Off Camera
Rose Productions,
Hollywood, California
It was finally completed. After months of building, and dealing with the Corona Virus and protests across the world, the production of the Diamond and Gem Stones had come to a conclusion and the band could tackle on other projects. Melody Grace was already back to her home which left the Gem Stones, Christina Zdunich, and of course Cat Riley to celebrate. Diamond sat with her back against the chair with a disappointed expression on her face as her cousin Ruby held the bottle of champagne in her hand. She stood on top of the meeting room table and shook the bottle as hard as she could. Without hesitation she popped the cork off of the bottle and started to spray everybody in the room with a wicked grin on her lips.
“THE MOVIE IS DONE…TODAY IS THE DAY FOR CELEBRATING… TODAY MARKS THE DAY THAT EVERYTHING WILL TRULY TRULY BE OUTRAGEOUSSSSSSSSSSSS”
She smirks as all of the girls cover their eyes in hopes to not get blinded by the substance. Diamond just sits there dumbfounded not saying one thing or the other. She rises up out of the chair and walks out of the room with a disappointed expression on her face. Cat Riley however sighs as she covers herself yelling back at Ruby.
“STOPPPPPPPP…. I’M NOT ALLOWED TO HAVE ANY LIQUOR!!!!!!!”
That doesn’t stop Ruby from hosing her down. The girls seem to be enjoying it Diamond however isn’t feeling the vibe as she just walks down the hallway away from her friends. It is at that moment where the owner of the movie studio Christina quickly rushes at her. She blocks her path taking a long deep breath as she gazes right into her eyes.
“Hey where do you think you are going?!”
Diamond gives her the cold shoulder as she continues to walk away.
“Hey Kate I am talking to you… There’s no reason to walk away from me especially after we finished the production of your movie. It took a lot for my studio and all of the actors for this project. There was a worldwide pandemic going around and we all took a chance on making all of this come true for you. You should be proud of it. Not many people can say they have their own movie and get to star in one with all of their closest friends. That is amazing on so many fronts. You deserved this all because you put so much work into it.”
Christina smiles as she nudges Kate.
“So let’s turn that frown upside down and let’s go party with everybody else. I could have been in Las Vegas spending some time with Aurora and of course trying to figure things out with Daniel Morgan about the Casino but instead I am here looking out for you…Now are you going to talk to me or not?!”
Diamond however lets the sigh escape her lips as she looks deeply into the eyes of her friend.
“And why exactly should I be happy?! I get it we finished the movie but I don’t see any reason to celebrate…”
Christina places her hands on her hips as she looks back at her.
“What do you mean you don’t know if you should be celebrating or not. You have so much going for you. Your husband just won the Internet Championship. After all of these months of trying to find himself he managed to go out there and he finally won something he can be proud of…”
“EXACTLY… Something HE can be proud of… It’s not like I had anything to do with it. I kicked him to the curb like a bad habit and in that brief moment he manages to reunite with his sister in law Cindy. She has vowed to take him under her wing and help him in ways I never could. Look at him. The very moment she decides to pop her head into his life is the very moment that he goes out there and wins a championship. It’s two weeks removed from me losing my championship. So now here we are once again with Teddy being a Champion and I am nothing…”
“Kate you are sounding so immature right now. You should be proud of your husband. Everything he was looking to accomplished he managed to do… In spite of making a fool of himself by peeing on himself, he bounced back. He showcased he can really go out there and be an amazing wrestler. He needs you by his side to cheer him on. His accomplishment should be your very own. Don’t let it get to you because the moment it does you are going to walk in my shoes. You don’t need to that route…”
Christina takes a long deep breath as she continues to share her heart.
“It really didn’t do anything for me… The entire time I was JEALOUS and ENVIOUS of Seleana… She was making waves as a serious World Championship contender. She stood up to Christian and I should have been proud because she was growing not only as an individual but also as a wrestler… I couldn’t stand the sight of it though. Not because I didn’t believe in her because every single part of me wanted to support her. Deep down I wanted the spotlight… I was desperate for it and when Christian gave me the inch for me to step into the spotlight I took the mile. I turned on my wife easily and it didn’t get me anywhere. I burned so many bridges, I lost friends, people even blocked me on Twitter… Those are relationships that still haven’t been repaired to this very day. So before you hold this vendetta against a man YOU SHOULD be supportive of just remember that when you are in a marriage you both are a TEAM… His achievements are your very own…”
Kate shakes her head as she looks back at Christina.
