The scene cuts into Chelsea LeClair sitting on her living room couch. She appears to be in some bright spirits as she begins to speak.

Chelsea: Hi! So… yeah… I didn’t exactly get a chance at the gauntlet and there is this whole “no girls allowed’ show going on, but that doesn’t mean that I can’t take the opportunity for you all to get to know me better. So, like I’ve said before… I’m Chelsea LeClair and I am the new girl of SCU! Here’s the quick rundown of my wrestling career so far…

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The production cuts to a picture of Chelsea and SCW Bombshells Internet Champion Andrea Hernandez being tag team champions together. Chelsea is using a voice over to narrate a series of pictures, starting with this one…

Chelsea: Yes, Andrea and I were tag team champions and best friends once upon a time. This of course, was before Andrea grew an ego! We were Sedona Sky and at that time, we were a pretty darn good tag team in GCW… what’s more?

The next picture Chelsea is to narrate is a backstage picture with herself, Andrea Hernandez and Myra Rivers.

Chelsea: Yep, that’s Myra Rivers alright. Like Andrea, a protege of hers. While I can corroborate some of the nasty shit Andrea has mentioned about her like how she abused her and I in GCW, unlike Andrea, I AM over it. Myra and I get along better now. It was a blessing that I got to be mentored by someone like her… even if I didn’t appreciate it at the time…

The next picture is Chelsea getting forcibly removed from a wrestling ring next to pictures of a random glass of alcohol and a bottle of pills.

Chelsea: Then… the hard times hit. Sedona Sky broke up. What I endured at that point drove me to drugs and I became a complete and total joke in the wrestling business. No seriously…

Next picture is of Chelsea being drunk at a party, then drunk Chelsea being on a stripper pole for no reason, then of Chelsea in the middle of a striptease for a wrestler she was stalking at the time.

Chelsea: ...at first, I hated wrestling. I was using it to be a Hollywood star. Thank GOD I ditched that attitude by the way. And while that was going on…

A collage of pictures of Andrea’s success post-Sedona Sky comes on the screen…

Chelsea: My old tag team partner was flying high… and while it wasn’t her fault, it did make me feel like shit and drove me further into the ground….

A picture of Chelsea being drenched in rain with her belongings scattered on the street comes next…

Chelsea: Until I hit rock bottom! When I got fired from OCW… that was it. I didn’t feel like I had a career to stand on anymore. I thought things were never going to get better. But then, therapy… rehab… kicking some self destructive habits, being well enough to wrestle again, being motivated to ERASE all that… it has resulted in this…

Next picture: Chelsea as OCW Women’s Champion.

Then: Chelsea as GCWA North American Champion, followed by GCWA World Champion.

Then: Chelsea as the HKW: Underground Tapout Champion

Lastly, Chelsea with her second world championship in 2021.

Chelsea: Like a phoenix… and I know I am stealing Andrea’s OLD thing here… I rose from the ashes and I became a star in a way that I could never imagine. All of this? I managed to accomplish that in just under a whole calendar year! Suddenly, I became an inspiration to the hopeless. Suddenly, I discovered who I really am. Now, I know that my purpose in this life is to be that in this business!

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The scene cuts back to Chelsea on her living room couch.

Chelsea: SCU, you’ve only seen a small sample size of what I am capable of. So far, so good! But as you have just seen, you haven’t seen anything yet. I am here to continue the inspirational, post-rock bottom success that I’ve had and there isn’t one of you in this locker room that is going to tell me that I am not capable of something. You can try, but I promise you this, I WILL prove you wrong. When I was at rock bottom, everyone wrote me off and I was considered the biggest joke in wrestling. But now? I’m the best that I’ve ever been and only getting better! Keep an eye on me! I have a feeling you are definitely going to like what you see!

Chelsea winks before she stands up and leaves the living room couch. After that, the production cuts.

September 17th, 2021

After a few days in an Anchorage hospital, I was finally back in Miami. On the cab ride home from the airport, there was a feeling of guilt and of emptiness inside  and not necessarily because of the outcome of Violent Conduct.

“What has happened to me?” I thought to myself. “Why do I feel like I am so disconnected from myself? I’ve been feeling this way ever since I finally overcame my past. I managed to switch it off during Violent Conduct, but I feel like… I’ve betrayed myself…”

I paused to think for a little bit more, as my heart continued to seep in increasing guilt.

“When I first arrived in the mainstream, I wasn’t even close to being as hardcore as I’ve been in SCW. Sure, I took my career seriously but back then, I didn’t have a ‘reputation’ to live up to. I didn’t have those old burdens that I recently overcame weighing me down. I was able to turn off the wrestler and just be myself when I wasn’t inside a wrestling arena. God, I haven’t been able to turn off the wrestler ever since I came out of retirement six years ago. Have I really become so consumed in my career? Is this what is bothering me? I remember when I didn't have so many burdens on me…”

And so, I began to remember happier times…

Summer 2008

“Asia actually thought she had a chance to beat me in that ladder match two nights ago?” I said with a laugh in an Atlanta-area bar as I was celebrating with Jazmyn Rain, my best friend, and Adrianna, who I had only known for a few days up to that point. There was a championship, the WXWF Women’s Championship, on the bar table in front of me. “Some green as grass rookie? PFFFT! SURE!”

The three of us exchanged a laugh to ourselves.

“I’m SO happy for you!” Jazmyn exclaimed. “You went through so much and you finally won your first championship on the mainstream!”

“You’re DAMN RIGHT I did!” I said as Jazmyn and I tipped our glasses and took a shot of wine. Adrianna looked a bit shy having a glass of water, smiling as well. “Do you have the whole party planned back in Miami?”

“Of COURSE!” Jazmyn said with confidence. “We got the mechanical bull, the pinata, the open mic poetry contest booked, the DJ, the freestyle rap battle tournament secured…”

“Freestyle rap tournament…” Adrianna said meekly. “Mechanical bull… wow...”

“Sis, I want this huge moment for me to be celebrated in the biggest extravaganza EVER…” I said as I took another shot of wine. “It’s going to be an ALL NIGHT PARTY! Six at night all the way to six in the morning, I don’t give a FUCK!”

“Damn right!” Jazmyn said as she raised her hand. I smacked it with a high five and embraced her, giving her a kiss on the cheek.

“I love you so much Jazzy!”

“Aw! Love you too!”

“HEY, did you get the chippendales booked?”

“Are you DRUNK?” Adrianna asked me.

“Maybe… hahaha… Jazzy?”


“Yep….”

“YES!!!!!!! The whole public is invited to my house… FOR FREE… well, technically not since I’m using my dad’s credit line to pay for everything BUT…”

“He’s going to be SO mad…” Adrianna said with concern.

“Lighten up Adrianna…” Jazmyn said. “The son of a bitch deserves it for all he put Myra through growing up. Can’t she have fun and you know, BE HAPPY?”

“Yeah sis… don’t be such a spoilsport. Have a drink… wait, you can’t because you’re only 20 hahahaha…”

Adrianna rolled her eyes.

“So are you going to dominate that freestyle rap tournament, Myra?” Jazmyn asked. My response was a confident scoff.

“DUH! I’m AMAZING!”

“I KNOW YOU ARE! You are the most amazing, splendiferous, super amazing, double decker sandwich, mega amazing… what am I saying?!?!?!”

“Jazzy, you’re SO wasted… hahaha!”

“So what are you going to dominate more, Myra? The mechanical bull or one of the chippendales? It’s a WILD RIDE either way!”

Adrianna rolled her eyes while I just laughed.

“Hahahahaha…..SHUT UP JAZMYN!” I said as I playfully pushed her.

“No YOU shut up!” Jazmyn playfully pushed back. “You’ll NEVER amount to anything in wrestling Myra because a bunch of empty JERKS in NSWA said so…”

“OH YEAH! They thought I’d amount to NOTHING… well FUCK THEM…”

“The WHOLE locker room, Myra? What the FUCK?”

“SHUT UP JAZMYN! GOD!”

“I’m out of here…” Adrianna said as she slipped away from the table

“NO YOU shut up you DUMB, FLORIDA MORON!”

“Oh right, I AM one according to NSWA, RIGHT? HA! Proved THEM wrong! LOOOOSERS! You know who else is a loser?”

“Who?”

“YOUR MOM!”

I playfully shoved Jazmyn so hard she nearly fell out of her chair.

“Bra and panties bar room brawl match, RIGHT NOW!”

“I’ll choke you out, Jazmyn!” I said with a drunken laugh.

“...WHATEVERRRR!”

Jazmyn and I had a hell of a time together as we continued to celebrate my first title win ever. While I was obviously way more immature at this stage of my career, I WAS having way more fun and I didn’t take my career so damn seriously. Just thinking back to this silly little memory made me feel more like myself…

Back to the present…

“When was the last time I was TRULY happy?” I thought to myself as the cab ride continued. “I didn’t treat myself at all when I won the SCW Bombshells Internet Championship. I didn’t treat my title defenses like that big of a deal. I dealt with them, I won them, and I moved on. I wouldn’t have even celebrated breaking the records that I did had Jazmyn not pushed me to do so. When was the last time I went out for an innocent drink or the last time Jazmyn and I went shopping together? When was the last time I took Adrianna out to spend some quality sister time without having to think about wrestling? It feels like all of that has been forever. Aside from my two year maternity retirement, I haven’t separated myself from my career in… gosh, a decade? I used to be such a sociable, happy, fun-loving person and I haven’t been that in so long.

