Blaze of Glory
After The Show
Golden Ring Casino
Blaze of Glory had come and gone. Finally after years of working on the roster and doing my best to rise up through the ranks I had found myself as the World Champion. Everything I had desperately worked my ass off for was finally upon me. It was supposed to be my big night in the main event. It was the night where I would be looked upon as being the best in the world and yet by the end of the night that had simply come and gone. I was no longer the champion. What seemed to be that of the fantastic dream became that of my biggest nightmare over the span of three weeks. I didn’t know where to turn. Losses always seemed to sting hard and as much as she tried my best to put it behind me and be a good sport about the entire situation the truth is I couldn’t move on.
Where did I go wrong?! So many crazy thoughts were flooding through my mind. Yet the show was over with. Never in a million years would I have pictured my return to Golden Ring being like this. Everybody was cleaning things up as all of the other wrestlers were changing in preparation to take the bus back to the hotel. Yet I just couldn’t go back to the changing area or be around the others.
I know on the outside I have this habit of putting up a good front but the fact is deep on the inside I felt down about the entire situation. I wasn’t a happy camper. I was disappointed in myself and my own abilities. I drifted away from where I was supposed to be and my journey took me to that of the casino’s bar area. I wasn’t supposed to be there but something was pulling me there. It was weird to see how empty things were in the casino. On any other day the bar area as well as the gaming floor would be filled with people but Covid-19 completely changed that entire philosophy.
I smiled as I looked at the bar. In my head I could envision Danielle and I having some serious girl talk ranging from conversations about Austin’s abs to just giggle fits about me using my feminine charm serving drinks and food to people to earn the highest tips. I could also see Danielle drinking up a storm and her laughing at me because I would usually opt for a ginger-ale or maybe a club soda. I don’t even know how I found myself to serving drinks as that really wouldn’t be ideal for a recovering alcoholic but I stood my ground.
Yet as I walked closer to the bar something took a hold of me, and that’s when I could see everything before my very eyes. It was me… It was all of the different shades of me. Every single personality, every single inner thought was right there before me and they each were calling out to me.
Crystal Hilton: How in the fuck did you lose?! You are seriously one big fuck up aren’t you?! This was supposed to be your big break. You were supposed to silence the critics and yet you couldn’t even beat Andrea Hernandez. You must love failing don’t you?!
Silver Screen Queen: This was supposed to be a Hollywood blockbuster. Superstardom awaited us but it was a big time flop. How can you get the accolades and expect for people to roll out the red carpet for you if you can’t get past the opening act?! You aren’t worthy of being a star, you are merely a supporting actress at best…
Blossoming Rose: You don’t need to listen to them. As long as you tried your best that’s all that matters right?!
I honestly couldn’t take it. The voices and the personalities were all getting the best of me. I just wanted them to stop and I didn’t say anything as I continued to walk towards the bar. I knew I shouldn’t have been there but yet the pull was way too much. Daniel and Danielle would kill me if they knew what I was doing but I didn’t care. Perhaps this is how it was meant to be.
I finally made it to the bar. I sighed as I had the tears in my eyes. I grabbed the bottle of Grey Goose and stood there for a moment. I could hear footsteps coming in my direction. Maybe I should have put the bottle back but I didn’t want to do so.
Blossoming Rose: Listen Christina you don’t need to do this. If you open that bottle you are going to do something you regret. You don’t need to get overly emotional over one lost that isn’t who you are anymore. Just think about all the good you have done. Just think about the hard strides you have made as of lately. You have worked your ass off to make things right with Seleana…When you lost the movie studio you could have called it quits and sat on your ass but you didn’t. You humbled yourself. You started waiting tables and it eventually elevated you to becoming an event coordinator at this casino. You build relationships with people and now you have a little girl with Leukemia who looks up to you. Just think about Aurora what would she say if she saw her hero giving into the pressure of temptation and depression?!
I stood there trembling with the bottle in my hand but of course the darkest parts of myself had to reel me back in.
