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Climax Control Archives / Machines and Monsters
« on: December 17, 2021, 11:01:16 PM »


Like and Life
Fenris's Condo 12/16/2021



The world is evergreen right now in preparation for Christmas, which is but a mere 9 days away. The Las Vegas Strip is a hustle and bustle of people fresh off of Christmas shopping, or doing a bit at the shops there. Those who come from shopping, are looking to recuperate their wallets with some day drinking and gambling. Others are trying to satiate the combat sport of holiday shopping. Either way, the overcast gives the lights a time to shine during this dreary day, lighting up the mood. Somehow, some way, I'm feeling a bit of the spirit. So sue me. I'm not perfect. Nor do I claim to be. Thoughts of missing my family enter my mind, and my least favorite Christmas story floods over me. Rather than tell it all over again, let me just recap.

It is a rainy, borderline icy night in Tulsa, Oklahoma. The growing congregation of the Church of the Good Shepherds provided a potluck style dinner after a service filled with fire and brimstone in the name of Jesus H Christ. Hatred for anything not sanctified in The Good Book. Fun times. So, I'm stuffing my face with ham, potato salad, and green bean casserole, going with the motions. Next thing I know, the door flies open and the most handsome man I'd ever seen to date walks in from the cold, looking for sanctuary from the cold wind and near icy rain. My father saw another subject. I saw something more. I fell for him, hiding my feelings for an entire year. Then, we stopped hiding them from each other. And… things didn't work out. My heart continues to ache, five years later.

Anyway… enough about that, because the details are about to be discussed. See, earlier, I had a conversation with Fenris about his first love lost. I decided that I wanted to keep my heartache away from him, but it's not fair to do that when I occasionally cross paths with Dax to this very day. I'd rather be honest about this now rather than it becoming an issue later. Did I just presume that this is going to have longevity? Am I falling deeper and deeper into this beautiful darkness? I find myself having second thoughts and even more shockingly, I pull my phone out and quickly dial up someone. It doesn't take long before they answer.

Me: Dani?

There is a slight pause before a sigh comes out of the speaker of the phone.

Dani:  Don't overthink it. Just do it.

Me: How do you know that I'm even calling about that, or anything in particular? Maybe I was just calling to say "hi"...

Dani: Hi. Now get over there and talk to him. Besides, I need your opinion on something. I did a thing over there, and I'm just curious what you think.

Me: Uhhh… okay? But, before then, since we're on the topic… Do you really think that I should taint his heartfelt confession by talking about my past dramas? I mean, I'm not the selfish type who needs everything to be about…

Dani: We're not doing this right now. You're going to go upstairs, talk to him, and see what I did. But, before you talk to him, just tell me what you think.

I look to the call button on the building I'm standing in front of, towering over most of the city of Las Vegas. Though honestly, it looks like it's piercing the sky. It could be the dread of opening up to someone about something so deep, so personal. After a moment of feeling something heavy in the pit of my stomach, I bite the bullet and press the call button. It doesn't take but a few seconds before I'm buzzed in.

Dani: Good, you're there.

Me: Yeah, I am. I'm just getting into the elevator now. So, explain to me why this is so necessary again? I mean, I could easily just go up to see him and one thing could lead to another, and I could forget to even mention it. I mean, he might be the White Wolf, but he's a real Jackhammer in some areas.

Dani: I've heard. Mostly during the Summer XXXTreme cruise.

Me: Overly dramatic.. I call bullshit. We weren't even bunking near each other.

Dani: My point exactly.

The elevator bell dings and I walk to the door. It is propped open for me. I stop, blushing at Dani's comment, but feeling the need to argue my innocence.

Me: Look, I'm not trying to spread Kristjan's business because I learned that he hates that. But, I think you're reaching a little.

Dani: I heard a "ding" but I didn't hear any knocking.

Me: That's because it's open. I just thought we should address…

Dani: Go. In. Side…

I scoff and turn to the door, pushing the door open as I look inside. The scene takes my breath away.

Me: Wow………

Dani: Thanks!

The phone clicks off as I drink it all in. Silver and gold in elegant doses. Pine and holly scents tickling my nose. The white marble floor is a delicate touch that looks like glazed over snow as far as the eye can see. It's a true winter wonderland that awakens something inside of me, some childlike wonder, like anything and everything is possible. Therefore, I hate it. No, but I wish I hated it. Softened edges are not what I'm known for. Yet, I can't help but take it all in slowly. I walk over to the hearth and look into the glistening tinsel on the garland. I take a piece between my finger and twirl it slowly around as I get lost in thought. It is then that I feel an arm wrap around my waist, followed by another, with a pint of beer in his hand. He hugs onto me tightly and I can tell by his reaction that he wants to do construction on my back alley. I lean my head back for a soft, slow kiss.

Kristjan: Hello there.

Me: Hmmm… hello there.

I turn around and drape my arms over his shoulders. Our eyes meet and linger as our lips pang together a few times. As much as I want to make love in the North Pole, right next to Rudolph, while the elves dance around us… I came here for a reason. My eyes wander down to the floor so that the passionate flames between us do not take over and consume us both. I bite my bottom lip out of regret, even as Kristjan kisses my scruffy cheek.

Kristjan: What is wrong?

I look into his cool eyes and try not to get lost. I can feel myself smiling from my eyes.

Me: Nothing. Nothing at all.  I just wanted to… I came here to… I mean…

My eyes look down at the ground again as I release my hold on him. I take him by the hand, guiding him past the huge 7 foot decked out Christmas tree and toward the couch. I him down, still holding onto his arms gently, sitting down to join him. I think over the best way to say what I came to say.

Me: You shared something very deep with me earlier, and, well… I wanted to share something personal about me, with you. Similar in fashion, I guess.

Fenris takes a sip from his beer and then finds a place to set it down amongst the decorations on the coffee table. He settles in to listen, giving me the floor to speak.

Me: Well, you told me about your experience with Joküll, and it got me thinking about my own little story.  The first time I felt anything close to what you and I have.  And… It ended badly.

Kristjan:  I am sorry that you felt a pain similar to mine. I do not wish this on my own worst enemy.

I look him in the eyes, and for an instant, it is as if we can feel each other’s pain.  I hold onto his hand as I am the weaker one that sheds a tear.  However, I don’t let it be seen as I quickly yawn and rub at my eye nonchalantly.  I straighten up, and continue on.

Me:  We met on what could have been described as the worst day imaginable for a Christmas day.  It was cold, windy, and rainy, in Tulsa, Oklahoma.  Not that I fully expect you to know why that’s so strange.  But, it was uncharacteristically cold.  A church dinner was coming to a close, when he came walking in, looking for a place to get out of the cold.  My father offered him a place to stay.  The second I saw those dark eyes, I felt at home.  I watched him long before I even greeted him.  I felt his energy drawing me in from across the room.  And when we finally did meet, I felt a magic that I’ve never felt before, and hadn’t felt until… you.

I gave him those eyes.  You know, the ones that could melt just about anyone, despite the glints of ice within them.  Somewhat like Kristjan’s, really.  I open my mouth to speak as he nods with what I am saying, ever so slightly, but just enough for me to pick up on.

Me:  We denied it for a long time, but we both knew.  It was almost like a game to see who could resist the longest.  And with my father watching over us, it only made things that much more intriguing.  We found time to sneak a savory kiss.  Catching looks as we got ready for bed.  Finally, we admitted to ourselves what was going on.  Yet again, on Christmas day.  This time, with the family preoccupied with the festivities, we gave into all of those urges.  Those uninhibited, forbidden, carnal urges.  And it was as if he was the key that unlocked my true self.  For the first time, I felt as if I were flying free.  It was glorious.  But, it had to be kept secret.  It was no ordinary tryst.  It was bliss.  And through getting to know each other, we felt like a perfect match.  The more time we spent together doing mission work, or food drives, or preparing the church for service, the closer we got.  Our bond was unbreakable. Again, like a Christmas miracle.

I knew I was smiling too brightly for the topic of conversation.  The normally jealous White Wolf was somehow at ease, listening to me calmly, and letting me feel what I feel.  Freedom.

Me:  It was synchronicity at it’s finest.  There was a true, almost childlike love between us.  He was frustrated with having to keep things a secret.  Though I understood, I argued that what we had couldn’t be wrong, and it would come to the surface when it was time.  Despite his occasional slip up, he waited for me.  He waited until the day when I felt comfortable to run away with him to Japan.  We had planned out every detail of that trip, too.

I laugh, but it is to cover up a bit of wincing, letting another tear drop from my eye, and onto my hand before I could even hide it.

Me:  We knew a good deal of wrestling technicalities, but we wanted to be refined, and protected at the same time.  Even though Japanese culture is even less accepting of homosexuality than the US, it was a far cry from how we were living.  We stashed any extra money that we could for that trip.  We were only a couple hundred dollars short, too, when we were discovered…

I almost can’t even look at Fenris.  I start to stand up, but he pulls me back to the couch and into his arms as I let some of it out.  I can’t breathe. I can’t move. I can’t hear anything. I start to freak out a little, but Fenris holds me closer, and more still. The instinct to struggle fades as I feel a cool wave slowly washing over me.

Kristjan:  I know, I know… I think I understand.

After a second of blubbering into his chest, I pull it together enough to speak again.

Me:  We were beaten mercilessly by that… that… that…

Kristjan:  That devil parading around as a man?

I nod my head slowly against his chest.  He hands me a tissue, and I wipe away at my eyes, cleaning myself up as I continue to try to gain composure.

Me:  He cast Dax out, and he gave me the choice to run away with Dax as a heathen, a deplorable abomination, and a disowned child… or to stay and redeem myself and my name. Aside from the beatings, I was locked in a basement, chained to a wall, brought up in front of the crucified Christ statue, and whipped, flogged, lashed with glass on strings, and… well, some things are best unsaid.  I’m not even sure that I am capable of talking about what else right now.  But, I… chose to try to please my father. Dax left for Japan, and he’s hated me ever since. Not that I can blame him.  But, my family was such an important thing to me.  They were always there, but Dax could have been taken away from me at any moment, and that heartache was not something I could have dealt with.  These words were spoken to me by my mother in between my father and other members of the congregation ripping apart my flesh.  She begged me, her voice like that of an angel.  But instead, she was just a victim of Stockholm Syndrome like the rest of us.  The only difference is that me and Esther know now, and she still has no idea.  And what makes this so cruel is the fact that I did have a choice, even if I never actually did.  I could have run off, and my life would have been so different.  And I would have never lashed out at you.  I never would have drug your heart through a field of barbed wire and broken glass.  I never would have hurt you.

Kristjan grabs onto my hands again and leans forward to speak now.

Kristjan:  You always had a choice.  Your will is just so strong, and you were manipulated so badly that you didn’t see it.  I had not even a hint of a choice. Jokull is never coming back.  Dax is still out there.

Me:  How does that make it any better?  The fact that you got a chance to be at peace with what had happened…

Kristjan:  I have never been at peace with what happened!

Me:  Well neither have I!  The only difference is that I look around and I see his ghost. Everywhere. I smell him in everything. I hear his voice whistling in the wind. I feel his warm caress.  Just as you do with Jokull.  Except I also have to see him and hear about him.  I can’t turn around without somehow running into him, or some part of him that I just want to escape.  I can’t escape it unless I am here with you, but we always have to find something to fight about.  Look, I’m sorry I thought you might want to hear something that makes us even more similar than we thought.  My mistake.  I…

Kristjan pulls me in close and silences me with a kiss.  He nips at my bottom lip, and I return the favor.  He pulls away and looks me in the eye once again.

Kristjan:  Sometimes you are so wrong.  This time, you are right.  It is not our job to compare our pain with another’s.  We should focus on helping each other heal. Letting each other in.

Me:  I’m… so relieved to hear you say that. I luh…like you very much, and I want to help you heal.  That’s why I’m going to Iceland with you after Climax Control 320.

Kristjan’s eyes light up as he leans me back on the couch.  He rips his shirt off as I rip mine off.  He hovers over me as… Hey, wait a minute.  Do you guys mind giving us a little privacy?  Sheesh!





Machines And Monsters
Abandoned factory; 12/17/2021



The darkness overtakes the screen. We can hear the squeaking of rats running around inside of the structure we are in.  We can hear the leaky pipes, the wind whistling through the interior, howling at the doors.  Finally, the door opens and we see a figure in a fedora and trench coat walking through in the silhouette of the moonlight.  We can hear his Italian leather shoe heels clicking against the concrete, and we see pieces of broken down factory machinery.  As the footsteps get closer and closer, we hear the whispers.

“Sometimes monsters are hideous.  Sometimes they are ugly.  Sometimes they are filthy.  But, sometimes, monsters look just like you and me.  Are you a monster?”

As they get louder and more present, the lights turn on, one row at a time, illuminating my… David Shepherd’s, face.  I am smiling from ear to ear, but the disingenuous nature of the smile gives it a creepy vibe.  Or like a bad cartoon villain.  I’m just not sure yet.  Either way, I run my fingers across the dusty conveyer belt in front of me, moving my fingers against one another as it sprinkles to the floor, filled with even more of it.  I leave tracks as I walk along.

Me:  Machines.  There’s just something about them.  They always do what you tell them to do.  They follow orders.  They execute functions with a simple keystroke or press of a button.

I walk over to one, and I flip a switch to turn it on.  It begins working, but ever so slowly.  However, it begins to spit out dust and smoke, and it rattles until it nearly shakes apart.  I’m forced to flip the switch back off.

Me:  And… sometimes they don’t.  They require maintenance to work properly.  The upkeep is work.  And one, just one, wrong move?

I then shoot forward with a Superkick that shatters pieces of the machinery, and it clunks against the dusty concrete flooring loudly as it rolls in every which way.

Me:  And the whole thing falls apart.  Technology is useful, but only when it works properly.  Otherwise, it just complicates things.  That’s why Mac Bane and his merry band of degenerate goons won’t last.  I mean, first off, his “secret weapon” is about to get his fucking head kicked clean off of his shoulders.  Then who will be left to do your dirty work?  One of your henchmen?

I can’t help but chuckle a little, shaking my head.

Me:  I get why you attacked one of the most dominant forces in SCW.  Don’t get me wrong.  There was a time when I would’ve done the exact same thing.  As a matter of fact, I did.  And just like your mentally fragile friend, I was very sorry that I did.  Just like everyone in your little collective will be, starting with Supreme Machine.

I turn my head ever so slightly, motioning back to the broken piece of machinery that is still lightly smoking.

Me:  I get what you’re doing, Mac.  You were incapable of grabbing the “big one”, so you got your feelings hurt and decided that you were going to make us all pay.  The same old tired song as so many others.  And what are you hoping to accomplish?  Bringing in people who will fall to our feet in an instant?  Or is this something bigger than that?  Is this another attempt at an insurrection? Heh. I hate to break it to you, but I’ve already lived through one much bigger than you’re capable of insighting.  Never once was I broken, and I had an entire GRIME roster waiting around every corner to take me down.  Yet, here I stand.

I take my fedora off and hold it against my chest as I clear my throat.  I turn around to look directly at the camera, jerking my head to motion for it to follow me.  On my way, I pick up a lead pipe, and I smack it against machine after machine, taking my time until each one in my path is broken.

Me:  See, I know I wasn’t the one targeted, because I’m still basically a nobody around here. I had a two week Internet Championship reign, a decent Roulette Championship reign, but really… what have I done here that someone else hasn’t done already?  What makes me stand out?  Nothing.  I’m no threat to anybody… except those who don’t see me as a threat.  Mac Bane and his lackeys.  And, if I weren’t so fucking pissed off about targeting my boyfriend, I might have even looked the other way.  But you brought this on yourself, Mac.  You’ve signed a death wish to Supreme Machine.  You have bitten off more than you can chew, right out of the gate.

I finish pounding one last piece of machinery before I throw the pipe to the ground.

Me:  Do not mistake me as the end of this.  I’m going to be on you guys like a fly on shit.  The only problem is that Fenris is going to come along for the ride.  You’re going to have to deal with both of us.  You guys are machines.  We are monsters.  What we do to people gives us a sick thrill.  I mean, what sane person signs up for this profession?  Fenris and I aren’t some programmed pieces of machinery who follow orders, doing as we’re told.  No.  We enjoy causing harm to others, and we just found a legal way to do it.  We have the element of free will, and that’s what separates us from you.  This is what makes the monsters a much bigger threat than the machines. So get ready for the war.

As I wrap things up, I walk back over toward the door.  Halfway there is a pole with all of the light switches.  I’m about to turn them off, but I am not finished.  There is more to discuss.

Me:  Let me switch things up and talk directly to my opponent.  Supreme Machine?  I know that you’re a few circuits short of a circuit board, so I hope that you’re able to understand what you’ve done.  I don’t expect your “handler” to explain this to you, so this is the one and only kindness I’m passing along your way.  I will be walking out of Climax Control 320.  It may or may not be victorious, but I will be walking out.  You, however, won’t be walking out if I have anything to say about it.  The second you put your hands on Fenris was the second that you made sure that was going to happen.  I asked for two weeks to get my hands on you. Lo and behold, it’s a Christmas miracle.  I get to step foot in that ring and fuck you up worse than I just did these old pieces of shit in here.  And for once, I just might get the crowd to cheer for me, because I am going to be a real beast.  The kind that you couldn’t even conjure up in your worst nightmares.  So take that as a warning, because you will not get another one.  Instead, you can eat my boot and bend over for the other one, because I’m going to kick it in so hard that my feet will meet somewhere in the middle, and they’ll need to be surgically removed.  And I might just bring back your teeth as an early Christmas gift for Fenris.  I think he’ll love it…

And with that, I grin widely again, feeling my inner evil shining through.  I turn the lights off, and one by one, they flicker out, leaving me in total darkness as I whisper.

“Sometimes monsters are hideous.  Sometimes they are ugly.  Sometimes they are filthy.  But, sometimes, monsters look just like you and me.  I am a monster…”

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Climax Control Archives / Revelations (Pt 9)
« on: October 01, 2021, 07:23:19 PM »


Revelations (Part 9)
Church of Heathenous Shepherds; Las Vegas, NV 10/1/2021


Welcome back to the home of depravity, sickness, unadulterated pleasure, addiction, and acceptance for all.  Unless you’ve been able to attend in person services, you’ve probably missed it here.  Not much has changed.  It still looks like an abandoned church, something that should be condemned.  There’s still scorch marks on the walls, spray painted idolatry and tag marks, and the most rag tag bunch of believers I’ve ever seen in my life.  Basically, you haven’t missed much.  My number of followers has increased, though.  Imagine that.  In the City of Sin, people love being told to give into their innermost temptations.  Surprise, surprise.  We’ve reached a total of 438 members prior to tonight’s sermon.  Let’s see if I can’t reach a few more ears this evening, shall we?

Everyone is seated as best as they can be.  Others are lining the walls, reminding me that an “outdoor expansion” might be necessary soon.  Paying tribute to me are several horny individuals, making out and… worse, against the walls, in the pews, and even on the altar.  I must admit that a tear came to my eye as I peeked through the curtains.  I have The Good Book in my arms, and I’m ready to tear it apart in front of everybody.  But there’s a bit of a pause in me as I think about what is ahead of me.  It’s always a fun show, and I get a chance to vent… at least, I thought I was able to vent.  Do I need to censor myself going forward?  Do I break my own cardinal rule?  I don’t have time to think about it when there is a cold set of claws appearing on my shoulder that sends a shiver down my spine.  It feels like the Dark Prince himself, and no, I don’t mean Ozzy.  The cold burns into my shoulder, but I know I must face Him.  So I turn, and what I see is nothing like I would have expected to see.

Filth:  You don’t seem surprised.  That’s good.

I simply stare with contempt.  There is a moment where I even think about throwing the Seraph of Sleaze out of the door myself, but she’s right.  I’m not shocked at all that she’s appeared.

Me:  I honestly expected this sooner.  But, I can’t say that I’m thrilled considering what you’ve done to my family.

Filth:  Another grudge holder… I knew I liked you for a reason.

I scoff at her remarks as she runs her finger down the exposed chest of my half buttoned shirt.  I push her hand away effortlessly.

Me:  You put my mother in a wheelchair, and my fiance relies on crutches, and probably will for a very long time.

Filth:  Mother Mavis is on crutches now as well.  That’s an improvement, right? I mean, it’s not like you’re a family man these days, David…

I’ve had enough and I am pretty sure that my face says that.  Not like I have to ask, but I do anyway…

Me:  What do you want?  I’m about to deliver my sermon that I’m already running late for.

Filth:  I don’t like answering questions where the answer is obvious.  So why don’t we just cut to the chase? How much?

I stop for a second, because, while I know her motivation is to sneak her way into my organization, her question doesn’t make sense.  I stumble on my words for a moment.

Me:  W-what do you mean?

Filth sighs and she reaches into a bag she’s carrying.  She pulls out a few bundles of Benjamins and sets them in my arms, curling them around the money.

Filth:  Is that not enough?

She reaches into her bag again and pulls out a checkbook.  The ease of transferring so much money comes as a shock to me when I consider that she’s just an indy wrestler in the basement brand.  She drafts a number on the check and holds it up, and I’m still in shock.

Filth:  I can keep going, David.

Me:  What are you doing?  What is this for?  I refuse to sell my rights to anything.

Filth:  I wouldn’t dream of it, filthy.  I simply want to pledge to your cause.  Well, we do…

Skag comes walking from around the corner, half skull paint fully intact.  He walks over to us and he drops down to his knees, clasping his hands in front of himself.

Skag: Vergib mir, Vater, denn ich werde mich an den Freuden des Fleisches erfreuen, denn ich habe kein Geld zu spenden. (Forgive me Father, for I'm about to take joy in the pleasures of the flesh for I have no money to donate.)

Skag goes to unzip my pants, and I drop the money on his head.  Some of the bands snap, causing the hundred dollar bills to go everywhere.  His blue eyes look up at me in wanton, but my stomach turns in utter disgust.  My pants drop to the ground and Skag continues on his mission as Filth flicks her tongue at me, in some weird way of giving me permission.

Me:  You’ve got this all wrong, and YOU’VE got me all wrong.

Skag:  I know what you want, herr.  I know I am no replacement for the Icelandic one, but I promise it is worth your time.

Filth:  He wants it more now than ever.  They’re on the rocks, and we know he likes to run at the first sign of trouble.

Skag:  Ja fraulein. I just want to give your glied a warm, wet hug. I want to pledge to you.

Me:  Not interested.

Skag:  He says so, yet his body says differently.

Filth snickers as she looks down and sees that he is, in fact, right.  I pull my pants up and uncomfortably fumble with the button, trying to relieve the pressure by leaning forward a bit, quickly getting my thoughts elsewhere.

Filth:  Your church needs funding and it needs people to help spread your message.  I think you know that.  Your father has a similar model, and you really want to stick it to him.  It’s evident.  I can provide both.  I have friends in very low places.

She looks down at Skag, who opens his mouth, all but begging me to give him what he wants.  I feel obliged to give it to him, but then my senses break through and I turn from the two, walking to open the curtains again.

Filth:  We’ll be in touch.  Keep the cash as a sign of good faith.  Call me when you’re ready to talk business.

I look over my shoulder as Filth saunters over to Skag and unzips her ragged black jeans, dropping them to the ground as Skag gets ready to deliver, even if it is not for me, as he leans way back and Filth goes to straddle his face.  I literally do barf a little in my mouth, spitting it to the ground as I walk through the curtains, placing The Good Book on the podium.  The events of what just transpired are still weighing heavily on my mind, but I know I must push past them.  I clear my throat into the microphone as everyone stops what they are doing to look up at me out of respect.