Right now? I really wish I could be that person again…”

My train of thought was broken with the cab arriving at my home. I exited the cab and the driver was nice enough to pop the trunk open to allow me to remove my stuff. I did so and after paying my fare, the cab drove off.

“I’m not sad about losing to Amber again…” I thought to myself. “...but what if I am pushing myself too hard? Hanging onto awful times in my past caused that. I know I JUST let it all go… but I should’ve done that the moment I came back to wrestling. God, what have I cost myself by waiting so long to let it go?”

I was looking at the front door with an increasingly guilty, sad feeling pouring through me. My hand was shaking as I pulled my key out of my purse and nervously unlocked the door. Opening and entering, the first thing I saw was Adrianna sitting on her wheelchair.

There was awkward silence when I shut the door and I saw right away she was looking at me. During this staredown, that guilt just grew. I began to walk toward her and I could see she was already looking sad. I was in for a surprise when she stood up from her wheelchair and embraced me. She buried her face in my shoulder and started crying, leaving me numb and not knowing how to process anything.

“I wasn’t sure I’d ever see you again…” she told me, making my heart sink further. We broke our embrace and I was still numb and stunned.

“Adrianna, I’m sorry I couldn’t win that match. I tried and…”

“That’s not what you should be apologizing for…” she said, catching me off guard. “You should apologize for what you put me, what you put Kimberly and what you put EVERYONE that cares about you through when you fought that match. I know it wasn’t your choice to compete in that, but GOD DAMN IT, MYRA! I thought your career was going to be over! I was so worried that you were permanently paralyzed, disfigured or SOMETHING! You didn’t bother to call, or to answer any calls anyone made to you, or anything! No, you’re too busy in the ER probably crying about how you lost that match. I know it means the world to you, but I DON’T GIVE A FUCK if you lost that match! You could’ve been disfigured… or worse… KILLED!”

“Killed?”

“The ring fucking exploded, Myra! I actually thought you were either going to die or that you were already dead!!!!” Adrianna blurted this out as tears streamed down her face. “You left me worrying for DAYS! Why didn’t you communicate with me, or to anyone that cares about you, as soon as you woke up? Why leave us worried sick? Do you realize how horrible Kimberly cried herself to sleep on Sunday because she thought you were dead? Get that through your head, Myra! You are her only living parent! There comes a point where you just need to stop killing yourself over your wrestling career and doing things like that! Being a MOM and watching Kimberly grow up is WAY more important than a World Championship! How can you be so IGNORANT?”

“I’m here now. Isn’t that important? I’ll recover from this. I’ll get back in the ring soon enough. I’ll bounce back from this. You know I can and will. You know I’m not going to be done pursuing the world title…”

“No… NO! I DON’T want to hear that speech right now! Seriously! I don’t! For better or worse, I have supported your career all of these years even in the instances where it has negatively affected our relationship, but nearly getting yourself killed at Violent Conduct crosses the line for me! I can’t support your career anymore, Myra! For YOUR fucking sake… and most of all, for KIMBERLY’S sake… you need to be done with wrestling…”

“WHAT?!?!?!!” I said, in shock and denial. “Am I being punked right now? Did I just hear that from YOU of all people?”

“DID I NOT MAKE MYSELF CLEAR ENOUGH?” Adrianna screamed. “WHY put yourself through this? For what? A world championship? Those come and go, but the bond with a child is FOREVER, Myra! I’m not telling you to retire because you can’t go anymore. I’m telling you to retire because wrestling has done nothing but DESTROY YOU for YEARS without YOU realizing it!”

“What are you talking about?” I asked with a soft, quivering voice.

“Like I haven’t noticed how you’ve changed over the last 10 years? I HAVE noticed! Everyone’s noticed. Nobody wanted to say anything, but the fact of the matter is, you have allowed wrestling to change you. The Myra I met would’ve thought twice about being in a match like that, but no, YOU jump into that with Amber because you’re so DESPERATE for a world title, acting like without it, you can’t validate your career. That is NOT the Myra that I met. That is someone that has allowed her career to change her… for the worse…”

I was still quite stunned by what I was hearing.

“When I met you Myra, you had FUN every now and then. Sure, you were annoying in a ‘big sister’ sort of way here and there, but you left your career IN the ring. You took time out of your day to live your life. Now? You’re so hyper focused on your career 24/7 with all of those unneeded extra training hours and taking FOREVER to let go of your worst heartbreaks ever that I don’t even RECOGNIZE you anymore…”

“You don’t need to be so harsh…”

“Yes I DO, Myra, because at this point it’s the only way you are going to get it. I want the old, happy, FUN Myra back! I want the sister that I got to hang out with at the movies, or some carnival, or some amusement park every once in a while and we got to talk about… you know… LIFE! But no, you’re all about WRESTLING and your career as if you’d DIE without it.”

“How long have you been feeling like this?”

“Ten years…” Adrianna mentioned, further shocking me. “Over time, even when things are going well for you, I’ve observed you becoming progressively more miserable. I hate to say it because it’s your dream, but wrestling, especially SCW with  how competitive and intense it is, has made you a miserable, unhappy person that can never be satisfied with anything. You are exactly what you have accused Amber of being…”

“...that can’t be true…” I said. “I was so happy doing what I did with the Internet title for so long and…”

“If you were, how come you don’t even TALK about that anymore? Right, because you lost that to Amber and it means nothing to you anymore…”

I raised my eyebrows, still expressing surprise. It shocked me when I thought ‘holy shit, she’s right’ to myself without my conscience even bothering to fight it.

“When I was on maternity retirement, I was miserable. If I didn't have my wrestling career… I don’t know what I have left…”

“Happiness. Relief. Freedom from burdens you’ve carried for years…”

“Adrianna, seriously…”

“Just let me make my point.” Adrianna pleaded as more tears fell down her face. “Can you PLEASE listen to me for ONCE? As a sister, can you do THAT much for me?”

“...okay…”

“Miserable without wrestling? You’ve been progressively miserable WITH wrestling: all the crap you did in GCW when you severed your friendship with Jazmyn… and you’re LUCKY she forgave you by the way… the fact that even as recent as Summer XXXtreme, you were acting like losses were this HUGE SETBACK! OH MY GOD! END OF THE WORLD… the fact that you feel like a failure and that the good things you’ve done mean nothing because of one setback and you act like you have to start over from square one… the fact that you are ALWAYS hard on yourself to the point where if ONE thing goes wrong with your career, you lock yourself up in your room, or at the gym, and keep your distance from me, Jazmyn, Scotty, my twins, YOUR DAUGHTER… GOD Myra, if only you could count how many times Kimberly expressed sadness that you isolated yourself over your career…”

My internal guilt grew as Adrianna paused. A few sobs were coming out of her and I was beginning to feel her pain and her heartache.

“Why is nothing ever good enough for you? You’re not doing it on purpose, but why do you have to push everyone away for the benefit of your career? I understand that SCW is competitive as hell and that it’s the hardest company you’ve ever wrestled for, but why do you HAVE to be so sucked in? Why did it have to take you SO LONG to get over the Luciana thing? I’m glad you finally did, but WHY so long? Your mother retired from wrestling to raise you and to be the best mom she could be for you. Why can’t you make that same sacrifice? What is WRONG with leaving your career as it is when you’re doing this for yourself and your own well being and most importantly, for your DAUGHTER? Because a few SCW Bombshells like Kate, Andrea, Bea, Alicia, Amber and so forth would tear you down and judge you for it?”

“It’s not about that…” I said, the quivering still in my voice. “...I just don’t want to retire without one more world title. I don’t want my last world title to be something that I won by cheating and interference. I don’t feel like my career is complete without that.”

“So your Internet title reign is irrelevant?”

“I never said that…”

“Myra, that ONE title reign MORE than atones for that. That reign is the longest reign in the history of the division for ALL the titles. If you were to retire now, that’s what you would be remembered for. THAT is your mark on SCW AND the division! YOU left that. NOBODY can take that away from you. If you were to retire tomorrow, would THAT being your last reign be the worst thing? That reign was the best title reign of ALL 19 you’ve ever had…”

“I agree…” I said, pausing. I was becoming overwhelmed with guilt at this point as I went to the couch to sit down. “When I was growing up… and when I wanted to do this… fifteen year old Miranda Lynette Rivers wanted to be a wrestler just to follow in her mother’s footsteps. I wanted to go mainstream, which she never got to do. I didn’t care about titles so much. I just wanted to make it… for her…”

“You’ve done everything you’ve ever wanted and THEN some, Myra. I know it’s tough and that this is what you love in your heart, but you know in that same heart that your career has made you miserable and really changed you in ways you never wanted to change.”

“I am so sorry, Adrianna…” I said with a guilty sigh, the numbness in my soul beginning to wane. “I’m sorry that I put you, Kimberly and everyone else I cared about through the ringer at Violent Conduct… and not just that… for what I’ve put EVERYONE through over the years being so hyper focused on my career and living up to a certain reputation by winning titles and beating anyone in front of me and focusing SO much on conquering everything under the sun and hanging onto the past to the point where I completely neglected myself… my own well being… and most of all, my relationships with the people I love. I never meant to hurt you… or anyone I care about…”

“It’s for your own good, sis.”