Crystal Hilton: Yet that’s only a half ass truth. The fact is you are still an awful mother. Brittany hates you and let’s not start on about Brayden. Has Seleana really forgiven you?! She is just like the others. It won’t be long until she kicks you to the curb and it’s going to be the same exact story as it was with Todd, Maleek, Steve, Jonathan, and of course now Seleana. They got what they wanted out of you and we all know you are unlovable. You hear how people talk about you every day. You are a fake ass bitch. You are a phony. You are nothing. No matter what you do nobody will ever approve of you so you might as well just do what you want to do. Drink that bottle… No take it straight to the head and of course let me come out and play.
Silver Screen Queen: Let’s be honest here… We already know how this is all going to play out. Back and forth we go. The world all shits on you despite you trying to do things their way. You might as well tell them they can all go fuck themselves. It’s what you are known for doing isn’t it…
I just shook my head as I looked as the arrogant Crystal Hilton and the spotlight having Silver Screen Queen. I sigh as SSQ’s pearly whites looked like that of huge spotlights not to mention it felt like she had a ton of paparazzi behind her flashing away with photo after photo.
Silver Screen Queen: Hollywood whore… Passed out on the floor… I am sorry but the party’s over…
Me: SHUT UP!!!!!! The party isn’t over…STOP SINGING THAT SONG!!!
Blossoming Rose: You don’t need to listen to that Christina. You know you can always fight back up. You are better than that.
Crystal Hilton: Latina Trash Queen, American Dream, Oh what a role model…Throwing a fit, Making a Scene like there’s no tomorrow!
Me: STOP FUCKING SINGING!!!
The two different versions of myself glance at me as they chuckle in return.
Crystal Hilton: Let’s be honest we already know how this is going to go don't we… It’s an endless cycle that you just can’t beat! It’s one you could never beat and it’s a cycle that has been going on for the past 19 years in your life! Soon as you run into a situation that you can’t deal with or one in which paints you in a bad light you go back to what you are comfortable with. You don’t know how to deal with your problems. You jump from good to evil and right back to neutral in a span of twenty minutes because you long to be accepted. You long to receive that bit of worth.
Silver Screen Queen: How do you think we were created in the first place?! It’s because you don’t have appreciation of yourself. Crystal Hilton was created because you felt hurt because you were picked on at school. Everybody made front of you because you were a lame ass pitcher for softball. It wasn’t the popular thing but instead of sticking to what you believed in and being the best you could be. You listened to the opinions of everybody else. You found that appreciation in a guy named Todd Williams instead of finding it in yourself, and that connection with him brought you to throwing away your very identity for a brand new one.
Crystal Hilton: Yes little Christina may have been pregnant at the age of 13 but who gives a shit right?! As long as you could create a new personality you didn’t have to accept who you were but could forge something new. Yet even after forming me you could have been the biggest Bitch in the world yet you couldn’t even stick to that. You needed the unknown and of course…
Another version of myself forms up in front of me. It’s that of La Paloma. The masked beauty just flicks her brown hair as she glances at me.
Paloma: Of course you have me. Free to be an unknown to hide away that of Crystal Hilton. Free to basically be whatever you want without being judged. Yet you couldn’t even stick to me. You wanted people to know who you are. You were quick to shed me like I didn’t even matter.
Crystal Hilton: Which seems to be par for the course. Too afraid to be the big bad Bitch who doesn’t give a fuck. Too afraid to be the unknown. It’s just an up and down ferris wheel or run around in circles merry go round for you when it comes to sticking to something isn’t it?! You can’t stick to anything can you?!
Silver Screen Queen: Of course when those don’t work out you could always run off to Hollywood where you could be whatever and whoever you want. Why bring your true self to light when you could put on twenty shades of makeup and bring about ten different costume changes. Do whatever you can so you can finally be accepted. I mean what did Seleana tell you a year ago?!
Crystal Hilton: Oh my Swedish sweet fishy would you like to tell your wife how you really feel about her?!
With that Crystal smiles as me as she snaps her finger and the same Seleana that cut a promo a year ago appears before me.
Seleana Zdunich: I know you do not believe in me because you do not believe in yourself. Alicia knows it, Dani knows it, Christian knows it, I know it and you know it…
She smiles as she walks towards me glaring daggers at me.
