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Andrea Henandez V Evie Jordan
« on: May 23, 2020, 11:33:41 PM »
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Andrea Henandez V Evie Jordan
« Reply #1 on: May 30, 2020, 09:40:33 PM »
 Failure; a lack of success. A defeat. A loss. A fork in the road on one’s journey to victory, triumph. A setback. The beginning of the end. Dramatic isn’t it? Evie wasn’t one for hysterics, she knew facing Alicia Lukas two weeks before facing Andrea for the Sin City Wrestling World Bombshell Championship was going to be tough. She knew facing Alicia Lukas, on her journey for payback on Bobbie was going to be testing and when the dust settled and the match was counted, Alicia Lukas walked away with the victory. It wasn’t the loss to Alicia that had Evie crawling in her skin, it was the fact she knew Andrea would be chomping at the bit, salivating at the chance to rub salt into the gaping wound. Evie knew that current Sin City Wrestling World Bombshell Champion would be hula hooping with excitement knowing that Evie now had a massive dark cloud storming above her head.
 
And boy was it pouring…
 
The undefeated streak of 2020 for Evie Luna Jordan was over, which was tragic. I mean what a way for history to repeat itself for the young Australian. Although after all, last week might have been the week from hell for Evie as the Devil tried to test her. It’s just such a damn shame he had forgotten who forged the walls of his home, just so she could call it her own private wonderland. So, Andrea before you beat your chest claiming dominance, it would be wise to check the stats… losing to Alicia Lukas doesn’t mean much when it comes to facing you, because let’s be honest Alicia could easily say she has been there and done the same to you.
 
Grey skies are going to clear up and between you and me Andrea, a focused Evie is a dangerous Evie and nothing and I mean NOTHING puts Evie’s motivation back on track like an untimely loss. The fight for your Sin City Wrestling World Bombshell Championship isn’t over… this isn’t a count out and believe me, when I say this… when Evie gets knocked down, she comes back swinging. You see the Devil doesn’t keep her down for long, because even he can’t stand her.
 
Losing to Alicia was half the battle before Evie had to step foot inside the ring and face you at Into the Void, it was a wakeup call she desperately needed. Her loss to Alicia was a timely souvenir to remind herself that nothing worth having comes easy in this game and nothing worth having comes free. Evie learnt her lesson last Sunday night, that nothing is a shoo in, nothing is guaranteed, nothing is easy… if you want to be at the top you need to work for it. You need to be ready, willing, and able to go to war and lucky for Evie on the world stage of history, it’s a kind reminder in itself that…
 
“You may have to fight a battle more than once to win it” – Some bird called Margaret Thatcher.
 
So, Andrea as you watch down over Evie from your ivory tower, living in your fairy-tale moment thinking that life is going to be easy breezy for you at Into the Void…  let me remind you just who you’re going toe to toe with at Into the Void IX. A former Sin City Wrestling Tag Team Champion, a former Sin City Wrestling Bombshell Roulette Champion, A former Future Star of the Year Winner 2016, A Future Woman of the Year Winner 2017… a former Sin City Wrestling Bombshell Champion… the first EVER student of the GO Gym… the first EVER three time finalist of the Blast from the Past Tournament… the first EVER two time winner and if you’re ready to disregard all of that and throw that all away because of one loss to Alicia Lukas… THE Alicia Lukas… than God obviously didn’t give you your eyes for looking.
 
It would be too easy to see her loss as a weakness, but if you really had the chance you’d look into it and see the loss for what it is… a reality check, a much needed reality check.
 
Andrea your journey at Into the Void IX won’t be easy, so maybe, just maybe you give your mouth a rest from running and maybe, just maybe, you need to start looking at a smart and strategic game plan. As the Evie you will be facing at Into the Void IX won’t be coming in with old wounds, she won’t be nursing a bruised ego, she won’t be harboring the pain of defeat, she’ll be wielding it and trust me… you’ll be needing a shield wall to strengthen your defenses. The hunter in Evie can smell blood and even though it’s her own, it won’t weaken her, it won’t discourage her and it sure as hell won’t blind her from what she needs to do.
 
And, what Evie needs to do… is simply beat you, Andrea.
 
At Into the Void IX, the wrestling world will witness the battle between the reigning and defending Sin City Wrestling World Bombshell Champion Andrea Hernandez and the Tournament Winning Evie Jordan lock horns. The match itself has already been gifted the highly fought after main event time slot, meaning all the girls had left to do was tear down the walls and end the daily event, deep in the hours of the night with an appropriate send off. Only time would tell who would crumple, only time would show who in fact would be crowned the Sin City Wrestling World Bombshell Champion… at the end of the night there would be success and crippling failure and well...
 
All good things must come to an end…
 
And bad luck doesn’t last forever.
 
Into the Void IX will forever mark a new chapter for either Evie or Andrea and the only thing that was keeping it from being told was time… the countdown was now on, the sand running through the hour glass, the clock striking midnight if you will and ‪in two weeks‬’ time only one of them would be living the dream, while the other nursed cold hard facts of reality.
 
Success doesn’t come cheap, but failure is far from priceless.
 
But for right now, Evie had a whole other world of hurt conquering her and for the Aussie to get her head fully into the game that is Into the Void IX she had to face some demons back home. If there was any way she was going to have her mind on the night of nights heading into, Into the Void she was going to have to address another loss… this one more haunting, this one more personal.
 
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Now would be a wonderful time for you to skip over to Ben Jordan’s promotional video for the week or otherwise you’re going to be mighty confused and wonder how on earth Evie managed to teleport from Vegas to Bar Harbor? Spoiler alert, the Jordan’s own a Jet. All caught up? Great now let’s goooo.
 
Evie hadn’t had the chance to tell Ben that she was grateful for him pulling some strings and being able to get her home. She needed to get away from the Saxon Hotel, she needed to be away from her wrestling “family” away from the chaos… she needed to be centered, she needed time to heal and the only place that made sense to the both of them right now was Bar Harbor. As soon as the wheels hit the tarmac, Evie was up on her feet, her overnight bag packed and slung over her shoulder as she stormed towards the door. She was anxious and waiting for the ground crew to come around and give the flight crew the all clear to disembark felt like eternity. Evie could hear Ben fumbling around gathering his things behind her, as Bear stood by her side eager for the plane door to peel open so they could touch the soles of their feet back on solid ground.
 
The doors peeled back and soon enough the cool crisp air that felt like home greeted Evie like a blissful slap to the face. Evie didn’t turn around to check on Ben, she knew he would be right behind her. He wasn’t stupid he knew his wife’s thoughts weren’t on him right now as all she wanted to do was get home and every second that ticked past, was enough to count her down. As if she was a block of C4, her emotions were a time bomb just ticking away out of her control.
 
Ben had overtaken her as they moved across the tarmac with speed, his mission was to make sure Evie wasn’t the one driving. Ben knew the 45 minutes would feel like a lifetime for her, but he needed to make sure they both got home in time safely or this whole mission would have been for nothing. As Evie was going to fire up and snatch the keys from his hand, Ben unlocked the car and pounced into the driver’s seat. In happier time he would have poked his tongue of out her, even as he struggled to throw his bag over into the back seat of their Mercedes. Bear waited for Evie to open the door before he jumped in, she made sure he was clicked into his harness as the last thing she wanted was for Bear to be injured in a car accident, even if her husband was only pushing 10 miles under every speed limit through the streets of Bar Harbor.
 
The next 45 minutes of her life felt like eternally, every pothole Ben encountered felt like a crater, every speed bump felt like a mountain, everything was irritating her. All Evie wanted to do was get home, she needed to be home and every red light had her staring down the reality that she wasn’t going to make it home in time to see her precious pet snake. Kitten, this was all for Kitten and Evie couldn’t keep her mind from ticking over about her wellbeing. Even if Evie were directing her sighs of impatience towards her husband’s driving, she couldn’t hide the fact who she was really mad at. It was herself. Evie had travelled the world with Kitten and the first time in a long time she had left her in the competent hands of her best friend and now the Devil was trying to test her. The world was showing her that she wasn’t capable of being a mother and once again Mother Nature was here to prove it.
 
It must have sounded ridiculous that they would abscond lockdown, jet across the country, put their massive title matches on the line at Into the Void IX for a snake, but the frankness of the situation was Kitten wasn’t just a danger noodle of scales and poison. She was family and there wasn’t anything on God’s green earth that would have stopped Evie from making her way back to her. The thoughts of prison breaking the Hotel ran rampant through her mind, yet she was lucky enough to have a Husband like Ben who was willing to risk it all just to keep her happy. Right now, her “daughter” needed her and for a woman who couldn’t give birth her own children, she really had replaced her loss for human children with her two animal children. You could say what you liked about Evie hightailing it across the country after a loss at Climax Control, but it simply wouldn’t be wise… right now she was aching, right now she was blaming herself and right now she was teetering, walking a fine line between sanity and insanity. Loss was something Evie was all too familiar with, Ben knew that since day one but even he couldn’t remember a time where he looked over and saw her in this light.
 
Evie was pale, her long black brown hair stuck to her skin in a fuzzy mess as she refused to brush it after washing it. She wasn’t dressed the same, she normally held herself in such a high regard when it came to wearing appropriate and fancy expensive clothes especially whilst she was at work. However, backstage at SCU show Evie had pulled together a less than flattering look of a pair of blue ripped jeans, and one of Ben’s Red Dead Redemption T-shirts. She didn’t even try and cute it up, she just let it hang off her body like she was a rail thin model, or in her words a walking coat hanger. Ben noticed that his wife’s eyes were glassy as she looked outside the passenger side window, praying this trip would hurry up and fortunately for her they were just seconds off from turning into their driveway. Little lights lit up along their long driveway, as the lights inside their house started to illuminate the closer the car rolled towards the garage. Evie had them installed on the property after Ben made the purchase, she didn’t spend a lifetime in the crime industry to have her own home broken into. Every inch of their land was covered by either a camera or a motion detector. There was no way someone with enemies like hers, would Evie allow her family to be sitting ducks in a time or revenge.
 
The wheels had barely come to a halt, before Ben could say anything to his wife, he watched her unclip her seatbelt, open the door, and she was gone. Racing towards their front door as she fumbled with her keys that were in her right hand. Evie usually loved listening to her feet move across the crushed rocks that lead up towards their front door, but she didn’t have time to feel home sick, she didn’t have time to let this glorious moment of coming home after months away sink in. Right now, she was needed elsewhere and the fact she was rummaging around with her keys was driving her insane. Her pure white teeth gnashed together as she bit back a scream, she just wanted to be inside and as she finally put her key into the lock and turned it, she almost fell into the entranceway as her speed forced her into her house as quickly as she could. She disregarded the no shoes on the pristine wooden floorboards as she left her keys hanging in the lock on the front door. All regard for safety was thrown into the wind, as Evie was fighting with time and right now, she knew she didn’t have a lot more left to waste.
 
As she stormed her way through her house. Her heart was pounding in her chest as she blazed her way through the living room, the formal dining room before she rushed down a small flight of steps to hit the lower level of their house. It wasn’t a two-story home, but it had step ups and step downs to create the allure of molding into the forestry that surrounded their house. It was a marvel by day and even more breathtaking at night but Evie didn’t have time to admire her home that she had missed, she didn’t have time to take in the peace and quiet because the only noise she could hear was her heart beating in her chest and yet she felt the thuds radiate through her body as if it was taunting her. It was as if a whole ensemble of drums were being played as she pushed opened Kitten’s “bedroom” doors.
 
The light flicked on above her head by a sensor, but it didn’t matter Evie could look across the room in the pitch black of the wee hours of the morning and see the soft glow coming from Kitten’s enclosure. Her green eyes searched the tank as she made her way closer towards it, her hands instantly reaching up as if by instinct alone, she unhinged the glass door not wanting to waste a single moment with her daughter, not wanting her to leave this world without her in her arms. Evie flicked the door open, her hands reaching in as she scooped up her prized possession, she brought Kitten up to her face. She could feel the shallowness of her breaths, she could see the discoloration of her scales, she had lost her beautiful shine, her pristine glow, and her normally piercingly black eyes were cloudy as small bubbles of foam gathered around her mouth that burst as soon as the air touched them.
 
It wasn’t uncommon for snakes to get sick, but Evie couldn’t wrap her head around what had happened? Even though she wasn’t home everything to do with her house she was able to see on her phone. Evie could control the weather in Kitten’s enclosure, she could change the season with a simple click of a button. She could run more water into her drinking bowl, she could top up the small pool that Kitten enjoyed to sit in from time to time to bathe. Evie could release small pebble sized frozen meat chunks into the giant amazon style forest set up to top up Kitten’s food intake. All Calista had to do a few times a week was remove Kitten from the enclosure and reward her with some real time in the sun, while the state of the art tank self-cleaned removing all the snake gunk that would build up from time to time. The only thing she could think of was Kitten’s live diet, well that was the only explanation the Vet had given Calista when he came out for a house call. It wasn’t uncommon for live rats to be baited just before sale and without the pet owner’s knowledge they were fed to reptiles, who in turn would digest the poison leading to sickness and sometimes even death. Evie had heard stories from other states of dodgy Vets who supplied live baited food to clients who had reptiles and when things started to go pear shape, who would the clients take their lizards and snakes to for treatment? The Vets. It was a convenient little money cycle, but Evie couldn’t wrap her head around it since living in Maine they had purchased Kitten’s food through a reputable reptile pet shop and the thought of her daughter being poisoned in a dangerous game of cat and mouse had her blood boiling. Either way, it would be something Evie would investigate at a later date, but right now her attention shifted back down to her beautiful jet-black python.
 
Kitten coiled at the touch of Evie’s hands as she gathered as much of her strength, she had left to wrap herself around Evie’s right arm. It was her second favourite place to call home on Evie’s body the first was around her neck and shoulders but she couldn’t mustered the strength to slither up her arm and nestle into her neck, loving the warmth that it gave her. Evie looked down at Kitten, tears already falling from her eyes as she looked down at her helpless. Evie truly believed that she could feel Kitten’s heartbeat at times, when she wrapped herself around her, when they were both still enough, she felt every scale twitch as the nerves inside her body reacted to the sensations around her. Kitten’s scales were extremely sensitive to being touched, that’s why she only responded well with certain people, when being handled. Walking away from Kitten’s enclosure Evie made her way over towards a large brown armchair that she often sat in to read or watch Kitten play, eat, climb, hell even sleep for hours when she was at home.
 
The light beside the chair flickered a little before it came to life, lighting up Kitten’s body that was loosely wrapped around Evie’s right arm. Reaching across Evie stroked her, running her hands along the back of her head towards her tail, running her strokes in the same direction of her scale growth. The last thing she wanted was for her to feel like someone was pulling back on her scales, Evie knew that must have felt as if someone was trying her pull her scales back as she had read somewhere that if you pet your snake the wrong way it felt as if you were bending your own fingernails back. She knew that horror all too well, so to comfort her daughter she made sure she lifted her hand up before returning to the back of her head to stroke her fingertips down her spine once more, repeating the motion over and over again to soothe her.  
 
“My baby.” Evie whispered towards her. “This is all my fault.”  Her voice trembled.
 
Evie could feel her bottom lip quivering as she looked down at her pet snake, her eyes refusing to blink not wanting to miss another moment with her. Of course, she blamed herself, she wasn’t home to take care of her and now after months of going without each other, here she was just shy of being a beautiful black sphere of scales in lifeless ball, melting around her arm.
 
“I’m so sorry.” Evie’s voice squeaked, pain laced deep within her tone.
 
Her eyes tingled as they burned from the feeling of tears welling at the bottom of her eyes. Evie’s throat was dry, so dry she could barely swallow as the pits of her stomach begged for moisture. Her usually steady hands shivered as her body wrestled with an overhaul of emotions. Anger, misery, emptiness all playing their part as her body and mind refused to work as one, in this time of comfort for Kitten all Evie wanted to do was be there for her, but in her blind rage all she craved was to run rivers red with revenge. She blamed Ben for bringing her back to Sin City Wrestling, she blamed Calista who was meant to be looking after her, she blamed the man that provided her live bait, she blamed the idiotic man that ate a bat but more importantly, she blamed herself.
 
It wasn’t Ben’s fault, it wasn’t Calista’s fault, but it was her fault, the blame was solely on Evie. She had neglected her, after all their years together Evie had never left Kitten behind, she had flown her all around the world, from Australia to Russia, France to Cuba, the United Kingdom to the United States. Wherever they travelled as a family they travelled together and the one time she hadn’t taken Kitten along for the ride, is the one time that would turn out to be the final time. The absurd motion of Kitten dying from a broken heart played with Evie’s mind and she couldn’t help but play into it. She gave into that theory and the more it frolicked with her senses the more she started to believe it. As Evie started to rock back and forth in the ultra-modern rocking chair, she let her mind drift back to the first time she had laid eyes on Kitten.
 
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All of a sudden it was the summer of 2010, five years before Evie and Ben had crossed paths. Evie was dressed head to toe in black, in the middle of a blazing hot summer’s night. It didn’t matter though she had a job to do and if one thing was for sure this mission required her to get in and out quickly. Evie was standing outside a large white mansion, that sat proudly on top of a grassy hill, the place was lit up like a Christmas tree as guest’s cars littered the winding driveways and inside a party was alive and booming. The task was simple, sneak into the party, open the vault and leave with everything that was inside. The treasure that had been promised to Evie and her team, was worth millions. Cash, diamonds, gold bars, fake passports, and a haul of rare emeralds that had just been plucked from the earth’s soil in Colombia. Three pristine stones with street value of three million pounds a carat. Evie didn’t envy the rich and famous, after all without the cats there would be no cream and Evie made a living off the cream thanks to the ridiculously wealthy men and women in this world. It was going to be an awful night for Mr. Kevin Saunders, CEO of phony kickstart company, who laundered money for his other occupation, international drug dealer. However, for Evie it’s was going to be a moment a greatness, a night she would never forget because when she pulled this job off, this would go down in history for one of her teams, largest hits.
 
“Alright, Polly.” Evie whispered into her earpiece. “I’m in position.”
 
Polly of course was the code name for her best friend, who was a mile away locked in a black van away from the hustle and bustle of being in the field. However some may argue that Calista’s job was the hardest and scariest of them all as she was their overwatch, who looked down from a far but continued to keep a watchful eye over Evie when she was playing cat woman in the middle of the night.
 
“Green.” Calista whispered back. “Code green, on your way Kitten.” She chuckled.
 
Evie screwed up her nose at the random names Calista used to call her over the coms, but she didn’t have time to argue it right now she was in the middle of a job. Like a shadow in the night Evie moved across the lit up front yard of the white mansion, without being detected before she slipped her way around the back of the house. Every move she made was being watched by Calista as a small drone buzzed over her and her highly intelligent best friend had managed to hack into poor Mr. Saunders security system, making breaking in almost too much of a breeze.
 
As Evie slipped into the house, via picking the lock on a small basement door and she was finally at work. She didn’t waste her time as she wiggled her way into the one of the air vents of the house that controlled the air-conditioning and like clockwork, she made snaking her way through the tight vents look easy. It didn’t take the young Australian long to navigate the worm like tunnels around the home that were housed behind the walls. Evie could hear the music thumping through the metal vents, the piercing sound tearing at her ear drums but she couldn’t let the pain stop her, she couldn’t let the feeling of burst ear drums ruin her team’s hard work that had taken her team months to put this plan together.
 
“There should be a drop coming up on your left” Calista whispered. “That’s the path down to his underground cellar… you need to drop down and at the bottom there will be a hatch… its password guarded but I’ve got you.” She spoke calmly. “You need to be quiet.” She reminded Evie.
 
Evie just rolled her eyes she hated being told things like she was a little girl. She had been training for job like this basically since birth. Evie snaked down the vent and found the drop, she followed Calista’s instructions and quickly and quietly slipped down the drop, using her hands and feet to stop her from falling with a massive thud. Evie knew this part of the house would be protective by world class motion detectors and the last thing she needed to do was set off all of the alarms and alert Mr. Saunders of her arrival. As soon as Evie reached the bottom of the vent the bottom popped opened and without warning she was dangling, holding on for dear life waiting for Calista to do her job.
 