“You’re right…” I admitted, tears of my own filling up realizing that it felt right and that it felt like it was time. “I’ll call the office in the morning and… I’m never wrestling again. I don’t want to give up something that I love, but I also don’t want to hurt the people that I love even more. You’re right. For the last 10 years? I’ve been wrestling under a cloud of misery I had no idea was hovering above me until you mentioned it. I’m doing the right thing. No more wrestling…”

“Mommy… no….”

As if the surprises couldn’t be over just yet. Kimberly, my seven-year-old daughter, was standing at the base of the stairs. She looked incredibly sad over what I just said and her sadness broke my heart.

“Kimmy, I have to…”

“But I wanna wrestle too… just like you…”

This caught Adrianna and I BOTH by surprise.

“Come here…” I told her. She didn’t hesitate to listen as she came to the couch and curled up into my arms. “I’m sorry…”

“I know you’re not home all the time, but seeing you wrestle makes me happy! It’s like I have a superhero as my mom! If you were to stop, I’d be so sad!”

Feeling her tears spread in the crook of my elbow brought the tears out of me too.

“It’s a tough career…” I told her. “But if this is what you want to do, I support you.”

“Don’t quit, mommy!”

I was feeling conflicted knowing that Adrianna was right, but Kimberly was happy to watch me wrestle.

“I’m sorry you had to see that…” I told her, referring to Violent Conduct. “...is there anything I can do to make it up to you?”

“Don’t quit…” Kimberly repeated. “I don’t want you to quit.”

“Adrianna…” I said as I looked toward my sister who was equally conflicted. “You’re right… but you know I don’t want to let her down. You’re right that Kimberly comes first… always… and that includes this instance. I’m sorry, but if I retire? I’m only letting her down and I can’t do that. Kimmy, I’m not quitting… but only because of you, okay? You’re the reason why I’m going to keep going…”

Kimberly hugged me tighter while Adrianna didn’t know what to say at first.

“I understand…” she said. “...promise me you will take everything we talked about into consideration. Promise me you’re going to find the happy, fun, vibrant sister that I met 13 years ago and that you are going to quit centering your whole entire life around your career. Promise me that you’re going to do better in separating yourself from this. Promise me you are going to stop basing your whole entire self-esteem on what happens in that wrestling ring.”

I took a deep sigh of relief with Adrianna relenting even though she had wanted me to consider ALL of the amazingly strong points she made.

“I promise…” I told her. “...you are absolutely right in everything you told me today and from now on, I AM going to be better and I’m NOT going to base my entire self-worth on my career.”

“Good…” Adrianna said as she began to head toward the stairs, kicking over her wheelchair in the process. She stopped at the base of the stairs. “...and Myra?”

“Yeah?”

“Never… EVER wrestle that kind of match again! Don’t you EVER put us through the emotions we felt a second time!”

Adrianna went upstairs, albeit slowly having just been able to walk on her own again. I was alone with Kimberly on the couch at this point and I could feel her happiness that I decided to continue my career after all.

“Come on…” I told Kimberly. “Let’s go get some ice cream!”

“YAY!”

Kimberly’s excitement over something as simple as ice cream brought a pure joy into my heart… a rare non-wrestling related joy that I was already wanting to experience more often…

Later that night…

After I had put Kimberly to bed for the night, I was down in my basement… largely empty after I had auctioned off so much of my memorabilia on the Summer XXXtreme cruise for Adrianna’s medical care. I was looking through an old photo album, remembering some happy, fun times.

There was a picture of Jazmyn Rain and I, both 16, at a Halloween party where she was Poison Ivy and I was Wonder Woman, and I had her in a playful chokehold...

A picture of Adrianna and I where we were smiling over the first lunch we ever had together back in 2008…

A picture of all three of us on my 24th birthday that same year where the three of us were giving the middle finger to a life size picture of my father that we plastered in paint, and with a “Fuck yourself” written in marker by me right on his face.

A picture of Jazmyn and I having a day at the mall when we were seventeen, laughing after we silly stringed a boy at an arcade inside the mall…

And lastly a picture of me spilling champagne all over Adrianna on her 21st birthday while both of us were having an amazing time. I sighed, still feeling some of that guilt from earlier.

“There was never anything wrong with that fun, social person I was…” I said with regret. “I’m sad that I lost sight of that person. But it happens to the best of them in this business. I got too wrapped up in it… but from this moment forward, I am going back to the basics… and I WILL find and BE that person again…”

At this point, I closed the photo album and reflected further on those happy, fun times… all while pondering how I was going to achieve this greater balance that my heart was increasingly desiring…

September 24th, 2021

I was back inside the old training ring inside of Scott Lockley’s old wrestling school, sitting on the edge of the apron and reflecting on some things as I took in the atmosphere of where I began my wrestling journey nearly twenty years ago. While part of me was still feeling Violent Conduct, it wasn’t enough to bring me down, physically or emotionally. I quickly glanced at some pictures of myself from my training years where I was bubblier and happier before I expressed my thoughts to the camera in front of me.

“I know what you must be thinking. How? How can I wrestle a match two weeks after THAT? I admit, I was surprised that I found out I was booked against Bea Barnhart this coming weekend so soon after something so violent, but if you think I’m about to back down just because I might not be 100% and because I lost to Amber again, then you’re only fooling yourself. The last couple of weeks have been something else for me because I admit it… for a while? I really felt empty… and not because of Amber… but because I had to stare a loved one in the face as they PLEADED with me to retire. That… it shook me up more than the loss itself. I recently realized through all of this that I’d been weighing myself for SO long because of my former inability to let go of the past and the fact that I was pushing myself too damn hard to my own detriment. That’s why I am back where it all started. The fact of the matter is, you people here in SCW don’t REALLY know me because I’ve kept to myself the entire time I’ve been here. I’ve ALWAYS been driven with my career without ever so much even providing a hint of who I really am. Hell, all the crap I was spewing at Amber about how she wasn’t happy with anything? That was actually ME. I’ve spent FAR too long tormenting myself over stupid nonsense… and I’m done! From this moment forward, I am slowly going to show you who I really am in and out of the ring and damn it, I am not going to hide anymore!

This week? I begin to go BACK TO BASICS and I begin to rediscover who the fuck Miranda Rivers truly is! I don’t care if I may or may not be 100%, I’m NOT backing down nor giving up and Bea, if you think you’re going to just walk into my home state and get a victory over me, playing the role of vulture just because of what I went through two weeks ago, then you can FORGET IT! It’s fitting that I am going back to basics and bettering myself and my well-being by doing so by competing against and wrestling against, one of the most BASIC BITCHES in this company. Bea, you have NEVER had respect for ANYONE. All you do is turn the camera on, talk the same old shit every single week and more often than not, FAIL to deliver! The sad thing is, you remind me of me when I first started. I was that same bitch that you are now that talked a lot of shit, tried so hard to piss everyone off, tried too hard to be FUNNY and that not many took seriously. I have been that rookie, or relatively inexperienced wrestler, that acted like she was BETTER than she really was… just like YOU do on a near weekly basis. However, you want to know the biggest difference between rookie me and you, Bea?

I backed it ALL up… maybe not at first, but I DID! I GAINED experience, just like you have Bea, but like my trainer Scott Lockley once taught me, it’s not the experience that matters, but it’s what you do to grow from it. You’ve been here for how long now, Bea? And aside from a fleeting, two-week reign with the Mixed Tag Titles, what have you even DONE to carry yourself the way you do? You came into SCW being a trash talking, basic bitch that acted like she was better than everyone and had everything it took to be successful right away… and now… you STILL are! For all the experience you’ve gained, you haven’t EVOLVED at all. The reason why you haven’t progressed as much as other Bombshells here, and the reason why you’re not beating me on Sunday, is because YOU LEARN NOTHING from your mistakes and you grow NOTHING from your experiences. You recently had a chance to beat Amber, you didn’t. You went into that match CLEARLY violating the BASIC rule of this business of KNOWING YOUR OPPONENT because you constantly said Amber had a ‘limited mental capacity’.

If you actually had any PASSION for what you do, you’d KNOW that’s not true.

The BEST example that proves that you learn NOTHING from your mistakes is your recent match with Seleana Zdunich. You would think losing to her twice would’ve taught you something, but there you go again rattling off the same basic nonsense talking about how you talk FACTS. Really, Bea? You talk FACTS? Amber having a ‘low mentality’ isn’t fact. Amber NOT taking the world championship seriously isn't a fact. It’s a pathetically wrong statement you pulled out of your ass because you didn’t even bother to know or to learn what she is all about. You getting disrespected by the other wrestlers out of jealousy is a fact? What is there to be jealous about? The fact that you’ve never been a singles champion? Your mixed tag team title run that only lasted two weeks? The fact that you haven’t evolved one bit since coming to Sin City Wrestling? Losing to Seleana three times? I get it, when I had your level of experience, I was that delusional too, but I grew the hell out of it… and even then, I was in my early 20’s. You are in your THIRTIES like I am and you’re acting like you’re still in high school with your shallow promotional material and the occasional stupid skit that you do that isn’t funny whatsoever. It’s like you WANT to make a joke out of this business. You even insinuate that Seleana has an attitude, a smart mouth and is arrogant…

SERIOUSLY?

