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Supercard Archives / A Meeting of Minds
« on: June 03, 2024, 02:48:27 PM »
Scene One
Off-Camera
A Meeting of Minds
I looked at the device in my hand. The source of so much heartache, so many headfucks over the last five months. But what did it say about me that I kept coming back for more? That there was always something else I needed to see. Something else I needed to experience. I didn’t want to. I needed to.
Like I always did, more out of a recurring habit than anything else, I rolled the contraption between my finger and thumb, clicking it open, revealing the faceless void. The red mist weaved and contorted like a starling murmuration, captivating and mesmerising.
But for the first time ever, I didn’t know what I wanted to see. Over the months I’d seen so many things I didn’t ever think I would. Going back to see my father’s funeral that I barely remember because I was just a toddler; a chance to give me the closure I so desperately needed after a lifetime of unanswered questions. A conversation with Nikola Tesla about how to stop a fucking space wizard from wrecking the world with a once-thought-to-be-mythical artefact. Helping Luna Pasilno see a future where she and Alex Raven were the loving parents she’d always dreamed they’d be.
That one was hard. Luna and I had developed quite the eclectic friendship over the past few months since our pairing for SCW’s Blast From The Past Tournament. I knew both her and Raven were both absolute shitheels. I’d seen the tapes and I’d personally encountered Raven himself back in December. Even so, something about Luna was endearing. I felt like I had an obligation to be the brother she no longer had. Help guide her to make the right decisions; keep her on the straight-and-narrow. So when she looked at me with those tear-filled glassy eyes during our trip into the Void, cradling baby violet in her arms, it really was like I’d just taken a flamethrower and torched everything we’d achieved together, the trust we’d built between the two of us.
The sound of a baby’s crying snapped me from my stupor. Amelia. My six-week old daughter. The most beautiful little thing I’d ever clapped my eyes on. Her face was contorted in a gurgling cry, her pacifier lying on its side just centimetres away.
“Sshh, it’s alright, sweetheart, daddy’s here,” I said in a calming voice, reaching down into her crib and gently stroking her cheek with the back of my hand. Her big Disney-like emerald green jewels stared up at me, realisation setting in as the combination of my voice’s familiarity and my face looking down at her started to calm her. I smiled exaggeratingly, as all dads do, and nodded. “That’s right, daddy’s here, yes he is. Daddy’s here.”
Slowly but surely, her gurgling cries dissipated. That heart-wrenching expression she wore on her face steadily melted away and one of wonder and amazement replaced it. Amelia just looked at me, her mouth almost twisting into a smile as I reached over to her pacifier and let it slide effortlessly back into her mouth. The gentle sucking sounds that followed soon started to slow as her eyes started to get heavy. Seconds later, she was out for the count and all I could was smile. Then, something I didn’t expect disturbed the peace I was revelling in.
“My, my, such a beautiful child. So innocent, so free. She looks just like her mother, does she not? Minus the blue hair, of course. But her eyes? Those are her father’s eyes for sure.”
My instincts took over, whirling around throwing a backfist that hit nothing but thin air. I knew that voice all too well by now. It couldn’t be, could it? How could he be here?
“Mors?”
“Tsk, tsk, tsk, so primitive you humans, always resorting to violence.”
“Where the fuck are you, Mors?” I thundered in as hushed a tone as I could muster so as not to wake my sleeping daughter.
“You should know by now, Mister Parker, I’m where I’ve always been. Right here. Veni domum, remember?”
It then dawned on me. I had completely forgotten. The Key was still in my hand, clicked open, the red mist still flowing gracefully like a winding snake. A gateway to the Void. A gateway to him. It was as if he could see me, the way he talked, the way he eerily described Amelia, like he was staring at her through my eyes.
“Ahh, the penny drops at last. I thought you were more attuned than this, Mister Parker.”
I closed my eyes, running my fingertips around the edges of the Key, concentrating. I’d stumbled upon my ability to commune with Vita Mors through the Void by sheer happenstance during Luna’s inaugural venture. It was the first time I’d heard even the smallest semblance of surprise in his voice when I somehow replied back to him as he attempted to manipulate me to continue with the task he’d assigned to me. This time though, it came naturally, like riding a bike. I couldn’t explain it even if I tried.
“What do you want, Mors? I did what you asked, I showed Luna what you asked me to and now it’s completely wrecked any trust she had in me.”
“The status of your association with Ms Pasilno is of no interest to me, Mister Parker. I must say though, I was rather disappointed that neither you nor Mister Rabenschwarz were able to take ownership of the TRIAD. Alas, I will need to explore other avenues."
“What did you expect? It was never a foregone conclusion, Mors! I did my best and I’m proud of what I achieved inside the Great Illuminatus! Both Alex and I-“
“Pride is inconsequential, Mister Parker. The fact remains that both you and Mister Rabenschwarz failed to fulfil the tasks I set for the two of you. Shame really, I had such high hopes for you both. Nevertheless, you have proven yourself to be useful, Mister Parker. Your ability to traverse the Void so seamlessly and your… other skills… you have been most impressive. I may yet have more use for you in the future.”
“Look! I showed Luna what you wanted her to see! That’s what you asked me to do and I did it. There’s nothing else for us now. I’m done being your puppet on a set of strings.”
I suddenly felt a pinch inside my head, that same feeling I had when I tried to renege on what I showed Luna beforehand. Like the stem of my brain was being squeezed. My eyes widened in pain but no noise came out of my mouth when it happened. My hand instinctively navigated to the back of my head as if to stop whatever it was but I knew it was to no avail. A desperate, guttural grunt was all that I managed to eke out of my throat.
“That is where you are wrong, Mister Parker. When it comes to you and I, there is always something else. Let’s take a walk, shall we?”
What happened next was like nothing I had ever experienced when traversing the Void on my own. I had grown accustomed to the butterflies in my stomach, the feeling like going from zero to a hundred in less than a second. The feeling of slight disorientation when I ‘landed’, like getting off a rollercoaster.