“Kill the senses Polly.” Evie ordered.
 
“Hold your horses.” She bit back as she based away at her keyboard. “Alright, they are killed but we have five minutes to get into the safe and be out of the safe… before the backup alarm alerts.” Calista advised.
 
“Five minutes?” Evie questioned. “You said I would have ten?” she was angry, from the extra stress put on this situation. 
 
“Well things change, so you know… quick like a bunny.” Calista urged her on.  
 
Evie dropped down the floor, moving across the marble tiles with ease as she rushed over towards the safe making sure she didn’t knock over any of the expensive statues that littered the room almost like they were obstacles she had to weave through to get to the prize at the end. Reaching the safe, Evie reached up and made light work with the dial and she spun it round and round, her ear pressed up against the door listening for the bolts to click into the place once she had hit the correct number. As soon as she cracked the safe her attention was shifted from the voice inside her ear.
 
“Four minutes, Kitten... make it work.” Calista guided her.
 
Evie just rolled her eyes, as she pushed open the heavy door, opening the safe to show off a wonderland filled with priceless jewels, cash, gold everything the glimmered and shined. She didn’t waste a single second as she opened up her backpack sweeping all she could into her bag. She made sure get got the emeralds, followed by the diamonds, followed by the gold bars and a much cash as her duffel bag could carry.
 
“Three minutes.” Calista barked down her ear.
 
That’s when her eyes laid on her for the first time. In the back of the safe there was a small jam jar and inside was black python shoved inside with only a pin hole in the lid, allowing her to gasp for air as it was well positioned under the air vent in the safe that kept the air circulating keeping the stacks of money in crisp condition.
 
“Two minutes, Kit you need to hurry up.” Calista reminded Evie.
 
Evie was looking at the snake, who in return was looking at her. She couldn’t understand why someone would treat a living creature this way. The Aussie sighed as she went to close the safe and get out of there before the sounds of the alarms rained down on her parade, but as she moved the heavy door, a light shown into the safe highlighting the jar. She couldn’t help herself, the thought of closing the safe back up and leaving the snake crushed up, unable to move in a jar, didn’t sit well with Evie. Starved of a second thought Evie reached into the safe, grabbing for the bottle frantically before she rushed to close the safe door in time and make her way across the room.
 
“One minute, GET OUT OF THERE KITTEN” Calista screamed. “I won’t be able to help you if his second wave of defense kicks in. HURRY.” She demanded.
 
There was no way on God’s little green earth was Evie going to get caught doing her job, she had gotten away with murder before a break in like this should have been a piece of cake. She pushed her way across the room, making her way back to the vent, one handed she reached up and tried to pull herself up into the vent but she couldn’t carry her weight plus the weight of her backpack, while juggling a jar with a live snake hissing towards her. Panic would have set in for most but Evie just took a deep breath in before she took off the bag and tossed it up into the vent, it made a slight thud sound as it collided with the metal but she would deal with that if she needed to. Right now, she had about twenty seconds to pull herself back into the shaft, she did so with ease before twisting back around and pulling the open hatch of the vent back closed. Just in the nick of time as well as the locking sound clicked in, two seconds before Calista reset the isolated security system in the cellar.
 
“That was way too close, what took you so long?” Calista asked.
 
Evie from her position inside the air-conditioning vent, pushed the bag along in front of her as she crawled along her belly carrying a snake filled jar with a proud smile on her face.
 
“I picked up a little something extra.” Evie beamed, with excitement. “I think I’m going to call her Kitten… you know to be sentimental and shit.” Evie quietly laughed to herself.
 
Evie’s green eyes held a gaze with Kitten’s who was cramped up inside the glass jar, the alluring look in her eyes were almost begging Evie to let her out, so she could taste freedom. The rest as they say was history, but that day was the first day in a very long journey of Evie and her rescue pet snake. Now some may say she was stolen, but let’s not bring logics into this. In Evie’s heart she knew that she had saved Kitten that day from a long drawn out painful death and to her that was good enough to justify her actions.
 
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We were back in 2020 and as Evie looked down at her precious pet snake, she noticed that she couldn’t feel her shallow gasps for air. The bubbles around her mouth had stopped forming and there was a peaceful stillness over her body. Kitten was gone and there was nothing Evie could do to bring her back. A ten-year relationship had drawn to a close in what felt like two minutes. Evie had missed the presence of Ben being in the room halfway through her flashback, she had missed that he had moved across the room and was by her side. It wasn’t until he reached over and grabbed her left arm, giving it a soft squeeze. Evie didn’t have to say a single word, Ben already knew that Kitten had passed over into the next life. A pin could drop it was so silent in her room, Evie turned to look at Ben her bottom lip squirmed as she tried desperately to hold it all in, to hold it together but she couldn’t. She couldn’t be tough, she couldn’t be strong… she was heartbroken. It felt as if a massive hole was now gasping for air inside of her, anxiously trying to remind her that she was still alive, she still needed to breathe.
 
Ben reached out to hold her, bringing her to her feet he felt her weight shift as she collapsed into him and the next sound that left her lips, broke him. It was a cry that only true despair could tell, only a person who had suffered true loss could produce, his wife was broken. Bear rushed to the doorway to see what was going on, before he hurried over towards them sitting by their side trying to protect his family at all cost. As Evie wept in Ben’s arms, hysterically, violently, breathlessly. Ben brushed her long hair out of her face, tucking it behind her ears as he tried to look into her eyes, but Evie had her eyelids closed trying to withhold the tears that so painfully slid down her face. Two wet strips racing down towards her chin, being fueled, and propelled by unconceivable loss. Evie just held onto Kitten who was still wrapped around her arm, but she felt she couldn’t stand on her own two feet, as she slammed her forehead into Ben’s chest as he took her back into his arms. 
 
Calista had let Ben know she wouldn’t be here for this she knew what Evie was like when she was mourning and the more people around her the more uncontrollable, she got. Right now, all Ben could do was hold his wife, delicately as his lifeless pet snake was still wrapped loosely around his wife’s arm as she cradled her. All Ben could do was rest his chin on the top of Evie’s head and try and soothe her as he ran his hands up and down her back. All he could do was listen to the heart breaking, harrowing sounds of his wife sobbing uncontrollably in his arms. He knew there were no words he could speak right now that would comfort her, he knew there was no way he could help her all he could offer was a shoulder to cry on and somewhere to feel safe and warm. Ben closed his eyes, as he held Evie in his arms and he himself couldn’t help to shed a tear, it wasn’t the loss of the pet snake that got him he didn’t overly have a strong bond with Kitten. It was the sound of his wife’s pain exploding from her body in a way he had never witnessed that had caught him, breaking his heart into a million pieces as he just held her trying to keep her together when he knew deep down inside she was falling apart.
 
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It was the night before deadline for week one’s match build ups and still Evie hadn’t submitted her work, her mind had been a million places this week and inside the world famous six-sided Sin City Wrestling ring wasn’t one of them. She normally took great pride in her set up, making sure it was dark and edgy, and making sure her work was fine lined and polished so Evie could set herself aside from the rest of the Bombshell’s in Sin City Wrestling. This week she didn’t have that luxury for the war games she was playing with herself had crippled any desire to showboat this week, but never the less she had to deliver a message to Andrea Hernandez after all ‪in two weeks‬’ time on Sunday she would be fighting for her claim to the Sin City Wrestling World Bombshell Championship, she couldn’t just allow Andrea to walk away without a fight.
 
It was just on the cusp of nighttime, as the sun slipped down towards the horizon looking to settle in for the night. Yet, it was that strange time of day in Bar Harbor where the sun and moon struggled for the sky’s attention. As stars started to twinkle to the east, the sun was saying it last goodbyes to in the west. The clouds glowing with vibrant reds, over the water district. The camera panned away from the sunset and back towards what appeared to be an empty tarmac, no planes were in sight but only a figure of a woman standing in the distance. It was Evie Jordan, she was wearing all black from head to toe. Black tight ripped jeans, a black extra tight halter neck shirt around her neck a twinkle could be seen from the massive five carat diamond Ben had purchased her late last year for Christmas. It caught the cameras attention as it sparkled in the last display of today’s light show. Her long black brown hair was down and out, styled with effortless curls, blowing in the breeze as she tucked a few stray strands behind her right ear keeping it out of her perfectly winged eye lined eyes. Evie kept her face in the shadows, not wanting to show off her eyes that were still revealing the markers of the sadness she had uncounted this week. She waited for the signal and once the cameraman gave her the go ahead, her blood red lips parted, and she was on her way.
 
“Andrea… Andrea… Andrea…” Evie kicked off in her traditional way. “The current Sin City Wrestling World Bombshell Champion. The Angel that gathered her wings at Blaze of Glory twenty-twenty and since then she hasn’t stopped, not once, not at all telling the world about her struggles to get there. I think it’s cute that you think people care about your backstory, I think it’s cute that you think people care that it took you a long arse time to get to where you are today. I think it’s adorable that you think it’s important to tell the world that you had to bite, kick, punch and drag yourself up the mountain, because you knew one day.” Evie paused. “You knew in your heart that one day you’ll be good enough to call yourself the top tier champion, you knew that one day, you’ll be able to look down at all your haters and from great heights and you would get the last laugh.” Evie chuckled.
 
Her tongue rolled over her pure white teeth that beamed between her blood red lips, Evie couldn’t help herself at times and had often been compared to be more animalistic than human when she found a bone she felt she had to pick with her competition.
 
“It’s cute that you think your rise to the top holds more of a candle to anyone else’s in this business. I think it’s cute that you’re that vain, that you think you have had the hardest journey to the top, just because it took you five long years to get here. No one cares about how long the journey takes, no one cares if it happens in a blink of an eye or in five bone crushing long years… what people ultimately care about is what you do with your championship reigns once you grasp on to it.” She paused again letting those words sink in. “And so far on that defense, you’re coming up a little empty handed.” She rolled her eyes. “Since Blaze of Glory you have stepped forward and put your title on the line how many times exactly? Once to Christina Rose and even though you were successful… what did you do after your first one? Did you go out looking for competition? Did you bust your hump looking for someone to face you? Or did you figure you would just do the obvious and slip into obscurity and avoid poking any bears so you could sit on your perch a little longer? I mean the will to be a champion has always been in your blood and yet the moment since becoming the top champion in Sin City Wrestling, you haven’t engaged, you have provoked a fight… you figured you would waste your time flipping your opinions of people like coins.”
 
The painstakingly sarcastic smile was plastered all over Evie’s face as she looked towards the camera, her full face still wasn’t seen by the camera’s lens, but she was doing her best to stay in the shadows of the night for now.
 
“You stand there week in and week out and want to talk to me about empty voids and yet, it’s is you who has it all but still you can’t find your feet, if it weren’t for standing still you would be running away with your tail between your legs, like the stray little dog that you are.” She didn’t sugarcoat her words as she spoke towards the camera. “Allow me to remind you, in your celebration speech on Climax Control after winning at Blaze of Glory you were all smiles, you were from ear to ear sweetness as you poured your heart out to us. As you told the world your heart-breaking story of how you’re the little train that just kept on steam rolling her way towards greatness, even though the world had given up on you. You applauded the likes of Roxi Johnson and Christina Rose. You showered with me with congratulations, shouting my greatness to the world.” She smirked. “You played the world as a puppet that night as you tugged on heart strings, as everyone wanted to feel warm and fuzzy for the little girl who finally got to live out her childhood dream… but all it took was one week for you to flip the switch and soon enough those real colours showed.” Evie tutted. “Might I add, green really isn’t your colour.”
 
Evie walked towards the camera looking over her right shoulder to watch the last seconds of sunlight before she turned back and continued her speech.
 
“A jealous champion is an unstable champion, an insecure champion shows cracks when she should in fact be showing strength and intensity… you lost your power on the second week we returned after Blaze of Glory… and you did it so easily. Your kind words the week before you voiced to Christina turned to viciousness with ease, your kind words about me deserving the win in the Blast from the Past tournament were forgotten. What’s the matter Andrea? Did the pressure of knowing you have a massive target painted on your back, suddenly feel as if the weight of the world was on your shoulders? Were your knees starting to buckle from the pressure? Hell even though your first defense was successful instead of building dominance, you were constructing your own fear, week by week just ticking by and instead of looking to steam roll your power you choose to stake your claim to the Sin City Wrestling World Bombshell Championship, with words.” Evie paused, catching herself before she got carried away. “You showed your true colours to me, you showed your weakness to me when you had your first chance to take a swipe at me, you came at me with an insult a thirteen year old child could muster…you took a swipe at me not having enough championship reigns in Sin City Wrestling, really?” She shook her head from side to side, unamused. “You’re first chance to capture my attention and you wasted it on basically calling me a championship-less champion? As if that was going to send me into the locker room, searching for my belongings… wanting to pack up my bags and head home with my tail between my legs?” She chuckled.
 
Evie walked up towards the camera some more, her blood red lips parting again as she continued to speak towards Andrea.
 
“I didn’t realize we lived in a world where it’s not okay for people to mock you for taking seven months to capture your first Bombshell Championship, but it’s okay for you to rag on my… in your eyes, lack thereof championship reigns?” She rolled her eyes. “I didn’t realize that it was okay to judge people about what they have or haven’t had? Yet, that was your greatest shot at me? That was your go to card? You’re bone chilling, words of war? You really should have tried harder Andrea to come at me, you see unlike you I don’t count the days of how long it takes me to rise to the top, I don’t count my championship reigns, I don’t count the days… I count the victims that I have put to rest in my rearview mirror. I count the moments I have had in my career that shocked and awed people. I count the moments like the time I stepped foot inside the ring with Alexis Staggs, in a barbwire match and I laughed at the pain she was inflicting on me, and why was that in important to me? Because it was the day I changed the fucking game for the Sin City Wrestling Bombshell roster, it was the day they stood back and saw me for what the fuck I am I’m a monster, I’m the reaper and knowing I had the whole roster fearing to step into the ring with me from that night on, was enough to leave me feeling like a champion. You see I didn’t need a shiny fucking belt to prove my worth, I didn’t need a shiny fucking title to show my dominance… I am dominant, I have been since day fucking one… it didn’t take me seven months to rise to the top of the roster, I held that position in my debut. I don’t need a world championship, to show the world that I’m at the top of my game, that I’m a fucking monarch in my sport… because my actions speak louder than words.”
 
Evie looked towards the camera, confidence present on her face as she smirked.
 
“Unlike you, what’s your greatest accomplishment since becoming the Sin City Wrestling World Bombshell Champion? Beating Christina Rose-Zdunich… that’s it? That’s all you have done… oh wait you’ve managed to run your mouth and found yourself in a mixed tag team match… what a bunch of refreshing joy you bring to table. What a waste of time and yet, you will say that all this spare time has given you the chance to focus on me? What’s your excuse going to be after Into the Void when I beat you and take your Sin City Wrestling World Bombshell Championship away from you?” Evie smirked. “How’s it going to feel knowing you had all this time to focus on me and yet, when the time comes you won’t be able to stop me from reclaiming the Bombshell Championship? What heartbreaking miserable story are you going to feed us then? That it was bad luck? That you wanted to be a fighting champion, but you never got the chance to show the world how great you could be? You’ll demand a rematch, or you’ll tell the world that you’re going to fight your way back up to the top and for what? So, you can go back to being a champion that sits on the side lines?” Evie sighed.
 
Evie brushed a long lock of her hair behind her right ear, before kicking off once more.
 
“You’ve been a bench warmer champion at best… even your mixed tag team match last week proved that. You had the chance to show the world what you were capable of, you could have got a pin fall victory over Kate… yet, you yelped in pain when the going got tough and you let you tag team partner Austin James Mercer make the fucking save.” Cue a very dramatic eyeroll. “I guess this week you’ll beat your drum over the fact that you’re heading into our match at Into the Void on the winning note, but let me remind you… you didn’t win that match, you coasted your way out of it so you could protect yourself from the crushing hands of defeat from Kate and believe me… I’m not on the only one that thinks that.” A devilish smile was on Evie’s face.
 
Evie took a step towards the camera, as night kicked in around her. The moon casting an eerie light across her face.
 
“But, let’s get the elephant out of the room shall we and address the one thing you said to me last week… momentum… momentum… momentum. Oh how important it is to maintain momentum on your climb towards the World Bombshell Championship, how important is it to make sure you count the wins on your way to view the roster from the top of the ivory tower… here’s the thing, Alicia did beat me… fair and fucking square but I haven’t stopped since Blaze of Glory I’ve gone to battle week in and week out… you on the other hand? Two matches… weeks apart? You don’t get to stand there and judge me for losing to Alicia Lukas when you too have suffered defeat at her hands. You don’t get to judge my focus, you don’t get to judge my confidence, you don’t get to sideline me because of one loss because believe me Andrea… losing to someone like Alicia isn’t something to be ashamed of… she’s a former woman of the year for a fucking reason. A loss, to Alicia can’t be seen as a sign of weakness because unlike you I kept up with her until the very last moment and I held my ground last week in Climax Control… although a loss is not ideal at times like these… rest assured it hasn’t clouded my judgement, it hasn’t knocked me out for six… Its only built me up, it’s been a timely reminder to work harder, to hit harder and that I need to do everything in my power at Into the Void… so that next time I face Alicia Lukas in the middle of the six-sided ring it will be, me defending the Sin City Wrestling World Bombshell Championship… and trust me… when I beat her next time and stop her from shouting mummy’s home… it will be grandest fucking moment in my career.”
 
Evie smile was devilish as she stared down the lens of the camera.
 
“I have no issues in real recognizing real and believe me, unlike you… Alicia Lukas is the real deal. When she speaks, she gets shit done. When she says she’s going to be a fighting champion… she becomes a fighting fucking champion.” Evie’s tone said it all she respected Alicia.
 
“What happened to you being a fighting champion? What happened to you leading the division into greatness? You couldn’t even keep those promises on week two when you slipped up under the pressure and resorted to tactics that you believed were below you. Didn’t you say, people used to slander you, say you’re not worthy and yet two seconds later, your lips parted and well… the he said she said seems to be in your armory as well.” Evie winked, her cheeky personality couldn’t help itself. “Don’t try and play the victim card, when in fact you’re exactly like those bitches you harped on about. Trying to drag your opponent’s down week in and week out with cheap shots, I mean it’s okay for you to do it but when the cannon gets fired at you, all of a sudden people don’t want to see you shine, people were trying to hold you back? Save it. You have the same fucking sob story that half the fucking world bashes on about… just shut the fuck up already and do something worthy and maybe just maybe people might start taking your championship reign seriously… maybe just maybe people might stop calling your rise to the top nothing short but a fairytale.. because sine you beat Roxi and Christina at Blaze of Glory you have don’t anything worth a pinch of salt worth talking about… you haven’t asked for competition you have hidden from it. What did you think just because you had to face me at Into the Void… you shouldn’t have to extend yourself? Or go out of your way to bring the competition that the World Bombshell Championship deserves? You sat on your hands, now I see why Alicia says the current state of the World Bombshell Championship is a joke… it’s been hot potatoe’d since she lost it and since it landed on you, you’ve done nothing but play idiot while you flap your gums.”
 
Evie gritted her teeth annoyed at her statements towards Andrea, but that didn’t stop her from fighting on.
 
“Last week you told me you can sense doubt in your opponents… trust me you’ll be sensing none of that at Into the Void and it’s not because I know I can run rings around you in the wrestling ring… it’s because I know you can’t hold a candle to me and at Into the Void I’m going to show you first hand, that people like you shouldn’t put words in my mouth. Week in and week out you’ve been acting like you know me… like you know my story, like you know my worth. You know nothing… you have no idea what you’re going to encounter at Into the Void but I can promise you, it will be a pain you have never felt before… because unlike Christina, who you keep slapping on about… I’m not a flake… I’m not phony I’m the real fucking deal. I’m someone you’re uncapable of comprehending so please for the love of God stop trying to analyze me and stop trying to put me in a box with all the others that have run you down… because unlike the rest of them, you won’t outwit me, you won’t outlast me and YOU won’t beat me.” Evie paused. “So, keep justifying your hold on the World Bombshell Championship, by trying to derail my claim and discredit all my hard work. I fought hard in the Blast from the Past to get here and believe me I don’t intend on heading towards the final hurdle only to trip, crash out and burn. I’m coming for the win, I’m coming to show you that I have your number in the ring and I’m coming to prove that I still have it… I’ve still got it.” Evie smirked. “So, stop acting like you know who I am, stop having my name pass through your lips like you know me… you don’t fucking know me… you proved that to the world when you said I want your belt because I want to show the world the type of power couple Ben and I are?” Evie couldn’t resist laughing.
 