“You just don’t understand though… The first time he won a title in this company was at Summer XXXtreme. We both were in Roulette Championship matches and I couldn’t get the job done in my ultimate X match but somehow he did and it was without my help. This is the second time he managed to do something without me. As a matter of fact when he defended his title against Griffin and I was under the mask he LOST the championship and that was with me at his side. How can that be explained… So don’t sit here and tell me to be proud of something that I just don’t feel…”
Christina holds Kate by the shoulders as she gazes deeply into her eyes.
“Listen to me Kate… I remember 12 years ago when you were only 17 years of age. I remember when Teddy brought you to my doorstep and you told me one day you were going to make it in the world. You told me you would make it in the music industry and you would become famous… Guess what here we are 12 years later and you actually made all of that come true. Your movie will be a success. You have your own band. You are signed under a record label with a good recording contract. On top of that you are becoming one of the best wrestlers in the entire world. Your brand and stock is going way up. Anybody who disagrees with that statement would be a fool if they can’t see the true Gem that is in front of me…”
“Me as a Gem or even a Diamond, that’s a really good one. I tried desperately to get the respect and it just seems no matter how much I put into this business I never get what I truly want out of it… I want to be a World Champion… I want to be taken seriously and I want my career to go to the next level. However as much as I put into wrestling I get booked in an Internet Championship match… A match that honestly I really don’t want…”
Kate begins to pout as she stands there with her arms crossed. Christina rolls her eyes as she looks back at her.
“Are you really complaining that you are getting an Internet Championship match?! You shouldn’t feel insulted by it. You were a dominant champion Kate. You tied the record for the longest reign with the championship. You racked up so many defenses so it’s only right that the moment you lost the championship is the very moment that you should be granted a chance to win it back. It’s only fair right out of respect to what you established with the title. You heard what Christian and Mark said a while ago. Rematches aren’t guaranteed when you lose a title. That’s merely a myth that people constantly try to bring up but the fact that you are getting one should speak volumes about your performance as a wrestler…”
Diamond is taken back as she looks back at her friend.
“My performance?! What could I honestly do with the Internet Championship that I haven’t already done… I achieved all I could do with the title… I set the record for MOST DEFENSES, I tied the LONGEST REIGN, I have the most COMBINED DAYS as champion and the match with Myra was the very first time that I got pinned all year… I did all I could do with the title and it’s only logical that I start climbing my way to the top trying to achieve the next thing and that would be the World Bombshell Championship… I think what hurts more is the fact that people just can’t take me as a major player in this company. During my entire time in SCW I have only had TWO WORLD BOMBSHELL CHAMPIONSHIP matches… One in which was given to me on a random Climax Control after being on a losing streak and one because I won a briefcase that gave me the right to challenge for any championship match whenever I saw fit…”
Diamond seems really disgusted as she continues to share her heart.
“TWO FUCKING MATCHES… When others were getting chances to fight in these qualification matches to be in that chamber I didn’t even get one… I wasn’t even considered… People like Roxi and Alicia Lukas can come back to the company after being injured or away from SCW and immediately get handed matches… I can bust my ass off beating a list of who’s who in this company and I still can’t find my way to one… I feel like whatever I do is never enough. People won’t ever take me seriously… They will only see me as the 5’2 girl with barely weighs over 100 lbs. I might have the athleticism to be a champion but not to be THE CHAMPION…So how am I supposed to feel?!”
Christina shakes her head with a sigh.
“Just don’t let it consume you because I have been down that route more times than I can count and it’s usually resulted in me being very impulsive. Changing my thoughts on a whim and nobody takes me seriously. You have a lot going for you Kate… Stay positive and focused and you will eventually get to where you need to be…”
Kate gets in Christina’s face as she looks up into her eyes.
“Stay positive?! How the fuck can you tell me to stay positive… You heard what Tommy Knox said to me on his show… He told me I am the best SECOND TIER wrestler… He didn’t say I was a great wrestler or I had a strong future ahead of me… I am simply second tier AT BEST… Do you know how that makes me feel… I feel like there isn’t any growth for me. I will forever be stuck in the same spot that I am. Nobody in this world wants to see me ascending up the card for the better. I will forever be in the mid card…”
Christina nods her head.
