Goin’ Blind, part one
June 27th, 2022 ”And I know how it should be
There is nothing more for you and I
Some are young and some are free
But I think I'm goin' blind
'Cause, I think I'm goin' blind
And I know how it's to be, yeah” Words that echo through the Apple Music that Vinnie got playing on his Ipad while seated on a chair back in his home in Tijuana, Mexico. Looking over the porch of his rather large house with an even more impressive vineyard. He is drinking from a glass of his own vintage red wine while looking at the people that he has gotten employed to work on his vineyard. His face shows that he has not slept much lately after his confrontation with Aron and Kristjanson Baltharsson, better known as Fenris. The man that he was responsible for the damage to his eyes and the premature ending of his wrestling career due to what had happened because of Bea. Vinnie has been trying to find an answer himself by hiring Tom Selleck to recreate a scene of Magnum PI, just merely to clean up his own act as well as trying to clear the air for Bea and Bill, the people he considered to be his friends.
He sighs, putting the glass of wine down upon the table next to him as he cleans his mouth with a napkin. He grabs a fork and knife, cuts some of the dinner that he has on a plate next to the glass of wine and takes a bite from it. Chewing while staring at the hard working men and women, who have given their blood and sweat and joy to work for him. Vinnie’s vineyard has grown in the last year that he has increased a lot of income, causing him to realize that there’s something else besides his wrestling career and musical career. He swallows his food and places the knife and fork and cleans his mouth before tossing the napkin down on the plate.
”El Vinnie 2021, an impressive vintage that has made me a lot of money. That’s something that should make you very proud and I have to admit I am, but...” His eyes are swollen, his hair is a mess and there’s a stench coming from him as he hasn’t taken care of his personal hygiene. He has locked himself off from personal contact to the outside world, merely having answered some emails and personal phone calls. But he has decided not to entertain others with parties that he used to give for the people of Tijuana, Mexico that loved the man. Because the impact of what Aron had said has hit him in the heart and soul, causing him to look at himself through a different perspective. Something he actually did not enjoy looking at himself from the outside in.
”Let’s celebrate the one year anniversary of you emerging on the market ad bring me a load of money.” He slurs as he tips his imaginary hat to the glass of wine, rolling his eyes and is clearly annoyed. Pissed off by some of the words that Aron shed with him, feeling attacked upon his credibility at the first few days after the confrontation he had with the two brothers, but after the few days he started to second guess himself…. But one thing that he hated was the statement that he was trying to be the victim. HIM?? The man of Mexican Mariachi Pride?? To ask pity from the world because he was the victim?? The thought caused his hand to ball into a fist, flexing the muscles in his arm as the fingers slowly turns white because of the impact of the pressure he put on himself.
”I am not a victim” He says with a croaked voice, his head is slowly tolling from left to right as he tries to stand up in a slow pace. He can feel his body resist his attempt to stand upright, wondering whether he had sat in the chair in an awkward way and for how long. He sighs as he finally manages to stretch his upper body and manages to walk inside his house in a slow pace. Not wanting to show any sign of weakness as he pushes his body against the wall after entering the house and sighs.
”How long am I going to keep this up??” He asks himself, but when he asks this he starts to wonder what does he actually mean?? The buckling knees underneath his body? Or the situation with Fenris and Bea and his decision on what he should do and what he will do about it. He closes his eyes, feeling the cold breeze upon his sweaty skin and sighs. His fingers scratch the wall as he feels every bump, every miniscule crack that his senses could identify. Trying to clear his mind to control his breathing, he has been having nightmares of the confrontation of him and the two brothers that has scared him. A feeling he hated, because if he embraced his fear that the claims of him wanting to be the victim would once again rise against him.
And he has to admit, he would not disagree with the “haters” that he knows that are there. He wouldn’t place the two brothers in that category, because they at least had told him what they had felt about him and why. He just felt confused, hearing the words that they had respected him, cared for him during the time that he and Lora had been in a relationship. He just asked himself why? Why he had not been able to identify it, because he had seen them in a different way. He had felt attacked, he had felt disrespected and hated…. But was that wrong??? Right now, he did not know anymore.
”Just give me a few seconds....” He says as through the slits of his of his eyes as he sees a member of his staff approach him. He had recognized her as his personal assistant from his vineyard. The young lady nods her head as she walks past him and turns the corner towards his office. He lets out a sigh, he turns his attention towards the mirror and sees his very own reflection in the mirror. Staring at himself, not seeing the man he had always envisioned as a winner. Only to see the man that he is now, asking himself whether this is the man that felt himself as a victim of his own words, his own belief in his own lies. After a few moments he snaps his eyes and chuckles…. Extending his hand towards the reflection in the mirror and smiles.