Me:  Welcome brothers, sisters, and all of you depraved, sick motherfuckers.  You are home.  If you’ve been looking for a place where you are accepted for who you are, then look no further.  Everyone here has been cast aside by society for embracing the things that make us who we are rather than hiding behind a mask of normalcy.  We have so many new members that I can’t even begin to name you all, but know that this dwelling is yours just as much as it is mine.  If you’re looking for answers, you can book an appointment with me, and we’ll figure it out together.  If anyone here is going through a hard time, thinking about ending it all, I beg you not to.  Things are heavier now than they ever have been, and support seems nonexistent.  Even though we tend to reject most teachings of our Christian counterparts, we do maintain one similarity.

I can’t help but gag, and this gains laughter and praise from the fellowship.  I swish water around in my mouth before spitting it to the side.

Me:  If you are unable to reach me, please rely on your fellow heathens.  We require support just like anybody else.  My recent mental health struggles made me realize that I needed to make sure that we understand our calling.  We have been so used to bearing our own sins, and keeping them to ourselves, not realizing just how much it’s tearing us up inside.  So please, please don’t go through that alone.

I look down at The Good Book on my podium before me, and I glare at it with contempt, refocusing myself on the matter at hand.

Me:  We are chosen, called forth to restore chaos to the City of Sin.  Just because we are dedicated to one another doesn’t mean that anyone outside of these walls are immune to this mission.  We do what we must to show a united front.  We do not owe ourselves to this dark, cruel world.  Only to our cause.  So, if you’re tempted to pickpocket that ignorant tourist on The Strip, go for it.  Give in to your carnal desires.  But do not forget our core values here.  Being a douchebag is not the way.  Never feel entitled.  Never feel like this world owes you anything, because it will not feed you.  It will piss in your mouth and laugh in your face.  It will take, take, and take even more from you.  The world will not take care of you.  Grow some fucking nuts and take what you want.  You don’t want to be some lonely podcaster cutting promos in his mom’s basement.  A literal neckbeard.  I endorse hedonism to the fullest.  But I do not support laziness.

I step from behind the podium as I look out into the audience.  I see a number of people who look as if they could match the description I’ve given.  Rather than singling them out, I decide to move on to the main point.

Me:  Be better than that.  You see, this Sunday, I plan on celebrating by knocking around a man who holds laziness as his highest standard.  A man whose ambition is not equal to his drive.  A man so deplorable that even I cannot get behind him.  I am, in fact, talking about Gabriel Wank.  You may know him as “The Troll”.  Or the man with the worst win-loss record in the history of Sin City Wrestling.  There is only one thing I can admire about him, and that is the fact he coveted his neighbor’s wife, and he went for it.  Sure, it didn’t turn out as he’d hoped, and watching him piss his pants by fighting a non wrestler was priceless.  But he is exactly what is wrong with this generation.  He should’ve been a wank stain in his dad’s underwear, but instead, his sow of a mother allowed these defective seeds to spill upon her fertile pastures, and now we’re all forced to breathe the same air as him.

I look around the crowd as I begin to slowly walk back and forth.  There is a ginger manchild in his thirties, wearing thick black rimmed glasses, looking down, and I choose to speak right to him.

Me:  Degenerates aren’t always useless members of society who don’t contribute.  We’re not always driven by an unfounded need to be right while not actually giving something back to this world.  Nihilism isn’t the same as gluttony and sloth and envy.  Make a change.  Bring down a sliver of the establishment.  Rebel with action, not stagnation.  Action is key.  Without it, you won’t get anywhere.  And come Sunday, I’m taking action to draw a line in the sand.  In my return match, I will show that I’ve not missed a beat.  Of course, against someone who is even lazier than the person who books matches like this in SCW, there’s only so much I can do.  But, believe me when I say that I am going to enjoy this thoroughly, regardless.  It will be my first time back in the ring in over two months, and I plan to make the most of it.  I will teach The Troll where blind ambition gets him.

I look at a twiggy teenager with greasy hair, pimples, and a Dungeons and Dragons t-shirt on.

Me:  I will show him the light of day when I put him on his back.  When he’s staring up at those bright lights, much brighter than the ones on his parent’s basement ceiling, and they burn brighter than the gleam of his own self indulgence of the pitiful two inch creature between his legs, maybe… just maybe… he will understand where he’s gone wrong, and he will do better.  Maybe he will act better.  Maybe he will BE better.  And in showing him the error of his ways, I will be doing my good deed for the week, in front of millions of viewers worldwide.  And if I’m capable of opening up someone’s mind, then so are you!  So I implore each and every one of you to open up the minds of the soul-less, thoughtless robots surrounding you.  For that is our true mission.  Now, go forward and be blessed brothers, sisters, and depraved motherfucks!

Congregation:  AMEN!

And with that, I pick up The Good Book.  As people disperse, I hold a large pillar candle up to it, watching the pages slowly burn in a brilliant mixture of yellow, orange, and black.  I drop it to the ground and watch it as I slowly walk backward.  Take that, dad...

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Climax Control Archives / Revelations (Pt 8)
« on: July 30, 2021, 10:12:10 PM »


Revelations (Part 8)
Church of Heathenous Shepherds; Las Vegas, NV 7/39/2021


People talk. It’s what they do.  They want to follow your life like it’s a damn soap opera.  I’m a wrestler, and that’s not my top priority.  I was told by my sister that I was featured on TMZ.  Fucking TMZ! I didn’t sign up to be a celebrity.  I signed up to fight people and to put on a show in a gritty underground setting.  Pride made me go to the big time brand.  And for a while, I was able to avoid tabloids.  As an Indy wrestler, I never really put much thought into my own celebrity.  Or, maybe it’s the celebrity of the salami I’m smuggling in my back pocket.  Either way, I didn’t expect to see a ten second snippet of me on a rumor show.  I also didn’t know that I was being recorded.

”News of Brother David Shepherd, formally of the Church of the Good Shepherds, was seen entering the cabin of MMA specialist, “Fenris”, Kristjan Baltasarsson’s cabin late one night on the SCW summer extravaganza, Summer XXXTreme IX.”

There is footage of David walking past the door, and then stopping to turn back around.  It shows him contemplating knocking before finally doing so.  As the door opens, it shows him pushing Fenris into the room, but nothing further.

“Reportedly, nearby cabins complained that they couldn’t get any sleep as these two spent the night together.”

We come into focus on David’s sister, Esther Azarov, standing by with her husband Andrey.  A microphone is held to her mouth.

Esther:  At certain points, it sounded like The Arbitor dying in Halo 3.  Other times, it sounded like there was a rabid dog squeaking around in an old bed.  How two human beings can force us to believe that anything else was going on is beyond me. Kudos.

The view switches back to David leaving the room well in the afternoon, his shirt hanging around his neck, his belt dragging on the ground behind him, and his pants unbuttoned, looking disheveled as he walks to his cabin and closes the door.

“Other complaints stated that children were heard running around the boat, yelling ‘How do you like that, bitch?  Wait, I don’t care!’  and MAV called for the immediate cancellation of David Shepherd.  While it is unclear as to whether he will face the cancel culture movement or not, SCW has booked him in a match this weekend against Shane Borderlands, so it appears that David will not be going anywhere soon.”

We move back to see Andrey Azarov rubbing the back of his head, looking confused as he centers his sights on the camera.

Andrey:  I don’t understand question.  Am unsure what smuggling salami in back pocket means.  Perhaps pocket is too small for log of salami?  If this is metaphor of me winning SCU Combat Championship, then yes.  I am of smuggle a lot salami in back pocket.  And I will continue to smuggle salami in back pocket for long as pocket can take salami.  No further comments.

Before Andrey can move away, he finds himself playfully slapped with a log of salami, right against his mouth.  TMZ replays this is slow motion as we watch the moment of impact jolting Andrey’s features to his right.

“OHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!”

Then the camera moves slightly to see Jamie Staggs standing by, holding the log of salami.

Jamie:  Heh, that’s not the only place this salami is going.  You just got Dick’d SON!!!

They record scratch on the actual feed of the show, and then remix Jamie’s words

Jamie:  You just got… *Skkkkkkkratch* You just got…. *SKKKKEEEERATCH*  Just got, just got, just got DICK’D SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOON!!!!!!!


As I play this on the monitor behind me, the congregation gives a mixture of laughter and annoyance.  I stare out amongst them, my features chiseled firmly onto my face as I admire the growth of numbers.  Big players, and street thugs.  The homeless, and the fortunate.  All drawn together by their darkest desires, and their will to live within them.  The video begins all over again, and as it plays, I study each and every person in this 140 member congregation, one by one.  I see their energies, and I know their intentions.  And as a collective, I feed off of it.  I feel it powering me up in a way that I’ve never been powered up before.  Not only by strength, but determination, charisma, and overall spirit.  I feel the icy fire coursing through my veins, and it gets me ready to speak.

Me:  I’m not one to kiss and tell, but allow me a minute to bang and brag.  Yes, me and Fenris went… all… night… long…

Crowd:  HELL YEAH!!!

Me:  We did it on the bed!

Crowd:  TELL ME MORE!

Me:  We did it on the floor!

Crowd:  TELL ME MORE!

Me:  We did it on the counter!

Crowd:  TELL ME MORE!

Me:  Then we did it some more!

Crowd:  TELL ME MORE!

Me:  We did it for an hour!

Crowd:  TELL ME MORE!

Me:  Then he hit it in the shower!

Crowd:  TELL ME MORE!

Me:  We did it under the moon!

Crowd:  TELL ME MORE!

Me:  We did it while he was big spoon!

Crowd:  TELL ME MORE!

Me:  We did it in the mouth.

Crowd:  TELL ME MORE!

Me:  Then we went back south!

Crowd:  TELL ME MORE!

I am about to speak again, when I stop myself.  I hold my hand up to them and I look around, as if I were stunned by this behavior, even though I’m really not.

Me:  WE…! You’re a bunch of filthy fuckers, aren’t you?  Well, with his track record, there will be a taped leaked soon.  I just hope they got my good side.

Crowd: FENRIS HAD YOUR GOOD SIDE!

I can’t help but laugh a little at that one.  I look back at my ass and shrug my shoulders, because, well, they’re not wrong.

Me:  Truth!  Though, I’ve heard that my mouth is a very close second.  Anyway, we’re not here to talk about my sexcapades.  We’re here to discuss how healthy some *air quotes* “sins” are.  Like lust, which I’ve finally freed myself from the prison which denied me of this.  Stealing.  Cheating.  Violence.  Gluttony.  They are all guilty pleasures, because we have been trained that these acts are immoral.  We deny ourselves pleasure because a bunch of people with sky daddy complexes who wrote the world’s oldest fan fic tell us that we should.  The real “sin” is holding back from everything that you deserve!

Crowd:  YEAHHHHHH!!!

Me:  The truth of the matter is that there is only one sin to be aware of.  And that is the sin of pride.  You should be proud of what you acquire, what you accomplish, what you take back from this cruel bitch we call life.  But, pride is used as a weapon.  It has become synonymous with guilt.  It is used to instill shame if we feel any form of pleasure that isn’t chemically induced by a pill from your doctor.  It coerces us into working jobs that we hate just to barely make ends meet, pulling overtime for pennies on the dollar while the fat cats sit above us and laugh at our little rat race, waiting to pick us up, one by one, and swallow us alive.  Pride, in the wrong mindset, kills.  It destroys the soul, far worse than catching a little premarital strange, knocking a guy out with a steel pipe, or lifting a candy bar from the local corner shop.  Pride stops us from being who and what we truly are.

The crowd murmurs as they take in everything that I’m saying.  I nod my head, giving them time to drink it up.  I can hear the certainty in their voices as they level out.

Me:  There comes a certain age when your body tells you to “stop”.  Especially in professional wrestling.  You’ve taken too many bumps.  You’ve broken a few bones.  Arthritis begins to set in.  You can’t live a functioning life without pain pills.  Your body knows better.  It hasn’t been trained into an illogical loop of self destructive behavior like your mind has.  Again, the world is cruel, fucked up, and will swallow you whole.  Like I did to Fenris…

There is a bit of a chuckle from the crowd, but I’m on a roll, so I continue.

Me:  And yet, pride, the kind that keeps us trapped inside of this machine, forces our brains to think it proves something to ignore the call of the body.  We can’t give up, or it means we’re a p*ssy.  We have to keep going because we have some idiotic point to make by nearly killing ourselves for the benefit of our rich bosses.  We have become indentured servants, but not bound to it by law.  Bound to it by our minds.  It is precisely why my opponent, Shane Borderlands, is set to take me on.

I stop and look around, finding that the crowd is still interested in what I have to say.

Me:  He thinks he still has to prove something, to someone, somewhere, somehow.  He doesn’t.  This truth shall set him free.  But, because his feeble mind refuses to acknowledge that he’s no longer needed, nor wanted in this sport, that he has to become relevant or something.  He feels like there’s still more for him in this sport.  He ignores the doctors telling him that he’s well past his prime.  He pushes through the pain, the agony, the self doubt, because that’s all he knows.  Without purpose, we fade away long before we’re dead.  As a man, we are taught to leave our mark on this world.  Many in this business, who don’t suffer from some sort of mental incapability or disability, find that we leave our marks by being a macho man.  Casting pain aside.  Masking the pain.  Telling ourselves that we “have to”.  No, we don’t.  There’s no shame in letting the younger generation take over, Shane.

I shrug my shoulders.

Me:  No need to feel guilty.  You’ve done your part.  You’ve made your point.  Anything else is just going to tarnish your record, and embarrass you.  Much like I plan to do on Sunday at Climax Control.  Don’t get me wrong, I love a solid fight.  I don’t mind kicking your ass all over that ring.  And I won’t feel guilty about it, because it’s time for me to leave my mark.  But, I’m going to do it my way, and my way only.  See, I’m not going to buy into the machismo.  I won’t run around here, flaunting my toxic masculinity.  I’m just going to enjoy the fact that I get to rub up on men, cause them pain, knock them out for three seconds or force them to submit to my dominance, and do it all over again next week.  Not because I think I need to prove something, but because I want to, and my body isn’t nearly as worn down as yours, Shane.

And with that, I take a break, letting my congregation rally behind me, along with the video of TMZ still playing behind me for irony’s sake.

Me:  You paved the way for the younger generation.  And for that, I admit, I’m thankful.  But you really need to heed my warning.  Whether it is now or a month from now, you need to hang up the boots.  Maybe manage a bright young talent and show them the way.  Someone who needs pointers, at least.  Someone not smart enough to figure this business out on their own.  Someone I can humiliate inside of the ring, just for the helluvit.  That way, for my own amusement, I can prove that I would’ve beaten you back in your hay day too.  Your cerebral attacks are nothing to me.  Your skills are as dated as your face is in this business.  Your mouth only writes out checks it can no longer cash.  You’re not just washed up, you’re the fossil that fueled my car ride up here.  Now, if you’re looking for a purpose in life, I can help you with anti-spiritual advice to get your life where you want it to be.  Are you a hedonist?  A sadist?  A masochist?  It doesn’t matter.  I’ll take you there, free of charge… unless you would like to donate to the Church of Heathenous Shepherds, or course.  Now, be a pal and subscribe to my channel, would ya, Shane? And for the viewers at home, I’ve added a donation button below.  Be a part of something real.

And with that, I tip my invisible hat to Shane and my other viewers.  I step down from the podium upon the charred altar, and I shake hands with people as I pass along.  I also punch one guy, tongue kiss another, and refused to touch an ugly baby.  I hold my hand up as I make my way to the exit, turning once more to watch the salami slap Andrey across the face in slow motion, getting a chuckle before leaving.

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Climax Control Archives / What Goes Around, Comes Around
« on: June 18, 2021, 09:54:43 PM »


What Goes Around Comes Around
Saxon Hotel Bar, Las Vegas, NV 6/13/2021


Sure, it’s typical, right?  Anyone going through some sort of life changing event is going to, at some point, find themselves sitting up in a bar, downing drinks, wallowing in their own self pity, looking for “feel better sex” if one is single or just an asshole.  If you look around me, you will see, I am, in fact, in a bar.  I’m surrounded by businessmen and women, Vegas performers who have finished their shifts and are looking to unwind, and tourists taking advantage of some of the COVID restrictions being lifted.  Plenty are single, and plenty are already drunk at 7pm on a Sunday, the Lord’s d… sorry, it’s going to take a minute to stop doing that…

But, this is completely atypical.  This is not about me trying to come to terms with what happened at Into the Void X, or since then.  This is about me being free to be myself.  Sure, I can’t say I’m not a bit depressed.  I can’t say that I’m not angry.  I still don’t believe lying is an acceptable behavior.  But, I’m in a good place.  I recently joined a dating site and found that I am quite attractive based on the number of responses I’ve gotten.  But, one person really caught my eye.  There was an instant attraction from the moment I swiped right.  The conversation was good, and we decided to skip the show and we agreed to meet here.

That’s right.  I am on a date!  I’m moving on in the world, like I didn’t spend ions hating myself instead of celebrating myself.  He should be here any second now, and I’m beyond excited.  Is it wrong that I’m already imagining what it would be like to find someone who makes me happy.  Get married.  Have a couple kids from a friendly lesbian surrogate down the street, boys of course.  Lucas and David Jr.  A dog, probably a husky, to grow up with the boys.  The whole white pickett fence fantasy.  That’s weird.  I’m being weird.  But I’m just so nervous.

I keep looking at my phone until I receive a text saying “Here. Parking now”.  The doubt leaves my face, and I wave to the waiter for a glass of water and a bowl of pretzels.  Thinking ahead, just like a gentleman.  The waiter brings the pretzels and goes to fetch the water.  My mind begins going all over the place.  How big is he.  Will he actually like me once he gets to know me?  Is he the type that eats cookies in bed?  Does he snore? How big are his feet? And every single bit of that comes to a halt as I feel the ice cold sting of water splashing across my face.

I’m jolted back to reality, and I look to the bartender as if to say “I didn’t ask for my water to-to” when I realize he has a full glass in his hand, and looks just as shocked as I do.  It only takes a second to realize who is standing in front of me, using one crutch to balance herself.  Virginia Mae Putnam… my ex-fiancee.  Luckily she follows up the water with a slap, because otherwise, every vein in my body would have been ice cold.  Her cheeks are redder than a tomato, and her knuckles are white from clenching her fists so tightly.

Virginia:  You scum!  You cretin!  You… You…! Rrrrrrgh!

To be fair, she has every right to do this, and I’m not above admitting that.  She clubs me on the shoulders and chest as fast as she can on one crutch, and it hurts.  She is a trained wrestler afterall.  But I take it.  The names she deserves to call me are well beyond what she calls me.  I grab onto her wrist to stop her as her front of anger begins to dissolve into tears of hurt and pain as she rests against my chest.

Pause scene. As a little refresher course for those who are just tuning in, The Shepherd family were once no-good pieces of shit who lived in a rundown apartment building in Tulsa, Oklahoma.  Father was an alcoholic army veteran with PTSD.  Mother was a depressed pill junkie turned heroin addict.  Esther was the most normal of us all, just trying to survive the environment.  I was, well, a closeted homosexual who picked up habits from both parents, and brought numerous skanks and sluts home to try to “fuck the gay away”.  My parents split up because they were just a little too toxic together to work out anymore.  Father stepped out on mother with a young blonde with the greenest eyes you’d ever seen, and her name was Virginia Mae Putnam.  She encouraged him to form the Church of the Good Shepherds.  His side whore while he “fixed” mommy and me.  Once we were “fixed”, she was to be my wife.  I never truly got over the fact that my to-be wife once had my dad’s staff parting her pink sea.  And, unpause.

Virginia:  You’re a real piece of shit, you know that, David Shepherd? If it wasn’t bad enough what you did to your family last week, you gone and kissed that man at Into the Void, all while your fiancee is recovering from a possibly career ending injury!  What kind of man are you?

Me:  I…

Virginia:  You don’t get to speak, David Shepherd!  You lost that chance when you ignored my calls for a month!  You knew you gave up that chance when you locked lips with that… that… unrepentant heathen!  But I could have forgiven that if you’d have just talked to me.  We coulda gone through your therapy together as the Lord intended!

Me:  I don’t think no one intended for me to get beaten and shocked like some animal, or else I wouldn’t be here about ready to go on a date.

Ginny’s eyes widen.  Uh oh.  The crazy is about to really come out.  She laughs, and her eyes glaze over in a way that lets me know I’m about to walk through hell.  She drops the crutch out of pride, and she begins limping around to any man that is not with anyone.  She picks up the arm of a balding businessman in a nice suit, and his watch is expensive.  But he’s not really my type.

Virginia:  Are you here to date my fiancee?  Did you know he was engaged to a woman?

Me:  Ginny… Come on now.

Virginia:  NO!

She turns to a pretty hunky backup dancer type with just enough tattoo work to let me know he’d be a wild ride.  But the frosted tips let me know he’s not relationship material for me.

Virginia:  How about you?  Where did you two meet, a Lady Gaga concert?  Liza Minelli show?  In some heathenous establishment, dancing bare chest to bare chest to Kylie Minogue? TELL ME!

Man 2:  No, but I like the way you think, sis.

He gave me eyes that let me know I could ask for his room number.  Snap out of it, David!  This is not the time, nor the place.  I walk over to Ginny and I pull her away from Frosted Flake.  She instantly rips her arm away from my hand.

Virginia:  DON’T YOU TOUCH ME, FILTHY MONGREL!!! Do NOT put your hands on me ever again.  You’re disgusting, and I hate to admit that I can no longer make direct comments about your sexuality per church law, but do not mistake that I’m not thinking them right at you, David!  Just you!  Derek Barry backup dancer here is okay.  And if you are looking to find God, I’ve got a pamphlet for you.

Man 2:  I’ll have what you were having.  I’m sure I could find God twice as fast, hon.

Ginny ignores that and starts over to… my date for the night.  Nate - 29 - post grad, working in urology.  Non-smoker with a cigarette fetish, knows how to cook, and would love to prepare a meal for me sometime…

Yeah, not anymore.

Virginia:  Or you?  I bet he told you he was hung like a horse.  But I think he meant to say “seahorse”.  He has horrible morning breath, and thinks he can sing Johnny Cash, but he sounds like someone is strangling Foghorn Leghorn.  He is a man child, with no maturity.  Heck, he couldn’t even tell me our engagement was broken off, and yet here you are, on a date with an engaged man, because he’s too chicken shit to confront me!

Nate:  That sure would make for an awkward sleepover, wouldn’t it?  Shower time would be a real drag. I’m sorry you are going through all of this.  Can I buy you a drink?

And just like that, Lucas and David Jr evaporate, along with the husky, the fence, and the friendly lesbian down the street.  All gone as she lets go of his hand.  He seems to have calmed her down.  They go to the other end of the bar with Frosted Flake, and the three share laughs at my expense.  My only reaction is that the bartender never even once tried to call for security so that I could play the good guy and tell them they weren’t needed.  We could’ve gone to a more quiet place to talk and maybe we could’ve been friends still.

No, that situation is fucked beyond all repair.  Instead, I take a deep breath, look at my phone to see a new text alerting me of my match with Mac Bane next week, and I just roll my eyes.  Of course I have to fight this one right now.  But, not exactly “right now”.  I slap a twenty down on the bar because I refuse to be that guy, lonely and humiliated at a bar.  It’s too typical, and I’m not ready for that level of normalcy right now.

I walk out of the bar as Nate and Flake wave goodbye, and Ginny laughs, taking the red wine as the blood of Christ a little too heavily right now.  I go to my room, and I slam the door shut, kicking at it.  I tangle my fingers up in my hair and I lean against the door, taking in a deep breath.  Eyes are closed, and I can hear the sound of my own breathing, and somehow, I smell the scent of cigarette permeating off of my body from the bar… that was smoke free…

Esther:  Look here you little annoying vaginal itch…

Grooooooooaaaaaaaaan… My eyes slowly open as I see my sister sitting on my white pleather couch, looking directly at me with her legs crossed, looking all proper and shit, despite wearing a pink letterman’s cheer sweater and matching skirt.  She stands up and walks over to me.  She wraps her arms around me in a hug that is sadly too genuine for my liking.  However, I let her have that comfort while returning none of it.  She lingers with it too, and just before I’m about to break free from her emotional grasp, she lets go of me.