“Right and you are just going to let that get to you… I am the only four time World Bombshell Champion and I wasn’t even mentioned in the list of the top five bombshells of all time… It doesn’t matter if I am a Hall of Famer or had one of the best years in wrestling. I get voted most overrated among other things… The more you let those things eat at you the more those things are going to become true… Don’t let it affect you in those ways because it’s a bitch to climb out of that hole once you dig yourself in it… I personally didn’t understand how much value I truly was until Christian had that talk to me in the Gorilla position. When he told me he wanted to see me vs. Vixen and he actually respected my abilities. I came to the conclusion that I had been way too hard on myself. That’s when nothing else mattered and I started to win match after match. Things don’t necessarily have to be so title focused. I just want to go with the flow and put on the best matches I possibly can…”
Kate seems disgusted as she continues to share her heart.
“You don’t think I feel that way… Even back in LAW I was the first ever World Champion for their company and I never really got the acknowledgement I deserved… Now here we are and people can only say Kate Steele amazing Hardcore wrestler, Kate Steele great submission wrestler, but it’s never as the best wrestler period. After what I accomplished I would have at least expected a little respect but nothing… Stuck in the same old, and to make matters even worst I have had to hear comments that people actually think my husband has a chance to one day become a World Champion in this company…What about ME?! Why can’t people say that about me?! I don’t know if people are saying it because the Superstars division is weak or they really want to sell me short but it gets irritating being stuck in this narrative…”
“And once again it goes back to you holding something against your husband which is what you shouldn’t do… Be happy for his accomplishments and support him… To be honest a lot of people won’t like what you do… I know this to be true but ignore it and use it as fuel to prove them wrong. As far as your husband goes cheer him on. These days I get more of a thrill watching my Seleana wrestle than I do… I trained her how to wrestle and she has come a very long way to get to where she is at… So I enjoy watching her do work… You should feel the same way about your husband… You have to admit that he has come a long way…”
Kate nods her head .
“You do have a point… He definitely has done his share but it just sucks knowing that the two of us could have been champions at the same time. Had I just been able to hold onto my championship for a little more… We would have been in a great position… I don’t know how to feel to be honest…”
“Well don’t let it get to you… Just take things slowly. You have so much going for you. You have a loving daughter to worry about and things can definitely turn around for you…There’s nothing wrong with focusing on your goals but just don’t leave your family behind… They are there for a reason so always include them in everything and who knows how far it will take you…”
Kate smiles as she looks at Christina.
“Thank you so much for your words Christina… I honestly don’t know where I would be if I didn’t have you in my life…”
“Don’t mention it… I do appreciate everything you have accomplished as well. You are one of my protégé’s so I will be looking out for you as well but in addition to that you are one of my friends. You have made so many strides. Just don’t make the same mistakes that I have… You are way too good to falter over doing something silly… Keep your head up and keep pushing for the goal and eventually everything you want is going to fall right into your laps. For some people it requires more work. I have always held myself to the level that things would take a lot more so there is no reason why you can’t fight even harder for what you want…”
“Good point… I guess I could go celebrate my husband… I haven’t properly done so…”
“Good let him know how he really feels to you but also don’t forget to celebrate the things you have achieved as well… You accomplished a lot and you should be celebrated…”
Kate nods her head again and it is at this moment that her cousin Ruby walks into the hallway. She has the bottle of champagne in her hands as she smiles at Kate.
“Why are you standing out here Kate, all of the girls are worried about you… We all put so much into filming this movie and all of our dreams are going to come true…”
Kate smiles.
“True.. I guess it would be OUTRAGEOUS if you girls have a big celebration and I am not there in the room with you all…”
“Exactly so let’s just go inside the room… Let’s go drink a couple and see where the night takes us… We have much to be happy for and in my first match as a manager you are going to get an Internet Championship match. It’s all so exciting and I am thrilled to be right by your side… Family always sticks together no matter what right?!”
Kate smirks in return.
“Exactly and thank you for reminding me of that…Sometimes it’s hard to remember that when one drowns in selfish thoughts and forgets about everybody who helped them get to where they needed to be…”
Ruby grabs Kate by the hand and drags her into the room. All of the girls begin to hose her down with champagne. She is all smiles as Ruby holds the bottle of champagne high into the air.
“Let’s give a special toast to the best woman and wrestler in the room…. My cousin Kate Steele who will make whatever she touches completely OUTRAGEOUS!!!!”
All of the Gem Stones smile in return but Cat Riley looks back at Kate with an uneasy expression on her face.
“Hey!!! She never beat me so I don’t know if….”
Kate looks at Cat with a wicked grin on her lips as she snaps her fingers and glares at her Gems.
“Time to make this Cat lose another life… GET HER!!!!”