The camera panned out and spun around to do a 180 showing off the Jordan’s jet and black Lamborghini. The plane was waiting for Evie to jump back on and head back to Vegas but she still had a fair few things left to say. The camera panned back to her smirking face.

“You honestly think I need “your” World Bombshell Championship, to flex? Yeah, nah mate I’m good... I’m really fucking good. You want to know why I want your championship so bad? Because you fucked up and declared ownership... you said I would never take it away from you. I’m here to remind you that you’re wrong.” Evie stopped to smirk. “Basically what’s mine is mine and what’s yours will in time... will also be mine. Next Sunday to be exact, Andrea you’ll learn that I take what I want while you get what you’re given. I WANT the Sin City Wrestling World Bombshell Championship because it NEEDS me... it’s needs someone who will carry it and defend it with pride, someone who won’t warm the fucking bench, instead they set a blaze to the division. So far you’ve been a wet match, unable to spark a flame.”

That devilish smirk was on her face once more as she started to wind this one up.

“You keep mentioning that you’re in a fairytale,   For some reason you can’t seem to let that comparison go... so let me break it down to you like this. Andrea at the end of the night, at twelve-o-one exactly you’ll still be able to call yourself a champion... it’s just you’ll have to add an extra word, you’ll be a FORMER World Bombshell champion... because your bundle of joy will be forced from your grips and I’ll be the one left holding it.” Her white teeth were on display, with a proud smile on her face. “Like the petals on the beast’s rose, your Championship reign is fading away... and soon it will be nothing more than a memory.” Evie screwed up her nose, disgusted that she knew that Disney reference.

Evie looked towards the camera and decided enough was enough.

“Oh and one last thing Andrea, I know you’ll be coming at me with everything you have at Into the Void and I know you have what it takes inside the ropes... so, don’t paint me as an idiot. I’ve never discredited your wrestling abilities... you put that own misguided image in your own head... insecurities are a bitch and you have played right into your own trap. I just gave you a little shove to help you get there.

Evie smirked one last time.

“May the lord have mercy on your soul, Andrea... for I will not.”

The scene faded out on Evie’s smirking face.  

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« Reply #2 on: May 30, 2020, 10:07:38 PM »
 May 27, 2020

Passionate anger flowed through me as I sat in the green room of the Saxon hotel. I was on the couch… glaring at something that was extremely disgusting to me, something that really made my stomach turn. It sickened me as what I was looking at was staring back at me, with their stupid, goofy smiles and all. There weren't enough tomatoes in the bucket that I brought with me into the room to satisfy the desire that I had to just wipe their faces out of my sight.

“You all disgust me…” I said to this unknown entity. “...I was taught to never believe in you…”

I narrowed my eyes in anger at the Disney princesses poster I was staring at… as if the eyes of Elsa, Belle, Snow White, Cinderella, Aurora and other princesses taunted me with their cartoonish gazes. At this point, I tossed a few tomatoes at the Disney princess poster, getting Elsa and Cinderella right in the face. This brought a comic chuckle out of me as I took the rest of the tomatoes out of the green room and got a cleaner to take care of the ‘damage’.

“Fairy tales…” I said with a disgusted sigh and a rolling of my eyes. “...why would I ever be one of those?”

This question really pinged my brain as I began to walk down the hallway and further marinate my brain with some of the things that Evie Jordan had been saying… how I was living a fairy tale, how I was a one hit wonder, how she could never respect me as a champion because she saw me as a flash in the pan… it all created a cornucopia of bitter, angry feelings toward her but I was doing my absolute best to control them.

“This isn’t a Cinderella story… This is a story of the rise of one of the newest forces of the Bombshell division now and of the future. It’s about time Evie learned that…”

I thought this to myself as I kept walking… reflecting on a brief moment in time…

May 2001

I was remembering being a seven year old girl inside of my bedroom as I was about to go to bed. My room wasn’t filled with dollhouses, Disney princess posters or children’s books about any of the princesses… and me being seven at this time… this really upset me…

“Why can’t I have anything about the princesses?” I remember asking my mother.

“It’s not good for you, sweetheart.” She’d tell me. “You don’t need to be reading those books or watching those movies.”

“But why not?” I asked.

“Because… the world that is presented… it’s nothing like how the world really is” my mother said with a sigh. “You’re too young to know how the world really works, sweetheart. But it doesn’t work like they do in the fairy tales. We don’t live in a world where you’re in trouble and you can’t do anything for yourself and some boy has to save you. We don’t live in a world where everything is fixed by magic.”

“But my cousins get to have all that…” I reminded my mother.

“Not you…” she’d say. “You’ll understand when you’re older…”

Back in my Saxon hotel bedroom, I could only have another chuckle to myself as I came back to the present moment. Part of me was laughing a bit at my former childhood innocence which had obviously been long gone by this point. I took a glance at the Bombshells World Championship on the dresser with a mirror right on it. Picking it up and slinging it over my shoulder, I looked at myself in the mirror. I didn’t see a Cinderella story. I saw a champion… one that had overcome the odds to get to where she is today… but someone that knew deep down that she always had it in her… even if she didn’t realize it.

“You’re no fairy tale…” I told myself in the mirror. “It’s not like you had walked into this company with no record of success in wrestling and then suddenly fell off once you reached the top. There was no magic wand to make this happen. There was no prince to save you. You did this on your own, with hard work and dedication. You proved that you were no fluke. Mom never let you watch those Disney princess movies for a reason you know…”

I couldn’t help but scoff at this as I continued on.

“You’ve already proven that you’re not a fluke… and you’re going to do it again…”

I walked back to the bed with my championship and set it on the lamp near me. At this point, I had gone to bed. I shut my eyes, feeling quite peaceful and also feeling quite good about myself. I wasn’t feeling any pressure regarding Into the Void even as I knew that when I woke up that I’d be another day closer to that title defense.

“Andrea…” I heard a voice call out to me. I felt that confusion in my mind as I heard my name get called again. When I opened my eyes… I was in a completely different place….

January 2017

“Hey… I know this locker room…” I said to myself. There was a feeling of disgust in my stomach when I looked around and I saw that there was UWA’s initials everywhere. I walked down the hallway in curiosity while a wrestler walked by me, eyes right at me, but then walking right past me as if I wasn’t even there.

“What in the world am I doing back in UWA?” I asked myself. As I kept walking, I felt this weird tension in the air. I saw a group of cruiserweight wrestlers having a celebration, high fiving each other, acting as if some type of greatness had happened on this night.

“FLY CAM FLY!” one of the cruiserweights yelled.

“YEAH! FLY CAM FLY! WOOO!!!!” another of the cruiserweights screamed. There was some ‘bubbly’ flying around the place as the “FLY CAM FLY” chant is repeated and heard for minutes on end as the cruiserweights departed the scene.

“I know exactly where and WHEN I am…” I scoffed at this, highlighting how I wasn’t bothered by what I knew was a horrible memory for me. “...this was a night that I wanted to forget for like… an eternity…”

Before I could continue my thoughts any further, I heard some nearby sobbing and I was already cringing deep down inside knowing that said sobbing sounded extremely familiar. I could feel the edges of my heart begin to crack a little bit as a female voice… MY voice… is on the other side of the door saying, through some obvious tears, “I don’t want to do this anymore!!!!”

I took a sigh, knowing that once I walked through the door, I was going to face, perhaps, the worst moment of my mainstream wrestling career as a singles performer. Still, I braved on. I opened the door and I walked inside and sure enough, there she was… my 2017 self… 22 going on 23… having just suffered what was up to this point the most devastating loss of her young, mainstream singles career. I could feel my heart break for my younger, less experienced self as she was crouched in the corner, practically bawling. The Andrea from back then was NOTHING like the Andrea now.

There was no confidence in 2017 Andrea. I was already recalling that entire year when I went through what seemed like hell. Curious, I walked toward my younger self, not knowing if she was going to notice me.

“Hey…” I said to my younger self, who looked up at me and seemed really surprised. I was feeling it too, realizing that she noticed me. “...what’s wrong?”

“...you look EXACTLY like me…” my younger self said.

“How’s this for a trip… I AM you… in three years…”

“That can’t be right…” my younger self said. “If you are me… then… you know what happened tonight.”

“Let me guess… you put EVERYTHING on the line tonight: your heart, your body, your soul, your spirit, your family legacy, your dignity… trying to win the UWA Cruiserweight Championship from Cam Knowles and despite your absolute BEST efforts, it’s CAM and not YOU that walks out of here on this night with the title… and by now, you’ve gotten plenty of messages from your critics laughing at you and telling you you’ll never amount to anything…”

Tears flowed down the face of my younger self as she nodded.

“What if I told you that three years from now, everything is going to be so much better?”

“I’d love to believe that…” my younger self said. “But I just don’t. I feel like… I’m destined to be a… a failure… I’ve let down my whole family… I’ve let down over 100 years of tradition… everything that I’ve ever learned, everything that I’ve ever worked so hard for… it means NOTHING…”

“It’s not true…” I told my younger self. “...what if I told you that three years from now, Cam Knowles doesn’t exist in pro wrestling anymore? What if I told you that in 2020, UWA is dead? Hell, UWA doesn’t even make it to 2018…”

“It doesn’t?” my younger self said in surprise.

“By the end of this year, you’ll be gone from UWA and in 2018, your singles career begins to take off.”

“...YEAH RIGHT!” my younger self stated, showing the lack of confidence that had been the dominant force inside of my self-esteem at that time. “Myra was always right about me… I am always going to be nothing. Everything that all the cruiserweight wrestlers have been saying about me… it’s all true. I’m destined to be a failure in this business. I just know it. Don’t come here from… 2020… speaking this nonsense to me. I’m just a waste of space that’s taking up space. How could I ever amount to anything when I can’t even wrestle a lick in a CRUISERWEIGHT DIVISION? I guess I’ll always be nothing more than a tag team wrestler…”

I let out a sigh, trying to be as patient and as understanding with my younger self as possible.

“I’ll break it down for you. By the end of this year… yeah… you leave UWA… and you’re never going to win the cruiserweight title… but it’s not going to matter in the big picture.”

I kneeled down to be eye to eye with my younger self, trying the best that I could to get through to her.

“...big changes begin to happen…” I told her as I continued on. “You’re going to grow as a singles performer once Myra is out of your hair and you’re gone from UWA. Early next year, you’re going to become the GCW North American Champion, winning a handicap match to make it happen. At Resurrection, on the biggest stage of the year, you’re going to retain it in a last woman standing match…”

My younger self was definitely curious about what I was saying, but she was also in a big state of shock. She didn’t think that it could ever be possible.

“...you’re going to end up with quite the strong reign with the North American Championship before you walk out of GCW and defect to this place named OCW… by the end of 2018, you’re a champion again… the Paradigm title… but you wind up having a couple of stumbles in late 2018 before you start 2019 by bouncing back and winning the Craze title. 2019 becomes a huge breakthrough year for you. There’s another defection… this time to Sin City Wrestling… but you’re going to beat multiple Hall of Fame members in OCW before this happens… and by the end of 2019, you’ve established yourself as a world title contender in Sin City Wrestling…”

My younger self randomly has a brief smile before she has a brief laugh. By the tone of her laugh, however, I could tell that this was a laugh of denial.

“...and on Easter Sunday 2020, after you establish yourself further? You become a world champion for the first time....”

My younger self’s eyes widen in shock before she goes back to laughing. She takes a moment to dry her eyes and I could sense from her body language that she was in complete disbelief about everything that she just heard. Her laughs became louder and harder and I was confused as hell as to why she was reacting this way.

“You know… it’s almost like you’re telling me a fairy tale there…”

“You don’t believe that it’s going to happen, do you?”

My younger self shook her head.

“It would take a MIRACLE for ANY of that to happen…” she responded. “I’d need to pull some Cinderella type shit out of my ass to even be in contention for ANY singles championship. Tonight… it just taught me that I’m always going to be a bottom feeder in this business… aside from some Cinderella nonsense… how could any of it possibly happen.”

“Because for starters, you are SO much better and stronger than you think you are…” I told my younger self and I could see that this had some sort of effect on her. “If you don’t believe me about the future, just remember how you got to this point at all. Remember how you weren’t supposed to be a wrestler in the first place. Remember how you were pegged as an Indy wrestler for life that was never going to make the mainstream scene. You did all that… did you not?”

“I did…”

“And you managed to do all that because you wouldn’t let anyone tell you ‘no’. You were strong enough to push away the negativity that any doubter and critic piled upon you along this entire journey. The more you push away that negativity, the stronger you become… actually…”

I had to pause for a bit as I reflected on the journey that I had going from a bottom of the barrel cruiserweight wrestler to the world champion that I am today.

“...that strength… it’s always in you. It’s only going to grow…” I told my younger self. “You’re too strong to EVER give up… you’re going to see some obstacles along the way to becoming a world champion… obstacles that are going to make tonight look like rookie shit… but you’ve always had it in you to overcome all of it. This? Compared to what you’re going to overcome with time, it’s nothing. If you weren’t strong, you wouldn’t have even gotten to this point… you don’t even NEED to be a Cinderella story because you’ve got it in you… you always had...”

I stood up.

“Everything that you’ve done… contrary to how you feel about yourself… it DOES mean something. Give it time… you’ll understand exactly what I mean…”

My younger self has nothing more to say to me at this point, but I can tell with the way that her body language that her eyes were bursting with joy. The perspective that I offered her certainly brightened her spirits and inspired her some. I was almost at the door, until I remembered one last piece of advice that I would give my younger self if I ever wrote a letter to her.

“One last thing… don’t define yourself by the family legacy. It’s a great motivator and all…  but the pressure of living up to it and feeling that it means nothing when you fail… that’s stress that you don’t need…”

I walked through the locker room door, experiencing a bright flash of light. My eyes were shielded shut by the blinding light and when I opened them again, there I was, back in my bed, staring at a 7:39 AM digital clock.

May 28, 2020

I sat up on my bed and I took in the dream. I was definitely floored by it as I grabbed my phone and looked through my text messages. I could only smile at a text from my mother that informed me that she was in town and that she was looking forward to a long-belated mother’s day lunch that was going to take place later in the day. I was suddenly surprised by a phone call that I was receiving from my best friend Chelsea LeClair and I was quick to answer it even though my conscience was still stuck in Dream Land.

“ANDREA!” Chelsea exclaimed, as she was excited that I answered the phone.

“You’re hyper…” I said in response.

“Did you just wake up or something?” Chelsea asked me.

“I did…” I said, sounding tired.

“Oh right… sorry… I forget about the time difference sometimes. It’s 10:40 in Florida and all…”

“What are you doing in Florida?” I asked Chelsea.

“I’m… um… oh gosh… I… I’m SO nervous about Monday…”

“What’s Monday?”

“It’s the finals of the OCW Manifest Destiny tournament. Like… I don’t even KNOW how the FUCK I even got to the FINALS… or hell, the second round let alone the finals. I used to be the biggest joke in all of professional wrestling Andrea, you know that. I was such an embarrassment to OCW when you and I were there…”

“You’re past that now…” I reminded her.

“Yeah well… um…” Chelsea paused in her nervousness. “...this Andrew Logan guy I’m facing in the finals seems like he’s this big deal.”

“So?” I said to my best friend. “Why are you so nervous?”

“Because… it’s a miracle I’ve even gotten this far…”

“Chelsea…” I said with a sigh. “It’s not. I know you feel like you’re on some sort of Rocky run here but… you’re not. You’re going through the same thing I did in late 2017-early 2018 when I began to break out as a singles star. If you walk into that match drowning yourself in the ‘underdog’ label, you’re going to lose that match. This run to the finals… you’ve had the ability within you the entire time. It takes any wrestler a while to realize it… but once you do realize it… it’s smooth sailing. This isn’t some ‘miracle’, Chelsea. It’s you realizing that you’re good at what you do.”

“How do you know this, Andi?” Chelsea asked me, understandably skeptical.

“Because…” I said with a deep breath. “...only recently, I came to that conclusion. When I broke out as a singles star, when I began beating hall of fame member after hall of fame member in OCW, when I hit the ground running in SCW and ultimately took the division by storm… it was ALWAYS within me! I ALWAYS had it in me! There was never a time when I didn’t have that potential. I was born with that potential and that ability to be great at whatever it is I set my mind to… and so were you, Chelsea. So… take the journey that I’ve been on… remember what it took for me to get to where I am… and you’ll meet that potential you have within you too…”

“Woooow….” Chelsea said on the other end. “That’s SO inspiring! Thank you so much, Andi! I really needed to hear that. I think I’m beginning to understand why you’ve made the incredible climb to the top that you’ve made over the last few years. Anyway, I’m going to let you go. Before I do though… I want to tell you how proud I am of you. You’ve been… well… to say the least, amazing. It’s an honor and a privilege to have been part of this journey and all…”

“Thanks…” I told her with a smile. “...I’ll talk to you later. You’re winning that tourney, Chels. I have faith in you.”

The phone hung up about 20 seconds later, following Chelsea saying her goodbyes on the other end. I was definitely feeling great. My mood was strong. My confidence was high.

“Even the ‘worst’ of me three years ago had it in her…” I reflected. “...when she was scraping the bottom of the barrel in the cruiserweight division, when she was the laughingstock that nobody gave a chance to… she had it in her the entire time to be a world champion! I’m going to remember that quite well for the next week or so…”

I let out a happy breath of air as I stood up and began to prepare for the day that was ahead of me…

September 2017

“HOW CAN YOU SAY THAT ABOUT YOUR OWN DAUGHTER?” I heard my mother scream at my father as I hid in my room. I might as well had been a child overhearing my parents yell at each other during the middle of the night. But of course, I was 23, on a visit to my parents in the middle of the day, and what I thought was going to be a typical visit turned out to be a nightmare.

“She just doesn’t have it…” I could hear my father say as my eyes filled with tears. “By leaving UWA, she did the one thing that NOBODY in our family has ever done in more than a century of being involved in the business… she QUIT! She’s a disgrace to our family!”

“But this is your DAUGHTER…” my mother tried in vain to remind my father. “Why are you giving up on her? Oh right… you never wanted her to do this at all.”

“Rosa… she’s not going to make it in professional wrestling…” my father said while I continued to overhear everything. “...she’s a quitter. She gave up. Sure, my ancestors and I have had situations where we’ve moved on from one company to another via defection… but none of us ever actually… QUIT! She’s not strong enough… she just isn’t.”

“I think you’re dead wrong…” my mother said to my father. “...she loves what she does. This is her dream. She’s doing to do anything that it takes for her to be as successful as she’s always dreamed of being.”

“But nobody in our family has ever struggled as much as SHE has…”

“She’s the only one that’s ever made it into the American mainstream scene, you lifetime Indy jerkoff…” my mother said… which stunned the hell out of me.

“How can you have so much faith in her?” my father asked.

“Because you never lose faith in your child…” my mother said in response and I was feeling touched as I eavesdropped on their conversation that even when things looked bleak, even when I was still a bottom of the barrel singles wrestler at this time… with my sudden departure from UWA being a further sign of this. “...as long as she wants to do this, I am never going to lose faith in her. She’s going to prove you wrong, you’ll see!”

“I can’t stand this anymore…” I heard my father say. “WOMEN! So fucking STUBBORN!!!!”

My eyes widened with surprise as I heard him leave the house, slamming the door shut. I peeked through the blinds of the bedroom curtain and I saw him slam his car door shut as he entered it before he turned on the keys and left.

“Andrea?” I heard my mother say as she opened the door and walked into my old childhood bedroom. I was still feeling a bit shaken up, fighting back tears as I turned to her.