Esther:  Don’t you know how to return a call, bitch?  You had me worried.  Like, as in, still worried.  Because you’re off your rocker, big time buddy boy.

Me:  I’m fff…

Esther:  Don’t feed me that “I’m fine” bullshit.  You’re not fine, at all.  Clearly.  You’re forcing yourself to go through this alone, which is… fucking stupid.  You nearly burned down the Las Vegas chapter of the church.  And while I find that extremely funny, I know you wouldn’t have done that.  Or that horribly awesome paint job you gave it.  I’m pretty sure I can’t give you credit for the wicked graffiti, but it looks pretty cool. I would go to that church.

I rolls my eyes as Esther ushers me over to the couch.  She points to the bottle of water on the table, and had it been opened, I’d be afraid of what she might have tried to slip in there, and I would not have drank from it.  But, it is sealed, and I crack it open and take a sip.

Me:  You’re blowing this way out of proportion.  Yeah, I had a little misstep, but I said my piece to the family, and now I’m chill.  I mean, I just had a bad date, so I’m a little annoyed by that, but I’m good.  Doing really good, actually.

Esther looks over to the empty bottles scattered near the bed, and then slowly looks back to me, like she’s asking me “Really?”  I sigh and try to change the subject.

Me:  So, how are things now that dad has openly accepted you and Andrey into his loving arms?  Is Andrey converting?  Has he pressured you for kids yet?

Esther:  Nice try, dickwad.  This is your one person intervention, and I’m not leaving this room until you spill it.  You act like I don’t know you like the back of my hand, and you lying is really starting to piss me off.

She’s not going to give up.  That much is clear.  I don’t want to talk, but I also don’t want a sleepover with my sister either.  I’m trapped between a rock and a hard place, because I’ll rip anyone to shreds should they ever put me in this position, but this is my sister, and we’ve gone through so much together that I would never dream of it.  Sigh. Deep breath.

Me:  I’m not doing great, honestly.  I mean, I don’t know to make heads or tails of any of this.  One minute, my head tells me this is what should’ve happened years ago.  The next, it says that dad is an asshole who put us through hell for literally no good reason.  And mom allowed it.  Suddenly, it’s okay to be gay, and every poke, prod, shock, flay of the whip means nothing, and I’m supposed to unpack all of that like it’s no big deal.  I’m supposed to just move on with my life like none of that ever happened.  Up is down, wrong is right.  I can’t… I can’t keep up with this.

I stop so she can say some smartass thing like she always does.  But she doesn’t.  She looks as if she wants to cry, but her pride in the overly applied mascara stops her from doing it.  Her lip quivers as she looks away from me, because she can’t even stand to look at me.

Me:  I chose the wrong time to come out against my own will.  I truly hate that man.  I hate Kristjan.  I hate him, and yet he won’t get out of my head.  He’s truly wicked, and this is coming from the man who just burned a Jesus statue two weeks ago.  We can say that we were playing head games, and that’s fine.  But the fact of the matter is that I lost that match in so many ways.  On official record, I lost.  Mentally, I lost.  Physically, I lost, Spiritually, I lost.  I was humiliated in every single way, where for a split second, before I even knew what was happening, time stood still, and all of those booing assholes at ringside were quiet.  The warmth of the lights shined down on us, and… everything felt fine.  I felt free.  I felt trapped.  I felt at ease.  I felt overwhelmed.  I was overtaken by his warmth, and it felt just as if what dad always said was true of God himself.  Nothing made sense, but I felt so… good… but my senses kicked in, and I realized that I wasn’t meant to feel good because of this man.  Then and there, I decided I hated him.  Even as he stole his gum away from me, I hated him so deeply for opening that door and letting everything just flood out.  All of that pain, all of my will, he took from me, but continues to make me stare it right in the fucking face.  I fucking hate Fenris so much that I never want to see, taste, touch, smell, or feel him ever again.

The words feel so painful coming out of my mouth as I say them.  It’s like my chest is being ripped open from the inside out.  Not in an emotional sort of way, but physically, like a xenomorph is trying to escape my chest.  Esther lights another cigarette and puffs on it softly before putting a hand on my shoulder.

Esther:  Brother?  Can I give you my honest opinion?

I look to her and nod my head, even though I’m not sure I want to hear it.  She offers me a warm smile.

Esther:  To me, that sounds like true love.  I felt the same way about Andrey at first.  As I got to know him, I realized all of those feelings were meant to be, and we just… were.  I threw away everything because I knew that those who cared would be by my side no matter what.  And you were there for me during that time.  That’s why I want you to understand that this is a good feeling.

I laugh because, if I didn’t, I’d probably chuck the glass coffee table well across the room.  Or I’d start screaming at her to get out, because, how much more wrong could she possibly be about my feelings for Kristjan?

Me:  You have no idea what you’re talking about.  Just because you like being mentally abused by Boris Fuckwadzikov doesn’t mean that I’m looking for that kind of “love”.

Esther:  I would’ve expected a better insult from you, Dave.  Something about being a commie, maybe?  At least it was kind of original, but man…

Me:  I guess I need to work on that for when it comes time to talk up my match next week against Mac Bane, huh?

Esther nods her head, but isn’t letting me out of this conversation just yet.

Esther:  If you’re going to suck, then suck with Kristjan.  At least then, some of his greatness might rub off on you, or in you at least.

Cringe.  That’s all I was thinking at the moment.  But then, it turns into a situation of “maybe if I’m quite, she’ll leave it be” situation.  The embarrassment of it all gets to me.

Me:  I’m not in a place for a relationship right now, with anybody, let alone Fenris.  I can’t even start to figure that out right now.  My head is such a mess, and I really have a lot to unpack.  Like, where do I start, honestly?

Esther:  I don’t mean this in a bad way, but you need help.  If you try to do this on your own, you’re in for a long, hard road.  And since you’re too damn stubborn to let anyone help you, then maybe you should see a therapist.

I shake my head.

Me:  Nope, not happening.  Simply not, huh-uh, no way.  I don’t need help.  I can handle this the way I was meant to by nature.  They didn’t have therapists way back when, and people did just fine.

Esther:  Yeah, with their sky daddy complexes, wars to make up for their small penises, burning people at the stake for being “witches”, stealing, murdering, raping… that’s all very healthy, isn’t it?  Fuck that, David, go see a therapist.  If it helps, I can give you the name of mine.  He really helped me through some tough times.

Me:  Hard pass, sis.  I’ll do just fine on my own.  I doubt I’ll be waging genocidal wars or murdering anyone.

Esther:  Just drinking yourself into a coma like a stupid piece of shit.  Got it.

I am about to start fighting back on this matter, but she pulls her phone out and overtalks my attempts to object.  She grabs a cocktail napkin and writes down a number on it.

Me:  No, I don’t need it, but thank you.  I appreciate your concern, but…

Esther:  I’m just going to leave “this” here.  After your bad date sets in, and your encounter with Ginny resonates, you will…

Me:  Wait, how did you know about Ginny.  Did you…

Esther:  Byyyyyyeeeeeeee…

Esther chuckles a bit, but she knows I’m going to chase her down for answers, so she hurries out of the room and closes the door.  I can hear the scuffs of her tennis shoes against the floor in the hallway as she rushes back to her room.  I plop back down on the couch and pick up the napkin.  Dr. Kenneth Mansfield.  Sounds like a douche…




Revelations (Part 7)
Church of the Good Shepherds - Las Vegas Chapter 6/18/2021



The place is a real dump.  The paint is splashed all over the walls, reminding me what a headcase I was.  The burn marks make this place look as if it should be condemned.  Yet, there is a group of people inside, seated in the pews, others sleeping on the floor.  And not to be judgmental or anything, but they seem like the bottom of the barrel of society.  And I don’t mean this in a bad way, because I feel like I’m right there with them.  Sure, I might not be a junkie.  I might not be an alcoholic yet.  I might not be as dirty as they look, having to squat in an abandoned church, but my soul is even more filthy than theirs.  And I’m here to celebrate it.  To own it.  No one bats an eye as I walk down the aisle and right to the damaged pulpit.  I walk up to the podium and I look out at everyone, half of whom are still not looking at me.  I check the microphone switch, and after a whir through the speakers, it is functional as is evident by my breaths into the mic.  The sound gets everyone’s attention immediately.  Those on the floor crawl into the pews, so not to be disrespectful, while others make a run toward the door.

Me:  This is private property, owned by me, and I ask that you all stay.

A few wary folks leave through the main doors, but most stay seated, about 20 or so fellow miscreants.  I am silent, because, obviously this wasn’t planned.  It was supposed to be working off some stress by getting things done around the building.  But inspiration has struck, and here I am.

Me:  Jesus did this, Moses said that.  Abraham hit me with a wiffleball bat…

A Little Nicky reference seemed appropriate at the moment.  However, some of the younger crowd doesn’t get the reference.  Two more people get up and walk toward the doors.  I hold my hand up.

Me:  I'm a good Catholic girl in the way that Madonna is. In the sense that I'm not that good at all.

The two headed toward the doors as I quote Heather Graham.  They turn and stare curiously at me for a second.  I think I’ve got them.  I take a deep breath and give my favorite Stigmata quote.

Me:  You know what's scarier than not believing in God? Believing in him. I mean, really believing in him. It's a fucking terrifying thought.

Woman:  Why are you quoting movies?

I shrug my shoulders.

Me:  Why are you squatting in my establishment?  I mean, we all have our reasons, even if they don’t make sense to others… or me… at this point… “I ain't through with you by a damn sight! I'm gonna get medieval on your ass.” Pulp Fiction.  "Mama always said life was like a box of chocolates. You never know what you're gonna get." Forrest Gump. “That is one big pile of shit.” Jurassic Park.

As I look around, I see people are as confused as can be, because they are scratching their heads.  I guess they weren’t prepared for me right now, and that’s okay.  I’ll let them in on it soon enough.

Me: Welcome to my world.  Confusion has been the way I’ve been living life for the last several years, but especially the last month or so. Everything has been jumbled, but I’m starting to see a moment of clarity.  No, I’m serious.

They still don’t know what I’m talking about, and I truly feel most of them are hanging around here because they have nowhere else to go.

Me:  I might… just maybe… I might see things like I’ve never seen them before, and I think I’m going to be okay.  But then, BAM! Blindsided! Knocked over in… shock isn’t quite strong enough of a word to describe it, but… confusion is the theme of the day.

As I say “BAM!” I knock over the podium and begin walking back and forth across the stage.  I’m channeling my inner Father Gerald now, and I kind of think some of the crowd is here for it now.

Me:  You’re confused! I get it, trust me. Only now, you know how I felt when I saw the card for this week’s Climax Control.  I admit, I expected something along the lines of Caleb Storms.  A sad little man who is trying so hard to rebound from only winning a title because it was handed to him.  All the way up to Alex Jones, so maybe I could get my rematch for the Roulette Championship.  Or, even a competitor worth the trouble.  Or, let’s say I’ve impressed people enough, then maybe I could go on to face Mark Cross for a round two, to bring that historic Sin City Underground match to life for the SCW fans.  But no.

I shake my head and shrug my shoulders.  I can tell now that the group gathered before me has pieced together exactly who I am, even if they don’t fully know me.  My exposure in SCW has given me something, at least, for better or for worse.

Me:  I get Mac Bane… Not to take anything away from the Internet Champion, but why the fuck am I facing Mac Bane?  Where in the fuck does that make any sense at all?  It’s like they booked everybody and decided they needed one more match, and we were the table scraps left over.  Otherwise, I don’t see a point in this at all.  I mean, in what universe is this logical?

I stop moving back and forth across the stage and stop as people are getting interested, even if they didn’t gather here to hear me talk about my match.

Me:  Now, don’t get me wrong, I’m honored to fight the Internet Champion.  During my time as a star on the rise, I’ve thought long and hard about where I’d like to see myself within the next couple of months, and it certainly is as the Internet Champion.  Hashtag career goals.  And what better way to prove that I’ve moved on to the next level than to beat the Internet Champion?  Newsflash, there isn’t.  And some might say “Well, that’s your explanation right there, Dave!”  First off, don’t ever call me Dave or I’ll fuck you in the butt.  Second, they don’t know that’s my next step.  So I have no issues in fighting the Internet Champion.  As a matter of fact, that made my day.  It’s just a shame that the champion is Mac Bane…

There are a couple of “ooooh’s” from my makeshift audience that let me know I’m on the right path to touching some nerves.  But, they don’t know me well enough to know that this is just child's play.

Me:  Let’s rewind a bit here.  Let’s talk about O’Malley.  This man was a jurassic waste of roster space.  He’s as shit in the ring as he is at being a father.  He’s a student of the great Gabriel Stevens, but somehow finds a way to suck ass.  It doesn’t make sense.  And the social media representation he gives any title he touches makes the company of said title look like absolute shit to be held by such a whiny, bitchy, poor excuse for a human being.  And yet, as I stand here, reliving that “feud”, which should be heard as “the few times I royally kicked his ass and embarrassed him and took a title off of him”... I also find myself wishing I was fighting him instead.

Murmurs escape the lips of the crowd as they seem more confused than before.

Me:  At least… AT LEAST… O’Malley had a reputation.  His idiot brother brought fans to his side, and he put asses in seats.  What does Mac Bane do here in Sin City?  Fail.  He’s a failure as sure as I am standing here before you all, he’s nothing.  Being in a match with him is like advertising that I’m fighting a useless sack of flour.  Sure, professional wrestlers have drawn big fighting inanimate objects, but let’s keep in mind that this one is a human being somehow.  He’s more dry than The Troll’s sex life.  He’s big, yeah, and he smells like manly man, but what else is there?  He’s dicking down the World Bombshell Champion?  Cool, give me something else, because that doesn’t mean a thing to me.

I feel it welling up inside now.  That sneer that lets people know I’m taking things personal, and acting in kind.  I begin pacing again as I deliver it like a sermon given from God himself.

Me:  “He almost won the Blast From the Past 2021 Tournament”.  Almost.  As in he failed.  He’s a failure, and that’s the first bit of solid proof, heathens.  He couldn’t get the job done against Mark Cross.  It’s a big, gaping hole in his armor, his biggest weakness.  Either he wasn’t man enough to take down the half man known as Mark Cross, because he lacks the skill to do so, or… OR… he purposely tanked for his lady friend.  She must be as wild as she looks, or else there is no way that snap trap would be enough for him to tank a match that would give him supreme power here in SCW, where he could have become the World Heavyweight Champion, just like Mark Cross did.  I have to believe that no one is simp enough to give all that away from the kitty.

I throw my free hand up in the air, as if to ask God “Why?”  It just doesn’t make sense, further adding to my own confusion.

Me:  Mac Bane has to be such a sad sack of shit for that to happen.  But then, I question… is it worse to lose to Mark Cross?  That’s a pain I’ve felt before.  It’s humiliating, and yet somehow encouraging.  I lost to him, and I took the next step.  I came to SCW, I won the Roulette Championship in my second match here.  I moved on to bigger and better things.  And Mac Bane very well might have done the same thing.  I would bet money on it if he didn’t feel the need to brag about being part of Carnage Wrestling as one of their champions.  That’s literally the home of literally literal bags of excrement.  Like, human, dog, bull, horse, gorilla shit.  That’s worse than the time Tim Staggs mentioned joining Carnage Wrestling, and everybody shit on him for like a month.  You’re just inviting it, Mac…

Duh!  What is he, an idiot?  Wait, wrong question, because...

Me:  So we’ve established that you’re the human equivalent to a turd.  You simped out your biggest chance at winning “the big one”.  You’re more boring than Lincoln Daniels.  And just as predictable, too.  You somehow made it past O’Malley to win the Internet Championship, and it was considered the biggest upset of Into the Void X.  Against. O’Malley.  Ooooooooh’Mallllllllllleyyyyyy… That was the upset.  The more I talk about you, the more I feel sorry for you.  Genuinely.  Why don’t you just do yourself a favor and not show up on Sunday.  Disappear like you did before the tournament and don’t look back.  Because as much as I feel sorry for you, I won’t lighten up on how I handle business in the ring.  I’ll fuck you like I’m buying you dinner afterwards.  Because, unlike you, I don’t let my personal feelings interfere with how I perform in the ring.  And, bear with me, because I’m trying to give you the benefit of the doubt, and that IS the best case scenario…

People are cheering like I’m paying them to, now.  Some are praising me as if I’m testifying the Truth before them.

Me:  Now, I have to admit something.  I have heard whispers backstage about Mac wanting to face me ever since my father got his gal’s panties in a twist on Twitter.  Apparently, there was hopes of a David Shepherd and Austin James Mercer versus Fenris and Mac Bane petition going on, and Mac was riding that train all the way to Relevenceville.  I know, I know, I should have listened and gotten this ass beating out of the way much sooner, but, priorities.  I guess I had forgotten until just now.  So, it’s some sort of justice really.  Kind of.

I stop pacing and step down from the pulpit, amongst the gathering of heathens before me, and I shake hands as I start to walk down the aisle.

Me:  But, not really.  See, this match is outshadowed by what should be instead of what hasn’t been.  See, the true injustice is the fact that Mac Bane has wanted to fight me, and yet he isn’t going to petition to put his belt on the line.  Evidence exhibit B.  He knows what would happen if his title was on the line.  I’d be the champion, and he’d fade back to obscurity.  He would lose the only thing that people pay attention to him over.  How sad would that be for him?  But, it also proves why he shouldn’t be the champion.  A REAL champion would be a fighting champion.  A REAL champion would be someone who would demand his title be on the line against any and all competition.  A REAL champion wouldn’t hide behind the “non-title”.  He would at least make an attempt to put that shit on the line.  And yet, here he is, being a sack of shit, and avoiding it.  Essentially avoiding me and trying to hide any legitimacy I might have.  And yet… I’ve beaten the last three champions.  And I’d gladly take the fourth most recent one too.

I turn back around and start making my way back down the aisle and toward the pulpit.

Me:  Make no mistake about it.  I’m going to leave my mark.  I’m going to destroy Mac.  I’m going to shrug him off, and I’m going to move on to bigger and more relevant things.  I’m going to remind Mac that he’s nothing more than a stepping stone to what he’s lucky to actually have.  And I’m going to make him regret hoping to ever face me.  As Brother David Shepherd, of Church of the Good Shepherds, I would have been half the battle I am today.  I would have been bound by rules and guidelines.  Now, I’ve got nothing to lose, and everything to gain.  As Brother David of the Church of Heathens, name in the works, I know no limits.  I have no guidelines or boundaries.  For you see, I, too, and a giant bag of shit.  But I’m a bag of shit that gets results.  And I ask everyone in attendance tonight to spread the word.  Come here to congregate amongst your fellow human waste.  Escape judgment, and be free.  As humiliating as it might be for Mac, even he is welcome. After I beat that ass on Sunday, that is.

Mic drop.  I’ve wasted enough time on Mac, and I have nothing else to say with my mouth, only my fists.  The group gathered before me cheers me on, for my message has been heard,  In this wasteland, there is reprieve, but that does not come at no cost.  The price is high.  It is their humanity and their humility.  I sneer as I begin walking toward the door to leave my building.  I turn back and give my congregation one last look of admiration before exiting.

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Climax Control Archives / The Aftermath
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The Aftermath
Golden Ring Casino, Las Vegas, NV 5/23/2021



Pain.

I’m not sure if that’s the right word to describe it.  I can feel the sting of my father’s arm as I brush past him.  Not that he hit me, but his touch inspires so much resentment, rage, anguish, that every nerve in my arm tingles, burns, and reminds me that he touched me just seconds ago.  Like an electrical current running straight up my arm, into my chest, and then shooting through every inch of my body.  The burn is stronger than anything I’ve felt in the last couple of years.

I see myself tucked in a public bathroom stall, pressed against the door of the stall, and for the life of me, I don’t even remember coming in here.  My breaths are hard and shallow, and my face is dripping wet.  Tears.  Anxiety.  Blood.  Sweat.  And it is so cold that I can’t even manage to feel my face beyond the breeze of air flow against my cheeks.  I look around, becoming aware of my surroundings.  I stare down at the strangely luxurious toilet in front of me, and I fall to my knees.  Some taste comes over my entire mouth, and I begin retching.

Him.  Fenris.  The White Wolf.  Kristjan Blatasarsson.  The bane of my existence at the moment.  I taste him like a toxic poison that floods my mouth, washed away only by the bile, until the bile stops, and then it’s him that I taste once more.  Even though it is only seconds, it feels like I’ll never be able to wash this disgustingly sweet taste out of my mouth.  And I’m dead set on being resentful about it.  Once I get a grip of my stomach, and my heart rate slows just enough, I listen for the silence in the restroom.  I step out of the stall and walk over to the sink.

I can’t even bare to look at myself in the mirror.  I turn on the water and I spit.  Blood.  Bile. Remnants of the day’s breakfast of oatmeal and blueberries.  I wait a second and study it as it goes down the drain, and then I lean down and splash water into my mouth to wash it all away.  I clean my face up, the splashes of cold water burn more than anything until I seem to have washed it away.  I pat my face with paper towels until it is dry.  I can hear the crowd out in the venue, and it brings it all flooding back.  I can’t be here.  I can’t be anywhere.

I am quick when I go to the locker room.  I keep my head down, but all of the eyes are on me.  All of the whispers.  “The kiss” is the topic of the week.  Not the pure hell Fenris and I just put each other through with the most violent non-hardcore match on the show so far.  I just pull my jeans on over my boots and tights.  I half button up my shirt, grab my bag, and I leave.  On my way out of the venue, I quickly buy a GRIME mask to cover my face.  Ironically, it’s red.  I pull it over my face and turn it on, and I just walk.

Around the hotel, which is mostly empty as people are still at the Into the Void X event, I find some piece of mind.  I pace back and forth in the hallway in front of the fountain.  My hands go into my hair as I do so.  My emotions are arbitrary.  Hate.  Love.  Rage. Peace. Sadness. Manic.  So interchangeably that I can’t tell where one ends and the other begins.  The pacing continues until I spot Virginia Mae Putnam and my mother coming down the elevator through the glass.  Mother is still in her wheelchair, and Ginny is down to one crutch now, but her face is pained more than I can bare.  I rush through the lobby and out onto the streets before they can even see me.

I’m not even sure why, but I stop and buy a pack of cigarettes for the first time in 6 years.  I walk down the Strip with a cigarette constantly burning between my lips.  Each cloud of smoke exhaled seems to relieve just a small piece of my mental anguish.  All the way until I arrive at the Las Vegas chapter of The Church of the Good Shepherds.  I walk inside after unlocking the chain.  I go straight to the steps to the altar, and I fall upon my knees.  Sobbing, begging, repenting as hard as I can.  If anyone were to be listening in, I guarantee they wouldn’t know what I was saying.  Heck, I barely did.

I look up at our savior on the cross before me, and through the wavering in vision caused by the tears, I see Him clear as day.  He stares back at me, judging me, filling me with even more self hatred.  There is nothing about mercy in that stare.  No forgiveness.  One might say this is because it’s a statue, a piece of wood, painted.  But there was definitely a reaction.  Disappointment isn’t the answer.  Rage.  Hatred.  A desire for pain and anguish, as if I haven’t been feeling enough of that.

The only thing I can think to do is to reach under the stairs and pull out dad’s old kit.  I grab the first thing I can, which happens to be a whip with glass embedded into it.  I clench my eyes closed as I whip it at my own back, feeling the sting of release.  The bloodletting as atonement for my sins.  I go once more.  And again.  And again.  Until I start to feel better, which doesn’t come.  I still see the judgment, the resentment from the Lord before me.  I can almost hear a roar.

”More…. More…. MORE!”

It isn’t divine or angelic.  It is straight up demonic.  I approach the statue, blood dripping down my back and through my ripped shirt.  The horns protruding through the head of my Lord, and fire filling his eyes.  I approach it slowly.  With each step, I’m flooded with a memory.  More pain.  More whippings.  More burnings.  More electrocutions.  The last was the worst, and the demon in this statue knows that.