Seleana Zdunich: We know you don’t believe in yourself because of how often you change personas when one does not work anymore. On Sunday in Anaheim, that belt will finally leave my bag. It will walk to that ring at Blaze of Glory VII and it will then sit ringside as Alicia, Dani and I take turns playing let’s shatter the Crystal and, as you mentioned, this is the perfect place to do that because it is YOUR town. You claim Los Angeles as your town even though you are no more from here than the rest of us are. Dani is from Florida, Alicia is from Georgia and I am from another country and we all come to where this daughter of Detroit became just as plastic and overly shiny and calculated for attention as everything else that comes from the Hollywood area!
Seleana smiles as she continues to walk towards me.
Seleana Zdunich: Let’s not pretend this is really about a championship for you because it was never about that. The only reason you want that championship is because it means everyone has to pay homage to you as the one sitting on the throne until somebody else comes and knocks you off of it! You want the attention that comes with the belt, not the belt itself.You did not trust me to bring the championship home where you could walk around and act like one of those mothers with the “My child is an honor student at” bumper stickers as if their child’s achievement is really their achievement and claim my championship standing as yours because you trained and married me. You had no faith in me…
The words are like daggers to me. That version of Seleana from that vicious promo still haunts me. I can’t help but run away as it feels like I am being ganged up on.
Crystal Hilton: Why are you running?!
Silver Screen Queen: Is it because the truth hurts?!
Paloma: The more you run away from the truth is the more you are going to run away from reality. You are just going to keep the cycle going. The only reason why any of this hurts is because it’s reality to you isn’t it?! Yet no personality, no costume change, would ever change who you are deep within… If that’s what you are looking for then…
I can’t let them talk to me like that. I just can’t have it. I find myself running throughout the casino. Maybe I should have made my way towards that of that private chartered bus but I couldn’t let people see me like this. With the bottle of grey goose in my hand I quickly ran into that of my office. It was the only place I could possibly think of. I shut the door behind me as I breathed heavily slumping down against the door. I open the bottle but that’s when that other version of myself speaks to me.
Blossoming Rose: Listen you are better than this. I know it and you definitely should know it…
Me: THEY ARE RIGHT…. ALL OF THEM ARE FUCKING RIGHT!!! I don’t want to deal with anything close to the truth so I just pile on a ton of bullshit to make myself feel good! Just leave me the fuck alone and let me live my miserable life.
I slowly bring the bottle up to my lips. A single sip of this bottle would have made it all go away. I could have swallowed my sorrows away. I could have kept burying the truth yet that innocent part of me continued to reach me.
Blossoming Rose: Listen…Before you do that take a look at the wall...If you still feel like you do by all means drink that bottle I won’t try to stop you…
With that I turn my eyes to that of my wall and I was shocked to see there was a replica SCW World Championship on the wall along with a huge plaque that reads first ever Four Time Champion complete with congratulations on behalf of Golden Ring casino. I let some tears roll down my cheek as I look back at my bubbly personality.
Blossoming Rose: You see… Just because you don’t believe in yourself doesn’t mean the end of the world. There are those who actually love you. Daniel Morgan obviously kept you out of the casino for a reason and it seems he left you a nice surprise. Dani obviously likes you. Also what about those things Mark Ward said about you?! You just can’t go running off the deep end when things don’t go your way…
I let some tears roll down my cheek some more as I stand up and walk over to the wall.
Me: I don’t believe in myself though. To be honest since things didn’t go my way I was going to put my resignation into the casino and walk away from it all…
Blossoming Rose: Walk away from the best people to have entered your life and that of that little girl Aurora who invested so much into you?! Christina you have made such a great turn around in your life. For the first time I feel like we are truly getting beneath the surface but it’s not something that’s going to happen overnight. It takes time and we need to get there… There is stuff that needs to continue to come up…
I look at the wall as I finally shake my head.
Me: Seleana was right… She was right all along. It was never about the title. As much as I tried to hide it. It wasn’t about being the best wrestler in the company. The only reason why I wanted to be champion is so I could have that attention because I could finally be accepted. People would talk about me and it made me feel important. The title was merely a trinket in what I was really after…
Blossoming Rose: It’s good that you are finally admitting that but what are you really looking for. What are you running away from?!