”Hello, my name is Vinnie.... How are you doing?” Pretending that the hand of his reflection shaking his own hand before staring at himself. Realizing that he looks like a bum, he sighs and tidies his shirt and grabs a cologne in an attempt to hide some of the stench, even he knows that it will be difficult to do so.
”It’s time to get back to business Vinnie, it’s time to get serious.” He walks off as we go into a break.
*After The Break* Vinnie is seen opening the door of his office, allowing his assistance to exit his office. The two has some nice last remarks before she walks off. He stares at her for a few moments before turning back into his office as he sits down on the office chair. Thinking back to the meeting he had with her that lasted a few hours, apologizing at the beginning about the bad smell and was thankful that she hadn’t antagonized him because of it.
”I was worried she would have reacted differently.” He stares at his office for a moment, he sees replica’s of the two titles that he has won a few years ago in Sin City Wrestling. It caused him to look at them at the belts differently for the very first time, as he had looked at them for a few years as a failure. This time he looks at the belts as an accomplished that HE had created on his own, wondering why the negativity reigned supreme in the back of his head.
”Ugh..., brainfart.” Vinnie thinks back at the two title wins he had on the same Super Card on the same cruise ship that Sin City Wrestling will be heading towards in a few weeks. Causing him to smile, he remembers the ultimate highlight of his career and personal life by marrying the woman that he still loves to this very day and winning the world title.
”Let me keep my memories until that moment and not blame myself for ruining that relationship. Because she did allow me to love someone for the very first time.” He smiles as he stares at the wedding picture that he has hanging above the replica of his world title, nodding his head and smiles. A tear emerges from his eye, nodding his head in approval instead of turning away from it as he had done in the past.
”I should thank Aron for this moment.....” He feels pride oozing through his body, reaching for his cell phone as he searches the number of Aron as he wanted to text him and explain the feeling he is experiences. But prevents his finger from hitting send as did not want to force himself upon him. He knew he wanted to prove himself that he is that man that Fenris wanted him to be, but shouldn’t rush it and prove it in his own pace. He finally places the cell phone on the desk in front of him, pressing his hands behind his head and starts to stretch his body and lets out a groan of exhaustion. For the first time he felt that he could sleep for days, that some of the guilt and pressure is starting to flow away from him as he felt he had found a small opening to the answers he is seeking.
He looks at the alarm clock at the corner of his desk, it’s 3 pm. Mentally cursing at himself as apparently time didn’t went as fast as he had hoped it would be. Knowing that he still has got one appointment to go with a potential importer of his wine. But he knew it would be foolish to cancel this appointment, knowing that after this week is over he would be gone on the cruise ship. Realizing that work needs to be prioritized over his own personal need. He reaches over to buzz his secretary
”Si senor Vinnie??” He pauses for a moment, he hadn’t always paid attention to the respectful response his secretary apparently always given him. He knew it is what is expected from employees to be formal with their boss. But right now it was the first time that he sensed that Tina, his secretary was respectful towards him and meant it… another sign of realizing things that he never allowed himself to open up to.
”Senor Vinnie???” Comes out the voice once more, causing Vinnie to snap out of the thoughts he was having. Realizing that he had to respond to her in some fashion and does.
”Sorry Tina, some... err bad connection on the line I guess. I just wanted to ask you if my next appointment has arrived??” The words echoed through his head, he couldn’t believe his ears that he actually came up with that stupid explanation. She would never believe anything of such a sorts to be believable, but the young lady sounds pleasantly happy in confirming that the next appointment has arrived. Goth had asked her if she could keep them waiting for a little bit as he prepares himself to freshen up a little bit. Getting up to his feet as he walks over towards his personal bathroom, freshening up a little before nodding to himself
”You are one gorgeous man Vinnie, you got this in the bag.” He winks at his expression of himself before walking back to his office, preparing himself for the next appointment.
Goin’ Blind, part two ”Little lady, can't you see
You're so young and so much different than I
I'm 93, you're sixteen
Can't you see I'm goin' blind
'Cause, I think I'm goin' blind
And I know how it's to be, yeah” July 1st 2022
Vinnie is inside his limo, who is taking him to the cruise ship for the SUMMER XXXtreme extravaganza. There he will be competing against Max Burke in a blindfold match, something he has been very pissed off about as he realizes that he had made a mistake… that Bea had interfered in the match in a manner that has harmed Fenris his eyes. Frustrated over the fact that he had explained himself to Aron and his brother, who was at ringside during the segment. It did not go the way he had hoped for, but then again it was something he had not expected that they would forgive him. He had told them that he would work on improving himself and now this?? Max Burke wanting to face him in a match, why?? He has not been on his case ever since it happened, he did not have any communication with him about what had happened in the match between Vinnie and Fenris and now this??? Why???