BZZZZZZZZ!

My eyes whirl around in my head for a moment.  I almost lose my balance.  The blueish white currents dancing around in my eyes, disturbing my vision as I look over at Dax being cattle prodded.  But I catch my balance and I take another step.  His brown eyes, tears welling up in the corners, out of concern for me more than his own pain.  And the tears welling up in mine for the same reason, that only makes the dancing currents more intense.

Through the vision of the past, the anger builds up even more inside of me.  Each forced flashback of the torture that I endured just for being myself builds a barrier.  I growl back at the statue as we are met with a battle of will.  The attempts at reminding me of my own personal hell mount, but so does my resistance.  The same resistance that couldn’t hold up to the lips of Fenris, I am reminded of by the evil within this statue.  I feel it’s wrath radiating,  tearing at my nerves, but I do not stop until I wrap the whip around the neck of this demonized version of my Lord, and I choke it.  I scream at it as I feel the electricity flowing through my head, the flaying of my back, the burning on the flesh of my groin, the shocks of the cattle prods in my ribs.  And it all causes me to do one thing.  I pull on the statue, tugging on it until I can hear the plaster behind it crackling and falling to dust on the floor underneath it.  I only pull harder, and harder yet, until it comes crashing down to the ground.  I light the candelabra one wick at a time before pushing it over on top of the statue.  My memories continue to haunt me, but with the demonic roar escaping from the crucifix, it doesn’t hurt me physically anymore.  Only mentally, leaving me no better off than when I came in.  Perhaps with an arson charge on top of it.

But watching it burn only brings me a little piece of mind.  I was no longer fighting the war of my father.  I was fighting my own war now, and it was completely internal.  Undoing a lot of what was done to me was going to be hard, but it was the only way for me to truly figure it all out.  Being my authentic self was only the first step.  And whatever may come from my burning alive in this building, let it come.

I watch as the flames spread like wildfire, and the demonic roar coming from the statue only serves to bring me to my knees before them.  I feel the warmth consuming me, and it’s not a bad feeling like most would think.  Instead, I bow down before them, a wicked smile spreading across my face.  Is this really me, or has the demon wormed it’s way into my soul? It’s really hard to tell.




Revelations (Part 6)
Church of the Good Shepherds (Las Vegas Chapter); 6/4/2021



The aftermath of my mental breakdown wasn’t as horrible as I had thought it would be.  The statue was charred, yet still whole.  Flames flicked against the walls, leaving their mark, but no structural damage was done.  Burn marks scatter across the floor, but there was some sort of force protecting this place.  Sure, there is still that distinct smell of smoke wafting throughout the place, but we don’t have to close it for very long.  That’s good news to my father, I’d assume.  But part of me wanted to watch this place burn to the ground.

Flashbacks of the fire dance through my head as I look around.  Watching them all around me.  Especially when I look at the floor and see where I was kneeling.  There is a perfect circle of undamaged flooring, surrounded by whipping burn marks.  As if I were being protected.  I think back to seeing the flames come for me, but they can’t touch me.  Only the smoke.  Filling my lungs, causing me to cough, and eventually pass out.  But, before that… how did I get out?  I remember a pair of hands reaching through the flames, dragging me across the floor.  But, when I think back, I can’t see a face, or even a form.  Blinded by the light of the flames, I see nothing but the hands.

I snap back to reality when I look down to see the buckets of paint for the walls, and the sander, buffer, and stains for the floor.  Afterall, this was my domain.  I had my father’s blessing to open this chapter of the church, and I am known to these patrons as Father David, unless in the presence of Father Gerald, out of respect only.  Therefore, my father doesn’t know about this situation, and he does not need to.  I will restore this place on my own.  This is my sin, and this is what I am signalled to do to repent.

I pick up one of the paint cans and I put it on one of the rows of pews.  I pry the top off and I begin to stir it.  Of course, I wanted a camera here for this, so I finally acknowledge that it is rolling.

Me:  Do you know what’s funny?

I wait for a response from the cameraman, but I don’t get one right away.  After some hesitation, he answers.

Cameraman:  Looking around, I don’t see anything funny about this.  I’m sorry for this happening to you.

I shake my head, because this isn’t at all where I was going.  I continue stirring, almost as if channeling my anger through that stick, like churning butter.  Once I’m satisfied, I give the stick a few swats against the bucket.

Me:  Really?  I think the whole thing is funny.  The fact that I was driven insane by one simple action.  The fact that this action served as the only thing people will actually remember about Into the Void.  The kiss that launched a thousand ships.  I never got that expression until just now.  It wasn’t about beauty, or power.  It was about jealousy achieved by those two things, at least I thought.  But now?  On the precipice of what I just found out is an entire month dedicated to such acts, I’ve launched hundreds of Twitterers into a frenzy.  People can’t stop talking about it.  “The Shepherd who was led astray.” they say…

I chuckle.  Of course I chuckle, because it’s ironic.  Something I worked so hard to build just comes tumbling down in a misdirected lashing out of buried emotions, like a zombie reaching out from the grave and grabbing onto Fenris.  I tried to kill it so much that it became undead and primal.

Me:  Isn’t that funny?  Even in the slightest?

Again, the cameraman doesn’t speak.  Only this time, it’s not a delay, it’s flat out ignorant in nature.  I don’t take offense though.  Instead, I pick up a paintbrush and begin to paint.

Me:  Nevertheless, this event has changed the way I look at life.  I’m questioning so many things.  A near death experience will do that to someone.  I’m questioning the rationale of literally everything.  What’s real?  What’s manipulation from demonic forces?  Can love be wicked and evil?  Can hate be pure as snow?  Lies are true, and truths are lies.  Nothing is what it seems anymore.  Am I mad as a hatter?  Am I sane as… well, what exactly is sane anymore?

I dip the brush back into the paint, and I begin stroking across the wall in a nonsensical fashion.  I feel myself getting angry, but my face is smiling.

Me:  “And what is the use of a book,” thought Alice, “without pictures or conversations?” Hmmm… “How funny it’ll seem to come out among the people that walk with their heads downwards! The antipathies, I think…” Indeed. “Curiouser and curiouser!” this entire thing becomes.

Cameraman:  Are you alright?  What’s going on?

I turned back to the camera, my lips curled into a grin as wide as the Cheshire Cat.  The paintbrush drips onto the floor as I slowly walk closer.

Me: “I'm afraid i can't explain myself sir. because i am not myself you see.”  I’ve gone down the rabbithole, and I can’t find my way back out.  Up is down, and down is up here.  Nothing makes sense, yet everything is sensical.  Blips of my past are becoming part of my present.  In just a few short days, I will have Butterfly Effected my way back to former Internet Champion, Agostino Romano.  What a story that was, and will be.

I turn again, silently, and begin to paint a patch of the wall.  I continue to see the char marks bleeding through the paint, as if I can never escape them.

Me:  I fell victim to Agostino once before.  And I’d bet my bottom dollar that he thinks it will happen again.  He likely sees it like he’s witnessed my moves.  He knows when I will punch, kick, Clothesline, Ray of Light.  And under any other circumstance, I would say that it’s true. And if, by chance, he didn’t see what happened at Into the Void X, and since he has no Twitter presence, nor a peek into my personal life since, I could easily see his logic.

These damned spots won’t go away, so I begin painting harder, as if that will somehow make it better instead of worse.  I bang my head against the wall a few times before resting it there, and turning slightly.

Me:  I’m not going to sit here and say that my opponent is trash.  I do not view myself as trash, so why would I call him such?  He did beat me, fair and square, inside of the ring.  I’m not trying to be a nice guy, but instead a logical one, as much as I can right now.  He beat me, and frankly, it wasn’t hard.  I’m embarrassed by that fact, and I would be regardless of who it was that treated me as such inside of that ring.  I didn’t step up to SCW to have everyone run roughshod over me.  I’ve had the occasional victory over O’Malley, a current champion.  Bill Barnhart, another current champion.  Lincoln Daniels.  I’ve got nothing to say about that one… I’m oh and one with Agostino.  And I’m man enough to admit that.  And in a few short days, it’s very likely that I’ll be oh and two.

I shrug my shoulders as I turn away from the wall.  Paint sticks to my forehead and the side of my face. It is on my shoulder, down part of my upper arm.  I drop the paintbrush and start walking toward the camera, and the cameraman slowly backs away with each forward step that I take.

Me:  But this time, it will not be from a lack of trying.  It won’t be because I held back.  If I lose, I can bow down and accept that defeat.  But, whose to say that I won’t just beat the living fuck out of him, causing a disqualification?  I’m certainly not above doing that right now.  A loss, but a street justice victory.  Win-win.  I’m not myself right now, so one could not blame me for losing my cool.  My entire match against Fenris was fueled by rage.  I got inside of his head, and I played around until I got lost in it.  It turns out I’m really good at cerebral torture.  I wonder where I got that from.

My grin returns, more wicked than ever.  Of course, I am speaking of my father, and the hellfire he has dragged me through over the last 20 something years.  It doesn’t take a rocket scientist to figure that one out.  A little chuckle precedes my next words.

Me:  Since evil is kind, and good is unmerciful, I feel comfortable admitting that I like it.  I shudder to think of what I’m truly capable of inside of that ring.  As disgusting as it might seem, I like it.  And if all else fails, at least I showed this new level of brutality inside of the ring.  Finding more creative ways to inflict pain, being more inventive in the process.  It’s truly invigorating to think about.

I dip my fingers into the paint and slowly begin to drag them across the wall.  The camera follows me, even though I really just wish they would stay in place.

Me:  What is not fun to think about is the fact that people think I am distracted.  I’m not distracted at all.  If anything, I’m hyper focused on my in-ring work.  My performance inside of that ring is my distraction from all of the things I’d rather not think about.  Yes, the kiss.  Yes, the impact it has on my standing in The Church of the Good Shepherds.  Yes, the failed engagement.  Yes, literally everything BUT my upcoming match.  I can confidently say that Agostino will be in for a real treat when we come face to face with one another.  All hope of an easy match flies right out of the window.  If he’s going to win, he’s going to have to work at least three times as hard as he did last time, because of the hyper focus.  You’re my distraction, Agostino, but not in a good way, my friend.  Not at all.  So go ahead and tell me that you’re ready for what’s to come.  Tell me about how you are going to beat me.  Tell me how you’re going to get inside of my head, because neither one of us is pretty, but you’re pretty enough to give the Fenris treatment to.  The accent.  The “real dude” look.  I dig it.  I’ve done things only Fenris could dream of with a guy like you, and…

I glare at the camera.  I begin to quiver at the thought of a brief yet intimate interaction with Romano, but my impulses are instantly affected by the conversion therapy, and I begin to shudder in pain.  I hunch over and take a deep breath as I hold myself steady on one of the pews.  I then growl and begin throwing the paint and the stain across the chapel area.  It bursts and splashes everywhere.  I find myself grabbing onto the sides of my head, my eyes clenching closed.  I sink down the wall, and the paint and stain drips down my entire body, but I can’t find it in me to even care about that.  Only the pain radiating through my fucking skull, burning at my brain.  I feel one of the empty paint cans roll against my leg, and I violently kick it away, causing it to splatter the remnants once again.  As my eyes open, I see the cameraman right on me, focusing in.

Me:  I’m FINISHED HERE!!!

I push him away, and that’s where the camera feed ends.  For fuck’s sake, it should have ended much sooner.  I couldn’t even muster up the train of thought to come to an actual conclusion.  Instead, the thought of kissing my opponent was enough to make me go haywire.  But, it could be my key to mental warfare, and to winning this match.  Either way, this is where the story ends, for now. Tune in next time for another edition of “David Shepherd’s Fucked Up Life”.

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Climax Control Archives / Straight to the Point
« on: May 07, 2021, 06:14:04 PM »


Straight to the Point
Las Vegas, NV; 5/7/2021



“Evil surrounds us in this world.  It hides in every dark shadow in every dark alleyway.  It takes cover behind every leaf of every tree.  It tempts us with it’s false promises of instant gratification.  It lures us in with riches and power beyond our wildest dreams.  Evil is obvious.

“But evil is also cunning.  Evil is present in the light.  It is right in our faces.  It is in our own reflections.  Evil walks freely in the daylight.  It courses through every brick of this church.  It threatens to tear down what we’ve taken years to build in mere seconds.  The temptations are present in this very building.”


We find ourselves surrounded by the delicately built and decorated Las Vegas chapter of The Church of the Good Shepherds.  Everyone is standing to testify to this truth spoken by Father Gerald Shepherd at the helm of this tribe of spiritual warriors.  His wife sits in a wheelchair on one side of the stage.  Virginia Mae Putnam standing with crutches on the other side of the stage.  Brother David stands to his father’s right side, studying the ornamental decoration of the church, seeing it has been finely crafted with gold and stained glass.  He almost finds the sermon to be somewhat of a background music to his search for… who truly knows?

Gerald: That’s right my brothers and my sisters, sons and daughters.  Evil knows no bounds.  And I think we often forget this when we stay in fear of the shadows, and trust all that has been brought to light.  We judge others based on their sins, but it was the Lord who said that we should forgive them of their tresspasses, so they can forgive us of our own.  What truly matters is not the sin, but the person who is sinning.  The person’s ability to recognize that sin, and to ask for forgiveness.  Their passion for strength to overcome those sins.  Is it not said that he who is without sin may cast the first stone?  Please, if you are without sin from birth until this very moment, I beg of you to stand before me right now!

Gerald looks out across the entire congregation.  Shy of a few small children, and others who look as if they are the perfect models of young Christian teens, no one stands up.  Gerald gestures toward the youngest child.

Gerald: Brother Michael, do you not wish for thy neighbor’s latest and greatest technological advancement?  Harold’s iPad?  Renee’s Xbox Series X?

The small voice peeps out a “Yes, Father.”.  Gerald nods his head, and the young blonde child takes a seat next to his mother.  A few other small children sit back down.  He then looks to a young auburn-haired girl in her finest garment for church.

Gerald: Sister Ruthie, do you not go to school and look at the girl with ragged clothes, free of name branding and sullied, and think to yourself that she is beneath you?  Do you not look at the boys with your leg flower attempting to control your thoughts?

The girl snickers and looks almost defiantly at Gerald as she questions “Leg flower?”  Gerald continues to nod his head.  “You yourself are not free of sin Father.  Why do you stand?”  Gerald looks around and he nods his head.  He pulls a chair up from behind him and he takes a seat.  He looks out into the crowd from his seat, which David pulls a seat up next to him, ready to strike down this young girl for speaking out.

Gerald:  You’re right, child.  I am not free of sin.  I have sinned more times than I care to count.  And it shames me.  But I am human enough to admit it, and to take my own advice when brought up.  Thank you for reminding me.  Yet, you have not denied my claim.

The girl looks around and takes a seat, not enjoying the taste of humble pie.  Gerald looks around as everyone in the building is seated, shy of Virginia, who is not able to with the cast around her hip and left leg.

Gerald:  We all sin, and we all expect to be forgiven for these sins, able to act upon His eternal promise to enter His Kingdom.  Why should we not expect the same of our fellow man?  I beg you to tell me differently.

David:  But Father, what should we expect of the unrelenting, unrepentant souls who don’t expect forgiveness because they deny His true existence?

Gerald looks over to his son, the only person who dares to defy his words this evening.

Gerald:  Then we must use force against the infidels.  We are asked to guide these souls into His everlasting Light.  It becomes our responsibility as Shepherds, our birth given name, to shepherd the flock who is lost.

David:  And those who continue to defy, deny, and rub their sins in our faces?  Are we to just stand by and allow it to happen?  Do we turn a blind eye, or do we strike them down with His most Holy vengeance?  Better yet, do not answer, Father.  I will take it from here.

Gerald has no time to argue with his son as David stands up.  He walks to the podium.  There are two candles before him, and as we get closer, we see there are pictures of Fenris and his brother Aron sitting in front of the candles.  David pinches out the flames one by one with his bare fingers.  He looks out as Gerald looks back at him, begging him to stop.

David:  In just two short days, my father and I will go into battle against two, which my father has opted to pray for this evening?  Tell me, when did we start praying for the wickedest of men?  Why do we not honor the likes of Hitler?  Vlad the Impaler?  Atilla the Hun?  Jeffrey Dahmer?  The Pope?  Why should we pander to men who have decided that they are full of sin, and they are, and never will be, sorry for their decisions?  Much like Fenris and Aron, they rely on cowardice and backhanded tactics to get the better of us.  They are unapologetic for their blatant disregard of our Lord, God.  As a matter of fact, I believe that they still pay homage to the old false idols of the Vikings.  Who in God’s good name still does that?

David looks out as Gerald prepares to speak up.  However, David is already on a roll and does not wish to stop.

David:  These men are perfect examples of today’s culture and exactly where it has gone wrong.  I dare not disparage my father’s name, but I will argue that mercy is not the answer.  We should not beg them to see the light.  We should shine it so brightly in their eyes that they go blind from it’s glory!  We should show them the err of their ways, and we should be relentless until we do!  They want this fight, well then, by God, they’ve got it!

Congregation:  AMEN!

David:  They want to defile and “normalize” sin, well then we ought to cut the head off the snake right now before it slithers into the minds of our city, our neighbors, our children, our wives… We reside in the land of the Snake, the City of Sin.  Sunday, upon the Lord’s Day, we will send a message to these snakes.  We will no longer tolerate this!  We are waging a war on wickedness, and it starts by taking its capital city! Starting with Fenris and Aron! Who is with me?!

Congregation:  I am!  I am! I am!

David looks around, having riled up the community that is used to thriving on hatred and anger to reach an end to their means.  He smirks wickedly as he looks over to his father, who looks mixed in his feelings on the matter.  David is so blinded by his own battle cry that it is easy for him to view this as approval from his father.  He waves and walks into the crowd to shake hands as Gerald stays seated, watching it all.

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To whom it may concern/”Hot Stuff” Mark Ward,

As I am establishing the Las Vegas chapter of The Church of the Good Shepherds, I would like to take this time to apologize for not gifting you with my words of wisdom face to face. I simply cannot organize charity drives, put together a sermon for Sunday morning, hand out hot meals to the homeless, and all of the other good works that I am responsible for, on top of training to wrestle with Brother Andrew Borg, and work out twice a day, and still invite a camera to film me.  A man has to sleep.

And while I understand that this is not very champion-like, and I do not intend to make a habit out of this, I regret to inform you that I will not be able to record a promotional video by the deadline given.  I do not wish to breach my contract, so I have prepared this manifesto in hopes that I can save myself from having to talk to the jezebels presented before me for interviewing purposes.  And do not get me started on the crossdresser. Her and I have had our wars, and I am not interested in furthering that. Instead, I’d rather focus on saving souls who want to be saved instead of wasting effort on heathens that celebrate their sins, rather than repent them.

Prior to the holiday break, which presented much more work at the Church’s new chapter than I had anticipated, I was given talent that was on my level. At least, on paper. I fought against Stephen Callaway and Kedron Williams, along with Bill Barnhart, and one that most would look at as a stretch for me to even consider calling out, in the form of that whisky swilling, child abandonment spokesperson, O’Malley.  While I did not truly take these talents lightly, I knew that God had meant for me to win those matches and to hold my rightful place on the throne as king of the Roulette Division.

I try not to be a prideful person, but I take my career very seriously. I, well, take pride in my performances. I give it one hundred and ten percent every time I go out to that ring. I roll with the punches, and I sharpen my wit and intellect to be on the lookout for anything I can use to my advantage. I use my mind more than any other muscle in my body. This puts me in a different class from the Bill Barnhart’s, the Stephen Callaway’s, and the Kedron Williams’.  This justifies taking on someone as well known as O’Malley, who has some skill, but a lot of value based on his namesake from all of the work that his deceased wife put into this company, your company.  I was given the opportunity to succeed, twice, and I have not let you down. I am forever grateful for the opportunities you have presented me. I will do everything that I can to come through and prove what a valuable asset I am to your company.

With that said, I also want to thank you for giving me time off over the holidays to do my good works, to begin turning this from “Sin City” to “Saved City”.  If you trademark that, I would like a cut of the profits for the Church of the Good Shepherds Las Vegas chapter. It also gave me a lot of time to think as I tuned out all of the dirty faces of those who crawled out of the sewers, or wherever homeless people stay at that gives them that constant smoker’s cough that never seems to go away, even when they haven’t been able to afford cigarettes since their last meal two weeks ago.  I thought long and hard as I made sure I couldn’t even remember the sad look on their faces when I had to tell them that the meals were reserved for people who looked homeless.  A couple pats of dirt would not fool this guy.  But, while I repeated myself like a broken record, I thought long and hard about many things.

As well as this is a manifesto taking place of my camera time I have failed to give to Saved City Wrestling (I’m starting already), it is also a petition to you, Mr. Ward Jr. I am asking you kindly to please evaluate the methods of booking going forward.  I understand that you are likely only half responsible, and getting black out drunk and letting that Underwood character do whatever he wants seems like the right thing to do, but it is not.  I know from experiences in the past that allowing “some people” to do as they please while you are incoherent leads to a lot of bad choices, and a trip to the clinic for “anal gonorrhea” a few days later. Expel those demons, and come down to the Church sometime. We’ve all been there.

Mind you, I have never been inside of your office, your board meetings, listened in on your Skype or Zoom meetings, but I can tell you that this has been made apparent to all in Saved City.  I am sure that you have more than enough money to buy out your partner and do things in a respectable manner. Besides, certain people should not be in charge of half naked males, greased up, paid to hold onto each other and press bodies together while fighting over large accessories. It isn’t good for their sinful urges.

Moving further on to my point, I am asking this, because not even God can justify the blunder made last week as it pertains to Climax Control this week.  Putting your Roulette Champion up against the man who just lost the World Heavyweight Championship seems like a real mess up.  I am not sure if that was a typo, and perhaps my name got placed next to that of Jack Washington, or if it was a deliberate act to try to embarrass me, but I assure you that it is not good for business.  Refute all you like, but the fact of the matter is that there is no benefit from this match.  Allow me to explain myself:

Jack Washington wins!  Who truly wins here?  Your former champion, is going to face Kris Ryans in a rematch, should you graciously offer him that as it is not guaranteed in any contract clauses we sign upon entry to the company, or upon entering championship matches.  What does that do for him?  He beat some rookie, fresh out of SCU, who “lucked out” by winning the SCW Roulette Championship less than a month ago in his second match. Yes, I hear them talk, and I see them stare at me with envy.  I don’t hold it against them.  It’s hard to stare success in the face and realize that you will never be able to be that guy to walk into the company and win a championship.  Not even Jack Washington.  That’s already come and gone for him. But, what he does have on me is that he was the World Heavyweight Champion up until a few weeks ago. And that’s almost insulting to him to have to face the  person who is looked at as being, not one, but two tiers below him.

He gains nothing from beating me. Literally nothing.  Zip.  As a matter of fact, I hope he beats me, or else this entire company looks like a joke. The structure fails.  The next thing you know, some random person who is the Ghost of SCW Past like Matthew Kennedy comes back and becomes the World Heavyweight Champion.  Holly Wood becomes the first ever Bombshell Champion with a penis.  O’Malley becomes a good father. Blood rains from Heaven.  You get where I’m going with this.  If you can tell me one reason why this match is best for business, I will literally kiss your rump in the middle of the ring as if we just left the “Attitude Era”. But it has to be justifiable.  I am that certain that you can’t.

Now, let’s look at the alternative.

Brother David wins!{/i]  “PRIMETIME” “THE LORD” MATTHEW KENNEDY BECOMES YOUR WORLD HEAVYWEIGHT CHAMPION!!!  Do I need to say anything more?  I shouldn’t have to, but let’s just continue anyway.