Seleana may have her moments, but she’s NONE of that and again YOU would know that if you actually took the time to know that. You’re even trying to discredit Seleana’s success by insinuating that she got it all handed to her. THAT is “fact”? Seleana being just like the mean girls you grew up with is a FACT? That’s not fact… that is NONSENSE coming from someone who CLAIMS she is no-nonsense when the reality is, every time she comes on camera and cuts a promo, all she speaks is nonsense and you ACT like this delusional, fact-twisting, wannabe tabloid style NONSENSE is going to get you anywhere, but all it’s gotten you is going around in circles. You would think that losing to Seleana twice would’ve taught you something, but you went into that match with her at Violent Conduct with the SAME ATTITUDE you had the first two times… and you lost again. Every single time you go out there and wrestle, SURE you GAIN experience, but what the fuck do you do with it? You waste it. You waste it because you’re still doing the same old thing, showing no ability or willingness to evolve and grow. You are one of those wrestlers in this division that goes through the motions, sits there, waits to get booked, waits for an opportunity to pretty much be given to her, and doesn’t apply the time and effort into her craft to get better. If you DID, Bea, you would’ve beaten Seleana at Violent Conduct, you and Bill would’ve held the mixed tag titles more than two weeks and perhaps, you would’ve become the Bombshells Roulette Champion, but no, you’re just complacent, doing the same old shtick again and acting like you’re better than you really are when you barely have the receipts to prove it.

You WASTED a huge opportunity with the Mixed Tag titles to show what you were capable of. You and Bill shocked the world when you won those things and it was YOUR chance to prove it wasn’t a fluke and to GROW with those titles but instead, you REMAINED complacent, figured that what you brought to the dance was going to be good enough and you didn’t HAVE to evolve or grow and that you’d be okay in your first defense. THAT type of attitude is what cost you those mixed tag team titles and it is THAT kind of attitude that has left you massively STAGNANT in your career. You brag about gaining more experience over time when you were about to face Seleana, but what good is experience when you learn nothing from it? Tell me Bea, what is ONE thing you have learned as a professional wrestler in Sin City Wrestling that you didn’t already know before you signed on the dotted line? Can you answer that? No. But I can! I’ve learned A LOT! I’ve learned that I am strong enough to overcome ANYTHING and ANYONE thrown at me and that, in turn, has boosted my confidence and made me the best wrestler that I have ever been. I’ve been HUMBLED in REALIZING… especially very recently… that I weighed myself down by never being TRULY happy with what I do and pushing myself too hard. I’ve LEARNED that loving, nurturing and trusting yourself goes so far in this business and in this life. I’ve learned that a loss in a huge match ISN’T the end of the world, not just because I’m beyond good enough to win those more often than not, but because not even the WORST loss of my career ended it. I have learned my biggest strengths and my biggest weaknesses during my time here and I have applied what I have learned in every single match I have fought.

This match for me? I’m applying what I learned from my recent experience. You won’t see me in that ring putting too much pressure on myself and worrying about a reputation to defend because I am NOT making that mistake anymore. I’m going to show you Bea, that I am done being that wrestler that would burden herself over the dumbest nonsense and hold herself back from her fullest potential because of it. This is not going to be the same old Myra that would deliver a dissertation about the hard times of her past. I’m DONE living in that! I am DONE going around in circles, just like you have done your whole career here. I will SHOW YOU what I have learned from my Amber Ryan experiences and you are going to know first hand that I am not whatever you may slander me to be to anyone else that even bothers to listen to what you say. This match begins the rediscovery of the person that I am at my core and while I’m NOT done with the world championship, my focus is YOU and YOU alone. My focus is showing that I am NOT about to be written off and NOT about to head into the darkness. My focus is remembering why the fuck I fell in love with this sport to begin with and YOU, one of the most complacent Bombshells on the roster, are a PERFECT opponent for me at this time because I KNOW going into this thing that you don’t have the desire that I do to be better, you don’t have the HUMILITY to look within yourself the way I do to acknowledge your mistakes and realize what you are doing wrong and you damn sure don’t have the INTELLIGENCE to fix your mistakes because you REFUSE to acknowledge them at all. I can’t even think of ONE time where you humbly admitted someone else was better than you, Bea. Oftentimes you act as if the loss never happened or that it was nothing and it was just more ‘experience’ for you.

How the hell can you grow as a wrestler with THAT kind of attitude?

Simple.

You don’t.

And I’m not bullshitting you on that. Take that from someone who once acted JUST like you. I remember being just like you and THINKING I never had to improve anything and that what I learned naturally and what I inherited from my mother alone was going to be enough. GOD was I wrong. I had to lose… a LOT… when I first started. I had to endure some hell. I had to look inward and realize what I was doing wrong… something that you have NEVER done… and you know what happened when I finally stopped being someone like you and stopped being so fucking ignorant of my shortcomings? I started winning, I started getting BETTER, and I started GROWING into the wrestler that I am today and ALL I had to do was humble myself enough to learn from your mistakes. It wasn’t just ‘experience’ that got me going… it was the dedication to do whatever it took to get better… it was the humility to learn what I was doing wrong… I grew and evolved and went from acting like the stupid, spoiled rich girl my dad brainwashed me to be after my mother died to embracing the journey that I HAD to take… that I didn’t want to at first… to become one of the best of my own generation. Someone like you… who just refuses to understand what the business is all about… is a perfect opponent for me to start the process of me rediscovering why I fell in love with this and why I became so successful in the first place.

So what’s it going to be, Barnhart?

Are you going to come into this match actually motivated to show something? Are you actually going to show the world anything new? Are you going to show that you have a true passion for this business and that you actually want to EVOLVE beyond what you already are? Or are you just going to continue to go in circles, stay stuck in place, come out with the same old shtick, come out talking the same old crap, come into this match talking nonsense showing that you know NOTHING about me, deride me for “low intelligence” like you do with every opponent and threaten to kick my ass and talk about how you’re going to do that just like you do every single match?

A betting man should bet on the latter, Bea. Honestly. But either way? Even though I’ve been through so much, even though I met the death of my career right in front of my face, even though I am only two weeks removed from the hell of Violent Conduct, I AM going to beat you Bea, because I WANT this more than you do and because I WANT to CONTINUE to be better! I want to show this company and show the world why I am one of the strongest, most resilient and most passionate people on the roster and why no setback is EVER going to make me go away. This business has done SO much to me, for better and for worse, for the positive in uplifting me to the greatest heights confidence wise and for the negative for shattering my soul many times over and yet, I am STILL here because I LOVE this and I’m NOT going to give up on what I want to achieve just because I’ve faced and endured hell.

This Sunday?

It’s the start of my journey to rediscover what makes me what I am…

And THAT, Bea… is coming from the heart I have ALWAYS had for this business!

Mark my words SCW… once I finish my journey of rediscovery and I find every piece of who I truly am…

I WILL be that world champion that I know in my heart I will always be capable of being as long as I have a say in it…

But first? The beginning of that journey… and that journey starts this Sunday against you Bea.

I made a signal to my camera guy to cut off the camera, which he does. I picked up a picture of myself from the day I graduated from Scott Lockley’s wrestling school and observed how joyful I was at the time. It brought a smile to my face that made me more determined than ever to be my very best…

“I will find you again…” I told the picture. ‘I promise…”

I set it down… and began to reflect some more...

{The scene is Roxi flying around the city on her nightly patrol. But as usual, it’s a quiet night all around, Roxi soon checks in with Vision.}

 

Roxi – You don’t have anything do you?

 

Vision – Sorry Rox, if you’re looking for action, all is quiet on all fronts.

 

Roxi – No, that’s good. I wasn’t looking for it, but we must remain vigilant.

 

Vision – I hear you.

 

Roxi – Do we have any more information on the Rejects anywhere?

 

Vision – I believe I’m given you everything I have. 

 

Roxi – Anything on any of the members powers that we should be aware of?

 

Vision – Everything is there. Unless, they developed some new powers after leaving, then, your guess is as good as mine.

 

Roxi – Wonderful. Why weren’t these people depowered before they left the guild?

 

Vision – That was the idea, and usually, anyone who leaves, is depowered. Those individuals never reported back in. And obviously we couldn’t track them. We tried. Months of searching, and they never surfaced, except for some unsolved murders that we can attribute to them, but they are all over the globe.

 

Roxi – And now they’re here.

 

Vision – The report says you found a hideout.

 

Roxi – We did, but their leader, at least I think he’s their leader, Captain Invincible said they have several different locations.

 

Vision – I would imagine that’s true. There’s no way they could be as far spread as they are. Without it.

 

Roxi – I’m just concerned about them killing people and giving us a bad name. I mean, they leave they’re calling card and all but...it could have negative effects.

 

Vision – That’s true. 

 

Roxi – And I doubt they are still hanging out that old house. It has to be cleared by now. I'll have to go back and check.

 

Vision – It’s been a few weeks hasn’t it?

 

Roxi – Never hurts to double check. Not like there’s much to do here and all and –

 

{Roxi is cut off by screaming and yelling and eyes a man running for his life.}

 

Vision – I take it you found your action for the night.

 

Roxi – Very funny. I’ll be in touch.

 

{Roxi rushes down, landing in front of the screaming man, who is taken aback and falls to the ground in shock.}

 

Man – DON’T KILL ME! I SWEAR! I’LL NEVER DO IT AGAIN!