Everybody begins to drench her with the bottle of champagne at the same exact time. It is all fun for these ladies as they party and celebrate over their movie finally being finalized….
Zdunich Mansion
Los Angeles, California
It was definitely an amazing night for all of the Gem Stones. When you get four British women with liquor in them all hell can break house… It’s no different than Mark Ward getting like 10 pints in him but that’s a story for another time. All of the girls were laid out throughout different parts of Christina’s mansion. Kate however was in Christina’s basement where her indoor gym was. Kate was in her training attire and she wanted to make sure she was training for what’s to come. She had a lot on her mind. She knew she should have been happy. After all title shots didn’t come that often so receiving any shot should be taken with pride but Kate didn’t know if she was really feeling it. She was venting some frustrations on a heavy bag and all of a sudden she was getting a face time call. Kate walked over to her Ipad read “MY BFF Melly!!!” Kate answered the call and she could see Melody on the screen holding her son.
“Hey Kateykins… Sorry that I had to rush out of there quickly. I had to get home to my child so don’t take it too much to heart. I really wish I could have stayed there and celebrated with the rest of the girls…”
Kate nodded her head forcing out a fake smile as she looked back at her best friend. Melody looked at her friend through the camera as she spoke out to her.
“Kate what’s wrong… It’s not like you to just blow me off of all people. I thought you would be more excited in me calling you but instead all I get is blah Kate in return…”
Kate nodded her head as she slowly turned her attention over to the lens of the tablet.
“I know I should feel happy Melody… Honestly I do want to feel what everybody is feeling but I just can’t bring myself to do it. Something inside of me isn’t feeling it… I just don’t know what to think about everything and one of the biggest things on my mind is my husband Teddy… He has worked his entire butt off to finally get people to take him seriously. He just went out there and beat a former World Champion to win himself the Internet Championship… It’s one of the proudest days of his life and I feel like I couldn’t give him what he needs. Am I a failure of a wife?!”
“Kate noooooooo…. Don’t even say that… You are an awesome wife. I don’t even know why you would feel that way?!”
Kate begins to cry as she looks at her friend.
“It’s just so much going through my head… I feel like I am in a weird situation right now. Before we go any further I just want you to make a promise that whatever is happening between your husband and my husband is strictly between them. I don’t want to be dragged into some war where my friendship is dragged through the mud and I am forced to pick a side!”
“NOOOOO Kate you can’t think like that… James wouldn’t do that… What’s happening with the men in our lives is strictly between them. They need to deal with their situation like men and it’s up to us women to pick up the pieces of our men no matter what happens. As far as you go why would you even feel like you are a horrible wife?! You are a strong woman and a great mother to Juliet…”
Kate sighs as she shares her heart.
“I want to believe that but after visiting Cindy the other week. She has this handle on her family life. She is managing to keep everything in check, she is still able to serve the needs of her husband and her daughter… She also knows what it’s like to serve in an emergency room as a nurse and save real lives.. Teddy decided to go with her to look after his career and I can only question my own immaturity as a woman. Here I am in Los Angeles, and as always I left Teddy to take care of the daughter… I guess I spent most of my teenage years in psychiatric hospitals and trying to commit suicide that I really never got to live out those years… So now here I am being completely reckless and living life like that spoiled brat… Leaving Teddy with the kid while I go get drunk with my girls, and think only selfishly of everything… Does this make me an awful person?!”
“NOOOOOO you are just trying to catch up on your lost childhood… There’s nothing wrong with that. As a matter of fact it’s completely normal. You just need to breathe a little and stop always worrying about the worst possible outcome. There isn’t anything wrong with needing space and at least you can spend some time away to focus on your huge match…”
Kate can’t help but just shake her head as she looks back at her best friend.
“That’s actually what I am worried about. I don’t know how o feel… To be honest Melody I really want to be a World Champion…When I fought Myra and she beat me in the middle of the ring there is a reason why I handed her the title after the match. It’s because she had earned it. She won it fair and square, and I was ready to work my way towards something else. I was ready to work towards the top and fighting my way with the best of the best that the company has to offer. I honestly didn’t expect a rematch and now here we are and to be honest I am getting the rematch that I really didn’t want. I wanted to look ahead towards possibly getting into that battle royal match and finally proving myself by the way things are booked prove to be a much different path. It’s truly a lose lose situation to be honest…”
Melody rolls her eyes as she stares back at her friend through the tablet.