I beat your former World Heavyweight Champion.  Everything goes out of whack. Considering I have only been wrestling professionally for less than two years, and came from your “inferior product” of Saved City Underground.  I’ve already made waves by capturing the Roulette Championship.  I have aspirations of gaining the Internet Championship.  Seeing as that just gets handed to people, that shouldn't be hard to earn and hold onto.  Perhaps I will find a suitable partner for the Mixed Tag Team Championships.  Lastly, I would like to win the World Championship.

In due time!

I’m still finding my legs in Saved City.  I’m being served up on a platter to Jack Washington, and that’s fine. The guy needs a win, honestly. It would have to really gnaw at one’s craw to lose to Kristopher Ryans.  Possibly the biggest heathen in Saved City, and the most annoying to boot. You’re not going to live that down because he is a social media kingpin. Jack is in a rut now, and I might actually stand a fair chance against him.  Which is even worse, and doesn’t prove that you care about your talents.  Kick ‘em when their up, kick ‘em when they’re down, much like Drake Green.

But do realize that when I beat Jack Washington, you will be making Ben Jordan, all the way down to Gabriel Stevens, look bad. You are giving me free range in one fell swoop to make Saved City look bad.  All because you gave control over the show to the one who is over there fighting for the women to win as it pertains to filling Blast From the Past slots. Like, who actually cares about that?

Please, boss. Be reasonable. Buy out Underwood, and make this company what it’s always supposed to have been.  A place of passion and glory, like the Eye of the Tiger, if said Tiger were God.

And, boss? Please tke it easy on me. This manifesto will take longer to read than it took to load and watch my last opponent’s promotional video. See you on Sunday.

Sincerely,

Brother David Shepherd

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Climax Control Archives / Season of Giving
« on: December 18, 2020, 08:50:30 PM »


The Origin Story (Pt 3)
Tulsa, OK; December 26th, 2015


Before the cross, I think of many things. Where I came from. What I’ve been through to get to where I am. Mistakes. Blessings. And through all of it, I am thankful. The scars of my mind, and of my body, all disappear once I’ve knelt before Him, confessing all that’s broken. Each time, I feel like something has been fixed, and little by little, I become the man that I’m supposed to be. So on this day, I came to humble myself before The Lord, after the day of His son’s birth, to reflect, and to ask for the ultimate healing.  My biggest sin, the only thing that is tying me to this earthly plane.

The night before, I spent Christmas with the members of the Church of the Good Shepherds.  Inside of the church, we had my father, mother, sister, and myself. We were joined by Andrew Borg who accompanied my sister to the feast.  Plus, the more than a dozen congregation members who were able to make it to the celebration.  Father had just delivered an amazing sermon not more than fifteen minutes ago.  The intimate lighting of the banquet center is accented by the warm glow of white Christmas lights tastefully lining the room.  Candles adorn the large wooden table, lined with cloth and place settings for everyone who arrived, and who may arrive.

This had truly been the first Christmas where things felt right.  The spirit was alive and flourishing throughout the entire room, and I was living in it. Everything just felt so… perfect.  Mother and Ginny served dinner, and mom rang the dinner bell.  There was a hush around the room as people moved to find a proper seat amongst those they were closest to.  I walked over and took an empty seat at the edge of the table where no one else was seated on either side of me. Seeing the couples, the mothers, fathers, and their grown children, I just felt better to sit off to the side, and not to encroach upon their celebration, and I was in a much better place to not be bothered by it.

I stare down at the empty plate as my dad takes a glass of wine and a silver spoon. He taps the side of it to finish drawing attention to the head of the table.  The smell of honey ham, sweet potatoes, cornbread, greens, and the kind of macaroni and cheese that sticks to your gut just filled my nostrils, and I was once again at peace. With all eyes on him, Father Gerald cleared his throat and started to speak.

Gerald:  Thank you all for joining us this evening. The eve of the birth of our Lord and Savior.  Congregation is so important at this time of year.  We grow in spirit when we gather. But this season brings more power when we remember that Jesus Christ laid down his life to forgive us of all our sins. He died so that we may live. And it is our duty to remember this, and to live according to scripture. We…

Just then, the door flew open and the cool wind blew in fallen leaves and a rain so cold that it can be felt on the other side of the room.  Standing there is a man in wet and tattered clothing.  A scarf that is stained with soot and greyed out.  His knitted cap flew off of his head and across the room when all eyes turned to him.  He apologetically closed the door tightly and looked around at everyone staring, judging him instantly.  His drenched locks dripped down his face and neck as he shivered relentlessly. I got up immediately and found the first thing I could to wrap around him.

Me:  Child, what is your name?

He didn’t speak, but I could tell that he didn’t appreciate being called “Child” by someone who was likely younger than him. But he accepted the blanket and he took a seat near the hearth burning in the corner.  His voice was raspy and dry as he tried to speak up.

Man:  Sorry, sorry. Sorry to interrupt.

Dad looked at him with head tilted to the side. He was studying the man. I brought him a cup of coffee and another blanket.

Gerald:  Son, what brings you to us on this, the evening of the Lord?

The man gulped down the scorching hot coffee like his life depended on it, and it likely did. He placed his cup down, still shivering.  The man tried to muster up the words, but between the embarrassment and the cold, it was truly a struggle.

Man:  Nowhere else to turn. I’ve… lost… everything. When I warm, I can go.

Me:  Nonsense. We are just about to enjoy a Christmas feast, and we have extra place settings. We insist that you join us.

Afterall, that was the spirit of the season.  As a good Christian, that’s what we were supposed to do. Father looked at me as if I had just suggested the sky were green and falling upon us.

Man:  Thank you.

Gerald:  Might I suggest a… warm… shower first?

The man reluctantly nodded. Esther started to stand up, but Father held her back and gave me the nod. I led him from the banquet center, down the hall to the stairs.  In the attic, we had a space set up as living quarters for the wayward. Mostly women with children that had been misplaced due to domestic abuse and overcrowding of shelters.  A trip through the lost and found and I was able to find some clothing fitting for the evening.  I brought them back up to the room as the man finished preparing for his shower.

Man: I can’t turn on the water. Could you help me?

I walked into the room, assuming the wrong thing entirely. He had not been wearing a single stitch of clothing, and my eyes drank in his physique. Tattoos, hair, and a very proud endowment. My eyes quickly turned away as I stumbled over to the shower stall, I fumbled around to crank the water on. It had truthfully been tricky due to old fixtures that needed replaced. He stepped into the shower and I left him to his task. My eyes couldn’t help but watch the dirt and soot drain off of him and toward the drain. But then I realized something. My eyes were not fixated on him, and this felt like a major victory.

I stepped outside to make sure he didn’t need anything else. Within twenty minutes, the man had finished the shower, dried, and was getting dressed. The pants had been slightly big, so I rummaged to find a belt.  He was ready for dinner now, and we returned to the banquet center. Father eyed me suspiciously, but I give him a confident nod, having passed the test he set before me. There was pride and relief on his face when I sat down at the table in my original spot. To my surprise, the man sat down next to me. I could tell he was a bit nervous to be around all of these people.

No one spoke to him, not even me. However, I did help him to fix his plate.  He sat silently as he ate like a starving wild man. This drew in the ire of everyone as they looked at him in disgust. Part of me thought that he knew this, but the other part of me thought that he couldn’t help it. He was skinny as a rail. I found myself caring for this person on a level I had not felt before, ever. I thought that I had found my cause.

Everyone finished dinner before I did, even passing around the bowls for seconds, thirds in the man’s case.  He finally finished, and muffled a burp politely. His humanity spoke to me. His humility made me see so many things that spoke of our Lord and Savior. He even had a look that reminded me of him, and the little I knew of him, he seemed much like our very own second coming. But, I found myself straying in thought too much.

Dinner had concluded, and the choir sang Christmas carols.  Dessert was served. We concluded with another prayer, and at 11:30pm, we had concluded to all be with our families.  Throughout this whole time, the man sat next to me, following me almost like a scared puppy who only trusted me.  I felt this so much so that when we had our own family prayer at midnight, celebrating the host, he celebrated with us. Father hadn’t taken much time to get to know the man, and he seemed to not have much trust.  And that lack of trust apparently also spilled over to me. He pulled me to the side, away from the man.

Gerald: There is a lot of valuables here, son. This vagrant might try to hock some of it to make drug money. He seems the kind.

Me:  Is this not a sign from God Himself? A man shows up, void of anything, cold, alone, in need more than anyone I’ve ever seen, and on Christmas Eve no less? It seems like we should care for him instead of judging him.

Father snorted at the idea. He shook his head as he glared at the man, who was talking to Esther and Andrew, starting to warm up to them.

Gerald:  Fine. But, if anything goes missing, I will hold you personally responsible. I want you to stay with him and heal him from the inside out with scripture. These Bohemians need it more than ever. And keep your temptations out of it.

Me: I have seen him unclothed, and it did nothing for me. I am truly healed.

Gerald: Then let this be the test. Because I feel that if you were truly healed, you would have asked one of the Winthorp sisters to accompany you instead of sitting off to the side like a pouting child.

But, before I can say another word, Father joined up with the family and they soon left to go home. This left me with the man who looked as if he were going to pass out into a food coma.  I helped him to the bed, put down fresh linens, and offered a pair of pajamas, but apparently the boxer shorts were all that was required. I left him to dress, and then returned to the room with The Good Book. I read scripture until the sun rose in the eastern sky, and we fell asleep, he in bed, and I in the chair next to it.


I reflected upon this as I stared up at the cross, and it became apparent. This is exactly what I was meant to do. And next to me, he was knelt before the cross, his head bowed as he sought out the healing. I had finished, and I felt rejuvenated entirely on the birthday of the Lord. I stood up and walked toward the door, and the man stretched as he got up. He continued to stare at the cross for a minute, and I couldn’t help but call for him, because there was plenty of time for reflection after Father’s sermon.

Me:  Dax?  Are you coming?

The bearded man slowly turned away from the cross and looked at me.  His hair pulled back into a ponytail, his face tattoo staring us right in our faces as the realization of who this man actually is starts to settle in.










Revelations (Pt 3)
Las Vegas, NV; December 18th, 2020


Everyone has a certain feeling about The Church of the Good Shepherds. They think we’re just this collective of holier than thou jerks who think they are better than everyone. And trust me, that’s not far off. But, we’re not entirely bad. I had personally taken up the task of organizing a food and clothing drive back in Tulsa, and had christened the opening of the chapter here in Las Vegas to continue the drive from there.  I was astonished by the amount of donations I was able to gather with Ginny at my side. We had gathered scarves and hats, clothing for all ages and sizes, and enough food to feed over one hundred families.

As we speak, Ginny, Andrew, and myself are passing out clothing to families in need.  The line is formed, going down the street with social distancing.  Respectfully, all are wearing masks provided by Mother Mavis.  We were as welcoming as possible, and I feel truly alive in the Spirit.  Seeing the faces light up as we hand out the holiday meal packages to the families coming through just brings a smile to my face.  Shaking hands as if this were 2018 rather than 2020, but with hand sanitizer.  The Good Shepherds choir is singing carols behind us, and even a Santa from the Salvation Army is walking down the streets. And between handing out masks, mom is handing out hot cocoa. It is everything that I had hoped for.

Coming through the line, I see a familiar face, and I have to roll my eyes. It’s ridiculous given the state of our friendship. Dax Beckett walks by Ginny, who smiles wickedly and hands him a bag. He holds a hand up and shakes his head.  Once it is time, he comes up to me, and there is one wicked stare down between us that seems to last a solid thirty seconds before I break the silence.

Me:  Well, well, well. Look who we have here. Your new heathen friends couldn’t spare anything to help you out?

Dax shakes his head and strokes his beard.  I can tell for a second that he doesn’t want to fight, and that only serves to intrigue me.

Dax:  Look, I know your crew and my crew got beef in the ring. I don’t have anything against you personally.

Me:  Well, the feeling is very much not mutual.

Dax nods his head.

Dax:  I figured. But that doesn’t change the reason I’m here.  I didn’t forget what you and your family did for me. Some of it might’ve been kinda fucked up with the conversion therapy, which obviously didn’t work.

Me:  As is evident by your failed marriage to two men.  Couldn’t even keep one.

I sneer at Dax.  He holds back whatever it is he truly wants to say, and just licks at his bottom lip in an annoyed sort of way.  He gets that dumbfounded look he’s well known for before speaking again.

Dax:  Despite that part, you and your family put clothes on my back when I needed it the most. You guys fed me. You got me back on my feet. And you guys trained me in the ring. You gave me a purpose. And even though it’s not the same purpose that you guys had hoped for, you’ve turned my life around. I couldn’t think of a way to thank you all until now.

He reaches into his pocket and pulls out a check. Obligatory scoff from me and then I roll my eyes.

Me:  I don’t want your blood money. No amount of money is worth compromising over for everything you’ve done. Forgiveness is off the table, because you are far too gone for that.

Dax:  You mean to tell me that I’m beyond redemption?  Didn’t you teach me that nobody is beyond that? Ever? Or maybe I just read it in a Book somewhere.

Dax winks at me, trying to be playful and argumentative as well. I simply don’t have time for this.

Me:  Take your money elsewhere and let the line continue to move, please.  Or I may have to call the cops.

Dax sets the check down on the table, folded up.  He shakes his head.

Dax:  No need. I will go.  But, I am leaving what I collected from everyone in OTE, which wasn’t easy to do. And I matched the total collection. This isn’t about forgiveness. It’s not about you and me. It’s about these people standing in line, and those who will be standing in line over the next six days, to make sure there’s enough for no child to go hungry or cold. That’s what it’s truly about…

Before I can say anything, Dax walks off.  As the next family shows up, I stop and take a look at the check out of curiosity. And indeed, it is a lot of money. So much that even I nearly fall out of my seat.  I watch as Dax walks over to a black vintage Challenger and gets inside. He takes off as I blindly hand a ham to the people in front of me, and my jaw is very likely hanging open until Father Gerald comes walking up to me.  He gives me a tap on the shoulder.

Gerald:  They’re ready inside.  And they want you.

For a second, I can hear the pride in my father’s voice. No hint of jealousy or resentment.  No, he saves that for when I get up and walk to the door.  The check is still clutched to my chest until I place it in my suit jacket pocket.  A few members from back in Tulsa take off my leather jacket for me, and help straighten out the suit jacket.  Another one hands me The Good Book as the other two rush to open the double doors.  Of course this is much more of an intimate space than in Tulsa, but it looks almost exactly the same.  I walk down the white carpet, pure as snow, until I make it to the pulpit. I take the few steps up, nodding to the altar of lit candles and the blood and body of Christ symbolically displayed and ready to be consumed after the service.

Upon inspection, everything seems in order.  But, I can’t seem to stop myself from thinking about the check. This check was truly a game changer, not just for the drive, but for the church in general. A quarter of a million dollars. Wow. Now, I walk up to the altar and I stand, looking at the crowd gathered. Social distancing isn’t even a factor, as we’re packed to capacity. Everyone wears masks, and they spread out as much as they can, but it’s still not up to code. However, this is not about COVID right now. It’s remembering the purpose of the season. Therefore, I open The Good Book to where it needs to be. I straighten out my jacket, and then I look out into the crowd.

Me:  Good evening, and welcome to the opening of The Church of the Good Shepherds, Las Vegas chapter.  It was brought to my attention that this drive would be incomplete without a special sermon.  On a Friday night?  I’m just as shocked as you, and yet, here we are, and I could not be more thankful.

There is an ovation for me. For the church that I’ve kicked off.  And unlike back home, these people seem like real people. Not uptight, stick-up-their-backside-holes, pious jerks.  Everyday people who need God in their lives.  Most are likely here due to my level of celebrity within wrestling, but that’s all part of the grand design.

Me:  We are in the season of perpetual hope, wonderment, joy, peace, love, and so many other wonderful things. We are kinder to one another. We give.  And that has been proven to me by all of the families who are going home with kits to make a proper holiday meal tonight thanks to the generosity of this community. So please, give yourselves a round of applause. And me, because I organized this.

More clapping. It makes me feel like a rock star, but a Christian one like the John Cooper of Skillet.

Me:  It just warms my heart so much to see.  The collection baskets will begin going around now, and once again at the end of the service. Tithe. Give to a worthy cause; your eternal souls.

As it comes out of my mouth, it sounds fake as heck, but the smile on my face sells it as everyone begins reaching for their wallets for the basket coming around.

Me:  Hope.  It is something that we don’t think about a lot this time of year, and yet it’s everywhere.  Little Bobby Sue wants that new Veggie Tales video so bad she can hardly stand it.  Billy Joe wants that practice pistol to exercise the Second Amendment as Americans.  Mom wants the indulgent spa day that her husband has worked so hard to pay for.  And Dad wants that flat screen TV to watch the Sooners on.  And Stephen Calloway wants the SCW Roulette Championship.

While most would cheer at this idea, my congregation boos loudly at it.  I nod my head to them all, gesturing to them as well.

Me:  Wanton is hope. Selfishness, but hope.  And sometimes it’s attainable.  But, like Stephen Callaway, it may not be. His entire career has proven that. One failed attempt after another, and he’s still chomping at the bit to be something he never will be.  At least, not on my watch.

The boos have turned to cheers now, and I watch as the crowd really gets into it, while still tithing to the collection baskets.

Me:  And while it is the season of giving, I will be damned if I’m going to give the SCW Roulette Championship to him.  There is no way in Heaven or earth that I will do that. I proved it two weeks ago when I won the belt in a Ladder Match, which included Stephen himself. A lot of words were spoken, but the truth of the matter is that, well, none of that mattered. In the end, I walked out with the title, and he walked out with another failed attempt under his belt.  Another chapter in his career with nothing of note to show for it.

I almost feel bad for him at this point. It truly is sad. I shrug my shoulders and continue.

Me: The joy that I will feel as I beat the heathen out of him on Sunday is unrivaled.  For anyone who doubts that a relative rookie is capable of beating a ring veteran, all you need do is rewind about two weeks and watch me beat him, another ring veteran, and the former champion, in one fell swoop. I climbed the stairway to Heaven, and I came back with God’s bounty.  Just as I will walk through fire if I have to. Or crawl through barbed wire. Or whatever maniacal hellscape the Roulette wheel chooses for me.  Stephen Callaway can say the same potentially, but not with the added bonus of carrying the strap back with him.

I realize I have gone off on a tangent, but those in attendance are appreciating it, so a sly smirk comes across my face.

Me:  Inner peace is what is brought to me by the Roulette Championship.  A validation that I’m not just some lucky schmuck who came out of the ladder match as a fluke winner.  When I beat Callaway, I know that the stirring deep within my soul, the nagging question from all of the naysayers will fade away.  And that is something that I’m going to love.  See?  I’m feeling the spirit of the season.  And this can be a lesson for all of you in attendance today. You, too, can enjoy all of the Lord’s bountiful blessings just by confessing your sins, giving up your struggles, fears, and worries to Him.  Anything that you dream can truly be yours.

I stop because this is the part where I need to give credit where credit is due. I give a gesture to the back.

Me:  Andrew Borg, everybody.  Give it up for the man who taught me how to unlock every achievement, and the many more that rest before me.  His best selling book Yes You Can, available for purchase in our all-Christian bookstore, or online at the Sin City Wrestling merchandise shop next to The Good Book itself.  Combine the two together, and you will be turning your dreams into reality.  Even Stephen can.  You know what?  It is the Christmas episode of Climax Control, and in the spirit of giving, I will bring Stephen both books as a showing of good faith.  By the time he gets through them, I’m sure I will have moved on to bigger and better things. And then he can be the Roulette Champion finally. He’s got a better shot than Bill Barnhart afterall.

I shrug my shoulders because no one can argue that fact.

Me:  So if someone like Stephen Callaway can achieve greatness, then surely you can too. It all rests within the Lord.  And your continued support of the Church of the Good Shepherds Las Vegas chapter will ensure that we are there for you to help you along the way.  Now, if you will excuse me, I need to return to the drive.  Any volunteers in the crowd are more than welcomed to join me.  Or, feel free to check out the bookstore for great literature, and be sure to join us for Christmas Eve dinner in the banquet hall. Mother Mavis’ candied yams are life changing.  Amen!

Crowd:  Amen!

I wave as the audience claps. A few members of the choir begin singing “Hallelujah” as I make my exit from the stage.  I shake hands and kiss babies like a politician.  After several minutes of meeting my new congregation, I make my way out of the door and back to the streets to continue what I’m doing before total darkness settles in.

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Climax Control Archives / Some thoughts
« on: March 20, 2020, 11:28:56 PM »
 
”Terrors frighten him on every side, and chase him at his heels.”
-Job 18:25


The orange glows bright from the setting sunshine casts an angelic glow around Mother Mavis as she walks down the side of a crystal clear chalk stream.  The blades of grass, while looking more the color of hay during this time of the year, brush up against her blue gown while she goes, alone.  She looks across the stream to see more of the same, but with Reading in the not far enough distance from where she’s at in North Wessex Downs.  She chooses to look away from the sight of the city and she finds a spot to sit just at the edge of the stream.  She kicks off her shoes, and despite the cold temperatures of the water, she rests her feet in it.

Mavis:  Ah, the beauty of the countryside.  I just could not pass up the opportunity to stay out of the hometown that birthed that- thing- Kate Steele.  I apologize.  Your Bombshell Internet Champion.

Mavis uses her fingers to make air quotes on each side of her head as she speaks.  She sweetens her otherwise chilly smile.

Mavis:  Birds of a feather do flock together, they say.  And no, that was not a shot at one of my opponents for this week, unfortunately.  But rather a shot at Kate herself.  She has been keeping rather G.R.I.M.E.y company when it relates to the ring lately.  I can only imagine the scoundrel is hanging around in that city somewhere, and I am liable to…

Mavis covers her mouth though it is clear that the anger is boiling over from the inside out.  She stops herself right where she sits and proper minds her tone.

Mavis:  Well, as a good Christian woman, I just can’t even go into what it is I am liable to do.  God knows your heart and I must abstain from such horrible thoughts toward the man who turned poor Esther against her family.

Mavis pulls out a picture of Esther from her breast pocket.  She looks at it painfully for a moment before she drops it into the stream, allowing the stream to do with it as it pleases.  It carries it away before taking it under.  She tries to look upset by this, but it’s not too hard to see that she is not.

Mavis:  GRIME is like a swarm of mosquitos that, no matter how often you bat them away, they just keep coming back, with bigger and bigger numbers.  Just waiting to suck the life right out of you.  It is mighty unfortunate to say the least.

Mavis curls her lips into a smile that is just as devious as ever.  She then pauses for dramatic effect before exaggerating a gasp.

Mavis:  Why, that reminds me of something.  Something quite relevant.  Sierra Williams.  Quite literally, I just defeated her and that scum sucker, Hitamashii, last week.  Like the pest that she is, after swatting her away, she’s back again.  I still have not forgotten about my taco, Sierra.

Mavis folds her arms over her chest while the swaying grass waves in front of her.  The chill in the air causes her to lock on the hold of herself.  She seems to stare right into the camera.

Mavis:  I realize that you had some surprisingly nice things to say about my husband and myself.  I applaud you for having the courage to say them in such a public forum.  It was very humbling of you, much like your part time job at Taco Bell.

Mavis smirks sweetly through the chill.  Perhaps it is because of the fact that she, herself is cold-hearted and cold natured.

Mavis:  To be fair, I respect your in-ring skills as well, Sierra.  However, you as a person, could use a little work.  You had better make light of the fact that you are simply a second chance participant who was already knocked out in the first round of the tournament.  It’s quite unfair to those of us who are here in the second round by, I don’t know, actually winning.  It has to be a tremendous amount of pressure on you to prove everyone wrong.

Mavis watches the setting sun while is starts to cast an orange glow across her and yet somehow her blue eyes sparkle.

Mavis:  But the blame does not rest solely with you, Sierra.  It rests with SCW as a whole.  The culture of not caring is rampant through Sin City.  The apathetic ones often make me wonder if this is truly the mission The Good Shepherds were meant to be on.  We have had quite an easy time in ruling over SCU.  SCW is an entirely different tale altogether.  How can we expect a good example to be set when our own general manager decides to step aside to allow a second chance participant to take her place?