Not this though. This was like being thrown off the rollercoaster mid-flight. The feeling at the back of my head had disappeared but had travelled instantly to my spine. The same surgically-repaired, metallic-alloy-infused spine I had fractured as a teenager. It felt like Mors had literally shoved his hand inside my back and wrapped it around my vertebrae. That same pain I’d felt all those years ago was suddenly as present as it was back then. My legs started to tingle, growing numb. Panic set in, a coldness creeping over my body. I was suddenly fifteen again, lying in the middle of the ring, terrified of the unknown. I knew this time though.
Again, all I wanted to do was scream out and collapse to my knees but it was like I was being held in place and then… nothing. Just blackness. Had I passed out? Like before too, my hand reflexively journeyed to my back, rubbing the area only seconds before I’d felt that searing pain but it was gone. A fingertip then nestled under my chin and lifted it up, inclining my head upwards. And there he stood. My eyes widened for a second time. Expecting to see the incomparable masked figure of Vita Mors staring down at me, it was the smiling face of my… father.
“Dad?”
He didn’t speak. Instead he used the finger still resting under my chin to guide me back to my feet. It couldn’t be home. After everything I’d seen in the past few months, I knew this was likely just a trick.
“You’re not my dad.”
I reached out to touch him and he disappeared into a cloud of smoke. I looked around me. It was still nothing but blackness all around me. I held my arms out, in a beckoning fashion.
“You’re gonna have to do better than that if you want to get inside my head, Mors!”
“On the contrary, Mister Parker. Why would I want to get inside your head when we’re already here ourselves?”
Mors voice again echoed through me. A young girl’s voice then suddenly caught my attention.
“Daddy! Daddy! You’re home! I missed you!”
I spun around in the direction of the sound. And there, running towards me was a little girl, probably about ten years old. Long, dirty blonde hair, the biggest emerald-green eyes. She wrapped her arms around my waist, hugging me tightly.
“Amelia?!”
Seeing a glimpse of my own daughter as a beautiful, young lady caught me off-guard. I wanted so badly to just wrap my arms around her too but I resisted. It wasn’t real. Was Mors testing me? I screwed my face up, shutting my eyes tight and bit down on my bottom lip and pushed the apparition away and she too vanished into a plume of nothingness.
“Come on, Mors, is that the best you've got?!" I shouted, “What is this?!”
“You should know better than anyone, Sean. We’re in your head after all. I would’ve thought you would’ve been able to give me the guided tour!”
I tried to keep my composure. Mors always had a method to his madness but this one was a headfuck beyond anything I’d experienced before and that was saying something. Why was he testing me and what was he testing me for?
“Sean! Hey fella, come on, we’ve got a match to prepare for, so we do! Get in your gear!”
Nah, no way. The thick Northern Irish accent was a dead giveaway. I craned my neck to see my former tag team partner and best friend from my HWA days. Matt Miller. We were destined for tag team championship glory before my uncle, the company owner, had decided not to renew my contract after my spinal injury.
“You’re not real, Matt,” I said bluntly, trying my best to refuse to buy into whatever game Mors was playing. Just like before, as soon as I pushed my hands through the apparition, it too vanished as quickly as it had appeared.
“I don’t know what you’re trying to do here, Mors, if this is some kind of test or what?!”
Suddenly, the blackness that I stood in was replaced by a familiar setting. I recognised the churchyard, the church itself, the small cottage next to it with the red tiles on the roof.
“My dad’s funeral? Really?” Nice try, Mors, but I’ve made my peace with this!” I shouted defiantly as I looked on to the familiar scene playing out in front of me. The group of people standing in front of a pre-dug plot in the cemetery, just like the many times I’d made this trip before, I wasn’t seen. A ghost, for all intents and purposes. I looked at the people in mourning, adorned from head-to-toe in black. I saw the adults with their backs to me - Uncle Butch, Aunt Diana and Sergeant Reynolds, my dad’s old commanding officer. And the small child with dirty blonde hair. Two-year old Sean, unable to understand the gravity of what was going on.
I rolled my eyes. I’d seen this a thousand times before and like I’d just told Mors, I’d made my peace with it. So why was he subjecting me to it again? I walked around the plot, noticing the coffin being lowered. My brow furrowed. Something wasn’t right. No Union Jack draped over it. Instead several championship belts were. I recognised them! The XWF Universal Championship, the SCW World Championship, the Zion Wrestling Endurance Championship and the FCW Great Lakes Championships. All belts I either held or had the desire or opportunity to compete for in the future. A lump caught in my throat. Then I saw the adults. Not Uncle Butch, Aunt Diana or Sergeant Reynolds. Eve! My wife, veil over her face, tears streaking down her face. A man and woman next to her. Luna?! Her arm wrapped comfortingly around her shoulder. The man… no fucking way. Raven?! The child, their back still to me, was leaning into his leg, and pointed towards the casket. When I heard their voice, my heart sank.
“Uncle Alex, is daddy sleeping in there?”
As I saw her turn her head, my chest felt like it was being crushed as Alex Raven crouched down in front of my daughter. He stroked her cheek and pulled her in close.
“Yeah, Amy, daddy’s sleeping in there.”
I couldn’t breathe. Like my lungs had suddenly disappeared and my chest was filled with nothing. I shook my head from side to side, refusing to believe what I was seeing. The priest then started to speak.
“May Sean’s soul find peace and eternal rest in the loving embrace of God. And may his wife, Eve, his daughter, Amelia and their closest friends, Luna and Alexander, find comfort in the memories they shared, the love they received, and the support of those around them. May they find strength in each other and may they be surrounded by compassion and understanding as they navigate their grief. Amen.”
I collapsed to my knees, watching my wife sob her heart out. Watching Luna comforting her. Seeing Alexander fucking Raven picking up my daughter in his arms. No! This wasn’t real! As much as it felt like real, it couldn’t be! I clenched my fists tight, so much so my knuckles turned white as I climbed to my feet.
“THIS ISN’T REAL, MORS!” I bellowed. “WHATEVER THIS IS, I’M NOT FALLING FOR IT!”