“What do you mean?! How do you feel like you have nothing to gain…”
“Well if I do beat Myra that just means I will be stuck in the same position. Yes I will be the Internet Champion again which sounds great on paper but I will still be considered a second tier wrestler. I will be stuck at what I just was and honestly what more do I have left to accomplish with the championship. I already set every single record with that championship so there’s really nothing more to aim for with it. I would simply be carrying it for the sake of having it. In the same way that I feel there’s no growth in winning. If I lose I will feel like I don’t even deserve to be competing for the World Championship or deserve to be in any conversation. It’s all about building my way up to the top but i can’t do that by losing…”
Melody nods her head as she looks back at Kate.
“Seems a lot to take in and I know how you feel. I remember losing the Internet Championship to you and all I could think about was eventually becoming the World Champion. It was a slow grind but eventually I got what I wanted. It took some time though… I know it must suck to constantly get wrapped up in questioning if you are good enough or what’s enough to be considered good or what have you. However at the end of the day you have to acknowledge what’s really important in your life. You do know that titles will come and go but friendships and your marriage it’s what is really important in the world… It’s those bonds that you need to focus on… Your journey to the top will come but it’s all in due time…”
Kate seems befuddled as she looks back at Melody.
“So what are you saying Melody?!”
“I guess what I am saying Kate is your eyes should be on what’s in front of you… You need to go out there and win the Internet Championship. Instead of trying to focus on winning the top title or what you feel is the top belt. Why don’t you make that title even better than what it already was. Take it to another level and keep it strong. If you look too far into the future you won’t accomplish anything. However you need to focus on the one guarantee and that’s the match that’s in front of you. Championship matches don’t come that often and honestly there’s no guarantee if you will even be in that battle royal. So focus on what you can right now which is the Internet Championship…”
Kate slowly begins to cry as she looks back at Melody.
“Thank you so much. I would have honestly never thought about it in that way. Maybe I should come back down to reality instead of focusing too far ahead on what might not even come true. I have a chance to win a championship right now and that’s all that matters…”
Melody smiles wide.
“EXACTLY… On top of that there is still things you can still accomplish and they are things that haven’t been done before… You should win the Championship for the simple fact that you and your husband could be a golden couple. Evie and Ben only managed to do it for a while so if you got your Internet Championship back you would be the INTERNET couple. That sounds amazing and considering this is truly the part of the year where people really start paying attention to things. This would work in your favor if you wished to be the couple of the year… One couldn’t deny you and Teddy as a strong dominant golden couple…”
“I never really thought of the Golden couple thing or even being a couple of the year. It would definitely be a march in the right direction for the both of us….”
“I know and being a couple of the year is only something that you and your husband can do…You wouldn’t have to compare yourself to Cindy considering you are actually married to Teddy. So that’s only something that you could share with your husband. On top of that there is still something left to accomplish with the Internet Championship. There has never been a three time Bombshell Internet Champion… It would definitely be a first and that could always establish your care even further. Being the best isn’t always necessarily holding the top title in the company. A lot of people get fooled is not assuming that. It’s about being the woman that people want to face. Being the competitor that everybody wishes to beat… You had that going for you during your dominant reign as Internet Champion so there’s no reason why you can’t do it again….”
Melody takes a breath as she continues to speak.
“The title by itself doesn’t mean anything… It is who is holding it which will elevate it to the next level. The Champion makes the belt and not the other way around. I told you at Summer XXXtreme that I wanted you to go out there and defend your belt but that didn’t happen. Consider this a redo to everything Kate. Win, lose, or draw as long as you give it your all you can be satisfied by the results right?!”
Kate nods her head with a smile as she looks back at her friend.
“Exactly… And I can’t falter now. Besides how would I look if I just went into this match and not took things seriously?! It would be unfair to Myra and I have way more pride than that… I need to always give my best and if Myra is truly the champion. She would be able to be quite the fighting champion and turn me away from the title. It’s one thing to win a title but it’s another thing to defend it…”
“That’s what I am talking about Kate and you worked your ass off into making the Internet Championship mean something. You built it up and took it to another level so the least you can do is go out there to that ring and showcase the type of effort she needs to put out there on a consistent basis in order to remain as a champion… Don’t make it easy for her and don’t just throw a hissy fit because this isn’t the match that you truly want… It may not be the match you wanted but it might be the one you needed…”
Melody takes a deep breath as she continues to express herself.
“So prove to the entire world why you are exactly everything you say you are. You go out there and you dominate… Wrestle like your life depended on it and see where the effort takes you…”
Kate smiles as wide as she can as she looks back at Melody.