“Thank you…” I told her. “You don’t have to believe in me so much but…”

“Keep at it, Andrea.” my mother told me. “It’s all going to pay off for you someday. You may not feel it, you may not realize it all yet, but you’re stronger than you feel. You’ve got it in you to be anything that you want to be, okay? Never forget that!”

“If only I had a magic wand to make everything better right away…”

My mother just chuckled at this.

“You won’t be needing it… I promise…”

My mother walked away, leaving me with so much to think about. She was ultimately right… but knowing that she had my back gave me a boost that was going to allow me to pull out of the hole that I had gone through for most of 2017.

End Flashback

“It’s funny…” I told my mother as we were having lunch together at a location that was about 10 minutes away from Vegas. “...ever since I won the world title, my relationship with my dad has been… well…”

“He can’t stop raving about you, sweetheart…” my mother told me. “It’s like you’re the best part of his life now. While I’m happy that he adores you so much now… I wish it didn’t take a world title for him to finally believe in you a hundred percent. You know how he is though.”

“Right…” I said, without any regrets. “At least I never have to worry about him being such a nitpicky critic of my work anymore…”

I laughed after I said this. “Plus… you always believed in me from day one…”

“I did…” my mother said. “What you pulled off… It didn't surprise me at all because I knew from the very first day that you said that you wanted to be a professional wrestler that you were going to be a world champion. I knew it was going to happen someday. I never imagined that things would snowball as much as they have though. To me… that’s the most amazing thing of it all.”

“Still…” I responded. “I’ve always wanted to thank you for always believing in me. I’m not so sure where I’d be without that faith that you had. By the way, I’m SO happy you never let me watch those stupid princess movies… I actually saw Cinderella once and… oh my GOD… it was HORRIBLE…”

My mother could only laugh at this.

“Are you sure that the nonsense that you’ve been dealing with from your next challenger isn’t influencing that opinion?” my mother asked.

“Touche…” I said in response. “... again… thank you…”

“No… thank you…” my mother said to my surprise.

“For?”

“I want to show you something…”

My curiosity piqued as my mother pulled out her cell phone. She scrolls and clicks through some things on her screen before she shows me a still image of a video with a play button on it. I can see both her and my father sitting on the couch, with my brother Eduardo being there also, standing nearby.

“What’s this?” I asked.

“We recorded this when you won the world title…” my mother said.

“Oh… it’s a reaction video…”

“You want to see this…” my mother said with a smile as she clicked play.

I could see my parents and my brother being intense in the latter stages of my world title win against Roxi Johnson and Christina Rose. I knew exactly in the match this was taking place since I could hear the commentary in the background. I was smiling with anticipation, knowing that the big moment was about to arrive. When it came… when the moment that I had pinned Christina Rose had arrived and I became the bombshells world champion, I saw my brother drop to his knees, hands on his head, a joyful expression on his face. My mother screamed with joy before tears of said joy began to run down her face. She hugged my father who had a stunned expression of disbelief on his face. A few “oh my gods” and “she did its” later and I saw my mother and brother hug each other, enjoying the moment. I could see my dad’s eyes well up with his own tears of joy combined with pride. I heard my father say “unreal…” before the video faded out.

“Our family had never bonded so close until that moment, Andrea…” my mother said. “So thank you so much for that. Thank you for being an inspiration…”

“Inspiration…”

“Yes… you did it your way!” my mother reminded me. “You never sold out. You never gave up. You never gave in. You became a champion in ways so many people can ever dream of. You’ve inspired tons of people… teaching them that nothing is impossible. Don’t forget that… and don’t forget what got you here… don’t forget that contrary to what OTHERS may say about you… you were ALWAYS good enough, smart enough, strong enough… to be a world champion…”

“I promise you mother… I’ll never forget… I will never EVER forget the journey… I will never forget that I made it happen because I always had it in me… and I’m going to make a believer out of Evie when it’s all said and done…”

My mother and I continued our lunch and this great day, a day that just got even better, continued on. It certainly progressed as a day where I felt like nothing could ever go wrong.

“I could’ve sold out… I never did.

I could take up all the endorsements, movie roles, increased spotlight, late night talk show appearances and be the biggest Twitter whore imaginable by making everything all about me… betraying the core values that I was brought up on…

But I won’t…

I’m sticking to those core values.

I’m sticking to what got me here.

What got me here wasn’t ‘magic’, nor was it a ‘Cinderella story’...

It was every piece of me coming together and making what many thought was an ‘impossible’ dream for me possible.

While I may have realized a dream, I know that this is reality now and that the reality of the situation is that I need to continue to silence the doubters and the haters… like Evie Jordan. I need to continue to prove that I am for real and that I am no flash in the pan. Evie may talk a good game, but ultimately… I know I’m going to retain the championship against her because I KNOW I’m stronger… because deep down, I know I’m the champion that she could never be…

May 30, 2020

The cameras were on and I found myself sitting in a jail cell. The door itself was open nearby and the studio location itself was dimly lit, with the room being filled with largely darkness. It was still bright enough to see me in the shot as I sat on a chair, a book in hand, my championship around my waist and my entire aura being filled with nothing but confidence. I was flipping through the pages of the book I was reading, having myself one hell of a time in a bit of a lighthearted manner before I began to express my thoughts.

“I love a good fairy tale… don’t you, Evie?” I said with a chuckle. “Okay, I’m being very facetious here and I know I’m asking for it by continuing to mock this whole deal with you coming out saying that I’m a fairy tale champion and all of that, but I can’t help it. It’s… just… absurd! Honestly, it’s VERY absurd and that’s something that I am going to dive into in a little bit but… there’s something that I need to tell you here, Evie. The tale that I am reading… it’s not mine… it’s YOURS! It’s… the story of Evie Baang… or Jordan… whichever you prefer. It goes a little something like this…”

I paused to clear my throat before I began to read the story aloud.

“There once was a girl named Evie… who came into this division a few years ago and she took it by storm. Like me, she came in like a house of fire, breaking barriers and shattering expectations. She took the division by storm when she arrived, so few being able to touch her, so few able to match her seemingly invincible mystique and aura. Evie won the Blast from the Past tournament in 2017 for the first time and truly showed that she was nobody to fuck with. And then… in July of that year… against Christina Rose… then known as Crystal Millar… she did it! Evie certainly delivered the BAANG for her buck by becoming the SCW Bombshells World Champion…

Funny how we have that in common with both of our first world title wins coming against the same bitch, right?

Trust me… that and the way we took this division by storm when we arrived are really the only things we have in common… anyway… back to the story… Evie defended the title successfully THREE times… which… hey, impressive… well… impressive once you get past the part where two of those three defenses were against Jessie Salco but hey, a job well done Evie. However… through all of that… it wasn’t enough was it, Evie? It would have been nice if this is where your story ended but… it doesn’t. We’re about to get to the part that you regret the most… even to this very day… your most haunting chapter… the chapter that I feel that three years later, you just haven’t been able to live down…”

I stood up from my chair and walked to the opposite side of the jail cell, snapping my fingers and shining a spotlight upon a mannequin that looks almost like Evie Jordan, wig, attire and all… and most notably… the mannequin that is supposed to represent Evie Jordan has a straitjacket attached to it. I toss the book aside and continue to make my point.

“...look familiar, Evie? Wait… this is how you LOST that world championship, isn’t it? It took someone putting you in a straitjacket to get that title off of you and if you don’t mind me saying so, this was it for you! This was the moment where you went from being one of the biggest stars of the division to being well… a bit more of a mere mortal. It’s not like you lost the world championship to a Roxi Johnson or a Sam Marlowe or even a Christina Rose… you lost the world championship to…. Polly Playtime… two time champion for a combined three weeks… someone beneath the level of the names that I just mentioned. Your story hasn’t quite been the same has it? Sure, you won a tag team championship… sure you were Roulette Champion and all but completed the Bombshell triple crown the very next year and you reigned for a few months and that’s great and everything… but for three years, Evie… three long, painful years… you have been striving and trying SO hard to get back to this level. THIS memory right here… of you being in a straitjacket… it haunts you, doesn’t it? Deep down in your immaterial brain there, I feel that you’re still kicking yourself rather hard for losing that world title. Believe me, I know the pain of losing such a big match and how much it can hurt. Three years ago, while you were reigning as the SCW Bombshells World Champion, I was in UWA failing again and again to get over the hump and to win the big match. Still… it’s been a long time since you’ve been a world champion…

I know it eats at you, Evie…

That’s why you’ve been harping on this whole ‘fairy tale, one hit wonder’ bullshit that you’ve thrown at me since the moment that our match became official.

That’s why you’ve been putting up this nonsense about how Christina Rose… you know… the same bitch that you beat for the world championship three years ago… isn’t actually competition… that you’re a level ABOVE her in the ladder. Believe me… what I’m about to say makes me sick to my stomach because this is CHRISTINA I’m defending here… but how in god’s name can you even put yourself above Christina when she’s done what she’s done a lot longer in this company and with far greater consistency then what you did? When you were the world champion, you were a flash. You were at peak performance only to never really get close to getting back to that level again…

...and it really… REALLY eats at you…

Isn’t this why you had decided to come back to Sin City Wrestling in the first place? To be a world champion again? Isn’t this why you had decided to take part in the Blast from the Past tournament? To… dare I say… write your OWN fairy tale? Oh god, the irony. Some people may place you on the same level as a Roxi or an Alicia and I get it. There was a time where you were the hottest thing going in the Bombshell division. But personally, Evie?

I wouldn’t put you there.

You’re one hell of a competitor, one of the best that this company has ever employed and I can never take that away from you but to me… you’re just ONE notch below the Roxis and the Alicias. Don’t take my word for it…

I walk over to a chalkboard littered with pictures, each with a corresponding letter of the alphabet underneath them.

“Take a look at exhibit A…”

I point to a picture of a screenshot of an Evie Jordan tweet, where Evie tells Alicia “I wouldn’t say I’m the best…”

“In YOUR own words… you wouldn’t say that you’re the best… even after Alicia… who had already beaten you that day, went out of her way to put you on that pedestal with me and declare you as one of the two best wrestlers in the division. You… with all this ARROGANT bravado from the moment you came back… bend the knee and say that you wouldn’t say you’re the best? You’re challenging for the world title and you wouldn’t say you’re the best? It’s one thing if you took it from an angle where you said that you wouldn’t call yourself the best because I’m the champion and you’re not… but THIS? How in the HELL can you have ANY confidence in winning this match against me at all at Into the Void when you’re bending the knee to women that beat you, admitting that you wouldn’t say you’re the best? How are you EVER going to be the best with THAT type of attitude? OWN IT, Evie… especially when an opponent that you lost to went out of her way to label you as such.

Me? I own it! As long as I hold this championship, I AM the best and I carry myself with a confidence that while there’s a day that someone is going to be better than me and become the best at my expense, that it WON’T be that particular night because I am going to fight to hell and back to keep this championship with me. You’re not facing Cinderella, Evie… you’re facing THE best… you’re facing a woman that is without question on top of her game and someone who is going to be in her prime and one of the top faces of this division for many years to come. Get that through your thick skull before opening your mouth about how someone is a fluke champion. Ever think that… considering how long it’s been since you were a world champion... that maybe the fluke champion here is YOU?

I mean… let’s take a look at Exhibits B, C, and D…”

I pause, focusing my attention back on the board, showing Evie’s partner in the Blast from the Past tournament, Mark Cross, getting pinfalls during the 2020 version of the tournament.

“...doesn’t this scream fluke here, Evie? Being a two time winner of this tournament is mighty impressive on the surface but REALLY look at what I am showing you here. What is WRONG with these pictures? Oh wait… that’s not YOU getting the pinfall is it? In three of the four tournament victories, Evie… it was Mark… NOT you… that was getting the pinfalls. And even if you DID get the pinfalls, would any of them have been impressive considering the competition you were facing? Jessie Salco… seriously? Tallyn… the only woman you actually pinned? Doubt it. Sierra Williams is a ‘possibly impressive’... and don’t get me started on Kate Steele… who you couldn’t even win the Internet championship from because it was Mark getting all the glory. Did you win the Blast from the Past tournament this year because you were REALLY the best bombshell of the entire tournament? Or did you win it all this year because you just so happened to get a good draw in the tournament as far as partners are concerned? I mean… here I am… the world champion… and I was out in round two because I had a TERRIBLE draw as far as the partners are concerned… but I ended up alright, didn’t I? Was your 2017 run of dominance a fluke too? Was your dip to being a mere mortal really you losing your edge? Or was it a case of you regressing back to the mean because it was YOU that was the flash in the pan?

Honestly… with this whole fairy tale bullshit… I think you’re so DESPERATE to make it happen because when you look in the mirror, that’s what you see right? Do you REALLY have the confidence to face me? Do you REALLY have the confidence to beat me? I don’t WANT to doubt you but… well… exhibits E and F will tell more of the story here…”

I pause and point to two pictures… one of Evie beating Mercedes Vargas and another of Evie beating Seleana Zdunich.

“...your most recent wins since you won the tournament. Big names… sure… but… at the moment… NOT the biggest names on the women’s roster considering that both of them are struggling to even win the Internet championship… you know… kind of like you did at Blaze of Glory. But Exhibit G… oh let’s REALLY talk about that… let’s point to THE biggest reason why you WOULDN’T have the confidence to beat me at Into the Void…”

I have a bit of a smirk on my face as I point to “Exhibit G”, which is a picture of Evie being pinned by Alicia Lukas.

“...that’s it. Right there. I mentioned last Sunday that momentum is only as good as your last match. Now, I took care of business against Kate Steele and I did what I had to do in that mixed tag team match. That’s nothing new for me either. The Climax Control before the big show is traditionally where I shine and build up momentum going into that match. I had done it before Blaze of Glory when I went out and beat Keira Fisher and I had done it before My Bloody Valentine when I beat Bea Barnhart and I had even done it prior to the elimination chamber challenge when I beat Seleana. Not ONCE did I look ahead to the bigger match… not once did I go into any of these matches with any sort of confidence issue… and every… single… time… I won and I got that massive momentum. But you? Against Alicia Lukas… a “bombshell of today”... a chance to really prove yourself that you can be at that elite level…

...and you fucking blew it… and now you’re coming into this SEVERELY doubting yourself, aren’t you?

What? Is that an outlandish claim?

There’s a smoking gun in this case, Evie…

Watch it back… listen to those words that you were saying to Alicia leading up to your match against her…

Listen to that ENTIRE woe-is-me presentation, Evie…

Listen to yourself bitch about other people questioning you… while you’re stupidly proving the answer to your own problem…

The fact that you even ACKNOWLEDGED that this was going on is a sign of WEAKNESS… by acknowledging this, it shows them that you are listening to any negative hearsay. Your resume is supposed to speak for itself… but you don’t allow it to because you’re too busy harping and bitching and moaning about how people say that you’re dead and gone and how you’re TRYING SO HARD to make it VERY CLEAR that you’re NOT over the hill, that you’re not a halfway champion, that you’re not an easily forgotten woman from time passed…

Who are you trying to convince with that spiel, Evie? Yourself?

Why the need to acknowledge and emphasize this?

Because the truth of the matter is… Evie Jordan doesn’t believe in Evie Jordan… and you know it, don’t you?

You talk all tough… talking about how you can’t be broken, outmatched, beaten, and so on and so forth…

...and you STUPIDLY negate it moments later… when you straight up say that in that match against Alicia, you had everything to lose. When you admit that if Alicia were to win that match, that YOU would be a joke, that YOU would be everything negative that anyone and everyone else has said about you, that if she beat you, that everything you have worked for since your return, won’t be worth a pinch of salt, a grain of sand and it would all be for nothing.

So what now, Evie? Alicia won.

Your CAREER depended on that match… in your own words. Sorry Evie, you can’t take back what you said. Alicia did in fact, leave you outmatched, beaten and… considering those desperate words about how that match meant to you… possibly broken. I mean… I GET IT… I’ve lost to Alicia before and it STUNG… but I would’ve never become a world champion without that experience… and that’s it, Evie… that’s what separates me from you…

The will to be strong… the will to stay positive… the will to push on when things don’t go right for a night…

I used to be you… I USED to be the girl that put SO much pressure on yourself to win the big match just like you did with Alicia… and I didn’t get where I wanted to be until I stopped pressuring myself. How can you POSSIBLY believe that you’re going to be world champion again when deep down inside… with all the evidence I’ve presented, it’s possible, if not probable, that you don’t believe in yourself… especially after you lost on Sunday… especially if what you’ve worked for since your return really is ‘for nothing’... especially if you really feel like you’re a joke after Sunday…

Once more with feeling Evie… I’m no Cinderella, I’m THE BEST… and I’m here to stay for a LONG time to come… win OR lose…

Can you say the same thing?”

I had one final pause as the camera panned to the mannequin in the straitjacket.

“...or are you going to be needing one of these again? I guess we’ll find out once I leave you in the void that YOU PUT YOURSELF IN after last Sunday…”

Confident and brash, I walk out of the jail cell with my championship, ready and more determined than ever to take on Evie as the camera shot faded out.




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Grief: they say that grief is love’s unwillingness to let go and since last week Evie had been drowning in it. The loss of her pet snake, her daughter… her Kitten had her longing for the days that the COVID-19 lockdown be over, she praying for daylight at the end of the tunnel of being away from home. It was true the Jordan’s had flown home last week to spend a few days in Bar Harbor dealing with the loss of their daughter. It was true that they had “broken” out of the Saxton Hotel, but regardless of the taste of freedom, it didn’t feel like they were free at all. The week had messed with them both, leaving them with unmeasurable holes in their hearts as they both dealt with the loss of Kitten.
 
It wasn’t easy for Ben to stand back and watch his headstrong wife, crumble. It wasn’t easy for him to witness her fall to pieces in his hands, but he never left her side, he never let her leave his sight. Ben knew what Evie was like and when she felt the scales of her emotions tip, she could be distressingly unpredictable. To some she was a hot mess, but to him she was a dangerous mixture of uncontrollable rage, with a splash of recklessness, a dash of aggression with the subtle hint of sweetness on top. A hurricane over the ocean, gathering momentum before making landfall would be one way to describe her attitude as of late.
 
Loss wasn’t anything new to Evie. At the tender of age of fourteen she watched her father orchestrate her mother’s death before leaving her to fend for herself. A life of crime soon followed riddled with corpses, concluding with her fathers by her own hands. It was part of the reason why Evie never allowed anyone to get close to her, it’s why her inner circle now only consisted of her husband, her dog son, and her best friend Calista. It wasn’t just her hatred for the human race that kept her isolated and very much on the outs with everyone, it was the fear of letting people in only to watch them leave. It was something she couldn’t handle, because if she were honest, she never dealt with the passing of her mother. She didn’t have time to, it was sink or swim and at the tender age of fourteen Evie chose to swim. She had lived her life a thousand miles an hour unable to slow down to heal her sorrows. She couldn’t afford to, physically or mentally and right now it was as if every inch of sadness for every tear she couldn’t shed was pouring from her body. It was as if the flood gates had opened, the rain kept pouring and the forecast for sunshine was non-existent. 
 
It took every fibre in Evie’s body to get back on the plane leaving Bar Harbor heading to Las Vegas. The threat of walking out on a World Bombshell Championship match, did materialise and cross her mind. It was only because of Ben’s inspiring words that had her putting one foot in front of the other, as she walked up the steps on to their jet. It wasn’t because she didn’t want to win, Evie knew deep down that’s all she ever wanted since returning to Sin City Wrestling and was back competing in the Blast from the Past Tournament, it’s just the numbness she felt had her refusing to believe she could be happy. Evie didn’t want to be happy, how could she be?
 
Mourning was a toxin and right now she was frothing at the mouth.  
 
Ben could only pray that Friday the fifth of June would be a turning point. He could only hope that Evie’s tears of mourning would be replaced with a tear of joy and a smile of pure happiness. After all they were heading towards five years of marriage and the last thing, he wanted was for Evie to be celebrating and suffering, the two didn’t sit hand in and hand. He could only hope that her day together would fire ball into a downhill battle towards ‪Sunday night‬ where he could witness his wife, have her moment of glory inside the six-sided wrestling ring. It would be a long wait to see how things panned out but right now, Ben was praying for a miracle.
 