I squeezed the Key to the Void with one of my fists, focusing, concentrating.
“VENI DOMUM!”
The churchyard suddenly fell apart, like a collapsing sandcastle and within seconds I was back in my house. It took me a moment to regain my bearings. Amelia was sleeping peacefully away, sucking on her pacifier without a care in the world.
“I’m proud of you, Sean. You’re ready. This is going to be fun.”
“Let’s play a game of ‘Fuck Off’, Mors. You go first.”
I clicked the Key shut and put it back in my pocket. Out of sight, out of mind.
Scene Two
On-Camera
Sorry, Not Sorry
“The mind is cruel. Capable of great but terrible things. The quintessential double-edged sword. In gaming terms you’d call it a glass cannon. Capable of performing brutal acts more hurtful than any blade, firearm or fist. But when it comes under siege itself, it collapses quicker than a noob in over his head.
Astonishing, isn’t it? That something so frail is responsible for such a valuable payload. But the mind is very much a Jekyll and Hyde. A rampant, uncontrollable monster, snaring you within its powerful grasp. The same beautiful mind that can inspire greatness can also paralyse with crippling anxiety, making you doubt everything you ever knew. Make you question every lesson you ever learned.
It’s a never-ending battle I don’t think any of us ever truly master. To keep our balance as we traverse that almost indistinguishable line between tapping into the mind’s beautiful potential and yielding to its less-than-desirable, darker impulses. What do you do? Learn to control it, mould it, bend it to your will and make it your greatest strength? Or yield and allow it to become the nemesis you wish you never had, greater than any foe or rival you’ve faced in the ring. The kind that leads you down the path of no-return that few ever come back from?
We’ve experienced both sides of the coin, haven’t we, Alex? Felt the uplifting feeling that fills you with euphoria. But the darkened face. That’s the kicker, isn’t it? To be on the brink of despair only to be pulled back with just the slimmest glimmer of hope as a bargaining chip. That’s you, Alex, isn’t it?
Such a cruel tool, the mind. The perfect duality. To both plant seeds of greatness and birth the origin stories of our grimmest fears. However, only a select few can balance between the dark and the light and emerge unscathed. I’m sorry, Alex, but that’s not you.
I’m sorry, but the mind is a double-edged sword, Alex, and you’ve gripped the blade with both hands. Those cuts running down your palms are as deep as the dark thoughts you can’t seem to ever escape.
I am so sorry it’s come to this, Alex. I really am. I wish things had worked out differently. After everything that’s happened before, in the days and weeks leading up to this moment. I’m sorry. For a great many things. For putting you across from Luna. For everything you went through with Vita Mors and the horrors you had to endure to make it through the Great Illuminatus. For not being your friend. For subjecting Luna to a glimpse into a reality that’s just beyond her fingertips. For giving her false hope. For showing her an incarnation of you that’s nothing more than a shitty pipe dream. The happy, carefree, doting father living his best life without the weight of the world he placed on his own shoulders like a fucking martyr.
I’m sorry about James and the sacrifice you felt had to make just to see him again. But do you know what I’m most sorry for? What’s going to happen at Into The Void. I’m sorry for the journey we’ve had to make to get here. We’ve sure come a long way, haven’t we, you and I? Two very different peas of a not-so-different pod. Taking roads less travelled over the years to reach a point where we’re finally getting the one thing we’ve craved. Not championships. We’ve both been champions before, we’re both champions now and we’ll be champions in the future. No. Respect. After all, that’s all guys like you and I have ever strove to earn from those around us. To be more than just the almost-theres of professional wrestling. To be looked at with admiration, to know that our hard work and all the blood, sweat and tears was truly worth it.
It’s because we don’t do things by half-measures, Alex, do we? We go big or go home. The hard way. Sure, we might have taken different routes but we’ve still arrived at the same destination. On the precipice of greatness. A shot at the World Championship agonisingly close. The only issue for you is that, more often than not, when you’ve tried to go big before, you've always gone home.
I’m sorry for what you had to do to gain the notoriety you’ve craved not just your career but your entire life. I’m sorry that, to earn the respect you deserved, you felt the need to go outside your comfort zone and enlist in TRIAD. Drafted into the fold as a bonafide nobody, somehow eking through and emerging from the Ghost Ship on the winning team. A textbook case of the right place, right time. But still a bonafide nobody.
I’m sorry that you’ve had to continually scratch and claw your way through the ranks of Sin City Wrestling, only just managing to carve a modest reputation for yourself. Enough to keep you relevant, your name just on the tip of everyone’s tongue but not quite enough for it to roll off seamlessly.
Two years it took you to earn an opportunity you swore you’d get in six months. And yet here you are, another eight months later, finally, FINALLY getting the same opportunity you allowed to slip through your fingers back in October.
Almost three years of fighting, of having people doubt you, question you, slander you, write you off. Mister Irrelevant. The Third Bird. Three years of having to remind everyone just who you are. Three years of ‘I’m Alexander fucking Raven!’
Three years of TL;DRs where you’ve taken a long way for a shortcut. Three years of empty promises and broken dreams. Three years of declaring yourself the man to step to in Sin City Wrestling when instead you’ve become nothing more than the man to step on.
Three years of relying on exploits in places long-forgotten to convince everyone you’re capable of winning the big one. Three years of self-deprivation and wallowing in the doldrums of self-pity. Of being a bitter, angry, stubborn bastard.
Three years of proclamations of being the workhorse of Sin City Wrestling when instead you’ve just become nothing more than its cautionary tale.
Three years of back to the drawing board. Back to formula, trying to work out what went wrong this time, unable to shake that J2H monkey off your back, wondering just what you have to do to get over the finishing line. Just what does Alexander fucking Raven have to do to extinguish the fire of self-doubt that’s engulfed him for so many years?
I’m sorry, Alex. Sorry that this wave of positivity you’ve been riding these past few weeks isn’t going to last. The Spirit of the Fight Championship win in Pro Wrestling Valor. Beating Matt Knox in Nepal. And of course, reaching the Blast From The Past Final. I’m sorry, Alex, that you’re going to have to look at your wife when this is all over and concede she’s had a better SCW career than you.