I stand there not knowing what to say and it’s at this moment that the door to the office opens up and that’s when I could see my daughter in law SCU Underground Champion Halo Williams walking through. She glares at me as she holds her arms close together.
Halo: Are you okay?! The bus is ready to leave and everybody is looking for you…
I just shake my head as my personality disappears before my eyes and it’s just me and her.
Me: I guess I am okay… Okay… That’s a lie… I feel awful… I feel terrible. I am an emotional wreck and I don’t know what to do…
I can’t believe I am actually standing here telling somebody the truth. That wasn’t like me but I guess having a severe war with myself what else could I do.
Halo: Listen momma Christina...You shouldn’t feel terrible about anything. You did your best right?! Just because you lost doesn’t mean it’s the end of the story. There are still many chapters that need to be filled and when you do fill out those pages you make sure to take all of those naysayers out to the woodshed.
Me: That sounds good but I feel like there’s something deeper that I am running away from. I just don’t know what that is though Halo… No matter what happens in my life it feels like when things finally start to get back on track I relapse and end up doing the same shit again. I feel like I go on this endless cycle and I cover myself up with personalities and changes. I do stupid shit…
Halo: Well you need to break the cycle Momma Christina. Can I be completely honest with you?!
I walk over to my daughter in law as I nod my head with her.
Me: Go for it… Honesty is what I could use right now.
Halo: I will tell you straight up but to be honest everything that you are going through to me seems to be stuff that ranges from your childhood, not being accepted by your biological parents and no matter what you try to do it always comes down to the neglect from your parents/ You might think it’s something else but trust me when I tell you it’s that…
Me: I hate my biological mother… That Bitch left me on my Aunt’s doorstep to raise?! How the hell could she have that much of an impact on me?!
Halo shakes her head.
Halo: You say that but the truth is as much as you tried to deny it you are hurting for what she didn’t give you. To the very point that you have become your mother. You always said she was a big time addict that only looked after herself. Yet what do you call being an alcoholic?! She left you on your aunt’s doorstep but what did you do when you gave up Brayden for adoption or let alone give birth to Brittany yet let her Auntie Jennifer raise her. It’s the same exact shit no matter how you spin. You are so hurt by your mother that at the end of the day you have basically become your mother in hopes to understand her. It may not appear to you like that but I can see it…
Halo begins to get serious as she keeps reaching out to me.
Halo: You think I can’t see this shit?! The truth is we are alike Christina. My mom was a major drug addict and my father was a big time gambler. I learned to do things that my mother did and my dad wasn’t having it. He sent me away to a convent to get better but I didn’t. My mother eventually passed away from Overdosing on drugs and my father lost everything through gambling. My sister had GoGo but me I had to find my own way. When I found Brittany I will admit I saw her as my meal ticket. You could say I used her in the same way that you saw Seleana as a way to fill that emotional tank of yours when you left Jonathan. You used Seleana… Yet as much as I was using Brittany the truth was she was using me in the same way. When things weren’t working out between Jordan and her she used me, and when the mere thought of her getting back with Jordan seemed to be a thing I relapsed and did more drugs..
Halo shakes her head as she continues to speak.
Halo: Yet through it all eventually Brittany and I got married and we are now living happily ever after. Yet there are still some issues we need to fix and I am working on them with Brittany. I don’t know how you can’t see it as it’s clearly in front of you but in the same way you deeply are longing for that connection with your mother Brittany wants the same from you. How else could you explain her wanting to get into wrestling, wanting to be an actress, and even wanting your attention so much she herself had to go about and marry herself a tall blonde and at a young age and now she wants me to wrestle under the Williams name just like your former husband did. It’s the same shit all over again…
Halo looks at me.
Halo: Brittany messed around with time travel and so much stupid shit but at the end of the day you can’t change or retcon the past. They are what shapes you and makes you into the person that you are now. However you can learn it and you can go about making things right… I don’t know how much my words might mean to you as people can all say the same shit to you. Momma Sel, Miss Farrah, and so many others yet I guess with me is the simple fact that I lived that life of regret. It pained me having to watch others talk shit about my wife and I have to defend her even when she gets down and won’t defend herself… Yet no matter what I say it won’t work because she will always look at you…
Halo takes a breath as she speaks again.