 

Roxi – What are you talking about? Slow down!

 

Man – I CAN’T THAT THING’S AFTER ME!

 

Roxi – Who?

 

{All of a sudden, Roxi is knocked aside by an unseen force. It’s enough to knock her down, as Roxi sees the man begin lifting up off the ground by his throat and thrown into a wall.}

 

Invisible? Not from me.

 

{Roxi looks and begins to sense the energy, and is finally able to locate the source, and punches it hard. The audible “oof” is heard as whomever this is, is knocked to the ground. Roxi reaches down and snatches what is a mask off the person’s face.}

 

Roxi – An invisibility cloak. You can’t hide heat signatures. Now, you have 5 seconds to tell me who you are and what you’re doing here, otherwise you’re in for a world of pain.

 

Man – Get off me! I’m doing what’s right! 

 

Roxi – What's right? You’re trying to kill that man!

 

Man – He's the bad guy! I’m trying to make your job easier!

 

Roxi – I don’t remember asking for your help.

 

Voice – But yet, here we are.

 

{Roxi looks up, and the familiar voice, matches a familiar face, the face of Captain Invincible.}

 

Roxi – I told you to stay out of my city.

 

Captain Invincible – And yet, here we are, doing your job for you.

 

Roxi – Like I said, I don’t need your help, not your brand of help. 

 

Captain Invincible – Ghost here was just trying to make sure that that murdering scum wasn’t free to take another life.

 

Roxi – That’s for the justice system to decide.

 

{Captain Invincible chuckles at this statement.}

 

Captain Invincible – Justice? No, my dear, it’s the system that allows men like that to roam free. To take lives and leave society in fear. 

 

Roxi – As opposed to you, looming over them, making them afraid, replacing one evil with another doesn’t make the difference.

 

Captain Invincible – It means safety. Freedom isn’t free, you know as well as I do.

 

Roxi – Nobody is going to stand for that. 

 

Captain Invincible – And people stand for this crime?! People living in fear of each other? This is what needs to be done. If you are your guild aren’t going to be part of the solution, then you are part of the problem.

 

Roxi – Is that a threat?

 

Captain Invincible – Take it however you will. You cannot win.

 

Roxi – Try me.

 

{Roxi steps on Ghost’s arm, digging her with her body weight and assuming a fighting stance. Captain Invincible only sighs.}

 

Captain Invincible – If you need to be shown, I will show you.

 

{The Captain takes a step forward and Roxi never breaks eye contact. As the Captain assumes a fight stance, Roxi begins raising her energy and motions for him to come fight. He obliges, only for Roxi to use her speed and lightning fast movement to jump up, and off the wall, her hands gripping his shoulder to push him down to the ground hard. Invincible jumps right up, cracking his neck as Roxi rushes forward and hits some hard punches, Invincible shrugs them off as Roxi tries for knees to the stomach and solar plexus. Each of those are shrugged off as Invincible breaks away. Roxi tries for kick, but it is blocked and Invincible swings Roxi’s body and sends her into the wall.}

 

Roxi – Ow...

 

{Invincible keeps up the attack with a blow to the head and a kick square in the ribs. Roxi flies into another wall, but gets back up. Invincible grabs her arm and jerks it back, threatening to break it, but Roxi hits a series of elbow and punches and is able to create distance. Roxi charges, but her punch is caught, and she again is tossed into the wall of the alley, this time breaking through. Invincible goes into grab Roxi out of the debris, but she is right back in his face with more punches, one that connects solidly and seems to break his nose. He steps back, not even thinking twice before simply popping his nose back into place.

 

Captain Invincible – This is utterly pointless, You can’t win. I am INVINCIBLE!

 

Roxi – We'll see about that.

 

{The two re-assume their fighting stance and both charge at each other, neither really able to connect, until Invincible hits a kick to the ribs and the drives the point of his elbow into Roxi’s back. Roxi goes down as Invincible simply cracks his neck. He picks Roxi up off the ground, only to receive a giant blast of energy right in the face. The impact backs him up as he rubs at his eye, Roxi is right back in his face with a knee. It drives him back further, until another blast comes from behind Roxi, and Keira is standing there, ready to throw down as well.}

 

Keira – Is this a private party? Or can any superhero join in?

 

{Seeing the odds not in his favor, Captain Invincible and Ghost take a step back. Invincible retains his calm demeanor the whole time.}

 

Captain Invincible – You have been warned. If we meet again, and you are in the way of our progress, we will not hesitate to kill you. 

 

{Captain Invincible and Ghost quickly vanish in a wave of energy. Roxi stands up, holding her shoulder and catching her breath.}

 

Keira – Are you okay?

 

Roxi – Yeah. He wasn’t kidding about that invincible part.

 

Keira – You should have told me as soon as it happened.

 

Roxi – No, I needed him to engage.

 

Keira – He could have killed you!

 

Roxi – No... no really.

 

Keira – What? 

 

Roxi – His blows weren’t as powerful as I expected. I noticed it about halfway through. He doesn’t hit hard, he’s just a tank. I’m not sure if I can stop him, but his whole plan was to tire me out. It’s why I only used one blast, and even that didn’t seem to hurt him.

 

Keira – Then why aren’t we getting what we need, right now?

 

Roxi – We will.

 

{Roxi again pulls up her wrist communicator and beings up the tracker.}

 

Roxi – That ghost guy... tracking him. 

 

Keira – You think of everything.

 

Roxi – Only so much. I – Get down!

 

{Roxi hears a noise and shoves Keira down as a knife is hurled is their direction. Roxi and Keira stand up, and look over, only to find Lei, Amelia’s henchwoman, standing there.}

 

Lei – You must help.

 

Keira – You have a funny way of asking for help! 

 

Roxi – What's the problem?

 

Lei – Mistress, she is missing. 

 

Roxi – Amelia?

 

Lei – Hai.

 

Keira – Good riddance.

 

Lei – You will NOT speak ill of the mistress!

 

Roxi – Enough! How do we know this isn’t some kind of trap? We have no reason to trust you.

 

Lei – Hai, that is fair. But I have been unable to locate the mistress for days. 

 

Roxi – And?

 

Lei – Even if this was a plan to deceive you, the mistress has not sprung it. This is irregular. I am always part of the plan.

 

Roxi – And you think we’ll help you find her?

 

Lei – Hai. You are the heroes are you not?

 

{Keira pulls Roxi back and away so Lei can’t hear them.}

 

Keira – I don’t like this. This HAS to be a trap.

 

Roxi – But, if she’s telling the truth, we may be able to avoid the issues with the Rejects altogether until that time comes.

 

{Keira groans and shakes her head.}

 

Keira – I still don’t like it.

 

Roxi – The sooner we find Amelia, the sooner we can end this.

 

{Roxi turns back to Amelia.}

 

Roxi – We'll consider helping you, but in order to do that, we need to know information you have.

 

Lei – Hai, What information?

 

Roxi – What do you know about Alan Robbins?

 

{The scene fades.}

 

---

 


 

Hello SCW,

 

You know me, content, but not satisfied. It was very nice to get a win at Violent Conduct, and it was nice to team with Keira and have Team Hero be a part of the event again. I am happy with that result. But it’s been a couple of weeks, and now, I have the biggest chance to get what I’ve been asking for, for a couple of months.

 

Unlike a lot of folks around here, you will never hear me tell you that I deserve anything. That I should just get things based on my name. I earn things. I firmly believe that after winning 5 matches in a row, that I have earned the right to be in this match and have this opportunity to become the number one contender to the SCW Bombshell’s championship. I would have done everything I could to win more, and in a way, I almost wish that was the case. Not that I am afraid or worried about this fatal four-way to the point I don’t want it, but I would have loved to face each of my opponents individually and done it that way. 

 

But, this is where we are now. An opportunity awaits, and I will raise to claim it. I don’t make this statement lightly, I make this statement because I have full confidence in myself and my abilities and I’m not planning on doing all the work I have done already, all over again, because one of these women snuck in the back door and got one over on me. Those days are long over. I think it is time that I make this mindset perfectly clear to each of them.

 

Let us start with my friend, Crystal.

 

So, something interesting has happened and it happened a little while back when it comes to Crystal. Crystal said something that make me think, and it made me feel a lot better about this. You see, Crystal said that based on this... new transformation or whatever she wants to call it, that words no longer hurt her, and she just needs her family and fans and that anyone can say anything, and it’s not going to bother her. 

 

I am so glad to hear that, because now, I don’t have to sit here and hold anything back that I can say about Crystal, because words don’t hurt her. So, I am really happy to take this opportunity to get a lot of things off my chest that I was holding back on saying because I was afraid, I was going to get that random text message I get at 5am after I do talk about Crystal about maybe taking it too far. I get the usual “why do you have to say stuff like that?” text, and I have to sit there going back at forth, half asleep to appease my friend. And now, I don’t have to worry about that, so I am ready to actually say the things that need to be said. 

 

I know full well, that this could quite possibly change things between Crystal and I, but that would mean she was affected by my words, but again, taking her at her word, she’s not going to be affected by this. So, let’s begin, shall we? 