After all, you know what all this is, Alex, don’t you? Nothing but a glorified purple patch. A rich vein of form. You’ve got the Midas touch where everything around you turns to gold. But you know what happened to King Midas, right? He turned everything he loved into lifeless statues. He realised that even gold becomes a curse when it's all you have left to fight for. And just when you think you’re going to get your hands on the Blast From The Past trophy, it won’t turn to gold, no. It will disintegrate into ash in your hands, sifting through your fingertips like every other opportunity you’ve allowed to fritter away in Sin City Wrestling.
You see, the thing about purple patches is they don’t last forever. Eventually, momentum fades, luck runs out and reality sets in. And I’m sorry, Alex, but for you, the reality is that there are some things destiny doesn’t have planned for you anymore. Destiny has grown bored of giving you the benefit of the doubt, time after time and you can’t fuck with destiny. No more than you can argue with a brick wall. Destiny is like a tsunami. You can’t surf it or stop it. All you can do is brace yourself and wait for it to wash over you, accepting that some of us are destined for second place.
I’m sorry, Alex. I truly wish things were different. I wish it were Mark Cross I was facing instead of you, so I could spare you this pain; this heartache. But SCW management opened the forbidden door and in doing so, they let in something far more dangerous than a lazy, overfed dragon. Far more dangerous than a reinvigorated Raven. Far more lethal than a Janitor whose best days are behind him. They let in an Assassin who very rarely misses. See, whilst lately we’ve been on similar trajectories, Alex, the main difference between us is I don’t do purple patches. Like Knox said, I’m no longer the underdog in professional wrestling, no longer the guy that’s brought in to make up the numbers. I’m now the one you can’t ignore. The one that when his name is said, you turn your head.
Inside that Nepalese pyramid, whilst you were committing aviancide against another Raven, I was putting the most dangerous wolf in professional wrestling out of her misery and taking down the SEB Empire. I did what you couldn’t do in your set of Trials and that was take them by storm instead of humming and hawing; trying to figure out where I fit in.
For over 160 days I’ve ruled dominion over Anarchy in XWF, its longest-reigning champion, running my blade through every challenger. I’ve made history in Zion Wrestling by becoming the first-ever two-time Endurance Champion. And here, on your hometurf of SCW, Luna and I have become the perfect, well-oiled machine the Conspiracy never was. I crushed poor little Artie’s fledgling career before it even got off the ground. I put a stop to Teddy’s little resurgence before he could barely get a foot back in the door and bulldozed through the perennial gatekeeper that is Bill Barnhart. That’s the difference between us. What I’ve achieved? What I’m STILL achieving? It’s evolved beyond more than just a purple patch. I’m sorry, Alex, but this isn’t a phase. This is what consistency looks like. This is dominance.
And those wings of yours, my sweet Raven? They aren't made of feathers. They're made of wax. You've felt the rush and excitement of a few noteworthy victories and it’s made you fly higher each time. However, this is one flight you shouldn’t have made, Icarus. Those wings are going to melt and you will plummet back down to earth. As for me, whilst you’re flying too close to the sun, blinded by its light, I’m harnessing it because I was meant to fly, Alex, destined to soar. Whilst you’re the architect of your own self-destruction, I’m the artist of my own success, every brush stroke precise and thought-out and in Hawaii, I’m going to finish my masterpiece.
And of course there is no show without punch, is there? Whilst I’m sincerely sorry for what’s going to happen to Alex Raven, when it comes to you, Alexandra Calaway? I’ve got no apologies, just an empty bag that used to be filled with fucks but for you? I’ve got none left to give. Because what can I say to you that Mark Cross didn’t cover before? Your penchant for hitting the block button on Twitter harder than any opponent you’ve ever faced? That your skin is thinner than the ice you’re skating on? And to think that, once upon a time, when I burst onto the scene in Zion last year, that I actually had you on my dream match list. But before I could shoot my shot, you did what you’ve done practically everywhere you’ve wrestled - slithered out the back door and vanished like a fart in the wind. And now? I’ve outgrown you. I’ll let Luna have her fun with you. So do your worst, Alexandra, compile all the stats you can about me and compare my style to Raven’s.
In fact, I’ll do it for you, save you the time and effort. I’m five-foot-ten and I weigh two hundred and fifteen pounds. I was born in Dunfermline, Scotland but I now live in Pasadena, California. My first pet was a guinea pig called Squeak. My wrestling style is a mixture of high-flyer and technical and my finishing move is the Masamune Decapitation. Did you get all that? Need me to write it down for you? That should be enough to give you a head start at least. Call it a small mercy or a free pass, whatever the fuck you want. But trust me, it’s the only free pass you’ll get from me, Ally. At Into The Void, like I told Alex, there’s a tsunami of destiny coming in over the horizon and you can’t escape it. Once Luna and I are finished, you'll be left to drown in a tide of home truths you’ve been hiding from this entire tournament. That you’re not meant for this. Neither of you are.
This is where a Blast From The Past becomes a brutal reality check for why some things are better left on the cobbles of memory lane. And this little nostalgic trip is about to collide head-first with the reality you've both desperately tried to ignore. Don’t worry though, because if losses are just lessons in failure, you both should be wiser than Master Yoda by now.
I am genuinely sorry though, Alex. But this Broken Messiah’s altar is fractured beyond repair and I no longer believe in you. I have to take matters into my own hands. Luna isn’t getting the dub this time. I’m unsheathing Masamune and I’m slicing her across your neck. It will be quick though, I promise. I owe you that much.
I need to know though. Are you listening, Alex? Are you following? Do you understand? I need you to listen. I need you to follow. I need you to understand.
I am Sean Parker. King of the Skies. The Sky Assassin. XWF Anarchy Champion. Zion Wrestling Endurance Champion. Soon-to-be 2024 Blast From The Past Winner and future SCW World Champion. I’m sorry.”
