Saxon Hotel
This past week had been absolutely hell. Into the Void had come and gone and despite trying to do everything in his power to defend the honor of his family, his friends, and prove himself as a capable wrestler Teddy truly felt like he was nothing. Now the biggest match of his entire career was going to be upon him. He was going to step into the ring against the likes of the World Champion Ben Jordan and his wife Kate Steele. There were so many different thoughts going through his head he didn’t know what to do with them. It’s not like he could share them with his wife as she was too occupied spending time with the Gem Stones and potentially promoting her future movie.
Teddy had made a phone call and he was able to connect with that of his baby sister Dawn who had just signed a huge deal with PWS. Dawn Warren had flown into Las Vegas from that of Long Island New York and she made her way to the hotel and now the siblings had time to bond with one another. The biracial beauty smiled as she and her brother were going for a walk and they had a serious heart to heart.
“Hey big bro you must be excited for this coming week… You got Father’s Day coming up. You should feel excited especially with how the world is shaping up now. Back home on Long Island, New York we are starting to open up. This week we are going to be in phase 3 which means indoor dining as well as other things are going to open up again. It’s going to be so amazing…I can’t wait to go bowling again or at least go to the movie theatre and watch a really good film…”
Teddy however didn’t say anything in return as he just shrugged his shoulders and glanced back at his sister.
“Meh… Whatever…It really doesn’t matter what will happen in the country… Everything will feel the same….”
“What’s wrong big bro?! It’s not like you to get all down over stuff…I know it must suck to be confined in this stupid hotel but things are finally looking up. Maybe you could visit me at PWS. I had a successful debut a few weeks ago and hopefully I can build on it some more… You will watch right?!”
Teddy doesn’t seem to be himself as he just offers a very long sigh in return and answers back nonchalantly.
“Sure…”
Dawn stops in her tracks as she takes this moment to really stare at her brother. She gazes deep into his eyes as she tries to reach out to him.
“Seriously what is going on Todd… It’s not like you to really act like you are down in the dumps. You are supposed to be one of the most cheerful people I know, and yet you seem to be all depressed… What’s going on?!”
Teddy looks down into her eyes. He wanted to hide it but he just couldn’t as he begins to share her his heart with her.
“To be honest I am starting to really second guess myself when it comes to wrestling. No matter what I do it just never seems to be enough. This is the third wrestling company that I have really tried my hand at and it’s always the same thing. I don’t think I am going to amount to anything besides being a joke wrestler. Simply a comedy act at best. I am just not good enough. I may have done just enough to rise through the rankings and win the Roulette Championship at a time but besides doing that what have I really done?! Every single major feud that I have ever been involved within this company I only manage to lose. I lost to Mark Cross… I ultimately lost to Griffin Hawkins, and I just lost to Tony Thorn…. I really am kidding myself if I think I can actually build myself up into being somewhat of a threat to face J2H… I am a fool for calling him out and it’s just not going to end well for me…”
Teddy shrugs his shoulders.
“Maybe I don’t deserve to be in a wrestling ring and I should quit while I am ahead. I am better off being Kate’s manager or being in the background because at least then I won’t be disappointed if things don’t work out…”
Dawn crosses her arms as she keeps her eyes fixated on that of her brother.
“So that’s it… You are just going to give up on all of your dreams just like that… It’s really not like you to be a quitter. That has never been your style and I mean that in everything. We grew up in various foster homes and eventually got adopted by a white family. However you didn’t let our circumstance be a handicap to you. You used it to propel you to graduating at the top of your class. You are very bright and went on to get a college degree. I guess that’s who I grew up idolizing and for a man who is so smart it just seems illogical for me to compute that you are giving up easily… It’s just not what you do…”
“Why should I even care to bother about anything here Dawn… I am not good enough to be a wrestler… It was already made obvious in my previous attempts at trying to work my way up through the roster…”
Dawn sighs as she continues to speak.
“Yet it was your drive that brought you to becoming the most hated man of the year. You were passionate enough to gain the attention of some of the people in the company. You were capturing their hearts and their attention. It didn’t matter by hook or crook you still gained interest…”
“Well that’s all in the past now Dawn… It’s not who I even am anymore. I think Tony is right about me. it’s to figure out who I even am anymore when I can’t honestly answer that question because I frankly don’t know. I want better for myself and my career but I just don’t know how to bring any of it out… The other day part of me stood in front of a mirror and I put on lipstick, heels and wore a dress. I felt as if I was free and it made me even question my sexuality… I am a father but I just don’t know…”
“And have you taken any time out to mention this to Kate?! This should be a conversation you should really have with your wife. You know I will always have your back. You are my big brother and you have always been there to protect me. I know you could always call Jimmy up on the phone but there’s the woman you married that definitely needs to hear this or at least understand your feelings…”
Teddy shakes his head.