Evie on the other hand refused to leave their room since returning to Las Vegas, she had buried herself in her bedsheets refusing to make a sound. Right now, she didn’t want to feel a thing, she didn’t have that sink or swim feeling, and there was no fight of flight she was just wounded, struggling to motivate any sort of healing. The Aussie didn’t want to heal, she wanted to suffer and now her past was coming back to haunt her, while the thoughts of Kitten played with her mind. She couldn’t bring her back, but that didn’t mean Evie had to stay lost and well, even if the young Aussie felt like it was just, her, Ben, and Bear against the world… she was going to be in for a rude reality check.
 
Loss sometimes presents itself in your life in a time when it’s most needed and right now the young Aussie was about to be faced with the greatest reality check of all…
 
She wasn’t alone.
 
Evie couldn’t hide in the darkness anymore and it was time for the former Sin City Wrestling World Bombshell Champion to find out if she still had what it takes to be a champion. It was time to see if she had what it took to gather herself and regain control of her quest towards the World Bombshell Championship… she was facing Andrea Hernandez after all, she was no walk in the park and whilst Evie had been licking her wounds, Andrea was finding salt in readiness to rub into them. Deep down the fighter in Evie wouldn’t allow that, she couldn’t allow that and well not all was dead and gone in the numbness of sorrow. The will to fight was soon to be alive and well.
 
Evie just needed a little kick start, to get going.
 
##
 
Sunday the thirtieth of May had the Jordan’s safe and sound back in Vegas. Evie wouldn’t dare tell Ben how angry she was to be back in the Saxton Hotel, every fibre of her being wanted to be anywhere but here. She hated ninety per cent of the Sin City Wrestling roster and being forced to coexist with them all was really starting to grind her gears. There was only so much more she could take, before she hurled herself off the top of the building, but she was doing everything in her power to convince herself otherwise. The lack of timeline towards easing restrictions was enough to have her planning her own eulogy or heck even someone else’s.
 
They had flown back in late last night, followed the company’s protocols getting the swab shoved so far up their noses they were sure it had touched their brains. Evie couldn’t hide her temper earlier as she shouted at a member of the medical staff. She was just doing her job, but she couldn’t help it, Evie was a walking emotional time bomb. The rest of the night Ben spent walking on eggshells, he knew his wife was at her wits end being here he knew that she was trying to count down the endless days but to no use, the rage that was bubbling away under the surface was starting to boil over.
 
Mark Ward and Christian Underwood had seen her explosive reaction to the medical staff and no doubt she would be spoken to about it later on but right now they kept their distance. They knew that Evie was dealing with the loss of her pet, they knew she normally handled herself professionally regardless of her reputation of being a hot head, so they let it slide for now. It was Ben who was left offering apologises as Evie stormed out of the foyer and raced off towards the elevators. Bear was right behind her as if he were there to defend her honour. Even though almost a week had passed since Kitten left her, it appears instead of healing the wound Evie was letting it fester. Picking at the scab refusing to let it heal, the truth was she didn’t want it to. Evie was all to use to this dark place of anger, she had lived there most her life. It had only lifted since meeting Ben, but when she slipped back into old habits, she wore it. She didn’t wear it well for others, but to herself it was comfortable it was reliable, and she never had to second guess anyone when she already knew the world was against her.
 
Right now, she was fighting a battle that no one else could see, that no one else wounder understand. She was disappointed in herself, she had failed Kitten and there was nothing anyone could say that would change the haunting thought that crossed her mind every day since finding out that her pet snake was sick. This was all her fault and there was nothing she could do to change it.
 
The rest of the night was fought with an endless battle for sleep and yet every time her heavy eyelids crashed together, they would rip apart in frustration. Sleep had escaped her for another night running and this week’s tally wasn’t at all in her favour. The sounds of Ben’s soft snores grated on her nerves, she couldn’t understand how as soon as his head hit the pillow he was out like a light. Like there wasn’t a care in the world that would stop him from entering the land of slumber and yet, here she was nursing burdensome eyes begging to be knocked out, so she didn’t have to suffer anymore.
 
Evie watched the hours run down, into the wee hours of the morning and before she knew it the sound of Ben’s alarm clock was upon them. As Ben moved under the crisp white bed sheets, he blissfully turned towards his wife with a massive toothy smile plastered on his face. Yet, she was nowhere to be found. Reaching across the king size bed, he patted the doona looking for his wife but still he came up empty handed. Sitting up in their bed Ben rubbed at his eyes, letting them adjust to the light as he looked around the room searching for Evie. Bear had given him a pretty clear indication as to where she was as he too was missing from the bedroom, he was laid up outside their bathroom. His head resting on his paws, he looked as if sleep refused to cross his path as the whiteness around his eyes were blood shot. Ben moved from the bed, pulling the doona from the top of the bed wrapping it around his shoulders as he made his way over towards the bathroom. A gentle knock was all he gave as he pressed his ear up towards the wooden door, it wasn’t closed completely so he just pushed it forward his eyes going wide as they looked upon his wife who laid out in the bathtub.
 
“I didn’t hear you get up.” Ben joked. “Jesus Christ, Eves.” He couldn’t help but raise his voice.
 
His eyes had moved from her toe and scanned up her body towards her face seeing her blood red eyes, circled with dark rings. Evie looked as if she hadn’t slept for a month and well, it didn’t feel that far off as every inch of her body felt pounded. It was as if she had been dragged over a bumpy road, behind a car she felt battered, bruised, and broken. The tears that pooled at the bottom of her eyes gave it away, Ben could tell that she had been trying again and it broke him.  Each and every time he saw this side of his wife, he couldn’t help but feel a little piece inside of him die as well. Since meeting each other, he had never seen this side of her. It was unfamiliar and the fact that every time he offered her support, she silenced her way out of it. It wasn’t healthy. It reminded him of the time Evie found out about his illness and how she completely shut down to everyone else in the world but him. The braver the face she put on for him, the more he knew she would hide out at times and lose all her tears over it in secret. Evie was the rock, the emotionless pillar of their relationship so to see her like this was crippling to say the least.
 
“You need to hop out of there.” Ben ordered. “The water is freezing, and you’ll catch a bloody cold.” His voice was riddled with concern.
 
Evie just looked up at Ben, there was no smile. She couldn’t have offered him one even if she wanted to, she was soo tried it would have hurt to even try.
 
“What time is it?” She whispered, already knowing.
 
“It’s ‪eight am‬.” He replied.
 
“Don’t you have a run with Fenris to get ready for?” She dismissed him.
 
“Trying to get rid of me?” He snorted. “It’s ‪at nine am‬.” Ben reminded her. “I need to get you sorted first.” He sighed.
 
Evie just looked up at him, her normally clear beautiful green eyes rolled. She wasn’t a child she didn’t need him to sort her out she was grieving she just needed to be left alone. Well, even that wasn’t the truth. Honestly Evie didn’t know what she needed and she really hated feeling as if she was dwelling on the loss of Kitten but she couldn’t put her feelings into words, all she knew is that she was right back where she was before she meet Ben. Unhappy, broken, mentally abused. Evie turned her head away, she hated the way Ben was looking at her. It was like pity mixed with concern. It was as if his blue eyes were trying to read her, as if she had a story to tell. The story was simple she wasn’t okay and no matter how many times she lied to him, telling him that everything was going to be okay she couldn’t help but notice the distrust that crossed his features.
 
“Eves, please.” He begged. “Talk to me. I need to know what’s going on in there.” A puff of air escaped his lips.
 
Evie just got up from the tub, reached out for a towel and dried herself half arsedly before she wrapped the towel around her chest covering herself up. The last thing she wanted was for Ben to be searching her body for scars, of wounds that didn’t exists.
 
“There’s nothing to tell.” She lied. “I’m fine… I just didn’t sleep.”
 
Leaving the bathroom, Evie walked past Ben not intentionally giving him the cold shoulder but boy he felt the artic breeze as she blew past him. Reaching out he grabbed hold of her, pulling her into him for a hug refusing to let go as she dropped her arms to her side. Evie loved him, she would forever but right now she didn’t want to feel warm, she didn’t want to feel loved she wanted him to hate her as much as she hated herself. Ben rested his chin on the top of her head before he spoke to her.
 
“I know its hard Eves, but you to at least try to put one foot in front of the other and get out of this.” Ben offered his advice. “It’s not your fault Eves, please stop beating yourself up over it.” He pleaded. 
 
Evie couldn’t contain it anymore she was sick of being told it was going to be okay. That it wasn’t her fault, it was her fault and there was nothing she could do to change that. That feeling would always burn deep down inside festering like an infection waiting to turn septic and lethal. Ben felt Evie’s body rumble in his arms, it was if the kettle had been set to boil and the climax of eruption was boiling.
 
“I left her Ben… I left her alone… and the last thing that probably ran through her mind was, where was I?” Evie shouted. “I SAVED HER… I RESCUED HER… ME… AND I’M THE ONE THAT LEFT HER IN UNCAPABLE HANDS AND NOW WHAT?” Her body trembled refusing to tip over. “I’M GETTING EVERYTHING… EVERYTHING I DESERVE.”
 
Evie pulled away from Ben, her right index finger was pointing at him as she shouted even though she was abusing herself.
 
“Kitten left me... US and its all MY Fault.” She growled. “I’M A HORRIBLE FUCKING PERSON BEN… WHY CAN’T YOU SEE THAT?” Evie squeaked in a hurricane of emotions.
 
Evie could see the confused look in Ben’s eyes. She knew he didn’t deserve to be shouted at, but she couldn’t put a lid on it she was at her wits end and nothing was making her feel anything.
 
“NO MATTER WHAT I TOUCH.” She kicked off. “I HURT. I RUIN… WHY ARE YOU EVEN HERE? WHY ARE YOU EVEN WITH ME? I’M EVERYTHING THEY SAY I AM… I CAN’T EVEN… I’M … I’M… I’M…”
 
Evie couldn’t finish that sentence as her voice trembled and without warning the flood gates had opened tears streamed down her face. Ben knew what she was going to say, “I can’t even give you a child.” It was her common enemy. It was the one lashing in life that continued to come back and slash her open, refusing to heal. However, it was all starting to make sense to him now. Evie wasn’t handling the loss of her “daughter” because Kitten was the closest thing she’d ever have, that would even be remotely like the real deal. All of the emotions of the past were gelling with her pains of the present and Evie couldn’t get her head above water to save herself. Looking across at Ben, it had just clicked to her that she had just shouted at him for no valid reason. Her hands reached up to her lips, her throat begging for moisture as blinked away the tears.
 
“I’m sorry… I’m so sorry.” She choked. “I… You don’t deserve this.” Evie whispered.
 
Ben went to speak but Evie’s body flushed cold as a new fear swept over her body, she believed that she had pushed him too far and there was no way of getting him back. The last thing she wanted to hear was him agreeing so she wouldn’t allow his lips to spill the words. She backed away from Ben, heading towards the bathroom and with a slam of the door she locked it hiding away from it all. Leaving Ben standing in front of the locked door, unable to reach for her, unable to help. Evie couldn’t get a grip on what was unfolding in her life, she couldn’t understand the misery, she didn’t want to hurt anymore but every time she forced a smile she felt as if she was forgetting Kitten’s memory. The one person that made her truly happy was on the other side of the locked door and she had just shouted at him for no reason, almost egging him on to leave her. Evie didn’t know why she spiralled like this, it was all new to her but if she tried to put it into words it was as if an arrow had pierced through her chest and it was protruding from her heart. She was toxic and right now, the ink from her words were staining the only ray of light she had left shining on her, trying to help her grow.
 
##
 
The week had rolled past like a tumbleweed in the middle of the barren desert, it felt like eternity for Evie as she struggled to resume any sense of normalcy. She had entertained Ben’s idea of fun with his A Team craziness whilst trying to keep up appearances in the Saxon Hotel. The last thing she wanted was people talking about her lack thereof lead up towards the Sin City Wrestling World Bombshell Championship. She didn’t need to be reminded of how many times one was meant to hit the gym, how long for and be made out to a lazy challenger. Evie already knew people thought she didn’t deserve her place at Into the Void, regardless of her wins in the Blast from the Past tournament. She wasn’t Crystal, she wasn’t Alicia, and she wasn’t Roxi Johnson. Evie had walked back into the company… well she was shoved back into the company, expressed no real desire in sticking around and yet, here she was just days away from facing Andrea for the grand jewel for the Bombshells.
 
Evie had spent a far chunk of her week inside her room, or by the pool and when she couldn’t sleep at night and the sounds of Ben’s soft snores drove her to the point of breaking, she hit up the hotel gym. She knew if this continued she would be too exhausted to give Andrea the match that she deserved at Into the Void but she wasn’t going to just go out there, drop down to her back and let the current World Bombshell Champion walk all over her. Evie was a fighter and even if all her bones aches, her skin felt like it was blistering from lack of circulation and her eyes felt as if they were now a part of her brain from being that far sunken into her skull she wasn’t going to give up the one thing she had going for her. Her ability to mix it up with the best of the best inside the six-sided ring and for most parts of history she was able to defend what was hers or carry herself to be a solid contender.
 
‪Thursday night was no different, sleep has escaped her so Evie had found herself back in the gym but she wasn’t alone this time as Fenris was walking out when she was walking in at midnight after a brief conversation or nods and grunts Evie had someone how found herself invited to his last training session with Gabriel before Into the Void. It didn’t take a rocket scientist to see that Evie was hurting and Fenris being the secret softie that he is, couldn’t bear to see her the way she was. Friday morning ticked around and the two met up in the lower car park, as Fenris still had his reservations about leaving the hotel during the lockdown, Gabriel took it upon himself to move one of his wrestling rings to the bottom level of carpark setting it up so his students didn’t have to risk the short drive to get to the GO Gym. The gym was also closed for most of the week so proper cleaning could take place in between shows. However, appointments were strictly encouraged as Gabriel had a family of his own that he loved spending time with, and any late comers were punished appropriately inside the ropes. ‬
 
Evie arrived just in time as Fenris and Gabriel stood in the middle of the ring, looking towards the entry way near the elevators. She had a black duffle bad slung over her shoulder, but she was dressed head to toe in her training gear. A pair of black tracksuit pants and a black Nike shirt that hung off of her, slender but toned body. Gabriel was looking down at his watch, she had exactly twenty seconds to get inside the ring or she would be officially late. The Australian wasted no time in making her easy towards the ring, dropping her back down to the outside before she rolled under the bottom rope, laying on her back as the final three seconds ticked down.
 
“Cutting it a bit fine there Evie.” Gabriel’s British tone scalded her.
 
Evie looked up at him from her position on the canvas, a half-arsed smile on her face as she debated if she should fire back with her own witty remark, however all her words were replaced by the voice of Fenris.
 
“Is that how you plan on winning the World Bombshell Championship ‪this Sunday‬?” He barked. “If I were you, I’d try and you know, attempt to look alive.” Fenris shrugged his shoulders.
 
“I haven’t been sleeping” Evie in return shrugged her shoulders.
 
“Have you and Ben ever thought that less, is sometimes more?” Gabriel smirked as he spoke.
 
Those words grinded on Evie, she hated them. Less is less, it was never more. Fenris just screwed his face up, he didn’t need to picture Evie and Ben’s late-night festivities. However, the looked that crossed Evie’s face said it all, she was like a deer caught in headlights. Her normal smart arsed remark never made it to see light of day because, that wasn’t even remotely close the reason why she hadn’t been sleeping. Getting back up to her feet Evie just started to stretch out her arms as she swung them clockwise before she looked back at Gabriel and Fenris with an unamused looked on her face.
 
“Are we going to train or what?” Her harsh tone cut the air like a knife.
 
“Waiting on you.” Fenris bit back, without any remorse.
 
“Run the ropes, five minutes straight let’s go.” Gabriel shouted. 
 
Gabriel moved out of the ring, as he looked down at his IWC watch making a reference of the time as Evie and Fenris started to run the ropes. The two had trained together before, they had been at the same gym for years, so they worked like clockwork. Evie was usually faster than Fenris, but today she couldn’t keep up with him. Each time her foot pounded the canvas, she felt her whole body vibrate from impact, and her eyes closed as she turned and bounced off the ropes. She was tired, but she had to force herself to stay awake, she couldn’t walk into the supercard looking like a mess and being a failure. Evie knew what it felt like to be a champion but right now all she could feel was failure. Gabriel and Fenris watched as Evie slipped behind, as Fenris lapped her they could tell something was eating Evie alive, she wasn’t like this. She was normally repulsive with her chase of competition she was normally aggressive and assertive. Fenris knew that Evie and Ben had gone home last week, he knew that Evie returned with a dark cloud raging above her head, he knew about her pet dying and sadly he knew about her outburst with Ben.
 
As Evie bounced off the ropes and took off on another lap of the ring, Fenris stuck his foot out to trip her a smile beaming on his face as he did so. He was devil in disguise at times and he knew if he was going to get through to Evie it wasn’t going to be through punishment and not walking on eggshells, treating her like a ticking time bomb. Evie fell to the canvas her hands catching her and without even a second thought her attention shifted towards Fenris, and it was on. She got back to her feet and it a ball of fury she charged him, fists clubbing towards Fenris’ body as he playfully covered up. Evie went the kiss the side of Fenris’ face with her right fist but he blocked her, shooing her hand away as if it was nothing but as he chuckled to himself seeing her green eyes light up in anger, he missed her left hand come up and jab right at his Adams apple. Fenris coughed as he reached up to his throat, but he didn’t have time to recover as she drove her shoulder into his torso, before pushing him away from her as she slapped her hands on his bare chest.
 
“WHAT THE F…” Evie started, but she was stopped mid-sentence.
 
“ENOUGH!” Gabriel shouted.
 
“He tripped me over.” Evie screamed back.
 
“She jabbed me in the throat.” Fenris defended his actions.
 
Gabriel looked at both of them, standing outside the ring shaking his head from side to side as Evie and Fenris regained their composure.
 
“All I asked of you both, was to run the ropes…GROW UP.” Gabriel blasted them both.
 
Evie looked at Fenris, her hands finding their way to her hips as she glared at him. Fenris just smirked back towards her.
 
“This is all your fault.” Fenris grumbled.
 
“HOW?” Evie blasted back.
 
Fenris just moved back to running the ropes as he knew Gabriel was waiting to restart his watch. If you didn’t complete a set, you started again from the top. It was Gabriel’s way of training you didn’t get to move on until you mastered the task at hand and if that meant you spent the whole two hour session with him running the ropes that meant you spent the whole two hours running the ropes. It was that simple.  Evie moved back towards the ropes, standing beside Fenris before she turned to look back at Gabriel who gave them both the nod and they were back off and racing. Evie still time trying to her hardest to keep up with Fenris as his long legs guided across the ring, with ease.
 
“You’re going to lose ‪on Sunday night‬.” Fenris spoke as he ran. “You look like shit, it’s embarrassing.” He followed up.
 
Fenris knew what he was doing, he was waiting for Evie to snap but she didn’t listen to him as she just pushed herself trying to keep up with him. Normally she did it without any struggles but from her lack of sleep she felt as if she was carrying an extra one hundred pounds. The two hit the ropes and in sync the rebounded and rushed towards the opposite set.
 
“All those wins in the Blast from the Past, for nothing… look at you, you can barely keep your eyes open. What kind of challenger allows herself to get this run down before a fight?” Fenris questioned.
 
Evie gritted her teeth, trying her hardest to ignore Fenris’ grating voice but he could tell he was gaining leverage from the stone-cold look on Evie’s face. As the two pounded off the ropes, they turned and repeated the process running down another lap of the six-sided ring as Gabriel watched on from the outside.
 
“You’re really going to go out there and humiliate the GO gym? You’re really going to make a mockery of the World Bombshell Championship match, you were handed? Andrea is right, you are a waste of time.” Fenris licked his lips, as he spoke. “The fearless Evie… more like the fearful Evie.” He chucked once more.
 