And then…
Darkness.
Silence.
Nothing.
Off-Camera
A Meeting of Minds
I looked at the device in my hand. The source of so much heartache, so many headfucks over the last five months. But what did it say about me that I kept coming back for more? That there was always something else I needed to see. Something else I needed to experience. I didn’t want to. I needed to.
Like I always did, more out of a recurring habit than anything else, I rolled the contraption between my finger and thumb, clicking it open, revealing the faceless void. The red mist weaved and contorted like a starling murmuration, captivating and mesmerising.
But for the first time ever, I didn’t know what I wanted to see. Over the months I’d seen so many things I didn’t ever think I would. Going back to see my father’s funeral that I barely remember because I was just a toddler; a chance to give me the closure I so desperately needed after a lifetime of unanswered questions. A conversation with Nikola Tesla about how to stop a fucking space wizard from wrecking the world with a once-thought-to-be-mythical artefact. Helping Luna Pasilno see a future where she and Alex Raven were the loving parents she’d always dreamed they’d be.
That one was hard. Luna and I had developed quite the eclectic friendship over the past few months since our pairing for SCW’s Blast From The Past Tournament. I knew both her and Raven were both absolute shitheels. I’d seen the tapes and I’d personally encountered Raven himself back in December. Even so, something about Luna was endearing. I felt like I had an obligation to be the brother she no longer had. Help guide her to make the right decisions; keep her on the straight-and-narrow. So when she looked at me with those tear-filled glassy eyes during our trip into the Void, cradling baby violet in her arms, it really was like I’d just taken a flamethrower and torched everything we’d achieved together, the trust we’d built between the two of us.
The sound of a baby’s crying snapped me from my stupor. Amelia. My six-week old daughter. The most beautiful little thing I’d ever clapped my eyes on. Her face was contorted in a gurgling cry, her pacifier lying on its side just centimetres away.
“Sshh, it’s alright, sweetheart, daddy’s here,” I said in a calming voice, reaching down into her crib and gently stroking her cheek with the back of my hand. Her big Disney-like emerald green jewels stared up at me, realisation setting in as the combination of my voice’s familiarity and my face looking down at her started to calm her. I smiled exaggeratingly, as all dads do, and nodded. “That’s right, daddy’s here, yes he is. Daddy’s here.”
Slowly but surely, her gurgling cries dissipated. That heart-wrenching expression she wore on her face steadily melted away and one of wonder and amazement replaced it. Amelia just looked at me, her mouth almost twisting into a smile as I reached over to her pacifier and let it slide effortlessly back into her mouth. The gentle sucking sounds that followed soon started to slow as her eyes started to get heavy. Seconds later, she was out for the count and all I could was smile. Then, something I didn’t expect disturbed the peace I was revelling in.
“My, my, such a beautiful child. So innocent, so free. She looks just like her mother, does she not? Minus the blue hair, of course. But her eyes? Those are her father’s eyes for sure.”
My instincts took over, whirling around throwing a backfist that hit nothing but thin air. I knew that voice all too well by now. It couldn’t be, could it? How could he be here?
“Mors?”
“Tsk, tsk, tsk, so primitive you humans, always resorting to violence.”
“Where the fuck are you, Mors?” I thundered in as hushed a tone as I could muster so as not to wake my sleeping daughter.
“You should know by now, Mister Parker, I’m where I’ve always been. Right here. Veni domum, remember?”
It then dawned on me. I had completely forgotten. The Key was still in my hand, clicked open, the red mist still flowing gracefully like a winding snake. A gateway to the Void. A gateway to him. It was as if he could see me, the way he talked, the way he eerily described Amelia, like he was staring at her through my eyes.
“Ahh, the penny drops at last. I thought you were more attuned than this, Mister Parker.”
I closed my eyes, running my fingertips around the edges of the Key, concentrating. I’d stumbled upon my ability to commune with Vita Mors through the Void by sheer happenstance during Luna’s inaugural venture. It was the first time I’d heard even the smallest semblance of surprise in his voice when I somehow replied back to him as he attempted to manipulate me to continue with the task he’d assigned to me. This time though, it came naturally, like riding a bike. I couldn’t explain it even if I tried.
“What do you want, Mors? I did what you asked, I showed Luna what you asked me to and now it’s completely wrecked any trust she had in me.”
“The status of your association with Ms Pasilno is of no interest to me, Mister Parker. I must say though, I was rather disappointed that neither you nor Mister Rabenschwarz were able to take ownership of the TRIAD. Alas, I will need to explore other avenues."
“What did you expect? It was never a foregone conclusion, Mors! I did my best and I’m proud of what I achieved inside the Great Illuminatus! Both Alex and I-“
“Pride is inconsequential, Mister Parker. The fact remains that both you and Mister Rabenschwarz failed to fulfil the tasks I set for the two of you. Shame really, I had such high hopes for you both. Nevertheless, you have proven yourself to be useful, Mister Parker. Your ability to traverse the Void so seamlessly and your… other skills… you have been most impressive. I may yet have more use for you in the future.”
“Look! I showed Luna what you wanted her to see! That’s what you asked me to do and I did it. There’s nothing else for us now. I’m done being your puppet on a set of strings.”
I suddenly felt a pinch inside my head, that same feeling I had when I tried to renege on what I showed Luna beforehand. Like the stem of my brain was being squeezed. My eyes widened in pain but no noise came out of my mouth when it happened. My hand instinctively navigated to the back of my head as if to stop whatever it was but I knew it was to no avail. A desperate, guttural grunt was all that I managed to eke out of my throat.
“That is where you are wrong, Mister Parker. When it comes to you and I, there is always something else. Let’s take a walk, shall we?”
What happened next was like nothing I had ever experienced when traversing the Void on my own. I had grown accustomed to the butterflies in my stomach, the feeling like going from zero to a hundred in less than a second. The feeling of slight disorientation when I ‘landed’, like getting off a rollercoaster.