”I wish I could go back, I think I have forgotten my favorite swimming trunks.” Trying to switch his thoughts from his match to something insignificantly less important, hoping that his frustration would vanish but sadly it doesn’t. Vinnie cannot stop thinking about the fact that he has to blindfold himself, he understands that Max Burke wants to have him experience the exact same thing that Fenris had felt, the only question for him is why Burke is going to blind himself also?

Vinnie shakes his head as troubled that he is, he cannot grasp anything behind it.
”Oh who am I kidding?? I am a man that has won two titles on this same cruise ship, but now I just need to go through this with a guy that I don’t know. Because of what happened to his amigo Fenris. And I guess I could understand it from his logical side, he wants to stand up for his friend because he cannot compete at this moment. But there is one thing I do not understand.” Vinnie scratches the back of his head as he is clearly puzzled.
”Now don’t take this too personal Senor Max, but where have you been all this time?? You were radio silent since the moment it happened. Now I am not saying that you shouldn’t be angry for what happened, but why did you not challenge me for a match right away??? Why on this cruise ship?? Does that make it more special to do it on a boat that counters every motion that the ocean will put it through?? Because I am sure that it isn’t because Fenris asked you to do it. Because HE would never ask anyone to help him, or perhaps something has changed in this situation. But still, I am mind boggled.”
“I am sure that you do this in the believe that it is your way to avenge your friend’s misery…. But I got to ask you Max, haven’t you heard him the other week?? He told me in the face that he wasn’t sure whether he could forgive me…. But if you comprehend these words perfectly… It did not say that he would not forgive me… So hypothetically, if he had forgiven me?? Would you still challenge me?? Or is this your way to get this match done, worried that if you do this too late that I could be forgiven??” Vinnie continues to shake his head and sighs.
”Just to clarify, I am just asking random questions. I am not trying to seek the victim role that I have been accused of in the past. And of course, what would you do if Fenris in the future would forgive me? Would you tell me that you had reacted in a premature way?? That your judgment had clouded your opinion upon the matter and acted upon yourself so you could pat yourself on the back for a job well done?? To me that is rather egotistical, considering that you have not waited for Fenris decision on what to do to me.”
“Now I assume that you will tell me that you cannot wait that long, why not? You have lasted this long already. What is perhaps a few weeks or a month more to you? Is it perhaps the fact that only recently you understood the serious state of his injuries that your brain got disconnected and sparks flew before your eyes?? That the only answer for you to make things right is to blindfold both of us?? What is this?? Wrestling Court?? Where the the person that gets prosecuted and the other party gets the same punishment and have to fight each other to the blind death to escape its eternal punishment?? How does that work???”
“Again, I am not trying to weasel out of this match. I will put on that damn hood, I will reach out and touch so to speak before I will lay you out for the count of one, two, and three. I just hope that the official won’t be caught up in it all and blindfold him or herself as well,k because then it would take forever before one of us will fall asleep from boredom. But that is probably not it either isn’t it Max? Because I feel that the idea behind it is more personal and egotistical than doing something right for Fenris. Now obviously I cannot prove it, so please take my words with a pinch of salt like wrestling news on youtube say about the dirtsheets. But I think you are doing this to elevate what is left of your stinking career. Adn if that’s the case Max, I will have drop every remaining respect that I ahd for you in concern to doing this for the Icelandic Warrior thatI have considered to have been my biggest opponent EVER. I know you will not respect me, I know you will tell that all what I say are lies. I don’t care Max, I really don’t. I am not here to ask for your forgiveness or your respect. But I will be damned to let myself being used as some comedy act just because YOU think you got a chance in beating me by blinding me and yourself. How do you think that it will benefit you over me Max?? are your senses so much better when you are blinded?? Or was it like I had said before, just a mindless reaction? Because I think you never thought this through Max… You are perhaps a good friend of Senor Fenris, but you are not on the same level as he and I am Max… Yeah that’s right, I dare to place myself on the same level of that great wrestler….. that great person and I know it will make you foam from the mouth. But that’s okay, i don’t care. I will face you, I will beat you and then…I will make you shake my hand, making you realize that I am not trying to be the victim that wants to pretend to be a hero for the first time in a LOOOONG time, but that it is you Max.”
“Don’t say that I am wrong, because I don’t care. The only person that I got to prove something to is HIM and not YOU. ”a
Vinnie smiles as he looks at the window and sees the cruise ship appear.
”Now if you don’t mind Max? I think I am going to end this conversation of one and prepare myself to board on the cruise of my ultimate successes. So I will see you next week…. Oh wait… I forgot….” With that he winks at the camera as the shot slowly fades as Vinnie gets out and orders his limo driver to bring the luggage with him.