Mavis is getting heated, but she reaches to her chest and grabs onto her cross pendant to take a deep breath.  She tries to calm herself down but it only goes so far.

Mavis:  One could argue that she’s the general manager and therefore she shouldn’t have to fight at all.  But the fact of the matter is that she signed up and she did not see her obligations through.  Instead of going down fighting, she simply tapped out before the real challenge began.  But I get it.  Going up against one of the Good Shepherds is not desirable because it is simply not something just anyone can successfully do.  Brooke ran scared when she saw the bracket for this week and she decided it was best not to humiliate herself.  It’s actually quite understandable.  But it is still frustrating to know that our general manager is such a coward.  And it makes me feel bad for Sierra.  Perhaps God will have mercy on her this weekend. Because He knows that I will not.

Mavis looks at her watch.

Mavis:  Unfortunately, I am out of time for this evening.  I must reflect quietly in prayer, and I simply do not have ten hours to talk about what is wrong with Teddy Warren.  There is just not enough time left in the world to dissect that one.  Again, I am tempted to forget about the taco out of sheer pity on Sierra for having to team with- *that*.

Mavis shudders at the thought of Teddy Warren.  She waves to the camera and sinks down to her knees, pulling The Good Book out of her pocket, opening it up for reflection.


//OOC I'm very sorry to Aron B, as well as Sierra Williams and Teddy Steele for my lackluster work. I just wasn't feeling the roleplay spirit this week with various things going on. No excuses. I dropped the ball.

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Climax Control Archives / Now and Then
« on: March 06, 2020, 07:11:33 PM »
 We come in to see the bright ocean blue eyes of Mother Mavis Shepherd as it spins around slowly.  There is a glint of joy in her eyes while we circle and pan out ever so slowly.  Light piano music plays, leading into “Mad World” by Gary Jules. Mavis is lying out on a white bedspread, clearly unmade.  She is wearing a matching robe that opens ever so slightly to see a lacy bra underneath.  Her pupils are dilated wide as the morning sun peaks in through the window.  A glass of bourbon is half empty on the nightstand next to a prescription bottle than is nearly empty.  Mavis lowers a cigarette to her lips and takes a long, poignant draw from it.  She effortlessly inhales and exhales it a la Jessica Lange in literally anything she plays in.  The scenario is drowned out in quiet other than the music until-

Esther:  Mom!  MOM!

A young Esther and David Shepherd come crashing into the door in a race to tell their mother something that seems rather urgent.  She lowers her cigarette to her lips again and draws in.

David:  You fucking tattle tail!  Learn to shut your damn mouth.

Esther:  But mom!  I just caught David in his room with a marijuana cigarette!

Mavis blows out a cloud of smoke to the side of her lips before bringing her free hand up to shield her eyes from the morning sun like she just now sees it.

Mavis:  Esther, honey, mommy is trying to relax.  Can you do me a favor?

Esther comes to the edge of the bed, then scoots up next to Mavis.  David folds his arms over his chest and watches, contempt in his eyes.

Esther:  Yes mom.  What?

Mavis turns over slowly like it was the most inconvenient thing.

Mavis:  Can you keep your mouth shut until mommy’s ready to deal with it?  It’s still early.

Esther:  But David was-

Mavis groans and struggles to sit up in bed.  She looks over to David who makes no attempt to hidef.  She then looks over to Esther.

Mavis:  Look, honey, I’m just gonna be honest with you.  I’d much rather whoop your ass for disturbing my rest than have to police your brother who is just bound and determined to become like your deadbeat father.  So do me a favor and go into David’s room, pick up that “marijuana cigarette” and put it to your lips.  Find a lighter and light it up so that you can chill the fuck out, little girl.

David laughs loudly.

David:  Hell yeah!

Esther:  But I’m only 12!

Mavis:  And so was your redneck father when he was doing much worse than that.  Don’t make me paddle you.  Do as mommy says.  And David, would you help your sister with that?

Esther gets out of bed, receiving a pop on her backside anyway.  She cries out and holds onto her backside and goes to join David in the hallway.  As the kids disappear, Mavis’s phone begins ringing.  She picks up a bottle of Motrin and a bottle of Alieve and she mixes them up in a certain way, with the bourbon before picking up her phone.

Mavis:  Are you fucking kidding me?

Mavis growls and she answers the phone with much more animosity than she had before..

Mavis:  What the hell do you want, Gerald?  It’s bad enough you leave me with these two fucking impossible children who have zero respect, but you call at ten in the morning?

Gerald:  It’s a school day, Mavis.  Why aren’t the kids at school right now?  You’re not back on the bean, are you?

Mavis:  No!  I went to the doctor and got a script to handle that.  You know I got back pains something fierce.  I just couldn’t deal with waking their asses up this morning.

There is a silence from Gerald as Mavis puts on pants.  She drops the robe to the ground and pulls a blouse out of her closet to slide over herself.  She walks over to her vanity and she brushes out her long blonde hair without moving the phone.

Gerald:  You’re the one who wanted full custody of the children, pumpkin.  I offered to help but you told me-

Together:  You’re a piece of shit, and the sooner our children get away from you, the better.

Mavis laughs while remembering that.  But it is not the kind of laugh that makes Gerald’s case any better.  She shakes her head partly to get a knot out of her hair and partly as a response to her husband.

Mavis:  And I fucking meant it, Gerald.  You’re a raging alcoholic with a hot head.  You talk about PTSD from Afghanistan but I think you’re just a pansy who is trying to make excuses for being a jackass.  You’re rubbing off on the children, you know.  Esther just told me that David was smoking crack cocaine, or herron, or something.  That’s got Daddy Shepherd written all over it.

Gerald:  Oh, and let me guess.  You told her to leave you alone and go light up the pipe so she can chill the fuck out, right?  Because not dealing with literally anything is definitely the Mommy Dearest Shepherd way of life.

Mavis thinks about it for a second with a guilty expression crossing over her face.  She holds her brush still in full extension with the knot in her brush.  After a few blinks she gives a sigh to Gerald.

Mavis:  No.  Of course not!  Now if you just called to talk about what a bad momma I been, then you can just can it like momma’s famous boysenberry preserves, Gerald Shepherd.  I ain’t got no time for your nonsense.  I got an interview at the Maxi Mart down the street with benefits and everything.  They don’t offer family but if I become a shift manager then it’s on the table. I don’t need your negativity ruinin’ my life any further than it already has.

Gerald:  That’s the first good thing you’ve done as a mother aside from birthing them into this cruel fucking world.  Congratulations.

Mavis:  Tell Ginny to come sit on your face, you know, the way I found you two before I moved out, because I ain’t got time for your mouth.  Goodbye.

And with that, Mavis hangs up the phone and finishes getting her hair brushed out.  She sits down and puts on her makeup when “Spirit In the Sky” by Norman Greenbaum plays on the radio.  It strikes her as funny because she had always had rather negative opinions of the song but it always seemed to find her at the most ironic of times. It was always a warning, or a sign that something good was coming her way.  Definitely not from a God who had clearly forsaken her a long, long time ago.  She smiles despite it all and begins whistling along as she walks out of the door.

An hour later

Mavis sits down in a corner of a small town convenience market store. She rests on a wooden bench with her purse in her lap.  She looks entirely different from how she looked earlier like it had taken her hours to prepare herself this way rather than just minutes.  She watches as an elderly lady walks by with a few bananas and a handful of grapes that she is picking at slowly.  Meanwhile in the larger part of her cart is full of soup cans.  Mavis smiles from her cheeks.

Mavis: Stocking up on sale items is the smart way to go about it, hun.

The woman looks down at her cart and then back to Mavis with confusion on her face.  She stares down and starts to walk away while talking under her breath but loud enough for Mavis to hear.

Woman:  These ain’t on sale. I just really like soup you judgmental bitch.

Mavis is about to say something when the door to the manager’s office opens up.  Her hand over her chest, she stands up to greet him.  It is a man in his late thirties or early forties in a light blue shirt and darker blue tie.  His slacks are the same color as his tie and his shoes are shiny.  His rolled up sleeves give Mavis a glance at his not-too-toned-but-not-a-whimpy-guy physique.  His five o’clock shadow and radiant green eyes seem to melt Mavis when she takes a step forward.

Man:  Mavis Shepherd?  Pleasure to meet ya.

He extends his hand toward Mavis, and she gently takes it.  She gives him a wry smile and they begin walking.  He pulls out the seat for Mavis, and she can’t help but think that this might be the kindest a man has been to her in ages.  He takes the seat across from her and he notices his nameplate says Neal Richards.

Mavis:  Thank you kindly for seeing me, Mr. Richards.

Neal:  Please.  Everyone ‘round here calls me Neal.  Don’t see why we can’t keep it going?

Mavis:  Thank you, Neal.  I appreciate the opportunity.

Neal smiles and those teeth are unnaturally white and almost angelic.  Mavis puts her lips together to stop from smiling.  He brushes his chestnut hair out of his face.  She notices no wedding ring and no family pictures except the picture of a chocolate labrador.  While he reads over Mavis’s application, she continues to study his handsome features.  He nods his head.  She notices the dark blue circles around the emerald green irises now.

Neal:  I see a very lengthy gap in your employment history.  Almost fifteen years?

Mavis:  Yes.  My husband.  Ex-husband was deployed over Afghanistan for a while.  He came back all kinds of banged up on the inside and out.  I had to take care of my son, and the military compensated enough where I could focus on him, and later, my daughter.  And you know the story.  Once a woman heals an injured man, he walks out for younger.

Neal reaches across the desk and places his hand thoughtfully on Mavis’s hand.  She gives the top of his hand a rub with her thumb.

Neal:  Awfully sorry to hear that.  Good news is you seem to have a lot of experience with a cash register. My memory’s like an elephant. I remember those days, right here in this very market, when you had to use your noggin to make change.  If a bill is 37.66 and a customer gives ya fifty, what’s the change?

Mavis:  If I mark that bill to make sure it ain’t counterfeit and it passes, I’ll hold that sucker up to the light and check for the face.  If all’s right with it, then the change is $12.34.

Mavis winks and takes pride in her quick thinking.  Neal goes as far as to reach across the desk to give Mavis a high five and she accepts.

Neal:  Bang up job, Mavis.  See I got a soft spot for single mom’s raisin’ their kids on their lonesome.  And with them mathematics, I’m inclined to offer you a cashier position.  But I can see ya quickly becoming my right hand.  No bull neither.

Mavis gasps.  She didn’t expect it to be that easy.  “That silly Norman Greenbaum song must’ve been right yet again!”  She shakes hands with Neal, who pulls out a piece of paper and hands it to Mavis.

Neal:  Just gotta get you familiar with the store first.  Go over some policies.  But first, we gotta make sure ya drop clean for insurance purposes.

Mavis looks down at the piece of paper requesting charges for all labs be sent directly to Maxi Mart LLC.  A drug test.  The one thing that Mavis was not prepared for given the last time she worked such a job was over twenty years ago.  She forces a smile on her face and stands up from the desk.  She shakes Neal’s eager hand, but everything else is a blur until she gets to the front line.  It’s like everyone stops and looks at her and only her.  She walks to the door and as soon as it opens, she raises her hand to her eye and wipes away the tears that start coming.  She tosses the paper right into the garbage and hides her cries from the freeway traffic zooming by.  She gets into her car and fully breaks down.


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There is nothing but darkness.  Well, at first anyway.  Then, there is the sound of guttural retching that seems to echo off of the walls.  It’s almost demonic really.  After a few of these, a door opens and a blinding white light washes over Mavis, who is tied down to a bed.  Her makeup has ran so much that it looks like her face is melting away.  She looks up only as long as her stomach can hold out.  She buries her face back into a large bucket next to the bed.  Her surroundings are that of a creaky wooden floor, worn down and torn wallpaper, boarded up windows that are covered in dust so much that you can’t even tell that it’s high noon.  Mavis lifts her head back up and she all but hisses at Gerald.

Mavis:  You sadistic sonuvabitch!  You untie me right now, Gerald!

Gerald walks into the room.  His light blue suit jacket and white shirt are much more akin to what we know of him today.  However his hair is less gray and more shaggy than we are used to.  He walks over to the bedside, his loafers shining in the little bit of light coming from the door.  That clack against the creaky floorboards until he comes to a stop and leans down next to her.  He takes her hand in his, but she is quick to rip it away from him.

Mavis:  Don’t!

Gerald:  My love, my love.  This is the only way to make amends for everything I done to you in the past.

Mavis:  You cruel bastard!  I should be in a goddamn hospital! Not tied to a bed inside of an abandoned hillside church in the middle uh nowhere-

Mavis stops and wretches again into the bucket.  Gerald reaches into his pocket and pulls out a cool bottle of water.  Mavis stops her protesting and she opens her mouth, her dry and cracked lips expand as much as they can without cracking any further.  Gerald pours the water into her mouth.

Gerald:  We must be strong, darlin’.  For our love is honored by Him.  For all our faults, we were united under Him and His blessing.  Thank Him for our parents insisting we do right by the Lord.  For that is the only way we can be saved.

Mavis:  What the hell are you talkin’ about, Gerald?  I’m dyin’ here.

Gerald:  He won’t let you.  I won’t let you.  I done withdrawled enough to know how to handle this.  Plenty of fluids.  Once your stomach settles some, lots of sugar, nutrients, healthy fats.  You’ll be good as He intended you to be in no time flat.

Mavis:  Who?  Who is He?

Gerald chuckles under his breath.  He then rubs Mavis’s forehead and moves her hair out of her face.  He looks down into her desperately pleading eyes and then kisses her forehead.

Gerald:  Why, the one and only true Almighty God Himself, my angel.  If not for him, I’d be dead in a motel with a needle stickin’ outta my arm for a week before someone would find me.  He led me to you once.  And then He led me back to you.  He deserves our devotion.

Mavis:  What are you talking about?  You’re doin’ this just because you found God?  How long is this gonna last?  As long as your first, second, third, fourth, fifth, sixth, or seventh run at sobriety?  Then you’re back to slappin’ me around until I can help you cough up enough for your next fix?  Then you can slap me around until I break my sobriety that you’re nearly killin’ me to get, so that I’ll sit down and use with you?  You need a doctor, Gerald!  We both do right now!

Mavis whines before burying her head and retching up a lot of the water she’d just consumed.  Gerald picks up a cloth and dabs at her mouth and chin to give her at least some dignity.  He sets the rag down and then reaches into his other jacket pocket.  He pulls out a brown leather bound book with a cattle brand style imprint that reads “The Good Book”.  He opens it up and thumbs through a few pages.

Gerald:  I spoke with a young author and motivational speaker a few weeks back and we come up with some mighty fine cliff notes for the Divine Word.  Figured some of it might help you get through this dark time.  I know writing it helped me to find what truly mattered in life.  And it helped me put things into perspective.  Plus, David and Ginny seem to be hitting things off pretty darn good.

Mavis:  That whore fucked my husband and now she’s going after my son???

Mavis asks this loud and with a shriek to her voice.  Gerald pinches the bridge of his nose to help tune out her demons being exorcised from her body.  Gerald chooses to be understanding and not to speak further on this.

Gerald:  I noticed many places within the Holy Bible where it mentions that women are to remain humble.  They are not to speak unless spoken to.  They are to cover their heads when in the presence of God, for they are not strong enough to handle His awesome glory.  The husband reigns supreme.  Now, that seems kinda harsh, but I see the point to it all.

Mavis:  Yeah, I’m sure you do, you fragile ego havin’ dickhead!

Gerald:  My point exactly, darlin’.  Women are fueled by emotions and hormones.  It ain’t your fault.  It’s the way you was designed and it is the curse that Eve put upon you.  Don’t make me love you no less, but facts is facts, sweetheart.  Men think more rationally.  We’re able to make decisions without getting all butthurt over stuff.  It comes with havin’ a penis I reckon.  Women are great mothers, teachers, caregivers, chefs, dry cleaners, secretaries.  Things that call for estrogen.  I mean, Eve did bring Adam the apple, did she not?

Mavis groans in pure agony, wanting nothing more than to reach across the beg and slap the ever lovin’ piss out of Gerald.  But she’s fifty shades of tied up at the moment so she can’t.  And she’s forced to endure this speech.  The more she fights it, the longer it’s going to take so she nods her head.

Gerald:  Right.  So it stands to reason that since the original sin was woman’s fault that they should serve the one who was created in His image to begin with.  I know this seems cruel and mean and I’m sure you’re gonna hate me for a while, but I know what’s best for you.  What’s best for this family.  Tough love is what it’s gonna take to save us.  And that’s gonna be hardest on me.  But if we learn this book backwards and frontwards, I guarantee that we will come out stronger and happier than ever.  A family that prays together, stays together.

Mavis nods her head and Gerald can’t see it but she’s really not even listening right now.  Her misery is consuming her and she wants nothing more than to just roll over and die.  She rolls over as far as the binding ropes will allow her to.  Just then, Virginia Mae Putnam enters the room with a sick grin on her face.  She saunters over to Mavis and sits down on the bed.

Virginia:  Don’t worry, hun.  We’re gonna get through this. Together.

Mavis retches into the bucket as Gerald gives a nod and pats Ginny on the shoulder.

Gerald:  Amen.

Gerald moves to the door where he soon takes his leave and the feed fades out.


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Friday March 6th, 2020
245 Sauchiehall St: Glasgow, Scotland
Taco Bell


It is a cool, crisp day in Glasgow this afternoon as the sun peeks out from behind the clouds.  This seems to cast a ray of light upon the first ever Taco Bell in Scotland that gives it a radiant light.  We can see a black SUV pull up to the front door and turn on it’s hazard lights.  An irate blonde woman in sunglasses and her Sunday finest steps out of the driver’s seat on the left side, carrying a Taco Bell bag in her hand.  She marches right up to the door and opens it up.  She steps to the front of the line despite much protest.

Mavis:  I demand to speak to a manager about one of your employees.

Worker:  I’m sorry, but there is a line.

Mavis sets the bag down upon the counter and lowers her sunglasses.

Mavis:  I’m sorry, but I don’t care.  Now, I do not know how health code violations work in the United Kingdom, but I’m sure our birthing nation has some kind of rules against what is in this bag.

The worker pauses and looks at Mavis who doesn’t change her tone one bit.  The worker nods her head at Mavis.

Worker:  Just one moment, please.

She speaks into a headset softly, but it is understood that she is calling for a man by the name of Gareth.  Within a few moments, a man with frosted blonde hair and glasses that help to define his emerald green eyes and his soft nose steps out from the back.  Mavis scoffs and picks up the bag as they move down to the empty end of the counter.

Gareth:  I would first like to apologize for anything that might give you pause about our establishment.  What are your concerns, miss-

Mavis:  Shepherd.  Mavis Shepherd.  I wanted to speak to you about this-

Mavis reaches into the bag and pulls out a normal appearing soft taco supreme and she unwraps it to set it on the counter.  She then taps her foot impatiently as Gareth looks at it for a second.

Gareth:  I don’t see anything out of the ordinary here.

Mavis:  Well that’s just great.  I wasn’t aware that an employee’s hair was a Scottish delicacy.  Right next to haggis in a can?  Or cold, flavorless porridge?  I entered this establishment hoping for a taste of home while I’m in this God forsaken land of fairies and elf lore.

Gareth:  Ma’am I do apologize.  I didn’t see the hair that you’re speaking of.

Mavis:  Oh, no?  You might want to get your glasses updated, Garrett.

He goes to correct Mavis, but she doesn’t give him the chance.  She pulls out a long brunette hair and holds it up to the light.  A couple of the customers in line see this and groan before exiting the restaurant, disgusted.  Gareth looks at the hair and quickly tries to keep the matter hush hush.

Gareth:  I do greatly apologize for this and I assure you that we will do everything in our power to make this right.  We’ll give you free menu items and remake your taco.

Mavis:  I want her fired!

Gareth gives pause as he looks around to see the reaction Mavis is getting from the customers.  She folds her arms over her chest and continues to tap her foot.

Gareth:  Do you happen to remember what this employee looks like?

Mavis:  Oh, I can do you one better, Ganache!  Her name is Sierra Williams!

Gareth sighs as he goes through the motions of what his options are until something strikes him funny.

Gareth:  There is no one employed here by that name.

Mavis:  Ohhhhh, don’t you treat me like I’m a dumb customer!  I am an American, and I demand respect, as one of God’s most holy soldiers. I might be a woman, but I know how to read.  It’s the 21st century!  She spoke of seeking employment at Taco Bell because her career is going down the drain!

Gareth:  With all due respect, that doesn’t mean that she’s employed at this location.

Mavis shakes her head now.

Mavis:  And now you’re calling me a liar.  I will have the queen order your head right off!  Watching Sierra lately has become sad.  She’s always been an angry, bitter woman with very little self respect, but having to sling tacos just to pay the bills?  It’s an all-time low for her and she’s lashing out.

Gareth is about to interrupt her but Mavis simply won’t allow it.

Mavis:  My family prays for her.  We really do.  With a few years of proper training inside of the ring, she could possibly hold a real championship like the Heavenly Tag Team Championships, or the Bombshell Roulette Championship.  But for her to lash out at me personally is just unacceptable.  I hate to mess with someone’s livelihood like this, but I’m just left with no choice.  Something needs to be done about this woman.

Gareth takes a deep breath and prepares to correct Mavis once again, but once again she won’t let him.

Mavis:  God tells us that we reap what we sow.  And as unfortunate as that might be, I have to uphold His Holy Law wherever I go.  And Sierra will not learn until she’s been held accountable for her actions, such as the hair in my food, along with the spit, and the dust bunnies.

Mavis opens up the taco and reveals all of these things to be present.  The rest of the customers in line leave, and a few people who are already eating or have just finished begin retching.  One man even goes to the nearby trashcan and vomits.  Mavis closes the taco gently and then continues on.

Mavis:  It’s childish.  We were supposed to have a match this Sunday in Hamilton as part of the Blast From the Past tournament in SCW.  I thought it was just business, but she’s gone and made it personal with her childish acts.  I tell you, I will not tolerate it.  It has now become personal, and I will defeat her in the ring, and I will write a review on Yelp about her and this establishment that protects her.

Gareth:  Ma’am, that will not be necessary. I will make sure that she never works in this establishment.

Mavis is too far gone now to even hear him.  She goes as far as to laugh out loud.

Mavis:  And if she thinks that G.R.I.M.E. hooligan is going to be of any help to her, then she is sorely mistaken.  I might not be able to put my hands on him, but I will relish each and every second of pain that Aron Baltasarsson puts Hitamashii through!  Mark my words.  If he thinks that him and his little posse of wannabe gangsters can just walk right over my family by taking our precious Esther away from us, then he and Sierra have got another thing coming.  I assure you that the frustration of not being able to slap that smug look off of Hitamashii’s face is going to fire me up even more than I already am about Sierra and her disrespect toward me.  The disrespect for my family and I ends now!

Mavis turns on her heels and walks toward the door of the restaurant, leaving the manager and cashier in a state of awe and disbelief.  They stare around the now empty establishment and wonder what to do next.