“Thank you so much… I guess I should go out there and work my ass off. Whatever is meant to be will happen and if I do manage to win it just means my journey with the Internet Championship isn’t over yet and I still have more to accomplished…”
Melody begins to clap her hands.
“I think we should drink to that… “
“I have been drinking all afternoon Melody I really don’t want too…”
“Can I at least take a shot for you?!”
Kate thinks about it as she looks back at Melody giggling.
“I guess you can do that but don’t drink too much Melody. Don’t forget you are a mother and you have a little son at that house…”
“And don’t you forget that you are also a mother and you have a twelve year old daughter that looks up to you. She is looking at every single thing that you do Kate. If you don’t take this match seriously you are basically teaching your daughter that she should just cry and complain when things don’t go her way. I know that isn’t the image that you want to show to your daughter and you want so much better for her. Show her that hard will pay off in major dividends. Show her what happens when you work as hard as you can… Even when life doesn’t go in the way that you had hoped for it to go, you just need to go out there and go through life anyway. It’s how the world works…”
Melody shakes her head.
“Nobody wanted to deal with Corona Virus but it’s something that happened… We couldn’t just ignore it because the moment we do is the moment that people get hurt. It’s the moment that people get sick and they are risking their lives because they are too naïve to understand what’s happening within the world… You just need to take a deep breath take things one day at a time… “
Kate smiles again.
“Once again I appreciate you Melody but just don’t drink too much. I have training to do and I want to focus on what’s going to happen on Sunday. I want to be prepared and I want to be in a position where I am at my absolute best…”
“Sounds like a plan… I will leave you to it Kate… Take care of yourself and go make me proud…. I believe in you!”
With that Melody hangs up the phone and Kate just sighs as she turns around. Standing there is none other than Cat Riley. The Manchester beauty forms a serious expression as she looks at Kate.
“Look… I know you have so many thoughts going through your head and I never quite understood why everyone gets so wrapped up in championship belts… You were an amazing champion though and you are an awesome wrestler. I know a lot is on your plate and while I might not personally care championships I want to help you focus on getting it back… I know exactly what you need Kate…”
Kate is befuddled.
“And that would be what exactly?!”
Cat smiles as she presses play on a speaker and Eye of the Tiger begins to play loudly across the speaker. She smiles as she looks over at Kate.
“Eye of the Tiger…”
“…SERIOUSLY CAT?!”
“What…Tiger is a big CAT… And you are getting trained by a Cat so I thought it was only fitting that…”
“Whatever let’s just train… I appreciate everything you are doing for me… Honestly it means so much to me… Thank you for being a great friend and in my life…”
“Don’t mention it… At least it isn’t me delivering bad puns… Just imagine if you were friends with my cousin Fox…”
“I rather not… Let’s just focus on training and getting me in shape for what’s going to happen…”
With that the two British women smile at one another. The two step into a wrestling ring where they begin to train with one another. It’s on that image that we leave them be….
Hey everybody… Kate Steele here… I guess this is the part where I need to express myself and my feelings. There are so many thoughts going through my head. I am going to be absolutely honest with everybody. At Summer XXXtreme I left everything in the middle of that ring. I ran my mouth of course. I did everything I possibly could to sell myself as being the Internet Champion. I defended the championship to the highest honor. I had some huge defenses against women such as Keira Johnson, Roxi Johnson, Sam Marlowe, and even Evie Jordan… Every time a competitor rose up to challenge me I made sure I did everything in my power to send them back down.
I know I might have talked a bunch of shit as the champion but it’s truly the name of the game. As a champion it is our job to sell ourselves as being the best that we possibly can. Anybody can go win a championship and they can just sit on it but that was never my style. I didn’t want to be a champion that went about making empty call outs and trying to line up easy defenses… I simply always wanted to fight the best.
I didn’t give a damn if that meant Roxi Johnson, Alicia Lukas or even Evie Jordan. I always wanted to fight the best. I personally think I did an amazing job as a champion and at the end of the day as I started to say before. It’s one thing to win a title and it’s another thing to BE A CHAMPION… A real champion is somebody who elevates their belt to the highest degree. They show up to the shows and they make their championship desirable. They sell the unholy bloody shit out of it in hopes of trying to establish it’s prestige and that’s what I did. I took a hold of the championship at My Bloody Valentine for it’s comeback and I did everything I could to make it matter.