“I haven’t even mentioned it to her. Whenever I do want to talk to her she seems to be in her own little world. She is so wrapped up in the Gem Stones and her movie it’s as if she is putting me on the backburner. I want to communicate things with her but I don’t know how she would take it to be honest…On top of that part of me has been comparing myself to my wife and I have been questioning why I am not the wrestler that she is…”
Dawn punches her brother as she looks into his eyes.
“NOOOO… Don’t you go down that route and start trying to compare yourself to your wife. You both are supposed to be a team and her accomplishments are also your achievements. The moment you start thinking like that is the same moment that the marriage is going to break apart. You also can’t compare yourself to Kate because she has trained under two different wrestling skills. She has learned from some of the very best to ever lace up their boots in Caroline and Lyndon Dallins. Learning from them is just on another world and had you been in her position I am sure you would have been just as good. Don’t compare yourself to your wife though because you are going to end up hating your wife and you don’t want that do you?!”
“No… Not in the slightest… I could never hate my wife… Granted she might be a little over the top at times and can be quite egotistical but she has always filled in a huge void in my life and I could never look toward anywhere else to have that filled.”
“Good so now that you know that what are you going to do because you know it’s going to be wrong to constantly start to go down the path of drag. You can’t live a double life… It’s just not going to work…”
Teddy sighs.
“Yet for some reason my wife has no issues living a life Kate Steele out of the ring and in the ring, and in the musical world being completely different as Diamond. She is really trying to portray herself as two different people…”
“It might work for her now but eventually she is going to burn herself out. Trust me on this Teddy… I think what’s more important is you figure out who you are as an individual. You need to focus out on bringing out the real you. Tony might say you are wearing a mask. James might say you are pissing on yourself, and others might think you are just this drag queen but you really need to figure out who you are behind the cameras and everything. Figure out who you wish to be and be the best version of you that you could possibly be. If that equates to you losing more or winning it really doesn’t matter. As long as you are happy in your own shoes that’s the only thing that really matters. Once you figure that out you can start moving on with your life and building yourself up to where you wish to be…”
Teddy smiles as he wraps his arms around his sister and embraces her into a very tight hug.
“Thank you Dawn… I honestly don’t know what I would do if I didn’t have such an amazing sister in my life…”
“To be honest you probably would have put some lipstick on and ran away to become someone else. Don’t go down that route. Just take your time with everything and when you figure everything out all of the pieces will fall into piece. Take things one day at a time and the world will be eventually yours. Just don’t take things for granted…”
“I won’t… I am just happy I have the best sister in the world…”
“Of course you do and don’t you ever forget it… On the bright side it won’t be long until you are out of this hotel and we can really start partying like there is no tomorrow…”
With that Teddy smiles in return and it’s on this image that we fade out on.
Hello to all of the Teddy Bears out there. To be honest when I look at this card I honestly have mixed emotions coming into my mind. In one aspect I guess you can say this is everything I could have ever imagined. I am in a match surrounded by nothing but champions. I have absolutely nothing to lose in this match and of course that means I have everything to gain.. With me being the only one without a title that means I have the most to prove and I can showcase why I should be the next biggest thing in wrestling. I can break out of my shell and showcase that I am going to be here for a very long time…
No matter how you look at it in my perspective it’s a win, win situation, and that just brings a huge smile to my face. Yet I know I should be thrilled because you couldn’t have put me in a better off situation. Let’s not even look at the fact that my wife is going to be on the other side of the ring but the reason why I feel mixed emotions is the honest fact that I don’t even know who I am anymore.
Things haven’t been going that well for me. This is going even further beyond that of losing to Tony Thorn but to be quite frank I don’t even know who I am anymore. For the past few months I am really struggling by going through an identity crisis. Part of me wants to leave being a drag queen behind me. I know it was the thing that got me noticed in the first place. Most of the time being an attention whore always seems to warrant publicity in some shape, form or fashion. It seems to always work for Alicia Lukas, it definitely works for Crystal, and of course my wife, but I don’t want negative attention…
I won the most hated man in the company by a landslide and even until this very day people still want to punch me in the face but I don’t want to make a name for myself by being a chauvinistic prick. I realize as a father it’s just degrading to all women and in turn acting like that only insults my daughter as well and I don’t want that either. I just want to be the best me I can possibly and who exactly is the real Teddy Warren?!
As I sit here and think about it… I have come to the understanding that I am a great family man… I am a wonderful husband, and I am a strong father. When it comes to my wife and daughter I would do anything for them. I haven’t done my job in the past but I will be the best that I can possibly be and that’s not a mask. It doesn’t matter if I lost in five straight matches nothing will ever take away from the fact that I am who I am, and I refuse to change that for anybody.