Evie was doing everything she could to block him out, she knew Fenris was bad for mind games especially when it came to her. They were a lot alike even if they both hated to admit that. As they punched the ropes again, the turned and Evie made a mad dash towards the ropes trying to get as far away from Fenris as possible but it didn’t work his long less and speed kept him by her side the whole way across the ring.
 
“Maybe Evie Jordan is the weaker side of you Evie… maybe the Jordan name is your weakness?” Fenris said, his voice carried without any cardio interruption.
 
Fenris watched as Evie dropped back a few steps before he did the same to maintain the same level of speed as her. He needed to get inside that head of her, he needed her to snap and he was more than happy to do so with the weight of words people have used towards Evie since her return to Sin City Wrestling.
 
“How are you going to become one half of the power couple, when you couldn’t even get into the ring just before? You had to roll yourself in… lazy… what did you call Andrea last week a bench warmer champion at best? That’s a tough call, coming from someone who has spent all week long licking her wounds and not putting in the work.” Fenris smirked.
 
Evie stopped in her tracks and before Fenris could slow down and stop she rushed towards him again once more, her arms swinging in every direction as Evie tried to back him up into a corner.
 
“What the hell is wrong with you?” Evie barked. “Just shut up. SHUT UP” She begged.
 
Fenris just looked at her and with a cold stare, he urged her on.
 
“Make me.” He provoked her, with that cool look in his eyes.
 
Evie swung at him again but Fenris jumped back missing the fury of her balled up fists she waited for Gabriel to scream at them to stop but he didn’t instead the master of magic entered the ring and like the angel and the devil. Fenris and Gabriel each took a side and egged Evie on.
 
“Come on Evie… where’s the girl I trained all those years ago?” Gabriel baited her.
 
Evie turned on the balls of her feet, her bottom lip dropped to see that Gabriel was now in the thick of it trying to get her to snap out of this funk that she was wallowing in.
 
“Where’s the World Champion I helped create?” He questioned her again.
 
Evie launched towards Gabriel, but he too jumped back just in time to fist the fury of her right fist. A chuckle left both Fenris and Gabriel’s lips as they teased her, running out of the way avoiding all her swipes all her attacks as Evie just gritted her teeth trying to land one punch to shut them both up.
 
“I’m right here.” Evie shouted.
 
“Where?” Fenris joked. “Because I sure as hell can’t see her.”
 
“HERE!” Evie screamed.
 
Evie was sick of listening to Gabriel and Fenris mock her, she was sick of hearing their chuckles and with the ball of rage that was set alight in her stomach she closed her eyes wanting to give up and run away but as she heard the sound of Gabriel about to speak, she launched towards him with her fists but caught him off guard with her feet as she swept his legs out from under him. Gabriel looked up at Evie from his position on the canvas with a smile on his face, proud of her for catching him off guard. Evie made her way back to her feet, she turned and stared a hole in Fenris’ direction he was next. The Aussie ducked down, and she rushed towards his midsection, driving her shoulder into it Fenris rocked backwards but he didn’t fall instead he just toyed with her some more as he pulled on her braided ponytail, slapping her with it. Evie moved away from him, she went to sweep his legs out from underneath him, but he jumped over her right leg with ease, but on his way down he missed her right hand that gut punched him right in the six pack. Before Fenris could move away Evie yanked on his blonde mope he called hair before, she was pulled off of him by Gabriel.
 
“There’s my girl.” Gabriel said proudly. “Now, knock it off the both of you. RUN THE ROPES.” He shouted at them.
 
Fenris looked at Evie with a devilish look in his eyes as he moved away from her and headed back towards the ropes.
 
“Glad to see you’re back.” He chuckled. “Now stop messing around, we’ve got A LOT of work to do to get you even close to being ready for Andrea at Into the Void.” Fenris laughed again.
 
Evie just looked between Fenris and Gabriel, confused as all hell but the soreness in her body had shifted her skin didn’t feel like ice and the heaviness of her eyes had disappeared. Her eyes were locked on Fenris and she knew exactly what he and Gabriel had just done to her. Evie hated being so weak, to be so easily manipulated by Fenris was horrifying to her. There was something about his smug alpha attitude that had Evie always wanting to outdo him, always wanting to show him who was boss and remind him that she had to walk so he could run when it came to wrestling and being a student of the GO Gym.
 
The rest of the morning the two worked surprisingly well together and they were lucky enough to stop running the ropes. Evie and Fenris both had big matches coming up at Into the Void and if they wanted to make sure they were in tip top shape they needed to take the rest of their last training session seriously and well, by the end of the two hours Evie had learnt a few new trick thanks to Fenris that she was more than happy to pull out of her bag at Into the Void while facing Andrea.
 
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It had been a long week for Evie, it started with her shouting at Ben for no reason as she was blinded by her own rage, directed at herself. Running on no sleep whilst heading towards and Sin City Wrestling World Bombshell Championship match, had Evie second guessing herself and perhaps everyone’s comments of her not deserving her spot at Into the Void was starting to hold more weight, than her tiresome eyes. Still she had spent the morning training with Fenris and Gabriel, trying to dig down deep and get back on track so, she didn’t head into the super card a complete mess. That’s the last thing Evie wanted, was to be exposed for what she was and right now she was hurting. Emotionally she was broken and physically she wasn’t that far behind.

Evie has come back up to her hotel room after training, to a surprise. Right inside the door was a single lit candle, rose petals on the floor that lead a trail towards the bathroom. Right in the doorway there was a note written in Ben’s hand writing that read “Go for a shower and wait for further instruction.” Evie couldn’t help but smile, she thought his silence this morning meant he had forgotten all about their five year wedding anniversary or that he didn’t feel like celebrating. Evie did as she was instructed and showered, unbeknownst to her while she showered Ben had left another note on the bathroom floor. The next instruction simply read. “Get dressed” there was a little red bag beside the note, Evie was excited to see what he husband had planned and without any hesitation she reached for the bag. Looking inside she saw a black racy lingerie number, a devilish smiled crossed her face. Following the next step Evie dried herself off and follow Ben’s instruction.

Once she was dress and ready she draped a silk robe around her shoulders before Evie left the bathroom, heading back towards the living room she noticed another trail of red rose petals that lead towards the couch. Following the breadcrumb like trail she reached the couch and that’s were her eyes laid on the third instruction “Take a seat and turn on the telly”. Evie sat down the on the black leather couch, and reached for the remote, pressing the red button the screen buzzed to life. The DVD player was already set up ready to go all Evie had to do was press play.

Her long black manicured nail tapped across the button and she quickly pressed play, excited to see what Ben had in store for her. As soon as she pressed play, Ben cheesy grin was on the television in front of her.

“Hey Love.” He started off. “Sit back relax and enjoy the show.” Ben smiled.

His face faded away and the screen changed to a shot of Paris, followed by a replay of their wedding video in Paris. A mixture of videos followed from their personal collection, to showing off footage of Kitten and Bear. It blended in some footage of their matches together in Sin City Wrestling, highlighting their mix tag team matches and best of backstage smooches. The video where Ben declares that they were together and letting the world know his love for her. The video moved on to show their wedding in Vegas, followed by time they spent together at home in Cuba, Bar Harbor and London. After twenty minutes the video came to and end leaving Evie with a blank screen. The fourth instruction splashed up on the screen about ten minutes after the video stopped “Head to the bedroom and wait.”

However, Evie couldn’t answer the call as she had fallen asleep on the couch. The weight of this week was too much for her and after shedding some happy tears from the video her husband had put together for her, she didn’t reopen them after or finished. Evie’s head tipped back and rested on the back of the couch, she was out like a light.

Ben had returned from gathering the last items for the night he had planned as he walked back into the hotel room carrying a bottle of wine, a bucket of ice and a large bouquet of roses. He made his way in a dash towards the bedroom, eager to start tonight’s festivities but as he rushed by he quickly doubled back to see his wife passed out asleep on the couch. A wave of disappointment came over his body but when he saw her peaceful features he couldn’t help but smile.

This week had been a nightmare for Evie, sleep had been out of reach but right now she was at peace. Ben emptied his hands as he dropped off the wine, ice bucket and roses before he moved towards his wife on the couch. Scooping her up into his arms he moved her from the couch resting her down on their bed. Refusing to move Ben curled up beside her, it wasn’t the night he had planned but it was the night he was happy with. To see Evie finally be able to rest, was a present within itself.

The days before her match at Into the Void were on the final countdown and it was good to see that Evie was able to move out of her own darkness and step into the light. Here’s hoping the former Bombshell Champion hadn’t left it to late in the week to make a change. All Ben knew is that this moment of peace was well needed after the two weeks of hell she had emotionally been through. There would be another day to celebrate their union, after all they were destined to be together for ever.

The time of grieving was almost over, and the time to heal was upon them both.

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The scene opened up inside a vacant space inside the Saxon Hotel. It looked as if it was an unused conference room, however with a little razzle dazzle it has been transformed from a boring four wall meeting room what appeared to be a deserted forest. The background although it was green screened looked like an eerie forest as tall redwood pines reached for the sky, while a soft fog spilled across the floor covering up the black and grey swirled carpet. For anyone keeping up with Evie’s story they knew in the early days she would cut her promos from dark abandon roads, but since being constricted to the four walls of the Saxon Hotel she was making do with what was on offer. In the background a shadow moved across the field of trees but before making it to the clear pathway in the middle of the wall she stopped and her voice was heard.
 
“Andrea… Andrea… Andrea.” Evie’s harsh accent was heard.
 
Each and every time she spoke Andrea’s name her tone changed to show her disappointment.
 
“Last week I expected the world from you and yet, you showed up and handed me an atlas.” Evie sighed. “You could have showed the world how great you really are on the microphone, how great you are in front of a camera but you chose to dwell inside a makeshift jail cell, hanging out with a mannequin, wearing a straitjacket and you thought it would be fitting to read me a fairy-tale? You thought you would capture my attention by reliving my history? When you should be looking to the future. Stupid little girl. I don’t need you to retell my story, I don’t need you to try and pinpoint the moment it all went wrong for me in Sin City Wrestling. I don’t need you to try and list my weaknesses… I needed you to show me what lengths you would go to keep your World Bombshell Championship and yet, instead of staking your claim… you acted like an immature little child, reading pages from a book I already know… because I wrote the pages.” Evie sighed again. “You wasted your breath, trying to incite fear in me. You wasted your time trying to cut me down with your words, you wasted your chance to prove to me that you have what it takes to stand across the ring from me at Into the Void… You had your chance last week to knock me down, you had your chance last week to leave me lifeless as I scraped up the feelings of my past… but you used your time to hold onto the fact I called your championship reign a fairy-tale and you squeezed the life out of it.” Evie paused. “You had a real opportunity to go for my throat, but instead you stumbled and fell at the last hurdle.”
 
That devilish smile was on Evie’s face as she turned towards the camera looking into the lens. The camera picked up that she was wearing all black from head to toe as she was covered by a cloak, a hoodie draped over her head. Large black pinpoint heels covered her feet, and with each step she took the soles crushed down on broken glass as if she were standing on gravel.
 
“Last week you Andrea, proved to me that you could set me on fire a million ways and yet, I will never burn.” Evie chuckled to herself.
 
She rolled her tongue across her bright white teeth, the animal inside of her alive and well as she moved towards the camera moving across the forest behind her.
 
“It’s okay Andrea, I’m used to having people try and play mind games with me only to have them fail. You see it isn’t easy to get inside my mind, you’ll learn that at Into the Void when all this talk about how you’re under my skin falls flat and you soon realise that when you moved across this chess board, you eliminated your chance to check mate me when you thought you the downward spiral of my career was facing Polly Playtime and losing, as I was restricted in a straitjacket? You think that moment in my career eats me alive? You really should have dug a little deeper… you really should have pinpointed the night that was knocked out by Valora… that’s where you should have targeted me... That’s where you would have rocked me ever so slightly from my balance, but you chose the obvious.” Evie smirked.
 
She moved towards the camera once more, showing of a long floor length black cloak that draped off her shoulders effortlessly.
 
“So, what happens ‪after Sunday night‬ Andrea? When I beat you? Is your greatest fear in the future going to be people dressing up as me?” Evie giggled to herself. “You have a lot to learn about mind games, its best you stick to doing what you know best storytelling. At Into the Void little lamb I can promise you defending your title isn’t going to be one of your strengths either.” She paused to smile, that wicked smile. “I’m going to take the World Bombshell Championship away from your grasps and there isn’t a damn thing you, can do about it. You proved to me last week, that I’m in your head and ‪on Sunday night‬ I’ll teach you what it’s like to be inside someone’s head but trust me you won’t like it.” That devilish smirk rested on her face. 
 
Evie moved towards the camera, as her face shifted the lights cast as shadow across the right-hand side of her face. Her left green eye was piercing down the lens of the camera, showing how focused she really was.
 
“You keep giving me whiplash Andrea, one minute you say were a lot alike the next minute your trying to force your dominance. Sure, our early days in Sin City Wrestling, might slightly mirror but here’s the kicker… I’ve come and gone in this company and yet, when people speak of the ones who instilled fear into the Bombshell division, they always speak of my name and yet… your name? doesn’t even warrant a mention. You said last week that since you arrived in Sin City Wrestling, there has been a buzz around you… sadly its from your own creation. Your name hasn’t been surrounded by bright lights, your name hasn’t put you on a pedestal… no one has even cited your name in the circle of greatness because you my little lamb, are too afraid to step out of the shadows. You, Andrea are too concerned with how people see you that your refuse to do anything worth watching and that’s why you’ll always been in the shadows of likes of Roxi Johnson, Crystal Multiple-Last-Fucking-Names, Alicia Lukas… it’s not because they have cut you down and run you into the dirt, it’s because you are your own worst enemy and instead of working towards greatness, you only speak of it and that’s why you’ll always hold yourself back, you’ll never reach you true potential.” Evie smirked.
 
Evie moved towards the light once more the background fading into the distance.
 
“You dare speak of me and what I’ve done in this company like you know me. You don’t know me. You will never hold a candle to me and your proved that last week when you set up exhibits, like you were the judge, jury, and executioner. Trying to use my words against me? You should have focused on what really matters… my actions inside six-sided Sin City Wrestling ring, I always make sure my actions speak louder than words… just ask the countless bodies I have left behind on my path.” Evie smirked once again.
 
Her heels crunched against the broken glass as she made her way towards the camera, letting it zoom in on her face. Her blood red lips parted to show off her bright white teeth, her grin was nothing short of animalistic as she continued with her promotional video. 
 
“Last week you spent half your time telling me about all the things that must eat me alive, let me tell it to you straight... there’s only one thing that eats me... and that’s my husband.” A confident blush crossed her face. “It’s not you, it’s not a straitjacket, it’s not a loss to Polly fucking Playtime… you don’t even come close. You just think that you hold down the roster at the moment because you’re the current Sin City Wrestling World Bombshell Champion… but ‪after Sunday night‬ all this illusion of power that’s beaming around you, will shatter, you’ll lose your glow, you’ll lose your false dominance and you’ll be forced to the back of the line.” She paused, letting that sink in. “And the seven long months it took you to get here, to become champion will feel like a short vacation compared to your next long gruelling climb back to the top.”
 
Evie smirked wildly, her eyes locked on the camera as she continued.
 
“You see once I beat you ‪on Sunday night‬, I’m not going to be a transitional champion. I’m not going to be the one that hands it to Alicia… I’m going to rule over the Bombshell division, I’m going to create my own destiny, I’m going to remind people like you just exactly who the fuck I am and what I’m capable of and well, when you voice your sorry sad excuses as to why you deserve a rematch, why you deserve to prove yourself as a worthy contender… I’ll be here to remind you, that you’re not good enough to withstand the pressure of being the top tier champion in this business. I will be your roadblock, and you can thank your ignorant arse for that. Last week you tried to ruin my name, you tried to drag me through the mud and how far did that get you? Where are you now? Let me tell you, you’re a few sleeps away from losing your prized World Bombshell Championship. You’re a few nights away from realising that no matter how hard you tried to jam your greatest down our throats, we weren’t buying, we didn’t want a taste because false promises of being a fighting champion don’t sit well in Sin City Wrestling. In fact, false promises get picked apart, analysed and decimated.” Evie paused.
 
Letting those words sink in, she knew her harsh Australian accent at times could gel as one, so she made sure that every work hit its mark before she continued.
 
“Since winning the World Bombshell Championship, you’ve made it about yourself. In your victory speech, instead of relishing in becoming the newest member of a hall of champions you poured your heart out and used that moment to promote your sad fucking story and since then, nothing has changed. Holding the World Bombshell Championship doesn’t mean anything to you, apart from it’s an ego boost that you have used to blind yourself with the notion that you’re the best bombshell on this roster. It’s an easy mistake from you, I mean since winning you can’t see past your own nose to realise there are other bombshells on this roster who could and would runs rings around you and make it look like a fucking warm up.” Evie paused. “Please.” Evie tutted. “If we had a dollar for every fucking one-time defence champion that walked through the doors of Sin City Wrestling, who claimed to be the best… we wouldn’t have to worry about world hunger.”
 
That smirk was alive and well on Evie’s face.
 
“You’re resting your success on retaining your Sin City Wrestling World Bombshell Championship, based on a tweet I sent out? That’s your biggest claim to being better than me? A tweet I said, where I humbly downplayed my abilities.” Evie faked a laugh. “If you’re the future of this company I don’t want a fucking part of it. Unlike you I DON’T need to say I’m the best. I don’t have to PROVE I’m the best because I already KNOW I have what it tastes to hang with the best of them in Sin City Wrestling. I know that if they were to line up Mikah, I would look her straight in the eyes and I would give her the fight of her life. Win or lose, I wouldn’t back down, I wouldn’t struggle… I would hold my own. We would give that match everything we could, and I wouldn’t have to spew any words from the mouth about my greatest because when people see me in the ring, they already fucking KNOW it.” She stared down the camera. “So, week in and week out as you talk about your journey to hell and back to get to the top of this business so you could call yourself the best. Just know no one fucking believes you.” Evie paused.
 
She moved towards the camera once more, slipping the coat off her shoulders to show off her latest ring gear. Skin tight black leather body suit, her long black hair was straightened and flowing around her shoulders. On top of her head was a crown of thorns.

“At Into the Void Andrea, you’ll learn a valuable lesson... never count me out, never think you’re better than me, because pain is sure to follow.” Evie smirked wildly. “The price of your pain will be the loss of your World Bombshell Championship and trust me for months, even years to follow you’ll be the left grieving.” She paused. “Don’t think for one second that I won’t give you the fight of your life. Trust me, I won’t just take you to hell, I’ll take you to the end of your limits and I won’t hesitate to give you that final fucking shove. Off the pedestal, off your perch and off the peak of the Bombshell division.”

Evie glared down the lens of the camera, as she ran her tongue across her white teeth. Reaching up, she pushed the crown of thorns into her skin piercing it, as a small trickle of blood started to flow from the wounds she smiled.

“I’ll see you on Sunday little lamb and at Into the Void, you’ll be led to your slaughter.” She paused.

The blood dripped down her face, running across her lips as she finished this one up.

“Your reign has ended and my watch, has only just begun.” Evie snarled.

The camera panned in and focused on the streaks of blood down Evie’s face showing it pooling at her lips, and running across her eyes but she didn’t flinch she maintained her focus. She was locked and loaded to become the next Sin City Wrestling World Bombshell Champion. The scene quickly faded to darkness leaving behind a blank screen.

Into the Void was only days away and Evie knew that she had given this lead up her all and now she was only days away from seeing if she was still worth it. She was just days away from finding out if she hadn’t wasted everybody’s time in returning to Sin City Wrestling, at the end of the night she would either walk away as the NEW Sin City Wrestling World Bombshell Champion or Evie would be known just as the 2020 Blast from the Past winner.  

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Andrea Henandez V Evie Jordan
« Reply #4 on: June 05, 2020, 11:42:00 PM »
 Late 2017

I’m reflecting on a night where I had just about had enough of everything, a night where I felt so empty and alone. I was crying some heavy waterfalls on this night considering that I felt like as a singles performer I was hopeless. I had left UWA a couple of weeks prior to this night, but it wasn’t making me feel much better. Over a breakfast with Clarissa Vega, one of my best friends, I had just about lost it.

