beating the rest of the division in the form of Frankie Holliday.

Frankie Holliday is a woman that has been on absolute fire since she came to the company. It’s crazy that this woman entered into this company being a complete rookie without having that much experience. It’s insane that she managed to go the distance and she won the Blast from the Past to begin with.  As a matter of fact when you look at the path that she took to get to where she is now people have to respect her for what she has accomplished.

She makes her debut overcoming Melissa who is a former champion and Lilith who is now currently the Internet Champion. That in itself is deserving of respect. She has a big win over Julianna and that speaks for itself. She beat a former World and Internet Champion very early into her career. To be honest after beating her I don’t think I even saw her around anymore. That in itself is crazy.

What makes things even better is she made the final declaration on her Blast from the Past statement by overcoming one of the best women to have ever stepped inside in the ring in Mikah and overcoming a legend in Laura. That’s just amazing. I give you credit because you beat some big names you had a hell of a journey to get to the top of the food chain.

You even followed up the momentum of taking the fight to Zdunich and Caldwell but what I find more impressive than that is that you exposed Victoria and beat her ass. You have nothing to be ashamed of. You are just a few matches in and you did the unthinkable. You had the entire world watching you when you were on that boat. You put up a hell of an effort. You went the distance with Kayla. You had the opportunity to become one of the quickest rising World Champions that this company has ever seen but when it came down to it when the world was watching you just didn’t get the job done.

I mean should people show you respect because it took three Dream Killers just to put you down?! Nobody gives a shit about any of that. Nobody is going to sit there and say great job kid. At the end of the day the only thing that people are going to remember is that you walked away a loser and just didn’t get the job done, and now you have to go back to the bottom of the barrel and will be looking for a way to claw your way back up to the top.

It irritates me to no end. I find it highly annoying and it’s because I know I have all of the tools in the world to be THE woman in this company. If I finally get that long awaited title opportunity I know I will be a woman who accomplishes her dream and I will get everything that comes along with it. I am tired of being stuck in the realm of mediocrity and I am tired of upstart rookies coming into SCW and immediately spring boarding to the top with a bullshit Blast of the Past win and not being heard from afterwards.

It happened with Brittany Williams, she won the tournament and didn’t get the job done, and faded into nothing probably busy somewhere riding her mother’s coattails.

It happened with my own cousin Ruby Steele. I was part of the school who taught her how to wrestle. She learned her craft and made it to the big dance but she didn’t capitalize on that moment and would rather have her head far up Courtney Pierce’s ass instead of bettering herself.

Devona may not have been a rookie when she won the tournament but she won and that was it.

Meanwhile a woman like me wants that moment more than anybody could realize. I am willing to do anything to have my moment and I am willing to pull out all of the stops to force my moment.

I know you have a lot to look forward to in your career. You are only a few matches into what seems to be a promising future but I am tired of sitting on the backburner and watching women like you squander opportunities away while women like me have to ride on the bench waiting for people like you to get out of the way.

I can tell you one thing though Frankie. I do believe you will eventually become a champion, hell I will even say a world champion at some point. I mean you were that close. As great as all of that sounds it definitely won’t be happening at my expense because I want this more than you do. I have been at this for a very long time and I am at the point where I want more. I want to be move up the card and I want to get my damn shot.

Losing is not an answer and if this company doesn’t wish to put me in the situations that I want to be in than I am going to force my way into the things that I want. I will be sick to my stomach if I have to sit there and watch Kayla and Andrea fight yet again meanwhile I know it should have been me in that big match spot. That’s why it is essential that I get past you so that I can get my shot and keep my name in the conversation of rewarding me with something bigger, something bigger such as having a huge Super Card match in which all the cards could be at the table.

Frankie you don’t know what it is like to be me. You don’t know what it feels like to watch women like Courtney and Ruby come in like hot shot rookies win a Blast from the Past and me just standing around in the same old place. I need to have a break through moment and right now beating you is my way to get into the realm of wanting more. I have been at this for far too long. I feel tired and it’s time that something good comes in my direction.

In my younger days I too had all the ability in the world to beat the best that this company has ever had. I beaten Mikah, I denied Roxi Johnson from winning the Roulette Championship from me. I have set records, broke records. I am tired of getting so close but ending up so far. That is why everything needs to change right now.

As great as you are Frankie you don’t have what it takes to beat me. I want this win far too much to just piss it all away. Some are looking at this Party Tour as a way to have fun and just enjoy these special cities but for me it’s about recovery and it’s about realigning and putting the pieces back to where they need to go.

I am already the most gorgeous bombshell on the entire roster but I would like much more than that. I want to propel myself upwards and I am at the point where I won’t be stopped. I can’t be stopped. It’s all or nothing and at Climax Control I am going to leave it all within that ring. Best of luck Frankie because you certainly will need it.

SCW keep your eyes on the prize because this Phoenix will rise from the ashes and she will find her way to the top.