Whether you like that or think it’s fine that’s on you but this is how I feel. So I will shine and I will showcase what I am about in this upcoming match. This might be the hardest match I have ever wrestled in. I am going to be stepping into a tag team match against the likes of Ben Jordan. Ben Jordan you truly are the cream of the crop. You are the best of the best and I could sit here and try to talk you down but in all honesty I am not about that life. You haven’t done anything to really piss me off. You do hold a piece of gold that I eventually would like to have around my waist but I am not going to talk you down like you don’t even matter. You have come a long way in this industry. You were a very dominant Tag Team Champion along with Jamie Dean. For six months you both took down every single team in your path.
You have beaten nearly everybody that came in front of you. People are quick to talk up Team Hero as being the end all be all of tag team wrestling but I would say that your team was the male equal vent of it. Maybe just maybe your team might even be better. If that wasn’t enough you also had the luxury of holding the Roulette Championship for a very long time and you were a Golden Roulette couple with your wife. I had strived so much to try to gain just a bit of that type of fame but I never got that luxury. I could never be as good as my wife and therefore she would always be the one getting all of the accolades and I would be left in the dust.
With you however you have always busted your ass to get what you wanted. I know people might shit on you for holding a championship but they can all just kiss your ass because you worked as hard as you possibly could to win titles. Now here you stand as a very dominant World Champion. You have turned away the very best of the best and it doesn’t seem like that title is going to go anywhere any time soon. For Christ sakes you even beaten Fenris and that’s like the ultimate end all be all. Nobody beats Fenris and lives to tell the tale.
Hell I got booked against Fenris and I felt as if I was scared shitless to the point I couldn’t even say a promo against him. I won’t deny it that’s just me being completely honest but you didn’t have that problem though Ben. You have turned down every single challenge and you are elevating the championship to another level. You are still building the championship and it doesn’t seem like it’s going to go away any time soon. With all of that in mind you better believe I am going to give you everything I got to beat you. Beating you might just open the window for future opportunities and right now with the way I have been slumping. I just want to be in a situation where I can gain an opportunity. It doesn’t have to be at a title or anything like that. I just want a chance to shine and by putting up a good enough performance I know I can probably gain more television time from this…
So bring what you got Ben… I honestly don’t know if I am going to be able to beat you but I will definitely hold my ground and by the end of the day you will know that I have the talent to bring it…
However even though I have the luxury of teaming up with the best bombshell on the roster in the World Champion what scares me the most is Ben’s partner and that’s my very own wife in the form of Kate Steele. Kate I love you babe. You truly are an amazing wrestler. You are always one step ahead of just about everything and I have never met a woman who could wear her camouflage well as being the best chameleon in the company. I know people give Mercedes Vargas shit for basically being a shape shifter depending on who she is facing, but you Kate are practically everything and you do it with ease…
You want to be a singer?!
You form a female band!
Hey you want to be a guitarist?!
You somehow manage to become a member of Devilition…
You talk yourself up that you are this big time submission based wrestler because you watched Ronda Roussey in UFC and immediately think you can just slap on arm bars and choke people out, and yet I have seen you consistently do the exact thing in wrestling flawlessly as if you had no struggles with anything.
How in the fuck do you honestly balance it?! For other women that would nearly be impossible but with you whatever you set your mind on you always seem to conquer it and you go to the point of mastery… I am so envious of you in that regard. Roxi said you are a jack of all trades and a master of none but I digress. I haven’t seen you fail at anything and despite being all over the place you somehow make it work.
I tried to do the same exact thing but I just couldn’t do it like you do. It’s insanity to be honest but it doesn’t matter. Unlike everybody else I know your weaknesses and your biggest flaw is that you honestly seem to put more into what you are doing and not looking at your family. You spend more time with your band then you do with me or your daughter, and the selfishness needs to go.
It just has to go… I know you take great pride in being a woman who hasn’t been pinned or even submitted but come Sunday I am going to help Evie win. If that means she ends up ruining your perfect little streak by all means it will be worth it.
It will be a learning experience for you and by suffering a lost you can be even better than what you are now. My dream is to one day see you become a World Champion but at the same token I am looking at establishing an identity. It doesn’t matter if this was the main event or even the opener. The only thing my mind is on is improving. You are probably looking past me but I am not arrogant enough to look through you knowing you will be a roadblock in my way.
I will do what I must Kate and regardless of what happens I will still love you afterwards because you are my wife. For better or for worse right hun?!
Sadly Sunday will be a for worse moment because it will be my moment. I will have a happy father’s day and the best gift I could ever receive is beating two of SCW’s best champions in the confines of one match. Get ready for it Kate because this week it definitely will be Teddy time and I will find my identiy…