“I hate this…” I admitted to Clarissa.

“Hate what? She would ask me in concern.”

“I HATE how everything has to be so fucking HARD!” Of course, at the time, I was certainly not appreciating my journey, which could definitely be attributed to me having ‘young and stupid’ syndrome at the time.

“I understand how you feel, Andrea…” Clarissa said to try and get me to calm down. “But you know that the worst is over…”

I laughed through my tears, almost in a mocking sense.

“...the worst is over…” I said with a mocking chuckle. “SURE IT IS! Hey, maybe I should have just laid down and had Jenni Anderson pin me just so I can take the money she was offering considering that 10 grand is all I’m fucking worth in this business, right?

Clarissa sighed, shaking her head as she realized that she wasn’t getting through to me.

“Utopia is over! Myra is done abusing me! I’m out of UWA! WOW! GREAT! THE WORST IS OVER!”

“Andrea, calm down…” Clarissa said as she tried to reason with me.

“But if it’s not ONE THING, it’s ANOTHER! If it’s not me being overlooked OVER AND OVER AGAIN by mainstream companies, it’s being overshadowed and overlooked by such a PIECE OF SHIT tag team partner who is notorious for stalking another woman’s boyfriend. If it’s not that, it’s UWA treating me like I’m such a piece of shit and all these vapid whore bikini models talking down to me and acting as if I am fucking NOTHING! If it’s not that, it’s MYRA and her ABUSE of me… ‘oh you’ll never amount to ANYTHING, Andrea…’, ‘oh you’ll NEVER be anything SPECIAL, ANDREA!... oh and how about Jenni taking me SO seriously that she offered me that money to lie down for her? How about the fact that… oh I don’t know… she BOUGHT my father’s wrestling school and converted it to a summer resort for herself? And if it’s not THAT, it’s being named to Team Livewire…”

“But that’s a GOOD THING…” Clarissa stated. “...your boss thinks highly of you…”

“No she doesn’t…, she only picked me because of my experience as a TAG TEAM WRESTLER! She thinks I’m a TAG TEAM WRESTLER! I HATE THAT! I HATE that I even have to go through SO fucking much just to get NOTHING out of my career! I HATE that I’ve even BEEN through the bullshit that I’ve been through. I HATE that I’m a fucking VICTIM of EVERYONE, I HATE that I’m such a fucking MEDIOCRE AT BEST piece of shit WRESTLER that probably would’ve been better off going into bikini modeling or something, I HATE that I can’t catch ONE fucking break… I HATE that I can’t have my ONE fucking big breakthrough moment… every time I’m in that ring, I’m letting out ALL of that hate against my opponent because… UGH… it’d be NICE if someone felt lesser than ME for a fucking change! I’m TIRED of being the pushover!”

“...and that’s exactly why you are one…” Clarissa exclaimed, catching me by surprise. “You wrestle with SO much HATE in your heart, so much anger… you’re determined to prove something but you never do because you’re so caught up in all this HATE… and it’s not hate for UWA, or hate for Myra or hate for what you’ve been through that you’re caught up in. It’s hate for YOURSELF…”

“What…” I said, surprised through my tears. “How is that possible?”

“As long as you harbor such self-destructive hate for yourself, Andrea… you’ll never get to where you want to be in this business. You hate what you’ve been through… so you hate a part of yourself. You can’t accept yourself. THAT’S why you’re struggling. You need to purge that hate from your heart if you want to move forward…”

“Well… you being my manager and all… shouldn’t you have a way to figure that part out?”

Clarissa let out a reluctant sigh.

“I’ve done everything that I’ve can for you Andrea…” Clarissa said. “You need to figure it out on your own. I’m not going to be your manager anymore. I’m only holding you back. It’s time for you to grow up and to finally quit wrestling with hatred in your heart…”

Clarissa stood up and suddenly walked away from me, leaving me shellshocked at the breakfast table. In the instant moment, I felt as if I was abandoned by one of my own best friends. Still living in that victim complex at the time, I was feeling nothing but anger toward Clarissa for what she had just done for me but in reality, it was the thing that I truly needed to evolve that I am into the wrestler that I am today.

May 31, 2020

I snapped out of that flashback, finding myself alone in what was a meditation room in the Saxon hotel. I had reserved it for about a couple of hours as I was beginning to reflect on the hatred and the criticism that has been thrown my way lately. By this point, I had already listened to Evie Jordan’s promo. I was floored by it when I first watched it, but not to the point of it bothering me. I had my eyes closed, focusing on her words, having some vaporwave music going through my iPod and my conscience, keeping me cool and relaxed despite the fact that they were words that I really didn’t like to hear.

“They’re far from different from what Kate Steele tried to feed you…” I reminded myself in my mind. “You have to remember that you were that wrestler once upon a time… the one that would go around hating everyone and everything. You were that wrestler that tried to bring everyone down. You were the one that tried to poke a hole in the success of others, remember? You know by now that being the champion comes with that territory… you’re going to have critics, you’re going to have haters. You’re going to have everyone attacking you because either they want what you have or because they think you’re not good enough…”

I took a pause and a deep reflective breath as I continued my meditation.

“...but you’ve already proven that you are! After all, it’s you that has the one thing that all the other Bombshells want. Think of it this way…” I continued to think to myself. “If you could go back in time and relive some of the most BRUTAL moments where you’ve ever received such terrible hatred and scorn from someone… how would you react differently? How would you change that? How are you going to respond to what Evie had to say? Do you tear her down and call her names? Or do you rise above and show her the champion that you are?”

I took another deep breath as my meditation went deeper and deeper.

“Look at you, all focused…” I heard the familiar voice of Myra Rivers say, snapping out of the meditation. I was a bit annoyed, but nonetheless, I shut off the iPod and focused on her.

“...I have to be.” I told my former mentor. “I’ve got one big bad bitch to prove wrong. Some of the shit that came out of her mouth… the nerve of her to say any of that. I’m noticing that this is becoming such a common trend lately… you know… since I became the world champion and all. I’m noticing a pattern and a theme… first it was Christina trying to paint me as something that I’m not, then you have Kate grasping at straws trying to break me down over some useless shit, now you have Evie… they’re all apples that have fallen from the same tree. I’ve never quite faced criticism so harsh… I’ve never been on the opposite end of hatred the way I’ve been since I’ve won this title…”

“A feeling that I know all too well…” Myra stated. “I remember MY first world title reign in 2008… when everyone kept dismissing me like I was some sort of fluke. I remember when I won my second a year later, how the former champion bitched about how I didn’t deserve it. What you need to do as a champion is figure out the best way to respond to that hate…”

I stood up to meet her in the eyes, not at all feeling amused.

“You of all people…” I told her. “I’m not so sure that you’ve got the right to say anything considering all the hatred YOU once dumped on me… I remember it well… I remember how you told me that you hated that I even existed. You would tell me that you hated me so much that if you had to choose between killing your daughter or being my friend, that you’d rather kill your daughter.”

“I get it, Andrea… but that was years ago. I know I messed up big time with you and I was abusive… to say the least. But are you really going to carry that with you? I’m not saying this to be on your case or anything, but the one thing that hasn’t changed between you then and you now is that you still take some people’s criticisms to heart too much. When the hate becomes overwhelming, you sometimes tend to buckle. Maybe you should think about that.”

“Maybe you should leave…” I dismissingly told Myra, who didn’t appear to be bothered by what I had just said.

“Maybe you need to let go…” Myra told me before she abruptly left me alone in the meditation room.

“Let go? Of how you treated me?” I rolled my eyes and scoffed with disgust after I had left. Pausing my thoughts for a moment, I went to a bench and sat on it, looking down at the floor and remembering how I got here. I was never going to forget the journey considering how harsh and how hard it was, but at the same time… I could feel a sense of bitterness that was going through me. There was a piece of me that was still feeling so bitter and angry about the past prior to becoming a big star in my own right. While through my time in Sin City Wrestling I have been able to accept and embrace my journey, my past and the obstacles… the bitter feeling was directed toward the people that had created it throughout my entire career prior to coming to the company. Thinking about Evie’s words some more and how much they angered me… more for being repetitive than anything, I began to reflect on some of the harshest criticisms that still left a piece of hatred in me to this day…

2013

“You are a very fine athlete, Andrea…” a wrestling promoter by the name of Ryan Jackson told me as he wrote down some notes. “You’re fast, you’re incredible and you’ve certainly got what it takes to wow a crowd from that alone.”

“Thanks…” a 19-year-old me told Ryan as we both walked out of an AZPW event. “...I hope that I really impressed you and that maybe I can end up in PRW…”

“You were indeed very impressive…” Ryan told me. “...and you’ll be even more impressive when you’re ready to tour the world with my company.”

I was instantly confused by these words which sounded complimentary but at the same time, there was some form of backhanded criticism included in there.

“Wait… are you saying that I’m not ready?”

“You’re not…” Ryan told me. “For starters, you’re 19. You wrestle well beyond your years, but you’re not… well… you’re not exactly marketable enough and if you want to tour the world with the big leagues, that’s what you need to be. Personally, I think it’s going to be about 10 years before you’re ready for the big leagues… I’m sorry Andrea, but while you were impressive, you weren’t impressive enough. I don’t see you being a big megastar in this business at all. Stick to the Indies is my advice… that’s probably what’s best for you. You’re too soft to last in my company…”

My eyes filled up with tears knowing that at that moment, my dreams were shattered…

“...case in point. You don’t even handle rejection well. It was nice meeting you, Andrea…”

Ryan walked away from me and back in the present moment, I was feeling such hatred for him all over again. Ryan Jackson was truly one of my worst critics at the time, even going on a podcast and talking about me, berating me without mentioning me by name and he even went out and said that I wasn’t even worth name dropping.

“How would you feel if he walked in right now?” I asked myself as I came out of my flashback…

Present Day

My eyes were closed as I continued to think about it.

“...if he walked in right now… knowing what you know about yourself… knowing how much you LOATHED him for SO long because of the way he rejected you… what would you say to him? What would the conversation be like?”

I imagined it in my brain at this point. I imagined Ryan Jackson walking into that meditation room with me. I imagined myself opening my eyes and looking up at him.

“Hey…” he said to me, looking completely uncomfortable, possibly from all the crow he ate considering his company has been bankrupt for seven years. “...so I guess the thing that I need to say is… well… you should let me have it about how wrong I was about you. I deserve it! At the end of the day, I was wrong. Go ahead, rub in how wrong I was.”

“It’s so tempting Ryan…” I’m not going to lie. “... I can unleash this angry tirade toward you, reminding you of the hurtful things that you said about me. I can tap into the hatred that I held for so long, but you know what? I’m not going to do that. I let out a sigh, releasing any hatred that was in me. I’m not going to remind you about what happened… I’m not going to remind you about how wrong you were. What’s the point in that? What is the point in holding on to the anger that I felt for you? All I’m going to do is drag myself down with it, right? I wrestled with a chip on my shoulder for so long because of people like you… I was so driven to prove you wrong that I wasn’t seeing the big picture… especially with all this scorn and criticism that I’ve had to deal with lately…”

“So… you’re not going to verbally destroy me?” Ryan asked. “I do deserve it for being so wrong…”

“No…” I told him. “...nobody deserves that.”

Ryan walked away from me at this point, more relieved than anything that I had let go of my hatred instead of rubbing it in.

“Interesting…” I thought to myself as my meditation continued. “I thought I’d have more anger in me than that. How was I able to just… let it go so easily? How could I be so forgiving to a person that had shattered my dreams seven years ago? Maybe it’s just maturity, but still, it was people like him that I spent years focusing my energy on to prove wrong… my younger self was such a poor soul who didn’t know the strength that she had in her… I remember how much I hated everything and how I hated that nothing could ever go my way. Maybe I need to go back to another time and stand up for that younger self… just so she can know that she’s worth it. Think, Andrea… think… think of a time when you really failed and the haters REALLY poured it on… OH RIGHT… when I left UWA… when they all mocked me and hated me for being a ‘failure’ and how I held so much contempt for them for so long… using them as fuel for them to motivate me in future years…”

Taking another deep breath, I flashed back to that day that I left UWA… except… it was JUST a little bit different than the dream that I had while I was conversing with my great-great-grandfather.

September 2017

I pictured myself walking in the hallway of the UWA Arena, hearing Peyton, Christy and Grace mock me in the locker room from outside of the door, changing the past in a way to help me in the future. I was slightly angry when I stood by and listened to myself being scorned and ridiculed for leaving the company. The three witches all had a laugh to themselves as they exited the room, not noticing me at all. I shut the door for the time being and I was determined to give them a piece of my mind and to stand up for my younger self.

“Hey…” I said to all three women, catching their attention as they turned around to face me. They all seemed confused for a moment before they realized that it was me and they all looked like they were ready to laugh. “...why don’t you pick on someone from a different timeline?”

The three women giggled.

“Didn’t you just quit?” Peyton said with a sneer in her voice.

“Yeah, didn’t I just… you know… run you out of UWA and everything…” Grace responded. “I beat your ass and ran you out of UWA!”

Grace had a huge laugh at me, but I just smiled through it.

“As a matter of fact, quitting this place is one of the best things that I’ve ever done. Look at you three… feeling like you need to act all superior by picking on someone who is down. You laugh at the person that you did in that room but little do you all know that the woman is going to grow as a wrestler and in three years time, she’s going to have already won a world title… more than say… all three of you combined?”

All three women at this point busted out laughing.

“You’re SO funny Andrea…” Christy stated. “But you’ll NEVER be a draw!”

“Yeah…” Grace concurred. “...how are you even out here when we just saw you in there? Are you like… a TWIN or something? Are you just as shitty as a wrestler as the woman in that locker room that just quit UWA?”

“This crazy girl thinks she’s from the future or something…” Peyton said. “Come on, enlighten us with your predictions.”

“YOU…” I pointed at Christy. “Won’t even be wrestling three years from now… YOU…” I paused and pointed at Grace “...you’re going to be so irrelevant in three years that nobody’s going to know that you exist… and YOU…” I pointed at Peyton. “I’m so winning a world title before you ever do! In fact, in 2020, you STILL haven’t won the big one… not yet anyway. That woman that you were picking on in the locker room? Yeah, she’s going to grow out of the self-hatred that was instilled in her by people like YOU and she’s going to become something very special while ALL of you? Yeah… let’s just say that in three years, you’ll all have something to hate yourselves even MORE over. You three are all fine wrestlers… but in time… you’re going to realize that you made a mistake. I want to hate you three… even now. But honestly? I pity you all…”

This caught the three women off guard.

“I pity you, Grace… for the fact that you’re unable to think for yourself… that you’re a follower… that you’re a cheerleader for people superior to you and that’s the only way you can be relevant…” this comment froze Grace. “You’re FAR too good to allow yourself to be some useless minion to someone else and I hope and pray for you that you find your way in this business someday.”

Grace was so frozen by what I said to her that she backed away and sat down on a crate just waiting for the conversation to be over.

“You…” I told Christy “...I pity you for the fact that you’ll never know what this business is about. Yes, you had a great run with the Cruiserweight Championship but… you don’t have enough heart for this and that’s why I pity you. I can’t hate you for lacking in something that you desperately have needed to be a major player in this business… but something that you’re not so likely to attain. I wish you the best, Christy. I really do. Not only am I going to be a bigger draw than you someday as a result… but I’m going to be one of the biggest draws in wrestling. I’m so sorry that there’s a piece of you that you can’t stand about yourself that you have to judge whether or not someone is a ‘draw’ or not… like YOU’RE the authority on that?”

Christy kept her mouth shut, shocked that I didn’t dress her down, before she turned and walked away from the entire scene.

“And YOU…” I told a sneering Peyton. “...you’re EVERYTHING a promoter and a corporate mainstream company wants… you’ve got all the looks in the world… and yet… you don’t think so, do you? Your entire persona is based around your beauty. Who are you trying to convince that you’re pretty? The audience? Or yourself? Who are you trying to convince that you’ll ever be anything in this business? I pity you because you don’t trust your own abilities enough so you have to stoop to being like every other bikini model bitch that has ever existed in professional wrestling. How can I hate someone that clearly doesn’t love themselves enough to be a strong role model for this business?”

Peyton had NOTHING to say about this, taking it down the throat and swallowing her pride, signaling to Grace before the two remaining bitches walked away. I was feeling good that I had… albeit in my own fantasy world… changed a bit of the past. I walked inside the locker room and I saw my younger self shocked… having heard everything that just happened.

“How did you do that?” my younger self asked me.

“I looked within myself and remembered the advantages that I have over them. I showed them who the stronger person was… and I didn’t do it by stooping down to their level and expressing a whole bunch of hatred. Every single person that you are going to come across that dares drag you down, they’re doing so because there’s a flaw within themselves that they are afraid to face and that includes those three women I just told off. The future is going to be so bright for you… you have no idea. When time passes, you’re going to ultimately prove everyone wrong, I promise.”

“Nobody has ever stood up for me like that before…” my younger self stated. “Maybe I’m really worth something after all… regardless of how much others say that I’m not…”

I could only smile with pride at this before responding.

“You have NO idea…”

I walked out of the room… and along with it, I walked out of the fantasy that was playing in my head during my meditation.

Present Day

Opening my eyes, I was starting to get a little more clarity on things. I also came to a bit of a surprising admission about myself that I wouldn’t have been able to realize had I not been reflecting on the people that dared try to put me down with their words or tried to tell me that I was never going to amount to anything.

“I need to let go…” I told myself. “I’m a very stubborn person and I don’t forgive easily. I know that I can be hard as a rock when it comes to that. I know that I can turn off other people with my attitude at times and that can be such a big turn off for people. Maybe that’s why the likes of Evie and Kate try to hate me so much? Well… that’s part of the reason. I know that I’ve embraced my past, but in order to REALLY evolve into a champion, I have to embrace EVERYONE that was ever part of my journey… good… or bad… I mean… Chelsea betrayed me twice and I still forgave her both times….

Ugh… I REALLY have to embrace the likes of Bob Grenier, Jenni Anderson, Mack O’Connor, Cam Knowles, Adrian Waters, Grace Morningwood and Piper Street?”

I paused my thoughts as I had a laugh to myself.

“Well… they ARE all part of my journey in a way… even if I had some sort of contempt for all of them. I hated Grenier for being a sexist pig, hated Jenni for treating me like I was worth nothing, hated Mack for cheating me out of the Paradigm championship, hated Cam for being in my way, hated Adrian for mocking me and enabling Myra’s abuse toward me, hated Piper for her racist shit, hated Grace because… well… she was annoying… and yet, in this weird sort of way, I wouldn’t be where I am today without any of them.

If it wasn’t for UWA, I would’ve never learned how to do right by myself. I would have stayed a pushover. I would’ve never grown as a wrestler because I’d be trying to force myself into something I was never a fit for and I would have anchored myself.

If it wasn’t for OCW… I would’ve never learned how to win in the clutch. If I didn’t have the likes of Grenier and O’Connor talking down to me, mocking me for my gender and all of that, then I wouldn’t have ever learned how to grow thicker skin and drive myself to step up to competition such as the Hall of Fame caliber type of competition that they provided and become so much better as a result…

If I had never lost to Alicia Lukas, I could’ve never grown into a champion… and the same goes for Mike Best and that ladder match… same goes for that Kate Steele experience in the Blast from the Past tournament…

I don’t HAVE to like anyone that has ever been an obstacle of mine nor do I have to be friends with anyone that has ever disrespected me and told me that I can’t do it… but I have to embrace them too because where would I be if I never met them? Where would I be if I never had to endure any ounce of scorn, criticism, contempt, hatred, and so on and so forth from my enemies… every last one of them?

Where would I be without Christina? Without Alicia? Without Chelsea? Without Jenni? Without ANY hater I’ve ever had? Without my father treating me so poorly during my training? Where would I be without Myra’s abuse and her pushing me down so many times, over and over again? Where would I be if I never met her?

...gosh, where would I be without Myra?