Halo: Don’t change the personality, fix the process… Once you fix the process then the words of others won’t hurt as much as they do. If you could overcome this generational curse that ranges back to your mother it’s going to change everything as a whole…I never had that privilege with my mother but yours is still around riight?!
I think about it as I take a deep breath. For the first time it finally had hit me. Halo was right. Everything I had done throughout my life and wrestling career had all stemmed back to not being accepted by my biological mother. I held hatred in my heart, resentment but deep down I longed from that level of acceptance from her. I needed closure. I needed to confront my past so I could have a better future. How could I even be a better mother and work things out with Brittany or Brayden when I myself didn’t have a good relationship with my own mother. No amount of costume changes, personality changes, or hair dye could ever fix what was beneath the surface and I was ready to go about and finally deal with it. I look at Halo as I hug her tightly.
Me: Thank you so much Halo… I love you so much and I am happy to have a special daughter like you in my life…
Halo: Don’t mention it. Although this honestly reminds me of a story.
Me: A story?! What type of story…
Halo smirks.
Halo: Something that was told to me back in Tennessee. Once upon a time on this farm there were all of these animals and they relied on this rooster to crow and bring up the sunrise. Yet one day the sun came up without him and everybody called him a fake, a fraud and a phony. Instead of dealing with these issues he left his home to become something else because he hated who he was.
Me: Halo…
Halo: He became a big time music star. He came up with another personality and little did he know the owls took over the farm. The sun never came up again and yet it took this little kid in the form of a cat to get the animals together to bring the rooster back. They all believed in him but the rooster had to believe in himself. Once he did he was able to crow again and the sun came back up!
Me: THAT’S ROCK A DOODLE...Are you calling me Chanticler because I know I have to Crow… And I definitely will Crow now!!!
Halo: Now let’s get going. We wouldn’t want to keep everyone on the bus waiting right?!
Halo smiles as she glares at the bottle of the grey goose on the floor.
Halo: And I will be taking that… There’s no need to ruin you being sober for being down in the dumps…
With that the two head out of the casino. I knew what I needed to do. As soon as I had the chance I would make a call or perhaps try to schedule a road trip to Michigan when things settled down. It was time to reclaim my lost identity. It was time for the prodigal daughter to return home. No more makeup changes, costume changes, or personality changes. For the first time in my entire life it would be about taking a step to figure out who I really was beneath the surface and that felt amazing.
On Camera
The camera comes into focus and as it does we are treated to the very sight of Christina Zdunich sitting down at the edge of her bed. The cameras pan in on her face as she slowly begins to speak.
“It’s funny how the more things change, the more they in fact same the same. I will be the first to admit that I am not perfect although quite often in the past I will admit that I have often stated that I was. I can sit here and preach about so many things but in reality words don’t really hold much worth to them. They mean nothing. Words such as fake, phony, and so many other things don’t really hold any weight to them but when a woman like myself stops and takes a long glance at herself in the mirror you start realizing the truths in those words. I will openly admit that I haven’t been the most stable of wrestlers in this company. I haven’t been the most consistent or even had the best of personalities. Let’s be honest here SCW could write a movie about me and the way I have changed throughout the five years that I have been here. They could call it crazy Christallina and the seven personalities. Each personality changing from week to week without regard to anything close to making sense or even that of stability…
I could sit here and try to deny everything and try to defend myself but the reality is I have to accept the truth and everybody was right about me. I had to do some deep soul searching these past few weeks and I will admit that at Blaze of Glory I got beat. Andrea Hernandez was the better woman. Others can stand up for me and claim that I should be proud to be the only four time bombshell champion in this company’s history and how you can’t take that away from me but deep down I don’t want to be just a four time Champion…
I want to be more than that. I want to be known for being a fighter and I want to be acknowledged as being the best of the best. Did I hold the title, I definitely did and Andrea is now the new champion and I know for a fact that as much as others wish to bury me she will go on to do something big with it. As I sit here right now I realize I lost it for the wrong reasons because I won the title for the wrong reason. When I won the title I thought I would get instant gratification. It wasn’t so much as being a fighting champion as much as it was about having all eyes on me. it was about being accepted and it was about receiving approval from others…