 

You know what nobody really likes? Someone who just has to be the center of attention. Someone who needs to invent and make up things about themselves in order to gain sympathy, but more importantly attention. You have all seen Crystal do this, time and time again. I’ve known her for a long time, and the whole Disassociate Identity Disorder thing was just as new to me, as it was to all of you. I would really, really hate to think that Crystal, who I have known for this long, would just make that up about herself and insult an entire group of people suffering from a mental illness. So, I gave her the benefit of the doubt. Because that’s what a friend does, right? I thought I would just not comment on it, not try and convince anyone of anything being real or fake, because I don’t really know. Crystal had never really shown any signs or symptoms in the years that I knew her of having this disorder, so when it randomly came up, it did explain SOME of Crystal’s behavior, but not all of it. Crystal has always been the person who craves the attention and spotlight, so as much as I didn’t want to just outright call that a lie, it seems to be a lie. Because at the end of the day, it was something that Crystal used to get where she wanted to go. And since I can be real, and not worry about this affecting her, I can say that it has never bothered her who exactly she steps on to get there, or what she has laid at all her friend’s feet in the wake of it. It has only mattered to Crystal that she gets what she wants. And every time she has been called out on that, and they have been numerous, Crystal has feigned regret and sorrow for these actions, only to repeat them again and again and again when the opportunity suits her.   

 

It has left my questioning why we actually are friends at this point. Oh, I’m sorry, best of friends. Because we have to be best of friends according to her. I’ve gotten that text message from her multiple times. “We are good friends, right?” I mean, Crystal KNOWS the position that puts me in, and anyone else she considers a friend. So, how am I supposed to answer that question? How am I supposed to look at those words, and look into my own heart and think about everything that Crystal has done and say “Yes, Crystal, we are good friends.” Because that sentence, it lets Crystal off the hook. That sentence, the agreement, cements in Crystal’s mind that I wholeheartedly approve of anything she does. Because we can look back and see I have been accused of just letting it happen, because I treat adults like adults. But maybe there’s some truth to that. I guess my silence has been compliance in these instances. Maybe, I should have been that friend who told Crystal to shut up every once in a while, when she got out of pocket, but those times were so numerous I would have gone hoarse from screaming at her. And every time I did it, you know what would have happened? You know what happens if I would say “No.” to that question? I would have gotten another text message from Crystal asking me why I don’t stick up for her. Because Crystal’s ego, while massive, is extremely fragile when punctured from the right people. I have always been a shoulder Crystal comes to cry on, and then when she feels better, she just marches back out there and I’m sitting there like a bath towel, just soaked and probably thrown on the floor, because I have served my purpose and now it’s back to business as usual. I am really only her friend, when it’s beneficial to her. 

 

I mean, I’ve literally gotten tweets of her complaining about why she’s not listed under #BFFs. Why is she in this certain place on a #WCW list. Because it has to be just so for Crystal, and if it’s not, then it’s something for her to complain about to try and make ME feel bad for it. Never mind the awkward and terrible positions she has put everyone else in, I guess. Never mind leaving messes at our feet and having other people openly question why she does the terrible things she does, it’s about how she feels, it’s about how she benefits. It always has been. I can’t tell you the number of times I have been dragged into conversations or arguments because Crystal needs someone to back her up and you know, I feel kind of dumb for doing it so often. 

 

I think it just needs to be said at this point, because we all see it. Crystal needed to be in the Mean Girls. Crystal needed to be in The Boardwalk Angels. She needed to be in the Pink Ladies, every group, unit or faction, at some point, has needed to vet Crystal’s application. Let’s just ask this question: Is there a stable that Crystal created? Is there a group that she started that people want to be a part of? The answer, sadly, is no. No one outside of her family is actively looking to be associated with Crystal. Which is also sad because she has so much knowledge and things she could pass on, but it is outweighed by all the negative nonsense she has brought entirely on herself. 

 

Now, I could go on because I have A LOT that I could talk about here, but I only have so much time, and really, I’d probably need to write a book about this whole thing, so I’ll just close with what’s going on now. You see, much like a number of people in SCW. Crystal is only going to feel validated by winning championships. She absolutely NEEDED to win the mixed tag titles so she could not only be the only 5-time SCW Bombshell’s champion, and not only the first 4-time SCW Bombshell’s champion, but she just needed also to become a grand slam champion. It is literally the only reason she drug J2H out of retirement and back into the ring. It wasn’t for the honor to team with J2H, or the re-ignite the mixed tag division, it was simply so Crystal could have an accolade and feel validated. Because without a championship, all anybody sees are the flaws. The only difference between her, Alicia and Mercedes is that Crystal actually has something tangible outside of accolades. They all make her look bad, but at least they are there. 

 

Though I might even be talking about the wrong person since sometimes it’s Crystal, sometimes it’s Christina, sometimes it’s Hilton, sometimes it’s Rose, sometimes it’s Zdunich. At this point, she’s just Crystal to me, but also at this point, it doesn’t even matter. Because this Fatal-Four-way is not about to be some instance where Crystal sneaks in the back door, and pulls some victory out of nowhere so she can then make some random mission statement or theme as to why she’s going to win the Bombshell’s championship for a sixth time, and then lose it and we start the cycle all over again. 

 

Pardon the pun, but I’ve seen that movie before.   

 

And I don’t like showing reruns in my house. Crystal has been a guest of my house for a long time. I am the reason, the very person who directed her here. And the thanks I get is... obviously not coming any time soon. That’s the definition of a bad house guest. Come in my house, eat my food, sit on my furniture with your feet up?   

 

Yeah, we’re done with that. At Climax Control, Crystal, much like Mercedes and Alicia, will be shown the way to the back of the line.

 

Moving on.

 

At this point, I’m wondering why I am even bothering with Mercedes Vargas. 

 

And you know, it almost pains me to make that statement. Because when I stop and think about how long Mercedes has been here and what she has accomplished, you’d think that she would have more respect. She’s out here touting her how she’s won the most championships in SCW history, and you know, that’s amazing. When you just scratch at the surface of Mercedes Vargas, everything looks so shiny and new. I mean, it screams staying power. It screams a fantastic and amazing legacy to hang around through so many people coming and going in SCW and her remaining the constant. The one that took on all comers and has made herself into something of a legend around SCW.

 

And that would be all well and good if we just stopped there. 

 

But as much as Mercedes would like us to, we’re not going to stop there. Let’s be honest here, there have been 13 times Mercedes held a championship in SCW, according to her. I’m not the statistician here so I’ll just take her word for it, thought I probably shouldn’t because people really like to inflate their numbers and become so concerned when they are not accurate. 13 times is a lot, but again, that’s at the base level. If we did a little deeper, we will all notice on glaring thing. Outside of one Roulette championship victory, all of Mercedes championships reigns are quite short, and quite uneventful. You don’t really hear Mercedes talk about them individually, just that, yeah there’s 13. You will obviously hear about that one reign and how amazing it was and how Mercedes fought off all comers and it was historic. And it was. Mercedes seems be incapable of not throwing it out there like it’s a good hand in poker. All that’s missing is her shouting “read ‘em and weep” after she does it. But that’s the only one that ever really gets talked about. Surely, you’d think that you’d want to throw out that you were a multiple time SCW Bombshell’s champion, right? Two-time champion... amazing except that those two championship reigns were both less than 2 months. One was about 3 weeks, and the other about 35 days. It’s the same all around for these championship reigns. They are all very short, and uneventful, so therefore, they just get lumped in and don’t ask too many questions about them.

 

But I’m curious and I like exploring. 

 

And really what I have found is that rather than having this amazing competitive legacy of being able to win championships at any level at any time, is really, we have some wins here and there and a lot of championship reigns that come and go in a flash. But we really only want to talk about that one time, where Mercedes was Roulette champion for a long time. 

 

So, basically, Mercedes Vargas is the wrestling equivalent of the 1985 Chicago Bears.

 

It happens all the time in the NFL on the shows and historic team videos and everything, the ‘85 Bears. They were good, super bowl winners, a dominant defense, Walter Payton, all these great players and for one season, it all came together and they did it. And they have never been able to duplicate it since in Chicago. If you ever hear a Bear’s fan talk, they talk about the ‘85 Bears. The team got back to a Super Bowl in 2006, but that rarely gets a mention, much less a discussion. We only need to talk about the glory years.

 

That right there, is Mercedes Vargas in a nutshell. Well, no, I guess she’s like an onion, there are layers. There’s more to Vargas than that, right? Well, the last championship she held was in 2019. And it was for a couple of months and since then, it’s been nothing but relying on everyone remembering at various points, she won championships in her career. There has been no evolution, there has simply been patches of being a championship level wrestler, followed by long stretches of just being a wrestler. And I guess, stat keeper and scoreboard watcher. 

 

I’m sure you all enjoyed during the World Cup and pretty much every other sporting event that you probably follow, there was a Mercedes Vargas tweet about said event, and it’s also probably like 10 minutes after the fact, and you already know about it. That seems to be what Mercedes is best at these days and really, it should be sad, considering all she has done, but it’s not like Mercedes ever helps her case with this kind of thing. She has been a proverbial stepping stone for anyone looking to make a name for themselves. If we think about how many times Mercedes has been in the big moment, there really aren’t that many, and how many times has she risen to the occasion and pulled out the big win when it meant the most? Once? Maybe twice? And then, it seemingly lasts for only seconds before the world gets set back correctly and Mercedes fades away into just being the one crying about not being respected or viewed properly. That can only be helped by Mercedes and she has done very, very little to correct it.