Not this though. This was like being thrown off the rollercoaster mid-flight. The feeling at the back of my head had disappeared but had travelled instantly to my spine. The same surgically-repaired, metallic-alloy-infused spine I had fractured as a teenager. It felt like Mors had literally shoved his hand inside my back and wrapped it around my vertebrae. That same pain I’d felt all those years ago was suddenly as present as it was back then. My legs started to tingle, growing numb. Panic set in, a coldness creeping over my body. I was suddenly fifteen again, lying in the middle of the ring, terrified of the unknown. I knew this time though.
Again, all I wanted to do was scream out and collapse to my knees but it was like I was being held in place and then… nothing. Just blackness. Had I passed out? Like before too, my hand reflexively journeyed to my back, rubbing the area only seconds before I’d felt that searing pain but it was gone. A fingertip then nestled under my chin and lifted it up, inclining my head upwards. And there he stood. My eyes widened for a second time. Expecting to see the incomparable masked figure of Vita Mors staring down at me, it was the smiling face of my… father.
“Dad?”
He didn’t speak. Instead he used the finger still resting under my chin to guide me back to my feet. It couldn’t be home. After everything I’d seen in the past few months, I knew this was likely just a trick.
“You’re not my dad.”
I reached out to touch him and he disappeared into a cloud of smoke. I looked around me. It was still nothing but blackness all around me. I held my arms out, in a beckoning fashion.
“You’re gonna have to do better than that if you want to get inside my head, Mors!”
“On the contrary, Mister Parker. Why would I want to get inside your head when we’re already here ourselves?”
Mors voice again echoed through me. A young girl’s voice then suddenly caught my attention.
“Daddy! Daddy! You’re home! I missed you!”
I spun around in the direction of the sound. And there, running towards me was a little girl, probably about ten years old. Long, dirty blonde hair, the biggest emerald-green eyes. She wrapped her arms around my waist, hugging me tightly.
“Amelia?!”
Seeing a glimpse of my own daughter as a beautiful, young lady caught me off-guard. I wanted so badly to just wrap my arms around her too but I resisted. It wasn’t real. Was Mors testing me? I screwed my face up, shutting my eyes tight and bit down on my bottom lip and pushed the apparition away and she too vanished into a plume of nothingness.
“Come on, Mors, is that the best you've got?!" I shouted, “What is this?!”
“You should know better than anyone, Sean. We’re in your head after all. I would’ve thought you would’ve been able to give me the guided tour!”
I tried to keep my composure. Mors always had a method to his madness but this one was a headfuck beyond anything I’d experienced before and that was saying something. Why was he testing me and what was he testing me for?
“Sean! Hey fella, come on, we’ve got a match to prepare for, so we do! Get in your gear!”
Nah, no way. The thick Northern Irish accent was a dead giveaway. I craned my neck to see my former tag team partner and best friend from my HWA days. Matt Miller. We were destined for tag team championship glory before my uncle, the company owner, had decided not to renew my contract after my spinal injury.
“You’re not real, Matt,” I said bluntly, trying my best to refuse to buy into whatever game Mors was playing. Just like before, as soon as I pushed my hands through the apparition, it too vanished as quickly as it had appeared.
“I don’t know what you’re trying to do here, Mors, if this is some kind of test or what?!”
Suddenly, the blackness that I stood in was replaced by a familiar setting. I recognised the churchyard, the church itself, the small cottage next to it with the red tiles on the roof.
“My dad’s funeral? Really?” Nice try, Mors, but I’ve made my peace with this!” I shouted defiantly as I looked on to the familiar scene playing out in front of me. The group of people standing in front of a pre-dug plot in the cemetery, just like the many times I’d made this trip before, I wasn’t seen. A ghost, for all intents and purposes. I looked at the people in mourning, adorned from head-to-toe in black. I saw the adults with their backs to me - Uncle Butch, Aunt Diana and Sergeant Reynolds, my dad’s old commanding officer. And the small child with dirty blonde hair. Two-year old Sean, unable to understand the gravity of what was going on.
I rolled my eyes. I’d seen this a thousand times before and like I’d just told Mors, I’d made my peace with it. So why was he subjecting me to it again? I walked around the plot, noticing the coffin being lowered. My brow furrowed. Something wasn’t right. No Union Jack draped over it. Instead several championship belts were. I recognised them! The XWF Universal Championship, the SCW World Championship, the Zion Wrestling Endurance Championship and the FCW Great Lakes Championships. All belts I either held or had the desire or opportunity to compete for in the future. A lump caught in my throat. Then I saw the adults. Not Uncle Butch, Aunt Diana or Sergeant Reynolds. Eve! My wife, veil over her face, tears streaking down her face. A man and woman next to her. Luna?! Her arm wrapped comfortingly around her shoulder. The man… no fucking way. Raven?! The child, their back still to me, was leaning into his leg, and pointed towards the casket. When I heard their voice, my heart sank.
“Uncle Alex, is daddy sleeping in there?”
As I saw her turn her head, my chest felt like it was being crushed as Alex Raven crouched down in front of my daughter. He stroked her cheek and pulled her in close.
“Yeah, Amy, daddy’s sleeping in there.”
I couldn’t breathe. Like my lungs had suddenly disappeared and my chest was filled with nothing. I shook my head from side to side, refusing to believe what I was seeing. The priest then started to speak.
“May Sean’s soul find peace and eternal rest in the loving embrace of God. And may his wife, Eve, his daughter, Amelia and their closest friends, Luna and Alexander, find comfort in the memories they shared, the love they received, and the support of those around them. May they find strength in each other and may they be surrounded by compassion and understanding as they navigate their grief. Amen.”
I collapsed to my knees, watching my wife sob her heart out. Watching Luna comforting her. Seeing Alexander fucking Raven picking up my daughter in his arms. No! This wasn’t real! As much as it felt like real, it couldn’t be! I clenched my fists tight, so much so my knuckles turned white as I climbed to my feet.
“THIS ISN’T REAL, MORS!” I bellowed. “WHATEVER THIS IS, I’M NOT FALLING FOR IT!”