I looked up at the ceiling for a bit and then across the room and I reflected on Myra Rivers… how she only took me in just so she could have Chelsea… how she angered me and constantly broke my heart by telling me that I’d never amount to anything… how she made me cry time and time again by calling me an ‘ungrateful bitch’ over and over again… how she tortured me every time she put her hands on me off-camera… how she humiliated me that one time by stripping me of my top and beating me with a belt in front of a worldwide audience…

That memory in particular… though… that TRULY made me cringe as I felt my dignity being stripped away from me all over again just like every single time that memory came up in my conscience. Yet… that familiar anger that I had carried every time that it came up… that DIDN’T penetrate my spirit. While that moment… and all of Myra’s physical and psychological abuse toward me in fact… wasn’t pleasant… and while it really did hurt my spirit repeatedly… I was feeling a jolt of guilt go through my heart when I realized that I was still holding onto SOME form of hatred for her.

“It was her… not me…” I realized. “I had thought that she had done those things to me because I was such dirt… but she did those things because she hated herself. I can relate… I had that self-hatred in me before… and it nearly drove me out of this business. Thank god I learned how to truly appreciate myself and appreciate where I came from. In this bizarre sort of way, I really did learn so much from her. Maybe I shouldn’t be so hard on her…”

I sighed, realizing that I had to do the right thing at this point. It really had been three years since Myra and I had this massive war with each other in GCW and continuing to hold some sort of disdain for her and to continue to treat her as if she was the devil wasn’t fair to her… especially since I’ve taken notice of how much she’s truly tried to change in recent years. With my meditation time coming to an end, I took a deep, confident breath and I walked out of the room, ready to finally face up to a piece of my past I couldn’t stand about myself and ready to let go of any remaining disdain I had for my former mentor…

A few minutes later…

I wasn’t nervous as I reached Myra’s hotel room door. I confidently knocked on it, not knowing what to expect. Myra answered the door. I saw that she was already packed up to go back to Miami for a few days.

“Can I come in?” I asked her.

“Sure.” She said, as she stood aside and allowed me to walk into the hotel room.

“Listen… about earlier…” I began. “I apologize.”

“You never need to apologize to me for anything…” Myra stated. “After all… I’m the one that… you know… did all those things to you…”

“Yeah… and you truly were the biggest hater I ever had in my entire career…” I reminded her. “And this isn’t me gloating about how I overcame you and proved you wrong or anything, I don’t need to do that. I wanted to thank you though… for being the biggest obstacle that was ever put in front of me. If I never met you, I would’ve never truly discovered how great I can be as a professional wrestler and I would have never discovered how strong of a woman I truly am. I used to hate myself for everything you did to me because I always thought it was my fault… but I realize what happened…”

“...it’s a reflection of me… not you… and that goes for anyone that ever tries to run you down…” Myra reminded me. “Don’t think I haven’t heard some of the harsh shit that has been said to you since you won that title. But don’t worry… one way or another, win or lose, world champion or not, you’re going to continue to overcome that. You’re on your way to being one of the greats of your generation…”

“Thanks…” I said with a smile… but also with a bit of pride hearing such positivity from Myra.

“I hated to admit it back then… but I really do see a lot of me… well… the good parts of me anyway… in you…” Myra told me. “And I know you’ve learned enough from my mistakes to avoid doing the same thing. It’s… not the easiest thing to confess… but the protege has truly surpassed the mentor…”

I raised my eyebrows in shock, not expecting to hear that from her.

“You’ve become better than me, Andrea…” Myra admitted. “Hell, you may have even become a better VERSION of me during the first half of my career. You’ve got the torch now! Burn down the house with it. You deserve the torch, you deserve your success. Don’t ever let go of what makes you… you. And for fuck’s sake Andrea, NEVER make the same mistakes that I’ve made because I swear to God… if you DO… I don’t care if it’s 15 years from now and I’m pushing 50… I’ll be first in line to bring you back to reality…”

“I promise you… I’m never going back down that rabbit hole…” I told her.

In a sign that the world was ending, we actually exchanged a hug, finally coming to terms on full peace between us after all these years. After this embrace, I walked over to the door and opened it.

“Andrea…???”

I paused and looked at Myra.

“You’re welcome…”

Myra winked at me and I could only chuckle as I left her Saxon hotel room.

“In this weird way… my critics and haters really are one of my greatest motivations sometimes…”

I smirked with pride as I walked back to my own hotel room, feeling more secure than ever about myself, having learned how to forgive the haters and not allow myself to be swallowed up in their words, having prevented the notion of succumbing to their scorn… feeling not anger for them… but pity… pity in the sense that people like Evie Jordan couldn’t learn how to love themselves… pity in the sense that she had to slander me… to rant and rave and grasp for straws… that she had to throw such repetitive, empty criticism toward me… all because I knew… after her words leading up to her match against Alicia Lukas… after the outcome that happened… that she really struggled to learn how to love herself…

It wasn’t my job to get her to see the light though… it was my job to run with the hatred she has toward me and use it to bring her back down to earth…

June 5, 2020

“You want to talk about insecurities, Evie?”

I wasn’t too amused when the cameras came on and I was standing in front of it with my World Championship slung over my shoulder. To say that some of her words didn’t fuel some semblance of anger in me would be a lie, but after going through the experiences that I did in recent days, I was in a calmer state of mind. I remembered, as I gathered further thoughts of mine, some of the disrespect that some wrestlers that I’ve met over my career have given me through every step of the way along my path to the greatness that I’ve achieved and how much I either proved those wrestlers wrong or realized that their words didn’t matter in the end. I wasn’t cutting this promo in a glamorous location at all… I was doing so from the building that once housed my father’s former wrestling school and promotion, rusted bleachers and all… the ring still there, but obviously in terrible shape.

“...this is coming from someone that said, prior to her match against Alicia Lukas… that should she lose the match against her that everything that she worked for meant NOTHING! There’s a REASON why I went after your confidence so hard because of such STUPID words like that coming out of your mouth and apparently, you didn’t learn a damn thing from it because you’re STILL saying things that are absolutely stupid! ME? INSECURE? You’re about three years too late on that one. What? Am I insecure because I tell it like it is and don’t hold back? Am I insecure because hey… I go out of my way to dismiss nonsense that comes from the likes of you and Kate Steele because I know it’s just that… nonsense. Look, I know that there are parts of my personality that aren’t for everyone and I get that. Not everyone is going to like me and there was a time in my career where I gave too much of a crap about that but the fact of the matter is, Evie…I really could give fuck all about anything you have to say because for someone who REALLY talked so much in her last promo you really said SO little. After losing to Alicia Lukas, you had to go above and beyond to prove that you could take me. You had to really go the extra mile to convince the world that after such a big loss two weeks ago, that you could be better than me.

You didn’t.

Hell, you didn’t even meet expectations. Did ANYTHING you even said about me actually convince ANYONE that you could beat me?

No…

Because rather than go into why you’re a better wrestler than me, why I should fear you, why I should brace myself for the toughest title defense that I am going to have in my entire career… you went into this schoolyard bullshit that is SO exaggerant that TMZ needs to hire you as soon as you decide you want to go back into obscurity just like you were before the Blast from the Past tournament happened. I heard your words and all I heard was hate, Evie. I heard the words of someone who wrestles with HATRED in their heart… someone that is DRIVEN by hatred and you may think that whatever you said about me is true… you may believe in your heart of hearts that your word is gospel and that you’re everything that you say I am… but what you said about me… does it really reflect me? No! It doesn’t! It reflects YOU, Evie… it reflects how YOU feel about yourself. It reflects what you reflected in your promo against Alicia when you spent half the time on camera worrying about everything you worked for meaning nothing should you lose to her. There is something within you that you hate about yourself that causes you to reflect that hate on me and trust me… I get it. I was you at one point. I HATED everything about my career and the way it was going three years ago. I hated the companies I wrestled for. I hated the fact that I even had to overcome so much just to be anything in this business. I used to be the kind of girl that would sit down and play the victim, asking “why me”? I used to wrestle with the same hatred in my heart that you carry within you and you know what happened when I wrestled with that hatred in my heart, Evie?

I got NOWHERE!

I STAYED in the same spot that I hated and I grew to hate myself more and more and more until FINALLY I snapped the fuck out of it and FINALLY learned how to embrace the journey and once I fully embraced the journey, I became the world champion that you see in front of you. You on the other hand? How can you embrace your own journey when you singlehandedly buried it not just by stating that all that you worked for since coming back would mean nothing if you lost to Alicia… but also… you lost to her and well… if YOUR logic holds true… then all you really worked for since coming back really DOES mean nothing, doesn’t it? So much for the journey, Evie. Then again, that’s never been your strong suit, is it? You want it all to come to you so quickly! You want everyone to remember you as the woman that… as you SO eloquently put it during the tournament… that ‘changed the division’, that was the biggest reason why the division got better… and yet… when you say things like that, I wonder WHY you have to put yourself on SUCH a high pedestal.

But I’M the insecure one?

Do you even LISTEN to ANY of your promos after you record them? Have you ever counted ALL the empty assumptions you’ve ever said to anyone? You know… how you interpret my words about my own journey as me ‘thinking’ that my journey to the top outshines anyone else’s in this business when I NEVER… not ONE time… EVER said that? You and Kate Steele are one in the same, aren’t you? Just because you interpret something doesn’t make it the truth, you do remember that right? You perceive me as something that you can’t STAND… I can sense that hatred bubbling inside of you because HOLY CRAP… you know… maybe I should send you a bucket of straws since you LOVE to grasp at them… with all this talk about “bench warmer champion” this and “you’ve done nothing since you’ve won the belt” that… why are you grasping at straws, Evie? Oh right… because you have NOTHING better to talk about! You have NOTHING that you can say about me that is factually concrete because… well… what HAVE I done this year? Oh right… thus far in 2020, I have yet to be pinned. There has been a stumble or two… sure… but nobody has ever pinned me this year… so you don’t have any losses of mine from before that you can just go in and say “THIS IS WHY YOU SUCK AS A CHAMPION”... not that four way that Bobbie won… not that Blast from the Past semifinals match.

What I’ve DONE this year is beat Christina Rose THREE times, that’s what the fuck I’ve done. What I’ve done is defeat Roxi Johnson, that’s what I’ve done. Oh but I’m SUCH a bad champion because OH MY GOD… I don’t go out and pick fights with people… I don’t go out and start Twitter drama… I don’t go out and challenge the whole division… and because I don’t, that makes me SUCH a coward… OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GOD, I’m SUCH a horrible champion, right? It’s clear as day that you never paid one ounce of attention to me until I won this championship and until you won the Blast from the Past tournament. So I don’t waste my life on Twitter calling everyone out. And? So I don’t go out and pick fights with people? And? So I choose to live the life of a champion by being more of a traditional champion that goes out and fights the battles presented to her to the best of her ability and to prepare myself for any challenger that dares to try to take this title from me instead of going out and whoring myself out to morning television shows and satellite radio shows and all of this bright light, red carpet public appearances and whore my presence ALL over the place acting like I’m the greatest thing since sliced bread and trying to paint the image of myself as this unstoppable, unbeatable champion and that’s such a BAD thing? See Evie… I’m not some idiot that acquires their first world championship, allows it to get to their head and then just forgets about every single thing that got them there to begin with. I’m not someone that would EVER use this championship to try to cash in on further fame. That may be a bitch like Kate or Christina… but that’s not me!

But I’m such an AWFUL champion because I don’t go out and do that, right? Yeah… whatever. Stretch the truth, grasp for straws and act like I have SO much control over the matches that I’m assigned and how often I’m assigned them because that’s REALLY my fault, right?

I’m the one who can’t find their feet… yet… this is coming from someone that is acting all woe-is-me talking about how losing would mean everything they worked hard for meant nothing one week and then the next they’re acting like they’re the big bad wolf. This is coming from someone that is WAY overprotective of their reputation, not just putting themselves on such a high pedestal EVERY time they even say anything on camera… but from someone who… well… did you EVER find your feet, Evie… being THAT insecure? Wrestling with such HATRED in your heart? Listen back to the promo that you did in the Blast from the Past finals against Kate Steele. Listen to every single word of it and keep track of how much time you spent expressing how you wanted to AVENGE YOUR LOSS TO HER SO BADLY… no really… listen to that shit and tell me that it’s coming from someone who is secure with themselves and who has found their feet. My god, the idea of Kate Steele getting the better of you again is SUCH a travesty, wasn’t it? You were so offended that Kate mentioned that she beat you that you admitted that it fueled your fire.

Wait… what? It took THAT to fuel your fire in the first place? It took someone mentioning that they beat you before for you to suddenly WANT to beat her?

But I’M the insecure one?

That’s, of course… without mentioning the fact that you called Kate’s journey through the tournament a “fairy tale”.

Way to be original, Evie.

Not to mention the fact that Kate handed you your first loss in this company HOW long ago? And you STILL weren’t over it? You wanted that chance to FINALLY ‘wipe that smug off of Kate’s face’, to defeat her… you even called it YEARS in the making TRULY indicating that you NEVER got over the fact that she handed you your first loss. It offended you SO much that Kate even reminded the world that she beat you to the point where you went and called the blast from the past finals as “a plot of revenge”. You HAD to have that win over Kate to validate yourself. You HAD to shut her up. You HAD to make sure that she never bragged about a win that she got over you X amount of years ago. WHY did you have to have that, Evie? Tell me? I get it, Kate is a braggadocious, annoying pain in the ass that needs to stay in her lane but SERIOUSLY? You held onto that match for THAT many years? You let THAT eat away at you for THAT long? If you want to put yourself on THAT high of a pedestal, WHY did you feel the need to avenge something from when half of the bombshell roster today wasn’t even around at the time?

Oh right… because you’re a self-loather aren’t you? Everything HAS to be your way or else your entire world collapses and you hold this fucking HIGH SCHOOL level grudge over it, acting as if your world was going to crumble if you didn’t have that win over Kate. I mean… yes, you did beat her in the finals… but you didn’t get that revenge did you? You never felt like you did. How could you when you didn’t even pin her? I bet you anything that the loss to Kate STILL eats at you. I let that loss to Alicia eat at me a little… sure… but I got over it! I didn’t use that loss to fuel me to win this world championship. Granted, it DID make me a better wrestler and that experience DID teach me how to compete in a main event match against some of the best competition that the world has to offer… but you don’t see me going out there, whining and crying and bitching and going “OH MY GOD, I HAVE TO AVENGE THAT LOSS TO ALICIA” because I know that someday, I’m not only going to get the chance… but I very well know that should I retain against you, there’s a strong chance that I am going to deal with her… and that’s a challenge I’m ready for. If that were to occur, I wouldn’t be spending weeks and months BITCHING about her beating me back in December… I’d WELCOME the challenge. I’d LOVE to defend this title against her because beating her would be a crowning achievement for me in the true spirit of competition… not because I want to avenge something from what? Six months ago? You know why I don’t NEED to avenge that loss? Because I KNOW I can look in the mirror and be confident in who I am as a wrestler… mainly because… you know… I’m NOT you… Miss Insecurity!

There are some losses from early in my career, in other companies that I’ve wrestled for such as UWA and OCW that I’m NEVER going to avenge because of circumstances that have happened in the time since I’ve left those places. But again… I don’t NEED to…

Nobody is allowed to be better than you, except for Alicia Lukas for some reason, and yet when someone IS better than you… you HAVE to get revenge on them… and Kate Steele isn’t the only instance of this either…

...but I’m the insecure one…

Rewind a little farther back in the tournament… when you got to deal with Sierra Williams…

Another woman that defeated you…

In that tournament, you called a loss to Sierra a ‘scar that has not yet healed’. You called Sierra beating you a WRONG! It was SO WRONG that Sierra beat you. If you’re so SECURE… WHY is a loss to Sierra Williams WRONG? It’s as plain as fucking day to me that you can’t handle defeat. It’s taken you YEARS to even handle your defeat to Kate Steele, you couldn’t handle that loss to Sierra and you indicated that you couldn’t handle a loss to Alicia. But I’M INSECURE?

I’M the one being melodramatic?

Beating Sierra is REDEMPTION? You HAD to have “REDEMPTION”? How would you have felt had Sierra pinned you in that tournament match, Evie? Oh right… I know how… you would have felt that… oh I don’t know… THAT EVERYTHING YOU WORKED SO HARD FOR MEANT NOTHING?

How DARE the thought of Sierra “walking all over you” again, right? Beating Sierra takes such a HUGE MONKEY OFF YOUR BACK, right? You HAVE to silence the doubters that say that you can’t beat Sierra…

But I’M the insecure one…

Okay Evie… suuuuure…

You spend your entire career… your entire aura… your entire issue… is to make other people’s lives and experiences as miserable as possible… to have as much of their blood on YOUR hands as you can possibly have and ANYTHING less is a SIN! You can’t rely on your talent alone, you have to run up the score and hurt people too right? You, preaching about what it takes to be a champion… take pride in hurting people. What the fuck kind of a champion is that? This is all about you regaining your throne and you’ve made that clear from the very beginning… but hey, I’m the “jealous, unstable champion” right?

I’m the one that’s SO JEALOUS that I’m cutting promos on my opponents about how I have to avenge losses to them that happened years ago! I’m the one that’s SO UNSTABLE that one piddly loss to someone who was better than me for one night is a monkey on my back and something that I HAVE to redeem myself for. When you called me jealous and unstable, who were you really talking to, Evie? Hell, I think you may have been the jealous one yourself… jealous of the fact that I’ve come in and done exactly what you did three years ago… the fact that I’ve come in and done what the likes of Mikah and Alicia have also done and that’s take this company by storm and make a quick rise to the top. You can’t stand it because it’s not you, right? Don’t talk to me about being unable to handle the pressure when for once, I already have one defense under my belt with this championship, two, I had a proven championship pedigree in OCW prior to coming here when I defeated Hall of Fame member after Hall of Fame member in the clutch, defending the championships that I did there, and three… cracking under the pressure is EXACTLY what you did in your last match. Don’t talk to me about being unable to handle the pressure when here I am, STILL with ice water in my veins, CONFIDENT in myself and NOT acting like the sky is falling over one defense… when I’ve NEVER, not ONCE ever felt sorry for myself over any of the losses I’ve had since I’ve been here.

You sat there for seemingly DAYS, repeating yourself… and repeating the other nonsense that idiots like Kate Steele have said about me… but you want to pick apart words I’ve said about you, decrying them as childish, even CRITICIZING something SO ridiculous such as that… because WHY? You can’t handle the words I say?

You’re SO dominant, right? You were SUCH a dominant world champion that you lost the belt to fucking Polly Playtime 8 weeks later. SO dominant that you haven’t been a world champion since then.

Oh… and going out and reminding people of what you did in the past, how dominant you were, how you supposedly changed the division…

But I’M the insecure one?

“I don’t need to be world champion…” says the same bitch that, from the moment she stepped back into an SCW ring, talked about needing to get back to the top to remind everyone who the fuck she is.

You HAVE to beat me and you’re HOPING Alicia gets the next shot so you can silence her whole “mommy’s home” deal because you HAVE to avenge that loss…

But I’m the insecure one…

Sorry Evie… I’m the type of wrestler that defines herself by the journey, not the destination. I can’t say the same about you though… considering you act like every single loss is such a TERRIBLE thing that you HAVE to avenge… because fuck the journey, right? Fuck the fact that you had a setback… that setback means that your journey means NOTHING!

You know what I realized, Evie?

That hate in your heart?

It’s not for me.

That hate in your heart is for yourself… I just happen to be the person in your way of getting what you want.

All that talent, all that prestige… I honestly pity you, Evie… I can’t hate you. But it’s a real pity that one of the most decorated Bombshells ever is far and away one of the most insecure also…

Think about that when you leave Into the Void with nothing…

I walked to the camera, shutting it off and feeling a bit better knowing that regardless of what happened, I’d STILL be the bigger person. Still… I’m not going to allow Evie’s hatred to consume me. I’m not going to stoop to her level. I WILL find a way to remain champion and overcome a tough challenge… one that is easily rattled though she refuses to admit it… but a tough one nonetheless.