Yet even though I got exactly what I thought I wanted for a day it only lasted for a day or so. There was still that feeling emptiness inside of me and no matter how many titles I won it could never fill in that void. I could win wrestler of the year and it still wouldn’t fill what’s missing in my life because there’s much more going on deeper beneath the surface. Everybody can pick me a part for how I do things. I know the easiest option would be to simply cover up all the mistakes with a personality change, or a costume change, and three tons of makeup and hair dye. Yet for the first time in my life I am looking to go well beyond that. I am willing to take my licks in stride and I will emerge better because of this…
After all don’t fix the person, fix the process. As long as the process gets fixed everything else will fall into place. Andrea you beat me, Alicia you were right, Seleana was right, Roxi was right but I am fixing these issues and I will be back to where I need to be. Don’t sit too comfortably because I will march my way back up to the very top and when I do not only am I going to be successful but I am going to do so because I have faith in myself and that is the one key element that has been missing in all of it…”
Christina smirks as she nods her head and continues to speak.
“Once somebody has faith and belief in their own ability they can overcome anything. I guess that brings me to the task at hand and that comes to the form in the likes of Keira Fisher. Keira Fisher is a longtime friend of mine and to be honest we have had our share of battles with one another inside of the ring. I can’t even stand up here and say we trade wins because to be honest I have only beaten her once in my entire career when it comes to one on one matches, twice if you want to add in the fact that I fought her in the Chamber of Fate match. We must have done battle with one another about a dozen times and the fact that I have only beaten her twice seems crazy but Keira was always more fired up about things then I was…
If it was in this company it was about surprising me after I beat Candy Overton defending my Roulette Championship for her to cash in her briefcase on me and take that Roulette title from me. If it was in LAW it was about her proving to be a great Breakout Champion and keeping her momentum going. Keira has always found herself pushing herself to the next level and trying to get better. I might have been more comfortable and haven’t improved over time…
Keira as a close friend I just want you to know I respect the living hell out of you. You are a fighter and when you truly believe in something you go all out in trying to fight for what you believe in. I remember when you first found your way into getting into that Chamber of Fate match like three years ago. Nobody believed in you. In order to get a World Championship match the company decided to put you in a qualifying match against that of your wife. Everybody just wrote you off and stated that you weren’t going to win but you pushed yourself to your limits and you got better. You did everything in your power to prove that you could stand on your own two feet…
People do respect you but mostly everyone just sees you as being part of the best tag team of all time in this company. They see you as being attached to your wife but they can see Roxi doing big things on her own but when it comes to you they just don’t have that same respect. I know this first hand because my wife went through the same stuff. She wasn’t able to stand out on her own because they could only see her as the woman who was banging me. They could only see her as my wife and nothing else past that. It’s wrong on so many levels but my wife had it worst because she had a chance to finally stand out on her own and I ruined it for her. Her biggest championship win in this company is tarnished because I basically gave her the belt…”
Christina shakes her head.
“I know a lot can be said but truth be told it’s because I didn’t believe in her as a wife should… I didn’t believe in her and I felt the world should have revolved around me… Yet you never had to deal with that because unlike me Roxi has always been a strong tower of support. She has always had your back in everything that you did. Ranging from when you won your Roulette championship from me and she was at ringside celebrating your win to her even congratulating you from winning at Blaze of Glory. She had just lost in her rematch for the Championship yet it didn’t bother her because she had you to celebrate. If Seleana had won her match and I lost mine could I do the same thing…
No… I couldn’t because there’s just this piece of me that’s too much into myself and that’s the piece that I am currently trying to figure out. You however have all of the tools you need to be successful. You stick to your guns even when it’s not the most popular opinion in the room. However my biggest issue with you Keira is you seem to suffer the same thing that I suffer at times. You often don’t have belief in yourself. You complained about losing sight of yourself how you could never overcome the hurdle and it took Mark Ward talking you up to finally see your how much value you should have in your own abilities.