I squeezed the Key to the Void with one of my fists, focusing, concentrating.
“VENI DOMUM!”
The churchyard suddenly fell apart, like a collapsing sandcastle and within seconds I was back in my house. It took me a moment to regain my bearings. Amelia was sleeping peacefully away, sucking on her pacifier without a care in the world.
“I’m proud of you, Sean. You’re ready. This is going to be fun.”
“Let’s play a game of ‘Fuck Off’, Mors. You go first.”
I clicked the Key shut and put it back in my pocket. Out of sight, out of mind.
Scene Two
On-Camera
Sorry, Not Sorry
“The mind is cruel. Capable of great but terrible things. The quintessential double-edged sword. In gaming terms you’d call it a glass cannon. Capable of performing brutal acts more hurtful than any blade, firearm or fist. But when it comes under siege itself, it collapses quicker than a noob in over his head.
Astonishing, isn’t it? That something so frail is responsible for such a valuable payload. But the mind is very much a Jekyll and Hyde. A rampant, uncontrollable monster, snaring you within its powerful grasp. The same beautiful mind that can inspire greatness can also paralyse with crippling anxiety, making you doubt everything you ever knew. Make you question every lesson you ever learned.
It’s a never-ending battle I don’t think any of us ever truly master. To keep our balance as we traverse that almost indistinguishable line between tapping into the mind’s beautiful potential and yielding to its less-than-desirable, darker impulses. What do you do? Learn to control it, mould it, bend it to your will and make it your greatest strength? Or yield and allow it to become the nemesis you wish you never had, greater than any foe or rival you’ve faced in the ring. The kind that leads you down the path of no-return that few ever come back from?
We’ve experienced both sides of the coin, haven’t we, Alex? Felt the uplifting feeling that fills you with euphoria. But the darkened face. That’s the kicker, isn’t it? To be on the brink of despair only to be pulled back with just the slimmest glimmer of hope as a bargaining chip. That’s you, Alex, isn’t it?
Such a cruel tool, the mind. The perfect duality. To both plant seeds of greatness and birth the origin stories of our grimmest fears. However, only a select few can balance between the dark and the light and emerge unscathed. I’m sorry, Alex, but that’s not you.
I’m sorry, but the mind is a double-edged sword, Alex, and you’ve gripped the blade with both hands. Those cuts running down your palms are as deep as the dark thoughts you can’t seem to ever escape.
I am so sorry it’s come to this, Alex. I really am. I wish things had worked out differently. After everything that’s happened before, in the days and weeks leading up to this moment. I’m sorry. For a great many things. For putting you across from Luna. For everything you went through with Vita Mors and the horrors you had to endure to make it through the Great Illuminatus. For not being your friend. For subjecting Luna to a glimpse into a reality that’s just beyond her fingertips. For giving her false hope. For showing her an incarnation of you that’s nothing more than a shitty pipe dream. The happy, carefree, doting father living his best life without the weight of the world he placed on his own shoulders like a fucking martyr.
I’m sorry about James and the sacrifice you felt had to make just to see him again. But do you know what I’m most sorry for? What’s going to happen at Into The Void. I’m sorry for the journey we’ve had to make to get here. We’ve sure come a long way, haven’t we, you and I? Two very different peas of a not-so-different pod. Taking roads less travelled over the years to reach a point where we’re finally getting the one thing we’ve craved. Not championships. We’ve both been champions before, we’re both champions now and we’ll be champions in the future. No. Respect. After all, that’s all guys like you and I have ever strove to earn from those around us. To be more than just the almost-theres of professional wrestling. To be looked at with admiration, to know that our hard work and all the blood, sweat and tears was truly worth it.
It’s because we don’t do things by half-measures, Alex, do we? We go big or go home. The hard way. Sure, we might have taken different routes but we’ve still arrived at the same destination. On the precipice of greatness. A shot at the World Championship agonisingly close. The only issue for you is that, more often than not, when you’ve tried to go big before, you've always gone home.
I’m sorry for what you had to do to gain the notoriety you’ve craved not just your career but your entire life. I’m sorry that, to earn the respect you deserved, you felt the need to go outside your comfort zone and enlist in TRIAD. Drafted into the fold as a bonafide nobody, somehow eking through and emerging from the Ghost Ship on the winning team. A textbook case of the right place, right time. But still a bonafide nobody.
I’m sorry that you’ve had to continually scratch and claw your way through the ranks of Sin City Wrestling, only just managing to carve a modest reputation for yourself. Enough to keep you relevant, your name just on the tip of everyone’s tongue but not quite enough for it to roll off seamlessly.
Two years it took you to earn an opportunity you swore you’d get in six months. And yet here you are, another eight months later, finally, FINALLY getting the same opportunity you allowed to slip through your fingers back in October.
Almost three years of fighting, of having people doubt you, question you, slander you, write you off. Mister Irrelevant. The Third Bird. Three years of having to remind everyone just who you are. Three years of ‘I’m Alexander fucking Raven!’
Three years of TL;DRs where you’ve taken a long way for a shortcut. Three years of empty promises and broken dreams. Three years of declaring yourself the man to step to in Sin City Wrestling when instead you’ve become nothing more than the man to step on.
Three years of relying on exploits in places long-forgotten to convince everyone you’re capable of winning the big one. Three years of self-deprivation and wallowing in the doldrums of self-pity. Of being a bitter, angry, stubborn bastard.
Three years of proclamations of being the workhorse of Sin City Wrestling when instead you’ve just become nothing more than its cautionary tale.
Three years of back to the drawing board. Back to formula, trying to work out what went wrong this time, unable to shake that J2H monkey off your back, wondering just what you have to do to get over the finishing line. Just what does Alexander fucking Raven have to do to extinguish the fire of self-doubt that’s engulfed him for so many years?
I’m sorry, Alex. Sorry that this wave of positivity you’ve been riding these past few weeks isn’t going to last. The Spirit of the Fight Championship win in Pro Wrestling Valor. Beating Matt Knox in Nepal. And of course, reaching the Blast From The Past Final. I’m sorry, Alex, that you’re going to have to look at your wife when this is all over and concede she’s had a better SCW career than you.