11
Alumni / Virginia Mae Putnam
« on: December 27, 2019, 10:01:15 PM »
 <span style=\'font-size:11pt;line-height:100%\'>>[~]-CONTACT INFORMATION-[~]</span>

Handlers Name: Gerald
Any Messengers:
Years Active:


<span style=\'font-size:11pt;line-height:100%\'>[~]-CONTRACT INFORMATION-[~]</span>


You will be booked at least 2-3 times a month. In order for this to happen, you will be booked in singles as well as tag team matches. Since tag team matches take place in an intergender division, please let Tad Ezra know if you wish to only wrestle your gender. We will still book you in tag team matches under Mixed tag team rules but keep in mind, tag team titles will be intergender so if you wish not to wrestle the opposite gender, you limit yourself to only singles gold when you do get a title shot. ***Be sure to fill out a <a href=\'http://www.scwrestling.net/boards/index.php?showtopic=12571\' target=\'_blank\'>Tag Team application[/url]***



<span style=\'font-size:11pt;line-height:100%\'>>[~]-WRESTLER INFORMATION-[~]</span>

Picture Base (Name Only, real picture bases no cartoons. Check <a href=\'http://www.scwrestling.net/boards/index.php?act=ST&f=49&t=12573\' target=\'_blank\'>Taken Pic Bases List[/url]): Carrie Underwood
Wrestlers Twitter: her promotion is done by Father Gerald's Twitter @shepherds_good
Wrestlers Name: Virginia Mae Putnam
Nickname(s): Ginny Mae
Age: 26
Height: 5'8"
Weight: 130lb
Hometown: Tulsa, Oklahoma
Personality: Very quiet until prompted to speak by Father Gerald or outraged enough to speak. Most people do not see the bite coming because she has no bark.
Strengths: Fueled by anger. Blind faith. Arrogant.
Weaknesses: Fueled by anger. Blind faith. Arrogant.
Gimmick If Any: A member of The Church of the Good Shepherds
Alignment: Heel (all the way)

<span style=\'font-size:11pt;line-height:100%\'>[~]-ENTRANCE DESCRIPTION-[~]</span>

Entrance Theme Music (Check <a href=\'http://www.scwrestling.net/boards/index.php?act=ST&f=49&t=12574\' target=\'_blank\'>Taken Theme Song List[/url]): Red - "Breathe Into Me"
Entrance Description (Mandatory for bookings):
The white light flashes across the stage when "Breathe Into Me" by Red comes on the speakers.  The lights begin to flash out onto the crowd as Virginia comes out of the curtains.

Darlyn:  On her way to the ring from Tulsa, Oklahoma standing at 5'8" and weighing in at 130 pounds she is Virginia Mae Putnam!!! @@

Virginia holds up the Good Book into the air and points to it and then she walks down the ramp. The fans reach out to touch her and she pulls out her cross necklace and holds it out to ward their demonic presence away.  She slides into the ring and puts her necklace back but keeps showing off the Good Book. She walks to all corners of the ring and watches the fans boo her and then she stops in the center of the ring and falls to her knees, looking up at the ceiling and the light shines down on her and she praises Him.

<span style=\'font-size:11pt;line-height:100%\'>[~]-WRESTLING MOVES-[~]</span>

Everyone gets one finisher and 3 signature moves as well as a move set package. Please pick one package for your wrestler. Any moves you really want your wrestler to have please add it to the the signature moves section.

Wrestling Move Packages *Remember you can only pick one*
-Grappler (Think of those known to grab you and suplex you with ease)


Signature Moves
1.) Kitchen Sink
2.) Fishermens Suplex
3.) Falcon Arrow


Finishing Move
1.) Crucifix Powerbomb



<span style=\'font-size:11pt;line-height:100%\'>[~]-MISC INFORMATION-[~]</span>

Weapon Of Choice: The Good Book
Match Of Choice: No DQ

<span style=\'font-size:11pt;line-height:100%\'>[~]-BIOGRAPHY-[~]</span>
Superstar Bio: Virginia is one of Father Gerald Shepherds most esteemed fighters.  He has trained her since prior to the founding of The Church of the Good Shepherds so she has been ready for this fight for a long time.  Some say that she helped Father Gerald to come to his mission.
Past Accomplishments: none

12
Climax Control Archives / Tis the season
« on: November 22, 2019, 08:53:42 PM »
 Glass bottles are heard clanking against one another in darkness.  Someone is trying to move through them but we cannot see who.

December 24th, 2012; 22:56


A light flicks on as we see a scraggly man with dark hair rubbing at his bare chest in the mirror.  He looks down at the bottles at his feet.  Jack Daniels, Jim Beam, Wild Turkey, Jose Cuarvo, Captain Morgan, Crown Royal.  It’s been a mighty blurry Christmas Eve for this man.  He looks into the mirror when he approaches the vanity of the run down apartment in Chicago, Illinois.  The sound of gunfire doesn’t surprise or stir the man.

Man:  Who th-fuck’r you lookin’ at, assfuck?

He stumbles closer, nearly tripping over that damned cheap vodka plastic bottle that his feet dragged this far.  He catches himself on the sink and groans.  His eyes blur, rolling back when he finally focuses again on the mirror.

Man:  Yeah I’m talkin’ to you, fuckface.  I don’t even recognize ya anymore.

A woman can be heard moaning in the bedroom that touches the bathroom directly.  An adolescent voice can be heard on the other side.

David:  You like the way I hit that…

The man bangs on the wall with all of his might, putting a hole in the wall.

Man:  DAVID GODDAMNIT!  Tell that little whore to keep her mouth down!

David:  FUCK YOU OLD MAN!

Man:  FUCK ME?  BOY I WILL DRAG YOU OUT OF THAT ROOM BY THE FUCKING DICK IF YOU DON’T SHOW ME SOME DAMN RESPECT!

Woman:  GERALD, WILL YOU SHUT YOUR FUCKING MOUTH AND LET ME GET SOME GODDAMN SLEEP?  YOU’LL WAKE ESTHER!

Gerald mumbles under his breath as he kicks the bottle against the wall, causing it to ricochet from the wall and into the bathtub.

Gerald:  Ungrateful little fuckers.  It’s not like it’s Christmas Eve or something!  Not like we should be a family, doing family shit together.  Stupid bitch.

Gerald focuses in on his reflection in the mirror and he cackles.

Gerald:  I hate each and every one of you fuckers.  Including………. You.

Gerald points at the reflection in the mirror and laughs even more sinister.  He leans back and headbutts the mirror with everything he’s got in him.  “Jingle Bell Rock” plays over the radio as the girl in the next room moans even more loudly.  Gerald’s head spins and he falls backward, hitting his head on the edge of the bathtub.  His neck goes crack!  The lights in the room start to fade.  Gerald watches it all go away, and a smile comes over his face as he starts to slip away.

Fade

Gerald’s eyes slowly open and he looks around.  The pool of blood where his head once laid is still there, along with the rest of his body.  He looks down for a second until it hits him.

Gerald:  Holy fucking shit!  Am I dead?  About fucking time.

Gerald kicks at his lifeless body and he turns to walk away.  He sees two choices.  Darkness, and light.  He rubs his chin as he tries to decide which way to go.  He can hear the sounds of his favorite strip club.  The smells of his favorite spirits.  The jingling of the keys that his coke dealer always had on his waist like he was all important enough to need so many fucking keys.  The perfume of his mistress.  The sting of his palm from slapping around his family.  To most people, this would be hell.  A reminder of all the wicked that they’ve done in their life.  But for Gerald, this was his heaven.  He starts to walk toward the darkness with a grin the size of the Grand Canyon on his wicked face.

Voice:  You deserve better than that, Gerald Shepherd.

Gerald:  Like hell I do.  I grew up in that life.  That’s who I am, in life, and outside of it.

Gerald takes another step toward the darkness when the voice booms even louder at him.

Voice:  YOU DESERVE BETTER!  YOUR FAMILY DESERVES BETTER!

Gerald:  My wife is a two timing slut.  My son is trying to screw the gay away.  The only one who hasn’t been so fucked up by this life is my little girl.  But trust me, now that I’m gone, her momma and her brother’s gonna take good care of that.

Voice:  Ye of so little faith.  So beaten down by the woes of life as a human.  You think that there’s no hope, but that is because you are weak.

Gerald sneers and turns around to face the light.

Gerald:  Yeah fuck you pal.

But when Gerald sees the blinding flash of white light he stops himself in his tracks.  He gasps and his mouth just hangs wide open.  He tries to talk but he can’t.  He can only get one word to come out right.

Gerald:  Beautiful.

Voice:  I am what you could be, Gerald.  I am the light.  I am everything right in this world, so rare that I manifest as a glorious rainbow of light.  I am the voice of God, his heralded messenger.

Gerald continues to try to talk but he can’t.  He simply falls to his knees and a tear begins to roll down his cheek.

Voice:  Come now child.  Don’t you cry.  In your world, beauty is so rare.  Kindness is scarce.  Blessings are hidden in every missed opportunity.  But the lack of faith causes you to not see it.  This life is not over for you, Gerald.  Not even close.  Your purpose has not yet been fulfilled.

Gerald looks away, because it’s the only way that he can bare to utter a single word.  He calms and speaks.

Gerald:  My purpose is to be another statistic.  Another loser found dead in his bathroom surrounded by empty bottles of booze and pill bottles.  Found only when my wife decides she needs to take a piss and tries to roll my body out of the bathroom.

Voice:  The lack of faith.  It is indeed what He’s been looking for.  The depraved.  The sad.  The spiritually sick.  That is you.  You are the one.

Gerald starts to look up but feels like he has to close his eyes so he stops just short of the angelic face staring at him.

Gerald:  Why does it have to be me?  Why not somebody else who has more faith?

Voice:  Because you are his beloved child.  If he can heal you and your family and bring them to believe in his awesome power, then he is truly capable of anything.  And he’s chosen you.

Gerald:  But it’s so damn hard.  The only one I can even reach is Esther because she’s still so young.  Mavis and David are too far gone.

Voice:  The first step is to go against your hardest challenge.  That is the test of your own inner strength.  Encourage fidelity from your wife.  Rekindle your love, because it is as pure as the snow outside of your window right now.  Foster David, he is not done growing physically, mentally, or spiritually.  Be strict.  Show him that you actually care.  Make them examples to Esther.  You were meant to lead your family, both immediate, and adopted in faith in Jesus Christ.  Do your part, and He will do his.

Gerald looks over at his lifeless body on the ground beside him and he points at it.  However, with a loud snap of the fingers, his eyes shoot open and he sits up gasping when “Jingle Bell Rock” reaches it’s climax.  He pats at the back of his head, feeling the indentation, and the blood from the skin.  The room spins as he stands up.  Mavis is in the doorway.

Mavis:  Thank god, I gotta piss like a sumbitch.

Gerald grabs her by the hair and she begins pleading under her breath until he plants his lips to hers.  She is surprised but falls into it quickly.  She starts to hike up her nightgown, but Gerald lowers it back down, holding onto the back of her neck gently.  Her eyes wander to spot the blood coming from Gerald’s ear.

Mavis:  Fucking shit!  You… your… You need to get to a goddamn hospital.

Gerald:  Why?  I am already healed by His grace.

Mavis:  Who’s grace? Who is Grace?!

Gerald looks up at the ceiling as “Do You Hear What I Hear” plays on the radio.  Mavis shakes her head as Gerald walks through the house, pulling David out of his room as he pulls his pajama bottoms up.  He goes and scoops Esther out of bed, and she protests sleepily as they all walk to the living room.  He sets Esther down on the chair and then plugs in the Christmas tree.  He picks up the first gift and hands it to David, and then Esther, and then Mavis.  They sit there silently as the music plays from David’s room.  The teenaged girl buttons up her blouse as she peeks into the living room.

Girl:  So that’s it?  Not even gonna walk me to the door, David?

Gerald:  By God, if you don’t get outta my home right now, you jezebel, I will too feed you to the dogs!

The girl stares at Gerald and then rolls her eyes.

Girl:  Whatever.  Don’t call me again, David.

Gerald:  He will not, whore!  Leave!

David is about to speak, but Gerald looks down at the gift in his hand.  The three begin to unwrap the gifts, finding at the same time that they are looking at Holy Bibles.  They look to one another as the flashback ends.






”Finding yourself through the darkness can be the hardest thing to do.  Finding purpose in the doldrum day to day activities is nearly impossible.  Thank God you don’t have to do it alone.  I am a shining example of what it’s like to hit rock bottom and find your way out of that hole.  You can join me too.  I have been spreading the message of The Good Shepherds throughout SCU for months now.  Of course it is falling on deaf ears.  As our numbers are growing, so is our target.  My family and my congregation are happy to welcome anyone.  Or force them.  We are open to both.

“Griffin Hawkins.  I get the pleasure of facing a fellow Christian.  A man with values.  But a man who watches evil happen and does nothing to stop it.  That’s you.  You’re the man who brought me to Sin City.  It was by your recommendation that I showed up in SCW.  I owe you that but nothing more.  I won’t take it easy on you tonight even as a man of God.

“And on to the man who I don’t respect.  The man who I owe nothing to.  The man who makes a joke of this world and this sport.  Mark “The Dragon” Cross.  I know you more than Griffin but I also know where your loyalties lie.  Selfish little loyalties stringing along an innocent girl.  All for hopes of gold that you aren’t even working for.  You’re split.  That’s not good for your image in the eyes of God, and it’s not good for your pride.  Together with Griffin you’re going to be smited in front of the fans and they will see that the wicked do rest and the righteous will rise.”

13
Climax Control Archives / Divine Justice
« on: July 19, 2019, 10:06:00 PM »
 Revelation 21:8 “But the cowardly, the unbelieving, the vile, the murderers, the sexually immoral, those who practice magic arts, the idolaters and all liars—they will be consigned to the fiery lake of burning sulfur. This is the second death.”

There is a tinge of smoke in the air, that which comes from a burning stick of sage.  Candles adorn the inside of the Church of the Good Shepherds.  It is darker and more somber than the last time we saw the inside.  Standing on the pulpit is Brother David and he is shrouded in a white cloak with a golden embroidered cross along the front along with golden embroidery up the collar and hood that is of an Assassin’s Creed appearance to the nerds who are watching.  He holds a candle as he looks out upon the congregation, which is quite numerous and mostly middle aged males of all backgrounds.

“Welcome Good Shepherds, to this special service.  While your leaders are fairly new to the world of wrestling, we are facing our toughest challenge yet.  This calls for a solid sermon to help bring even more favor upon us from Our Lord.  I call upon you because there is strength in numbers.  I have to believe that is why Father Gerald Shepherd asked for this match to become a four on four battle.  Each Good Shepherd, whether part of the foot soldiers or not, holds their own strengths, things in which will help in the ultimate battle.  Each of you has favor with Him, and He will smile brightly upon you.  Faith grows louder in congregation, so I thank you for coming to us on this day.  Without further ado, I would like to welcome Sister Esther Shepherd to the pulpit.”

The congregation claps all hearty like for Esther as she walks down the aisle between the pews.  She is in a snow white gown that trails behind her much like her golden blonde hair.  She comes to the front and center, hugging Brother David kindly before stepping to the front line.

“Thank you all for your warm welcome.  I, too, believe that He smiles upon each and every one of you with His blessings and bounties.  He led you to The Church of the Good Shepherds, right?”

Esther sniggles a little and her southern drawl shows heavily where it normally does not.  Her smile could launch a thousand ships and she is well aware of it, especially in this male dominated crowd before her.  The crowd roars at her and she simply accepts it before her loud voice overcomes it.

“What further proof do you need?  That’s why we are currently lobbying with organizations to take science from public school curriculum.  Save that for the questioning and need for proof for the Catholics and their private schools.  Only those of pure faith are qualified to be in His army.  And if I do say so myself, I think the best army of faithful men and women is right in this building.  Each of you is welcome to have my back anytime.”

Esther gives an innocent wink and smile, unaware of the reference that she has just made, and also unaware of the longing looks of the men drooling over her.

“Your faith in us, and your faith in Him, is why we are here.  On His day, we will go up against a group that is as sinful as they come.  It is not our proudest moment, but when we stand victorious over them, it will be.  To say a few words on the matter, I want to welcome Mother Mavis Shepherd to the stage.”

Esther bows and steps back next to David who gives her a thumbs up.  She smiles proudly and he puts an arm over her shoulder.  However, he quickly takes note of her head not being covered, and he places a scarf over her golden locks.  Mother Mavis walks down the aisle, taking hands graciously as she moves along.  She makes small talk, going as far as to blush and smile as she catches up.  Her white hat rests prominently on her head.  She comes to the helm and instantly takes the microphone off of the podium and walks forward.

“I could not be more proud of my fellow Shepherds.  That does extend to the congregation.  Just as we took on the name, so have you.  If only my husband could be here right now to see how strong his ministry is growing, and how potent His…”

Mavis stops to point up at the sky.

“Message is becoming on His holiest domain.  Gosh, Gerald is always thinking of others.  He is trying to put together a surprise for the congregation as we speak, and let’s just say that I hope you are hungry, because he is servin’ it up.  But lets not go on about our own matters.  Instead, let’s turn our attention to those who need our help more than ever.  There is nothing like unrepenting sinners, and I right?”

The congregation nearly becomes uproarious as Mavis cooly nods her head.  She then gives it an unbelieving shake before continuing.

“Those who need Him the most, but have been deafened by the great deceivers lies and earthly wealth.  Poor sinners have nowhere else to go, no other way of getting out of his grips BUT to see His truth.  The ones who have unmatched wealth, who know not a day of strife and mispleasure, enjoying everything that He has given to us, but listening to the devil’s own lies produced to tell others that he has provided it.  It just makes me sick.  For it is easier for a camel to pass through the eye of a needle than for a rich man to enter the gates of heaven.  Sound familiar?  It should.  Mmm-hmm.  Matthew chapter 19 verse 24.  Read plain as day to anyone who will read it.”

Mavis looks like she is trying to bring a reality check to those which she is speaking of but is unable to sugar coat the bad news.  Her sapphire eyes shine like she is enjoying it though.

“London Underground.  A casino owner.  He peddles hopes and dreams of riches, luxury, happiness to those less fortunate than him.  He is quite greedy is he not?  Daniel J. Morgan.  People lose their cars, their homes, their jobs, their families, just so he can make a quick buck.  That sounds awfully familiar.  Like he’s the devil himself.  We all know that the devil is in the details, and that man has as many details as I ever seen on a heterosexual man.  Not to mention the rest of his hired hands.  I know they want to boast that they sin in other ways, and I find that just as sickening as anything else.”

Just then, Gerald burst through the doors frantically.  He rushes down the aisle, pushing a dolly carrying something with a drape over it.  He comes to the front of the congregation and takes the microphone from Mavis.

“In light of battling sin, I found it only fitting to find a way to let you all in on the fun.  Tonight, I have found…”

Gerald rips the drape off of the dolly to reveal a woman who has clearly been roughed up.  She is bound and gagged with a cross that has been burned into her forehead.  She is weeping as she looks around, scared.

“A lawyer who has defended criminals who have gotten away with rape, murder, embezzlement, manslaughter, harming children, and all kinds of nasty, nasty crimes.  Since justice is not going to be served in this world while people like Ms. Mattingly here, then we have to come up with our own justice.  In preparation for our battle against sin, and to send a message to London Underground, I say we set the example for the unrepenting, self serving of the world!  Partake in this morsel of divine justice with me!”

What follows has been deemed to be too graphic for replay, and may constitute something unlawful, so the feed is abruptly ended to protect all individuals.

14
Climax Control Archives / A Spiritual Reckoning
« on: July 12, 2019, 11:18:21 PM »
 
And He said… Let there be light!


Brightness that is almost blinding opens up the scene before dissolving into an overgrown pasture in Tulsa, Oklahoma.  There is a man in a white suit and a powder blue shirt adorned with a white tie.  He has a pin that acts like it is glowing in the amount of sunlight beaming down on him.  His frosty salt and pepper hair and matching goatee gives him away as Father Gerald Shepherd, leader of the congregation known as The Church of the Good Shepherds, or better known to the wrestling world as simply The Good Shepherds.  As the blades dance across his suit, and he gets closer to the camera, he forces a smile from ear to ear.

“Hi and welcome to Tulsa.”

He bellows out in his deep, uninviting voice that sends chills down the spines of any viewer receptive enough to pick up on that.

“What a beautiful day he hath bestowed upon us today.  Tulsa is bright and our eyes can drink in its beauty.  Not every day is as bright as today, but you can always find comfort in His divine word, and that is what I’ve come to you today to tell you.”

Gerald continues to walk through the field and toward a hill.  He stares at it for only a second before returning to the viewers of this info-mercial.

“It may rain, and it may snow.  It may lightning, and you best remember that it will thunder.  But, within the walls that He hath demanded that I build in his honor, for my family to reside in under His eye, and those same walls that are open to the entire congregation, you can be certain that it will be warm, welcoming, and full of His almighty spirit.”

Gerald makes it to the hill and begins to walk up it as the shot angles so to see him as the camera treads uphill backward.

“Since debuting on television, and since meeting with and discussing the gifts which only He may bestow upon us with celebrity and part time wrestler Kenzi Grey, there has been so much interest in the congregation.  So many souls who are tired of being commanded by their own sins. So many hearts who have been looking in all of the wrong places for His love and mercy.  All of them have been coming in to see us, or sending donations to help spread His message, and congregation members have multiplied by thirty-four.  He is waiting to bless you, and He hath blessed me doubly.”

Gerald is becoming a bit out of breath from climbing the tall hill, but he only shows it through a few pants between the occasional word and the slight beads of sweat on his forehead.

“But we have also been asked so many questions.  And the purpose of this video is to help explain what we at The Church of the Good Shepherds are all about.  So hang loose, as the kids say, and watch as I answer the best questions we have received.”

Gerald reaches a set of steps at the top of the hill, and he enters the church quickly.  But before we get a solid view of the inside, the view twists as 80’s style music begins playing in the background, and we switch to see Father Gerald standing on the pulpit in front of what must be close to a hundred people, just from what the camera picks up.

“Who is Father Gerald?  Why, perhaps I am not the best one to answer that question, so please welcome my lovely daughter, Sister Esther Shepherd to answer that for you.”

Sister Esther comes up to the bottom step of the pulpit in an all white dress, very form fitting, with a powder blue blouse underneath it.  Her hands are covered in white gloves, and her best Sunday hat is adorning her head.  She waves as the congregation claps for her.

“Thank you!  My father is a great man.  He is the kindest, most gentle soul that I have ever met.  He is a man of true Godly virtue.  He is a man who has learned from his mistakes.  He is a sinner, just like you and me.  But of course he’s not a sinner like… a herpes infested prostitute who works the corner of Main and 3rd.  Or a rapist who is allowed to roam free due to lack of evidence.  Small things, like being proud of his beautiful daughter, or forgetting to pay taxes for five years.”

Esther can tell that she’s losing her crowd, and Gerald widens his eyes and runs his fingers across his throat.  Esther bows and whispers sorry before turning back to the congregation and the camera.

“He is more than just a man of God.  He is more than just a father.  He is an army veteran.  He is a member of the Republican Party.  He tried so hard to lobby for Ted Cruz.  He is an American.  He is a volunteer for Habitat For Humanity.  He is so much more than anyone can describe.  He’s my daddy, and no daughter in the world can be any luckier than me, and it is all thanks to Him, above.”

Esther smiles and bows against before walking off of the step and back into the congregation and they all clap for her.  Gerald shakes his head with blushing cheeks as he claps for Esther, and probably himself as well.  The view twists again and spins off into the corner as we see Father Gerald standing in front of a baptismal pool with a young woman sitting on the edge of it in a white gown.  Gerald looks surprised to see us.

“Oh, hi there.  I wasn’t expecting you to be right there.  Now, people ask in so many diff’rent ways, they say Father Gerald.  What is the mission of The Good Shepherds?  Well, I’m here to tell ya.”

Gerald nods at the woman, who swings her legs into the pool.  She slides in until her chest is just above the water.  Father Gerald picks up a grail and a book.  He dunks the grail into the water before setting it on the edge of the pool and placing his hand on top of her head.  She begins to slowly slide down into the water, laughing nervously before closing her eyes.

“Welcome, precious little child. So divine from God above. Christened today in Jesus' name, Held in His arms of love. May angels guide your feet and bring you smiles to wear and may our Heavenly Father always keep you in His care.  Heavenly Father, In your love you have called us to know you, led us to trust you, and bound our life with yours. Surround your child with your love, protect her from evil.  Fill it with the holy spirit and receive it into the family of your church, that it may walk with us in the way of Christ, and spiritually grow in the knowledge of your love.  By His hand, we pray.  Amen.”