It really helped moved my career in the right direction and I thought it was paving the way for me to go onwards to bigger and better things. In my mind that bigger and better thing was ultimately always going to be the World Championship. I know I am undersized and probably the smallest girl on the entire roster but I didn’t care. I stood out by being the Internet Champion…. I made myself get on everybody’s radar and if I didn’t I made sure people knew who the fuck I was…
I will be the first to admit that maybe I was getting a tad too egotistical for my own good. I was starting to walk around like my shit didn’t stink. I thought I was much better than what I really was. It was no longer about being that humble champion who tried her best to overcome all of the odds.
It was like I had forgotten everything that got me to the championship in the first place. As soon as my popularity grew I was focused more on other things that had nothing to do with the ring. I was too much locked onto being one of the best singers in the world. I was too much into my movie and it’s like the wrestling aspect didn’t even matter.
Granted I did do a lot with the Internet Championship… I not only helped stabilize the returning division and championship but I would like to think that I set the fucking standard for the Internet Championship. I tied Mikah for having the longest reign with the Internet Championship. I marched my way into having the most combined days with the Internet Championship. I have the most combined defenses and I basically shattered every single record with the Internet Championship.
Isn’t that so impressive… However I guess it got to a point where I was beating everybody that SCW had placed in front of me. I wanted to go out on a limb and fight an opponent that I handpicked. In my head I knew Myra Rivers was a great opponent. She had beaten Amber Ryan and instantly that got her on my radar. I knew I had to fight Myra because if she could beat a woman who came into SCW with so much hype there was a part of me that thought by beating Myra that hype would rub off on me…
I wanted to extinguish those flames so people could understand that I have been here all along and I deserved to get some respect. There was a part of me in honesty felt intimidated by Myra. I was tired of hearing her talk about she wanted to win a 19th championship. I was tired of hearing these over the top excited tweets how she was looking to gain redemption. How things didn’t go so well her in first go around in wrestling because she acted like a bitch and she was so happy to be here…
That attitude really made so sick because when I first got into wrestling I was bullied… Fresh out of wrestling school I still had my EMO look along with my EMO makeup. I sported my jet black hair and everybody mocked me. I was young and naïve… I had a huge attitude problem and I also was fresh out of a psychiatric hospital for trying to commit suicide…
Being bullied at the stage of my career made me feel low again and it was hard considering the person I was tag teaming with was the popular girl. She was everyone’s favorite student formt he wrestling school we went too and I was the girl nobody liked…
Hearing Myra talk about who she used to be just reminded me of what people put me through. I could never get any respect and it was a trip down memory lane. I just wanted to shut Myra up once and for all. In my eyes no bully couldn’t ever be redeemed but little did I know that I was too focused on her that I didn’t realize that the very thing I hated I was becoming. I was becoming that bully and I was doing everything in my power to try to bury her. I was acting in a way that I shouldn’t have been acting and if I could I would take it all back.
However she didn’t let it bother her. Instead she shrugged it off and continued to handle business as usual. She rolled into that title match with huge momentum by beating Alicia Lukas and I was still stuck looking at her questioning on other things in my life. I guess I was starting to overlook her. I was too much focused on the numbers of the records I was breaking that I really didn’t pay attention to her like I should have been. I guess that’s my fault for being so dumb.
On top of that you could really say that my ego had gotten to that of Rocky Balboa from Rocky 3… Sure I might have had the long title reign. I poured everything into winning the Internet Championship in the ladder match but since then I faced people when they really weren’t up to par or on the level that everybody knows them for.
I beat former champion Dani Weston but that’s only after she hadn’t been competing for a while and in a Blast From The Past Tourney where she was rusty. Sure I might have defended my championship against Sam Marlowe but after falling from grace and losing the Roulette Championship does that really count?!
I guess I could say the same with Roxi Johnson sure I beat her and it’s great to be a Hall of Famer but this is after she had lost the World Championship. After she dropped some big marquee matches and she only picked up some steam by beating a returning Alicia Lukas…
I beat Keira but she still has some stuff to work on… So as amazing as my resume might seem while you look under the scope of my matches those great achievements and accomplishments are suspect at best. It’s not like Myra who was hungry from the get go. It’s not like her who beat Amber Ryan and who went out there and beat Alicia Lukas. She was already making some noise for herself and I should have been taking her seriously but I just didn’t…
I lost that fight against Myra long before I even stepped into the ring with her because I didn’t take her serious. Instead of being focused on her as she was an absolute beast who came up through the ranks like Clubber Lang did. Just like Rocky my eyes were on things that had nothing to do with the championship.