 

It just seems she wants to have this both ways. Look at me like I’m a great champion, but don’t actually look at my record. Don’t actually look at my reigns, just this one that I had many years ago. Mercedes is calling for respect to be put on her name, and as a wrestler she deserves it. She DOES deserve credit for winning those titles, but let’s not misunderstand that winning a title and holding it for a couple of weeks or months and then losing it and going years without sniffing anything important doesn’t warrant the respect she is asking for. Mercedes is now some kind of weird member of the family that you don’t like to talk about and then they show up at the reunion and you just try and avoid them, but they make themselves awkwardly known and then soon after they just walk away and sit down somewhere. 

 

This is just another one of those matches for Mercedes. She has now made herself awkwardly known having gotten herself not one, but two championship matches at Violent Conduct, and proceeded to promptly lose them both, and now is in this main event match for another championship match. I am no longer a believer that Mercedes Vargas can get the job done anymore given her track record and history. I will believe it when I see it again, and I haven’t seen anything close to fire in her eyes for years at this point. This is going to be yet another ho-hum experience, as she tries to talk about comics books and movies because she’s facing me, and facing Crystal. Though maybe this time I’ll get drumming stuff too. Because that is how Mercedes needs to do things. 

 

I asked the question a while back about who exactly Mercedes is, because there is literally no proof, she is any of the things she says, besides winning championships. Didn’t SCW go to Argentina at one point or another? Was there this massive following I just missed? Did we all miss it? I still am waiting for the answer to that question, but I have the feeling I will be waiting forever to get the answer because there isn’t going to be one coming, because Mercedes doesn’t even know who she is. 

 

So yeah, I’m pretty much done with talking about Mercedes Vargas, because she isn’t anything to talk about anymore. Respect should be earned, not given because at a few points in one’s career, they managed to accomplish something. Mercedes has won 13 championships, and really, barring her getting that passion and energy back and really taking a long look at herself and trying to get better and get back to where she was at in 2016, does anything see anything recent that makes you believe in her? It’s a sad thing, really? Because she does have accomplishments, but I’m not about take the step back she’s asking people to do when someone like her continues to live in the past.

 

She was one of the few here before me, so as I asked with Jessie, I have to ask the same of Mercedes? Why did it take Mercedes longer than it took me to win a title period. Yeah, she can go ahead and look that up because it’s the truth. And now, this woman is going to waltz in take when I’m been shooting for, for the past few months? It is not happening and I will not allow it to happen. All that will happen is that I am going to win, and I will answer my own question and finally put it to bed.

 

Who is Mercedes Vargas?

 

Not the next Bombshell’s champion.

 

And that brings me to Alicia Lukas

 

It’s so weird how things change around here and folks you thought were on top of things, suddenly aren’t. I remember coming back home to SCW and seeing Alicia Lukas on top, and you know, she proved she was pretty good. And then, I beat Alicia and won the Bombshell’s championship, and then just like that, Alicia was injured and she never came back around for a rematch. In fact, when she decided to come back, I challenged HER and I beat her. Now, of course, Bobbie Dahl kinda messed that up for me to really enjoy, but it just seems like I pulled the plug on Alicia’s little run, because really, ever since then, that dominant mega reign Alicia Lukas, the best Alicia Lukas, is long gone. Now, I don’t want to pat myself on the back, because I kind of miss that particular Alicia Lukas. 

 

The one that’s around now? Is... totally lame. 

 

That dominant Alicia Lukas is long gone, and again, what I said holds true. When it was the... I don’t want to say heyday, but just a few years prior to Alicia’s arrival, SCW was as competitive as any place I’ve ever stepped into. There weren’t really year-long reigns unless you were at the very top of your game. And when I came back, and Keira came back, and Bobbie arrived and that crop of talent came in, all of sudden Alicia wasn’t this dominant force.   

 

I mean, what happened? Yes, Alicia rebounded, finally to win back the Bombshell’s championship, and all was right with the world, wasn’t it? It was just perfect. Alicia was back on top of the world, having learned zero about herself in the previous months after I beat her. I mean, you know, once I lost the championship, and then Andrea lost the championship and Crystal lost the championship, everybody was just the worst and didn’t do the title justice like Alicia did. And so, I expected that Alicia would still be champion right now. If she was as great as she said she was, she would have easily duplicated her feats and been the forever champion or whatever. If she was as good as she claimed, we wouldn’t be looking at this one year of dominance, in between 2 others of nothing of note, and wondering what happened. Maybe this would be the re-invigoration of Alicia Lukas. 

 

And then... she wrestled my wife. And my wife promptly ended Alicia’s championship reign and... I think we had another injury or something where Alicia just wasn’t in the picture. She at the very least congratulated my wife, albeit in her usual backhanded way. But I remember that’s just how Alicia is.   
“Oh, you beat me, congrats. I’m still awesome though” 

 

But ever since then it’s been this weird... nothing from Alicia Lukas. She got her shot at the Bombshell’s title and failed. And then she had the opportunity to wrestle my wife again, and promptly lost. Again. 

 

And then, hoo boy did THAT cause some drama.   

 

I mean, Alicia came out and said she was retiring after. Retiring off a loss. And obviously, I called BS on this right away, because I know that Alicia was just trying to stir up drama. That’s how she is. When she’s on top, everybody sucks and she’s great. When she’s not on top, it’s not because people are better, that can’t be it. And rather than just say that yeah, it was on her and she needs to be better, she instead threw a hissy fit like a baby and got stupid dramatic so that people paid attention to her.   

 

I distinctly remember that right before that match, she was bragging and boasting about herself and her accomplishments, clinging to them like an old woman with her purse, and telling me, and everyone else that we needed to come up to HER level. We all just needed to be as good as she was. And then after losing, she’s going to retire because she got beat. Again.   

 

I can’t tell you how much this pissed my wife off, as she has done a whole lot in her own right, and to have that diminished by someone is just infuriating. And then, to top it all off, Alicia didn’t even bother retiring, instead choosing to just skip a few shows to get herself together, and then come back. It’s sad what Alicia Lukas has become. Because all of that silly retirement drama, was all brought on by her, not being able to back up the game she talked. She wrote the check, and then it bounced.   

 

I guess really what that means is not only is my wife on her level, but obviously above it since she won right there in the middle of the ring, no questions asked. So, the real question is, what does that make me at this point? Am I going to get the same treatment after I beat Alicia, and Crystal and Mercedes? Am I going to force Alicia into another faux-retirement? I mean, does she consider me to be on her level? I lost to her once, and since then, I have beaten her over and over and over.   

 

So, I guess I can also say I am not on Alicia’s level, I am ABOVE it.   

 

Let’s just remember that it was my second match back in SCW after a year layoff. And for the record, I asked for the warm-up match because I didn’t feel I earned the right to just challenge for a championship without it. And yes, she beat me. And then, I got back to the form I was at previously and ever since then, I have been able to beat her. It still pains me that yes, I lost that match, and that I haven’t been able cleanly beat her one on one since, but for now, this will have to do. 

 

And Alicia again has nobody to blame but herself. She wanted everyone on her level, but maybe Keira and I did it wrong or something. I guess we’re all only supposed to be AS good as Alicia, but not better. Our bad, I guess? We were only trying to do what she asked. Or maybe, it’s because Alicia got complacent after 2019. She thought this would run forever. And then people like me come along and offer a little taste of reality. It’s not something I ever really plan on doing, but it seems to be something I HAVE to do every now and again so that people understand and get a little bit of humility in their lives. 

 

Obviously the first time I did it to Alicia, it did not stick. Neither did the second time, and Keira was unsuccessful the last time. So, maybe, just maybe this time it will stick with Alicia that there was one year, where she was on top in SCW, and since then, it’s just been a reality check for her. See, I’m actually trying to help her, even with what I’m saying. 

 

But, you know, there’s only so many times you can explain things to people before it just turns into you talking to yourself. I always tell my son that if I tell you once and you don’t understand, maybe you just didn’t hear me, but if I have to say it twice, that means you’re actively not listening. That means you don’t care what I have to say. So, there is no point in saying it a third time. So, I’m done trying to reach Alicia. Now, this is about me, beating her, and Crystal, and Mercedes, and getting a match for the Bombshell’s championship.   

 

Maybe after this, Alicia can take a hard look in the mirror and figure out who she is, and understand having her career measured by the number of championships won should only be half the story, not all of it. It should have also a little bit of who you were. People will look and see Alicia Lukas’s name in a bunch of places in title histories, and the sad truth is, she’s going to end up a name, and not a person. I mean, she’s gotta complain about the match previews on the website. And it has to be public because you know, you can’t do things like this privately. It’s another desperate cry for attention.  So, I will give Alicia attention and send her like Crystal and Mercedes to the back of the line, and remind them that they are all just guests in my house.   

 

 

I understand if some people are surprised and shocked by what I have said, and I am gladly willing to accept that Alicia feels like even more of a victim, or Crystal suddenly doesn’t want to talk to me, or Mercedes takes offense. That’s okay with me. But for what this is for, and what a victory means? Yeah, I’m okay with it. Nothing I said today wasn’t the truth. Sometimes the truth is ugly, and we don’t like to look at it, but I know I didn’t go out there and make up anything about any of my opponents. I said what was in my heart, and I said what was true.