After all, you know what all this is, Alex, don’t you? Nothing but a glorified purple patch. A rich vein of form. You’ve got the Midas touch where everything around you turns to gold. But you know what happened to King Midas, right? He turned everything he loved into lifeless statues. He realised that even gold becomes a curse when it's all you have left to fight for. And just when you think you’re going to get your hands on the Blast From The Past trophy, it won’t turn to gold, no. It will disintegrate into ash in your hands, sifting through your fingertips like every other opportunity you’ve allowed to fritter away in Sin City Wrestling.
You see, the thing about purple patches is they don’t last forever. Eventually, momentum fades, luck runs out and reality sets in. And I’m sorry, Alex, but for you, the reality is that there are some things destiny doesn’t have planned for you anymore. Destiny has grown bored of giving you the benefit of the doubt, time after time and you can’t fuck with destiny. No more than you can argue with a brick wall. Destiny is like a tsunami. You can’t surf it or stop it. All you can do is brace yourself and wait for it to wash over you, accepting that some of us are destined for second place.
I’m sorry, Alex. I truly wish things were different. I wish it were Mark Cross I was facing instead of you, so I could spare you this pain; this heartache. But SCW management opened the forbidden door and in doing so, they let in something far more dangerous than a lazy, overfed dragon. Far more dangerous than a reinvigorated Raven. Far more lethal than a Janitor whose best days are behind him. They let in an Assassin who very rarely misses. See, whilst lately we’ve been on similar trajectories, Alex, the main difference between us is I don’t do purple patches. Like Knox said, I’m no longer the underdog in professional wrestling, no longer the guy that’s brought in to make up the numbers. I’m now the one you can’t ignore. The one that when his name is said, you turn your head.
Inside that Nepalese pyramid, whilst you were committing aviancide against another Raven, I was putting the most dangerous wolf in professional wrestling out of her misery and taking down the SEB Empire. I did what you couldn’t do in your set of Trials and that was take them by storm instead of humming and hawing; trying to figure out where I fit in.
For over 160 days I’ve ruled dominion over Anarchy in XWF, its longest-reigning champion, running my blade through every challenger. I’ve made history in Zion Wrestling by becoming the first-ever two-time Endurance Champion. And here, on your hometurf of SCW, Luna and I have become the perfect, well-oiled machine the Conspiracy never was. I crushed poor little Artie’s fledgling career before it even got off the ground. I put a stop to Teddy’s little resurgence before he could barely get a foot back in the door and bulldozed through the perennial gatekeeper that is Bill Barnhart. That’s the difference between us. What I’ve achieved? What I’m STILL achieving? It’s evolved beyond more than just a purple patch. I’m sorry, Alex, but this isn’t a phase. This is what consistency looks like. This is dominance.
And those wings of yours, my sweet Raven? They aren't made of feathers. They're made of wax. You've felt the rush and excitement of a few noteworthy victories and it’s made you fly higher each time. However, this is one flight you shouldn’t have made, Icarus. Those wings are going to melt and you will plummet back down to earth. As for me, whilst you’re flying too close to the sun, blinded by its light, I’m harnessing it because I was meant to fly, Alex, destined to soar. Whilst you’re the architect of your own self-destruction, I’m the artist of my own success, every brush stroke precise and thought-out and in Hawaii, I’m going to finish my masterpiece.
And of course there is no show without punch, is there? Whilst I’m sincerely sorry for what’s going to happen to Alex Raven, when it comes to you, Alexandra Calaway? I’ve got no apologies, just an empty bag that used to be filled with fucks but for you? I’ve got none left to give. Because what can I say to you that Mark Cross didn’t cover before? Your penchant for hitting the block button on Twitter harder than any opponent you’ve ever faced? That your skin is thinner than the ice you’re skating on? And to think that, once upon a time, when I burst onto the scene in Zion last year, that I actually had you on my dream match list. But before I could shoot my shot, you did what you’ve done practically everywhere you’ve wrestled - slithered out the back door and vanished like a fart in the wind. And now? I’ve outgrown you. I’ll let Luna have her fun with you. So do your worst, Alexandra, compile all the stats you can about me and compare my style to Raven’s.
In fact, I’ll do it for you, save you the time and effort. I’m five-foot-ten and I weigh two hundred and fifteen pounds. I was born in Dunfermline, Scotland but I now live in Pasadena, California. My first pet was a guinea pig called Squeak. My wrestling style is a mixture of high-flyer and technical and my finishing move is the Masamune Decapitation. Did you get all that? Need me to write it down for you? That should be enough to give you a head start at least. Call it a small mercy or a free pass, whatever the fuck you want. But trust me, it’s the only free pass you’ll get from me, Ally. At Into The Void, like I told Alex, there’s a tsunami of destiny coming in over the horizon and you can’t escape it. Once Luna and I are finished, you'll be left to drown in a tide of home truths you’ve been hiding from this entire tournament. That you’re not meant for this. Neither of you are.
This is where a Blast From The Past becomes a brutal reality check for why some things are better left on the cobbles of memory lane. And this little nostalgic trip is about to collide head-first with the reality you've both desperately tried to ignore. Don’t worry though, because if losses are just lessons in failure, you both should be wiser than Master Yoda by now.
I am genuinely sorry though, Alex. But this Broken Messiah’s altar is fractured beyond repair and I no longer believe in you. I have to take matters into my own hands. Luna isn’t getting the dub this time. I’m unsheathing Masamune and I’m slicing her across your neck. It will be quick though, I promise. I owe you that much.
I need to know though. Are you listening, Alex? Are you following? Do you understand? I need you to listen. I need you to follow. I need you to understand.
I am Sean Parker. King of the Skies. The Sky Assassin. XWF Anarchy Champion. Zion Wrestling Endurance Champion. Soon-to-be 2024 Blast From The Past Winner and future SCW World Champion. I’m sorry.”
And then…
Darkness.
Silence.
Nothing.