My eyes were on my band and of course putting everything into my movie. Wrestling truly seemed to be on the lower list of priorities and that allowed Myra to continue being that hungry competitor. She brought her absolute best and she beat me fair and square in the middle of the ring. For the first time all year in an SCW ring I was pinned. I honestly didn’t know how to take it. I could have cried or even complained but instead I decided to grab the title and hand it to Myra because she deserved it…
She won that title from me and you won’t ever hear me argue you that point. However what I will say is that I lost that match long before I even stepped into the ring because I was everything that I hated. I became the bully despite being tormented by my sister when I was younger and by other wrestlers when I first started. I swayed away from being that plucky underdog and I talked myself up like my shit didn’t stink…
I was becoming a shell of my former self and to be honest as I look at everything now I think the best thing that could have ever happened to me was losing the championship because it has given me the chance to really look at things from another perspective. As much as I thought about things, maybe I might not be on the level that I thought I was on. Perhaps I am not that main event talent that I constantly talked myself up into being. I still have more to prove and the reason why I lost the title was so I could swallow a dose of humility and humble pie.
Myra I know you beat me but now marks the time for me to truly have that Eye of the Tiger and it’s time to take back what you took from me. There’s no question in my mind that you are an awesome competitor. You are a great wrestler but I still think that I am better than you. You might have won the championship but that doesn’t mean you are the champion.
In my eyes and I am sure in the eyes of many others you don’t really become the champion until you get past the first defense. I have held the division down for half the year and if you really want to show people that you are worthy of a 19th championship and holding it for a long time you need to go through me in order to keep it.
I have unfinished business in the Internet division because I now have something else I wish to accomplished. I can still make history with the Internet Championship. I can still go about and become the first ever and only three time Internet Champion point blank. It doesn’t have to say Bombshell in front of it. Nobody has ever held the Internet Championship three times regardless of male or female. On top of that I can continue to set the bar as being an awesome competitor and a great champion.
When people think of Internet Champions I want my name to be the first one that comes to mind. I just don’t want to be acknowledged as being a great champion I want people to say that I was the best ever. The same way people attach Sam Marlowe to the Roulette Championship, Team Hero to the Tag Team titles, and Mikah or Alicia Lukas to the World Bombshell Championship. I want that same type of respect when it relates to the Internet division.
This is my division Myra and once again in order to be the woman you need to go through me to make your point valid. On top of just that my husband just recently won the Internet Championship on the men’s side. I have never had the pleasure of being considered a golden couple. My husband took care of business last week when he shocked the entire world and beat Vinnie. I want to do the same and show everyone I have what it takes to get back what I lost. I know I can beat you Myra. Because at the end of the day through everything I am better than you at wrestling.
You might have the experience factor and started wrestling before me but I have been at this for a while now. We both have won a similar amount of championships. I know in wrestling it’s hard to believe in somebody especially after they lose a championship but this time I am focused fully on you.
There’s no worrying about movies… There’s no worrying about my band is doing. My focus is solely on what you are doing and I am going to give you an even better fight then before. Perhaps I was counting my chickens before the eggs even hatched. Perhaps these last few months of being the Internet Champion was about whining more about why I wasn’t being noticed as the next World Championship contender. It’s time to take things back to the basics.
It’s time to take back what you took from me and you need to prove that you have the drive and determination to be a fighting champion. If you want to look at me as being the gatekeeper so be it but I refuse to lose to you again. When I looked at you Myra I saw you as a great technician. I saw somebody who’s style resembled mine but here I am. Anybody can pin somebody but for me it’s all about going for broke or going for nothing at all. I won’t accept nothing less than a tap out and I plan to submit you in the middle of the ring.
Whether that be by taking your arm or choking you out I have to get back to the top. I have to gain what I lost. There’s still much to accomplish. Winning the title isn’t just about picking up where I left off. It’s also about telling my daughter that when you fall you need to pick yourself back up. We fall in order to push harder. It’s all about persevering through the worst situations possible. You haven’t killed my drive and I won’t hold back.
So beat me Myra…
Beat me and prove to everyone that you are worthy to hold the championship that you won…
Only by doing it again will you have my true respect… The first match was amazing but in this sequel there won’t be any fairy tales or happy endings for you. I will be the champion… It’s all or nothing…
All good things must come to an end….
So do you hear that sweet sound in the background?! It’s a Siren’s Song and if you follow it to it’s conclusion you will find yourself shipwrecked… See you soon… Best of luck you certainly will need it…
Cheers