 

So, at Climax Control, in my home state, with people I know watching me, this main event, is mine. This opportunity, is mine. And I will not accept anything less than victory. I will go out, and I will take the opportunity I have earned, and I will earn my championship opportunity against Amber Ryan.

 

Champ, I will see you, and everyone else, there.

Much to her annoyance, Jessie was left off the Violent Conduct VII card after failing to dethrone Amber Ryan for the World Bombshell Championship but she did make an appearance, vowing to not let history repeat itself at High Stakes XI, but that was a few weeks away and before she could get that far, SCW had returned to her home state of Florida for the first time since she wrestled in her home city of Miami in 2020, not only that but Jessie was in action and she was taking on someone who was a good friend of hers, fellow Floridian Bombshell Keira Fisher Johnson! The two Miami natives had grown close after Keira accompanied Jessie to the hospital following an attack by Sin after last year’s Violent Conduct but can Jessie win?

Wandering around Disneyworld, Orlando, Florida
Friday the 24th of September 2021, 18:00pm

Only SCW would book a Disneyworld show for the tail end of September! And in the middle of a pandemic no less!

Still, it’s not like the park has been stupid in regard to the Coronavirus rules, masks are required for if/when we go indoors and, well, we’re outdoors so we’re not wearing them right now and they are basically going contactless in terms of food and drink, saying that we’ve mostly been eating at the hotel since we arrived in Disneyworld, so we haven’t been making much use of that either!

So, what are we doing instead? Reminiscing about the last time SCW visited Disneyworld!

“Three years since SCW last visited Disneyworld.” Jake commented as we sat down on a bench and I rolled my eyes, 2018 was the worst year of my professional wrestling career and the reasons why have been well documented. “And three years since you shot your professional wrestling career in the foot Jess……..”

“NO! NO! NO! NO! NO! NO! FUCK NO!” I interrupted my brother whilst ignoring the dirty looks I was getting. “Mark and Christian tried to sabotage my career because I was the only one willing to speak out on the actions of a certain Syrian Bombshell! But because I said some Un-PG things they completely ignored that and focussed on my comments instead!” I added before shaking my head. “Never mind the fact that I’m one of the longest tenured Bombshells on the roster, if not the longest tenured and yes I’m still bitter about that and plenty of other stuff!”

“Well, look on the Brightside! You were the first wrestler in history to attack another whilst wearing a Minnie Mouse Costume.” Shane pointed out and I shook my head in response. “And got a park worker fired and kicked off a feud you ultimately lost!”

“Yeah well, someone was bound to come up with that idea and I jumped at the opportunity, besides that, it was really fucking hot in that suit!” I added as I ran a hand through my hair. “Doing it in July didn’t help but I’m still surprised that I was able to hit the Bad Girl as well as I was!”

“Yeah well, it’s like we’ve said with Keira.” Shane added as I turned to him. “Most of it was brought on by yourself!”

“Yeah, fucking excuse me for wanting a little fucking recognition for working my ass off in SCW for the majority of my wrestling career!” I grunted in annoyance before noticing the dirty looks we were continuing to get. “Let’s just move on before we get an official complaint from the soccer moms.”

“Yeah, let’s!” Jake nodded in agreement before we got up and moved on.

Sitting down to get something to eat, Disneyworld, Florida
Friday the 24th of September 2021, 18:30pm

After half an hour of wondering around the park we came to a stop when we realized that we were hungry, and it was a long walk back to the hotel, so we stopped for something to eat.

“Well Jess, I just thought of another bad memory of yours that’s related to SCW.” Jake stated once we had sat down and removed our masks. “And this one is more related to the time of year, and your opponent this week.”

“Don’t tell me, the Sin attack?” I grunted in annoyance and the boys nodded in response. “I’m still not a hundred percent clear on what happened during the post Violent Conduct VI Climax Control, I remember being annoyed the Maki was getting a chance to bounce back from the loss in the Chamber of Extreme match and being approached by Sin who I thought was Keira but with dyed hair and shit.” I added before resting my hands behind my head.

“This just seems to be a day of bad memories, doesn’t it?” Shane asked and I nodded in agreement before taking a moment to fix my hair. “But between the location and your opponent, it was kinda inevitable considering what happened this time last year.”

“Yep, and that led to me mending a bridge between me and Keira that had previously been burnt to the ground.” I added before a waitress came over to take our orders and we gave it to her before she went off.” “Yet here I am, over a year later facing Keira in singles action, funny how time flies, especially in relation to what happened after that attack.” I added and the boys nodded in agreement.

“And let’s not get into what happened after that attack.” Jake commented and I shook my head in response. “Or not.”

“What do you think? I’m still pissed that Johanna got an instant rematch for the Roulette Title whilst I apparently still have to earn shit! The bosses can be so full of shit that their eyes may as well be brown!” I added with a grunt before the waitress returned with our drinks. “I swear, the only reason Christian wasted no time in signing that rematch was because I’m not afraid to call bullshit when I see it, and don’t even get me started on them trying to frame Keira’s title situation as an attempt by me to get a World Bombshell Title Shot.”

“You mean it wasn’t?” Jake asked and I glared at him. “Okay, okay, shutting up now.”

“I rekindled that friendship with Keira because she was the only one to visit me in the hospital after the Sin attack, I didn’t even find out about her title opportunity until the week after!” I defended myself before letting out an annoyed huff. “But Mark had to vie for Time’s “Most Cynical Man of the Year” Award because wrestlers can’t be friends without having some ulterior motive in his mind, I’d be surprised if he has any friends outside of SCW!”

“Let’s just order our food before you give Mark and Christian more reasons to slap you with a title shot ban!” Jake quickly asserted before we looked at the food items.

Somewhere in Disneyworld, Orlando Florida
Friday the 24th of September 2021, 21:00pm

*promo time*

We were on our way back to the hotel by this point, but I had decided to get my promo done for a couple of reasons, one, I had no idea when we’d get back and two, it was already getting late and most of the guests were back at their hotel rooms.

“Climax Control 281, October 11th, 2020, Las Vegas Nevada, aside from it being the post Violent Conduct VI Climax Control that show didn’t seem that special on paper if you think about it! No one at the time knew what was going to happen come High Stakes X but in practice it served as a turning point for my late SCW career, why? Well for starters, I was attacked by Sin following Maki’s win over Sierra Williams but more importantly? That event rekindled a friendship that many thought that was beyond repair.”

You know the one.

“If it wasn’t obvious, I’m talking about the friendship between me and Keira Fisher which was almost ruined by some poorly chosen words on my part! Keira, I’m not in the business of reopening old wounds, other Bombshells on the roster do that enough when they bring up my win/loss record or my attempts to achieve my dream of becoming World Bombshell Championship, but we both know the real business I’m in and this week, almost a year removed from our friendship being brought back from the dead, we’re facing off in singles competition this week on Climax Control.”

This will be good.

“The last time we faced off one on one, things weren’t that great between us, we both know that for a fact, but things were significantly better between us when we faced off in the battle of Team Hero vs. The Metal and Punk Connection at Climax Control 300 AKA the match where the Metal and Punk Connection was retired for good, but this match seems designed to reopen old wounds on both sides of the ring, doesn’t it?”

Yep.

“Off course the preview didn’t mention our history! Oh sure, they talked about your success at Violent Conduct VII whilst I was left off the card, or how we both might have our eyes set on Andrea Hernandez and her Bombshell Internet Championship but nothing of our history! Hell, they didn’t even mention the fact that we are both from Miami, Florida and that we’re competing in our home state for the first time since the pandemic fucked up SCW’s plans for 2020, among many, MANY other things, they chose to remain neutral on the matter of our history together butt I guess that makes it our job to bring it up for them, isn’t it Keira?”

I swear, I should take over the card previews, I’d do a better job at it than Candy!

“Those who fail to learn from history are doomed to repeat it, I’m surprised that quote isn’t considered a cliché at this point, but it does have some relevance to our match because most of my SCW career can be summed up with the following sentence: “Jessie failed to learn from her past mistakes, and it bit her in the ass!” I’m not even going to try to count how many times that has happened, for one thing that’s Mercedes’s job!”

Well, that and denying that she’s past it.

“But this past year or so has been about my redemption ark in wrestling and I guess that’s come full circle, hasn’t it Keira? The ark started with my attack by Sin, an attack that you, despite our long and frankly toxic history, tried to save me from, I said things about your adopted son that any other self-respecting parent would’ve punched me in the mouth for and cut off all contact with me afterwards! I’m not saying that you’re a bad parent Keira, just to make that perfectly clear but anyone else would’ve left me to Sin’s mercy but you didn’t.”

It’s that simple.

“So where does that leave us in the present? That’s the million dollar question isn’t it Keira? After spending almost, a year as best buddies, we’re back to where it all started with you and me facing off one on one,  almost poetic, isn’t it Keira? But when I do finally beat you one on one here in Disneyworld off all places, that’ll mean only one thing and that is that this whole redemption arc has come full circle.”

And with that I decided to wrap things up.

“A lot has happened in a year Keira, but one thing remains the same, we, despite everything that’s been said between us, are best buddies and better opponents! I said the same thing when I faced off against Roxi earlier this year and it rings especially true for us this Sunday at Climax Control where I’ll strike you down with blood lightning here in Disneyworld on my way to finally picking up my first win over you! See you the ring Keira and best of luck, best buddy!”

I ran off to catch up with the boys as the scene fades.