The woman leans back as Gerald signs the trinity over her head and then begins to slowly pour the grail over her head.  After a moment, she opens her eyes and seems like a weight has been lifted off her shoulders.

“The mission of The Good Shepherds is simple.  We save.  In His holy name, we redeem those who wish to be redeemed.  We flock the sheep back to his pastures so that they may feast upon his bounty of blessings.  We spread love, mercy, and biblical justice.”

Gerald winks as the screen once again spins until coming to find Father Gerald standing in front of the church with just his daughter, his wife, and his son.  They are all dressed in the same color scheme of white and powder blue.  Gerald steps from the middle as the family flanks him.

“Why have you become wrestlers?  Isn’t violence a sin?  Please, Brother David, answer this, because it is just too easy for me, son.”

Brother David comes from Gerald’s right and walks around toward the front to take the lead for a moment.

“Wrestling is a sport.  Would you call Patrice Bergeron a sinner for checking someone into the wall?  No.  Would you call Tyrese Robinson a sinner for a sickening pancake?  No.  So why would you call competitive combat a sin?  It is just business.”

David sneers, letting us know that it probably isn’t all about business.

“Many men of faith participate in sports, and wrestling is no different.  We still serve His word, and if anything, we are going into the Lion’s Den, much like Daniel, to spread his message to those who are so in despair that their lives have resorted to sitting at home and watching second and third rate wrestling companies who boast, hah, stars like Alicia Lukas and Stewart Mason.  Those people have truly hit rock bottom, and they surely would be open to finding an escape from their pathetic misery.  We are just trying to bring them peace of mind while providing entertainment for them.  It’s like we’re Mz Holly Wood, but without a certain alternative agenda telling us to do unnatural things to spread our message to the masses.”

David winks and continues walking forward.

“We spread a message of love, mercy, and justice, and we want everyone to accept our invitation to join in on our mission, His mission.  But we know that some people are not prepared to make that kind of commitment.  We offer many painless options for compliance.  But before we tell you about that, let me ask you a few questions.”

David stops, centered in a large garden with a fountain behind him as he turns.  The other Shepherds turn also and David removes his jacket.  Behind the jacket rests a tight shirt that leaves little to the imagination, as you can see his developed upper body in it’s finest, as if the powder blue shirt was merely painted on.

“Are you tired of being told that your convictions are wrong?  Are you sick of people shoving liberal views and promises of peaceful coexistence while you are also forced to assimilate and give up your virtues so not to offend anyone?  Do you feel like you simply don’t agree with tolerance of certain groups of sinners who refuse to repent, and revel in their sins, but you just don’t know why?  Do you feel like something is missing within you, like a whole in your heart that just won’t heal?  Are you lonely?  Do you get the feeling that you would be in a better place if you could just be surrounded by those of like mind?”

David could go on for hours, but in the interest of spreading his hateful messages, masked as kind and helpful words, he stops himself of the questions.  Instead, he points directly at you.

“The answer is simple.  You need God.  You need His almighty wisdom and love in your life.  Many churches refuse to take certain types of people, but we accept all.  We love all.  So long as you agree with our views, or are at least willing to submit to them.  Our love is His love, and His love is ever present.  Come to the Church of the Good Shepherds and you will be pleased at how quickly your life turns around.”

Gerald claps and pats his son on the shoulder.  He walks around David and comes to the front of the group.  The mist of the fountain in the wind sprays across them gently, cooling them off as they stand in the bright, overly exposing sun.

“Couldn’t’ve said it better myself, Brother David.  Our message is love, in His name.  But His love is sometimes a tough one when it is needed.  Please do not hold it against us if our methods inside of a wrestling ring are a bit… extreme.  We don’t want you to think that we will beat you into oblivion when you come into our church.  We have to go to extreme measures inside of the wrestling ring because in the city of sin, we have to fight through the darkness and get people to see the light.  Obviously we’re gonna have to fight real hard, just like David when he had to prove that the many Saul’s of Sin City were unfit to lead the righteous against the many Philistines, giants, jezabels, and sodomites that inhabit it.  It won’t be easy, and it won’t be pleasant.  But it is necessary.

“Do not let it turn you away, because not every induction into the congregation is as harsh as it might seem on television.  Mercy is for those who chose to serve, and the smart ones always choose to serve.  For He opens himself unto us, and that, in a nutshell, is our mission.  So please find our contact information at the end of this video so that you too can change your life around and live it to the fullest.  God bless.”

With that, Gerald steps back with his family as the 80’s music increases in volume and causes an almost ear shattering effect when the screen shows the white clouds and sunshine behind the logo of The Church of the Good Shepherds.  Underneath is the promised contact information such as a telephone number, and email address, and the twitter handle of Father Gerald himself @shepherds_good . The video ends after a minute or so and goes away into a static.



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"When I called, you answered me; you made me bold and stouthearted."


“Daddy!  Why do we have to actually stay here?  It’s so disgusting!”

Sister Esther Shepherd is seen pouting as she lays across a red and gold chaise lounger, her legs crossed in her skirt that might be just a touch too short of her father’s liking.  Gerald is seated across the hotel suite at a desk with glasses on his face, and his navy blue dress shirt informally buttoned just about mid way up.  Mother Mavis is massaging his shoulders as he looks up from his books and papers, annoyed by the question. Mavis pats him on the shoulder and then walks away from her husband, approaching her daughter with a thoughtful smile.  However, as she leans down, she slaps her daughter across the face with strength.

“Don’t you dare doubt your father and his wisdom, little girl!”

David looks over from the corner and raises his eyebrows at the situation, but continues to read the good book in his hands.  Mavis returns to Gerald, who turns his attention back to the papers on his desk as he scribbles and searching through the book at his side.  Esther hmphs and gets off of the lounger and walks over to the hotel room door and exits, slamming the door behind her.  David doesn’t break focus, and Mavis only sighs.

“That daughter of ours is so willful.  I honestly don’t know where it comes from.”

Gerald chuckles, not looking up from his task at hand.  He chuckles deep for at least thirty seconds before answering as he writes.

“Why, she gets it from her mama and her daddy, my sweet southern belle.  You know how we was before we found our way completely.  Plus, she’s a real bombshell belle inside of the ring, and you know she didn’t get that from just one of us.”

“Mmm, true.  Was I too hard on her, do you think?”

Gerald shakes his head but his eyes stay locked on the page.

“Not at all, buttercup.  She’s gonna have to learn one way or another.  When she is almost completely spiritually deaf, she needs her mother to show her the place she earned when she came out as not a boy.”

Mavis nods her head, but it is clear that she is disappointed in that fact.  David has a smile on his face that is only noticeable if you really truly look.  He finishes his alloted reading for the day and puts the book down on the table next to the couch.  He reaches for a glass half filled with water and he takes a sip. Mavis casts a lovely and genuine glance at her son, the fruit of her loin.

“David is definitely the good seed.  Good enough to turn both his parents into true believers.  And he proved that on Underground: Episode 28 just last night.”

Gerald has to offer a break to the papers and glance up at his son with a beeming proud smile.  David’s icy blue eyes look back at his parents and absorbs their pride.

“That he surely did.  I never could have seen such a thing coming.  I expected to only be teamed with my belle or my fluffy little cherub cloud.  I am the teacher, but I feel as though David has taught me something in the process.”

David nods appreciatively.

“Honored, father.  Truly.  I do not wish to make similar transgressions to Sister Esther, because I trust in your wisdom, and I know that you know what we should do deep down in your heart.  But I want to know who you have planned to face these two revelers of sin on the Lord’s Day.  Only because, if I am to participate in this match, I need to be sure to stay on a strict regimen of diet and exercise.  I mean absolutely no disrespect.”

Gerald places his pen down on his pad of paper and he clasps his hands together.  David gulps unsure of what is coming his way.  The glare of his father seems to put him into an almost cold sweat.

“Child, you need not worry about such matters.  I am your father, but you are my son.  Born of my righteous seed, born to take the name of the family.  I value your opinion, and I welcome your thoughts, because how will you lead the troops once the General is out of the battle?”

David nods his head, feeling a bit relieved.  However, as his mother approaches him, he tenses slightly, preparing to take another slap.  Instead, he receives a loving kiss on his forehead and a gentle rub on the back.  David breathes a full sigh of relief and looks back to his father.  He stands up to join him at the desk.

“Esther, God bless her heart, has not been the most… faithful of soldiers.  She doubts our mission at times.  She doubts herself.  We are set to go into another sector of this company, the higher brand as the heathens call it.  If we want to make a good impression, we mustn’t include her.  Not yet.”

Gerald nods.

“Valid point.  And because of the mixed tag team rules, Mother Mavis must take her place.”

“I am a proud man, father.  I know that I can take care of Ace Hart without any complications.  Perhaps it is my sin, but I know it deep in my heart.  If it is your will, His will, for me to participate in this match, then by His holy grace, I will do it.  But do you think it is my place to usher us into the bigger company?”

Gerald thinks about it for a second.  He sighs and shakes his head.  David looks disappointed.

“David, son.  You know that pride is one of the deadliest sins.  I appreciate your willingness to confess your sins to me, and to not be proud of them.  It is the curse set upon us by Eve with the Original Sin.  As one who hath been absolved of such a sin, I must not allow you to carry that burden into this match.”

“Rightfully so, father.”

Mother Mavis strokes her husbands hair and offers him a smile.

“It looks like it is just you and me, darlin’.  Alia Starr and Ace Hart won’t know what hit ‘em.”

Gerald chuckles and nods his head with Mavis.

“You can rest assured that they don’t.  Come Sunday, the little jezebel and the false king are forced to their reckoning.  Ace Hart will be forced to stare at true greatness, one of celestial fueled power, with the grace of the angels, blowing their battle horns ahead of our arrival.”

Mavis chuckles and leans down to kiss her husband, but not before uttering a whisper.

“You always had a way with words, beau.  As it is not a woman’s place to speak unless spoken to, I am forced to use actions to speak for me.  Alia Starr will end before she has even begun.”

Gerald mutters something that causes Mavis to laugh a little.  David raises an eyebrow before taking the hint.  He stands up and walks to the door of the hotel room.  He opens it up to find Esther standing in the hallway, stomping around and moping.  He shakes his head and closes the door as Mavis and Gerald are in the throws of marital passion, allowing their lips to almost meet before the camera cuts away.

15
Alumni / Mother Mavis
« on: May 10, 2019, 02:08:37 AM »
 [~]-CONTACT INFORMATION-[~]

Handlers Name: Gerald
Any Messengers: Twitter
Years Active: 2


[~]-CONTRACT INFORMATION-[~]

You will be booked at least 2-3 times a month. In order for this to happen, you will be booked in singles as well as tag team matches. Since tag team matches take place in an intergender division, please let Tad Ezra know if you wish to only wrestle your gender. We will still book you in tag team matches under Mixed tag team rules but keep in mind, tag team titles will be intergender so if you wish not to wrestle the opposite gender, you limit yourself to only singles gold when you do get a title shot. ***Be sure to fill out a Tag Team application***


[~]-WRESTLER INFORMATION-[~]



Played By: Ncole Kidman
Names: Mother Mavis, Mavis Shepherd, Mother Mavis Shepherd
Height: 5'10"
Weight: 145lb
Birthdate and Age: April 14th, 1974 (45)
Hometown: Tulsa, Oklahoma
Personality: She does not hide when she dislikes somebody, but she keeps it quiet in the interest of His mission, doing her part to make this mission a reality.
Strengths: Accuracy, ring awareness, poise
Weaknesses: Endurance, speedsters, flexibility
Alignment: Heel Heel (but tries to act nice publicly for her husband)


[~]-ENTRANCE DESCRIPTION-[~]

Theme Song: "Spirit In the Sky" by Norman Greenbaum

A white light flashes over the crowd that is almost blinding. It returns to a more tolerable brightness as "Spirit In the Sky" by Norman Greenbaum begins to play through the arena. The crowd boos and gets louder when the announcer speaks up.

Darlyn: On her way to the ring from Tulsa, Oklahoma she is 5'10" and weighed in this morning at 145lb. Representing The Church of The Good Shepherds she is Mother Mavis Shepherd! @@

And the boos become louder. Mavis walks out onto the stage, folding her hands in front of her, making sure to show off the cross hanging from her neck. She looks around the crowd, her eyes narrow and piercing. She keeps her hands folded as she walks down the aisle. At the end, she walks up to the apron and climbs up onto it. She raises her hands to the air as the white light shines down on her. For a second she smiles and then she lowers her hat to the apron. She steps inside of the ring and walks back and forth while she waits for the match to start.


[~]-WRESTLING MOVES-[~]

Everyone gets one finisher and 3 signature moves as well as a move set package. Please pick one package for your wrestler. Any moves you really want your wrestler to have please add it to the the signature moves section.

Wrestling Move Packages *Remember you can only pick one*

For SCU: All-Arounder

For SCW- Move Set:
1) Hair Mare
2) Sidewalk Slam
3) Facebuster
4) Spinning Heel Kick
5) Lou Thesz Press with punches
6) Bicycle Kick
7) Tilt-A-Whirl Slam
8) Package Piledriver
9) Spear
10) Head Scissor Takedown

Signature Moves
1) Crown of Thorns (Venus Fly Trap)
2) Hands of Justice (5 rapid body shots, finished with an Uppercut)
3) Crucifix Powerbomb

Finisher: Salvation Slam (Glam Slam)


[~]-MISC INFORMATION-[~]

Weapon Of Choice: The Good Book
Match Of Choice: Baptism (Pool) Match


[~]-BIOGRAPHY-[~]

Bio: Will be added later

16
Current SCU Male Roster / Father Gerald Shepherd
« on: May 10, 2019, 02:03:35 AM »
 [~]-CONTACT INFORMATION-[~]

Handlers Name: Gerald
Any Messengers: Twitter
Years Active: 2


[~]-CONTRACT INFORMATION-[~]

You will be booked at least 2-3 times a month. In order for this to happen, you will be booked in singles as well as tag team matches. Since tag team matches take place in an intergender division, please let Tad Ezra know if you wish to only wrestle your gender. We will still book you in tag team matches under Mixed tag team rules but keep in mind, tag team titles will be intergender so if you wish not to wrestle the opposite gender, you limit yourself to only singles gold when you do get a title shot. ***Be sure to fill out a Tag Team application***


[~]-WRESTLER INFORMATION-[~]



Played By: Jeffrey Dean Morgan
Names: Father Gerald, Gerald Shepherd, Father Gerald Shepherd
Height: 6'6"
Weight: 275lb
Birthdate and Age: August 10th, 1972 (46)
Hometown: Tulsa, Oklahoma
Personality: Split. He is often seen as a very jovial man that is beaming within His might light.  He quickly becomes irate when provoked, and he will justify his actions using his faith under any and all circumstances.
Strengths: Accuracy, ring awareness, charisma
Weaknesses: Endurance, speedsters, flexibility
Alignment: Heel (because of his beliefs, but thinks he's a babyface)


[~]-ENTRANCE DESCRIPTION-[~]

Theme Song: "Spirit In the Sky" by Norman Greenbaum

A white light flashes over the crowd that is almost blinding.  It returns to a more tolerable brightness as "Spirit In the Sky" by Norman Greenbaum begins to play through the arena.  The crowd boos and gets louder when the announcer speaks up.

Liam: On his way to the ring from Tulsa, Oklahoma he is 6'6" and weighed in this morning at 275lb. Representing The Church of The Good Shepherds he is Father Gerald Shepherd!

And the boos become louder.  Gerald runs out onto the stage, throwing his hands in the air, looking up.  He nods his head and smiles when he goes back and forth across the stage.  He holds His Holy Word in his hand as he shouts out a verse.  He walks down the ramp as he continues to read. He sits it on the ring steps and runs up them.  He walks across the apron as he seeks His praise. He gets inside of the ring and slowly spins around before settling in a corner and waits for the match to start.


[~]-WRESTLING MOVES-[~]

Everyone gets one finisher and 3 signature moves as well as a move set package. Please pick one package for your wrestler. Any moves you really want your wrestler to have please add it to the the signature moves section.

Wrestling Move Packages *Remember you can only pick one*

For SCU: Powerhouse

For SCW- Move Set:
1) Impact DDT
2) Bicycle Kick
3) Pumphandle Slam
4) Powerbomb
5) Lou Thesz Press with punches
6) Samoan Drop
7) Triple German Suplexes
8) Running Powerslam
9) Spear
10) Alley Oop

*Gerald is capable of doing most basic moves as a Powerhouse, but rarely will jump off of the ropes or doing anything acrobatic

Signature Moves:
1) From Above (Flapjack)
2) Hands of Justice (5 rapid body shots, finished with an Uppercut)

Finisher: Ray of Light (Diamond Cutter)


[~]-MISC INFORMATION-[~]

Weapon Of Choice: The Good Book
Match Of Choice: Baptism (Pool) Match


[~]-BIOGRAPHY-[~]

Bio: Will be added later

17
Current SCU Female Roster / Sister Esther
« on: May 10, 2019, 01:48:28 AM »
 [~]-CONTACT INFORMATION-[~]

Handlers Name: Gerald
Any Messengers: Twitter
Years Active: 2




[~]-CONTRACT INFORMATION-[~]


You will be booked at least 2-3 times a month. In order for this to happen, you will be booked in singles as well as tag team matches. Since tag team matches take place in an intergender division, please let Tad Ezra know if you wish to only wrestle your gender. We will still book you in tag team matches under Mixed tag team rules but keep in mind, tag team titles will be intergender so if you wish not to wrestle the opposite gender, you limit yourself to only singles gold when you do get a title shot. ***Be sure to fill out a Tag Team application***


[~]-WRESTLER INFORMATION-[~]

Played By: Emma Roberts
Names: Sister Esther, Esther Azarov
Height: 5'3"
Weight: 115lb
Birthdate and Age: January 7th, 1996 (23)
Hometown: Tulsa, Oklahoma
Personality: She does not hide when she dislikes somebody at all. Unlike her mother, she does not hold back her tongue. She will condemn you right to your face, and because she is her father's "angel", she can get away with it.
Strengths: Ring awareness, confidence, speed
Weaknesses: Temper, distracted, too charismatic
Alignment: Heel (straight up)


[~]-ENTRANCE DESCRIPTION-[~]

Theme Song: "Problem" by Natalia Kills

The crowd is cheering for the upcoming action when “Problem” by Natalia Kills begins to play over the speakers.  Red and white lights flash and alternate across the dim lighted ringside area.  The cheering turns to boos when Sister Ester walks out onto the stage with Red by her side.  She has on a denim jacket over a black bustier and matching bottoms along with black boots and knee pads.  She wraps Red’s arms around her before playing with the long strand of beads around her neck.

Liam:  On her way to the ring from Tulsa, Oklahoma. She is 5’3” and weighed in today at 113lb.  She represents G.R.I.M.E. she is Sister Esther!!!

She grims as she leans up and tilts Red’s mask up just enough to kiss his lips.  She looks devious when she brings his hands down to her thighs.  She then begins laughing and she skips down the ramp while teasing the crowd and sticking her tongue out at them.  She prances to the naughty music until she gets to the steps.  She runs up them as Red climbs to the apron.  He holds them open for her and she enters. She prances around to the beat before coming to a corner to get one last kiss from Red.  She waits for the match to start.


[~]-WRESTLING MOVES-[~]

Everyone gets one finisher and 3 signature moves as well as a move set package. Please pick one package for your wrestler. Any moves you really want your wrestler to have please add it to the the signature moves section.

Wrestling Move Packages *Remember you can only pick one*

For SCU: Striker

For SCW- Move Set:
1) Hair Mare
2) Yakuza Kick
3) Roundhouse Kick
4) Spinning Heel Kick
5) Lou Thesz Press with punches
6) Bicycle Kick
7) Standing Hair Pull
8) Package Piledriver
9) Discus Haymaker
10) Head Scissor Handstand Choke
*Esther is a pure striker. She can do very basic wrestling moves, but her style fits Mixed Martial Arts more closely than wrestling

Signature Moves:

1) Crown of Thorns (Venus Fly Trap)
2) Hands of Justice (5 rapid body shots, finished with an Uppercut)
3) Crucifix Powerbomb

Finisher: Salvation Slam (Glam Slam)


[~]-MISC INFORMATION-[~]

Weapon Of Choice: The Good Book
Match Of Choice: Baptism (Pool) Match


[~]-BIOGRAPHY-[~]

Bio: Will be added later
Past Accomplishments: None

18
Alumni / Brother David Shepherd
« on: May 10, 2019, 01:37:01 AM »
 [~]-CONTACT INFORMATION-[~]

Handlers Name: Gerald
Any Messengers: Twitter
Years Active: 2


[~]-CONTRACT INFORMATION-[~]


You will be booked at least 2-3 times a month. In order for this to happen, you will be booked in singles as well as tag team matches. Since tag team matches take place in an intergender division, please let Tad Ezra know if you wish to only wrestle your gender. We will still book you in tag team matches under Mixed tag team rules but keep in mind, tag team titles will be intergender so if you wish not to wrestle the opposite gender, you limit yourself to only singles gold when you do get a title shot. ***Be sure to fill out a Tag Team application***

[~]-WRESTLER INFORMATION-[~]



Played By: Sebastian Stan
Names: Brother David, David Shepherd, Brother David Shepherd
Twitter: @shepherds_good
Height: 6'4"
Weight: 245lb
Birthdate and Age: December 10th, 1992 (25)
Hometown: Tulsa, Oklahoma
Personality: Quiet for the most part, unless he must step up in his father's absence, then he proves that he is his father's son. Or when he becomes angry, the resemblance becomes apparent. However, he looks mighty intense while doing it.
Strengths: Focus, cunning, ambition
Weaknesses: Speed, ring awareness, blind rage
Alignment: Heel (straight up)

[~]-ENTRANCE DESCRIPTION-[~]

Theme Song: "Feel Invincible" by Skillet

A white light flashes over the crowd that is almost blinding. It returns to a more tolerable brightness as "Feel Invincible" by Skillet begins to play through the arena. The crowd boos and gets louder when the announcer speaks up.

Liam: On his way to the ring from Tulsa, Oklahoma he is 6'4" and weighed in this morning at 245lb. Representing The Church of The Good Shepherds he is Brother David Shepherd!

And the boos become louder. David walks out onto the stage, throwing his hands in the air, looking up. He nods his head and smiles when he goes back and forth across the stage. He holds His Holy Word in his hand as he comes to the center of the stage. He walks down the aisle as he continues to read. He sits it on the ring steps and jumps up onto the apron. He walks across the apron as he seeks His praise. He gets inside of the ring and bounces off of the ropes multiple times with high, angry energy as he waits for the match to start.

[~]-WRESTLING MOVES-[~]

Everyone gets one finisher and 3 signature moves as well as a move set package. Please pick one package for your wrestler. Any moves you really want your wrestler to have please add it to the the signature moves section.

Wrestling Move Packages *Remember you can only pick one*

For SCU: Brawling

For SCW- Move Set:
1) Impact DDT
2) Bicycle Kick
3) Pumphandle Slam
4) Powerbomb
5) Lou Thesz Press with punches
6) Samoan Drop
7) Triple German Suplexes
8) Running Powerslam
9) Spear
10) Alley Oop
*David was trained by his father, but he is more than capable of picking up on any grappling, submission, or striking moves. He is less afraid to dive or take to the air than any member of the family.


Signature Moves:
1) From Above (Flapjack)
2) Hands of Justice (5 rapid body shots, finished with an Uppercut)
3) Crucifix Powerbomb

Finisher: Ray of Light (Diamond Cutter)

[~]-MISC INFORMATION-[~]

Weapon Of Choice: The Good Book
Match Of Choice: Baptism (Pool) Match


[~]-BIOGRAPHY-[~]

Bio: Will be added later
Past Accomplishments: None

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