You went into that Super Card and you pinned a Hall of Famer right in the middle of the ring. That is amazing in itself. You earned your chance at Diamond and whatever happens in that match I know you are going to be bringing your very best. It was a shot that was earned. Yet when I beat your wife it was a shot that was handed to me. As much as I tried to deny it and make up every single excuse in the book the fact is it was given to me something that Roxi has helped you not to take for granted. Because when you do get something you want to earn it. You don’t want to get something because it was given or you begged for it…
Don’t you feel better that you are now getting a major title opportunity because you won it in the ring?! I mean you did have a habit of trying to beg me for a title shot as soon as I won the title. You don’t need to go that route Keira you are way better than that. Just like I know you are better than beating yourself up. You shouldn’t care about others think of you because you know what you are about and as long as you stick to your guns you will always come out a winner whether you win or lose…”
Christina shakes her head as she continues to speak.
“Yet I could never apply my own advice to myself because when somebody says something I don’t like I have this undying need to change in order to seek approval and acceptance. I need to flip the script and I look for drastic changes. That hasn’t got me anywhere except dealing with four divorces, a fucked up personality, and a rap sheet that nobody would let me move on past. Even to this day I question things and wonder if they will ever get better. Yet that shouldn’t be you. You keep firing away and be the best Keira you possibly could be.
I know what this match means to you Keira. You have a lot to prove in this encounter. You will want to keep the momentum flowing and showcase you aren’t a fluke or a fraud. You want to send a message to Diamond and beat her senseless. You can tweet out the words tick tock but don’t count your chickens before they hatch because that overconfidence will come back to bite you in the ass. Trust me that happened to me more times than I could count.
When we fight I know you are going to be extremely confident and tell everybody that you are going to break a bitch but let me explain something to you. How can you break something that is already broken Keira?! I am already broken. I have been broken for the past 17 years of my life. Every time I tried to perhaps try to put the pieces together I merely put a Band-Aid on the situation and those wounds never heal. I go back to doing the same thing over and over again…
Yet this time I am actually looking for beneath the surface. I am gluing what’s out of place and I am figuring out myself as an individual so that I can finally move on and be a better wrestler for SCW, a better wife for Seleana, a better mom for my children, and most of all a better human being. I am learning to take things step by step and I am not going to let you deter me off of that course of getting better. You might be in a great mood after winning your four way match but I am in the mood to get back on track and I am on a one way journey to get back the very thing I lost, and that is the SCW World Bombshell Championship…”
Christina shakes her head.
“It’s not something I want to parade around and gain the attention, it’s not something I want to make myself feel better. It’s something I want for the simple reason that I want to be the best wrestler in this company. I know I might have been in my feelings when I wasn’t acknowledged as being labeled as a GOAT or anything like that but true champions rise back up. When things seem out of place they make their way BACK to the top… Tyson Fury did it….Muhammad Ali did it… and hell even your wife did it when she came back to SCW… So I need to get back up to the top as well… You are in the way of me doing so and we just can’t have that Keira…”
Christina points at the camera.
“So come Sunday I start taking my career a direction in the right direction and that’s upwards. I don’t care if it’s Andrea up there, or even Evie Jordan. I will find my way back to where I know I should be and nothing is going to stop me. We both have so much to gain from this but I think I want this more Keira and that is what is going to give me the edge in our fight… If people don’t like me fighting and clawing my way to the top it doesn’t matter. I will get there and I will live my life the way I want to live it. After all it’s my prerogative and I simply will do what I want to do. I don’t care about what others think…
Who am I?!
I am the hard working woman from the Motor City of Detroit Michigan. I am Christina Zdunich and I will get back to top. I promise you that… So bring me your best Keira… Either way this is going to tune you up so you are ready for whoever the Internet Champion might be so make sure you bring it.
Don’t break the bitch… Break the ceiling so you can surpass what you might think are the height of your own abilities. I know I am… See you soon and best of luck you will need it…”
With that Christina waves to the camera as we fade out on this image. No catchy Hollywood phrase, no movie puns… It just goes to dark.
