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Reclaiming My Identity Chapter 3
« on: May 15, 2020, 12:56:19 AM »
 Two Weeks Ago
Saxon Hotel
Las Vegas, Nevada

Two weeks ago Christina felt like it was going to be her big night. Despite losing her championship at the Super Card she found her way to bounce right back into position by beating the likes of Keira Fisher. During the break Christina had visited to Detroit and reunited with her long lost drug addicted mother. Crystal had thoughts of leaving her mother in Michigan but Seleana had a different idea as she brought Mary Hilton to the Saxon Hotel and she had been detoxing from Heroin in a hotel room ever since. Fighting against Andrea in the rematch was special for Christina and it had nothing to do with the title. It was because for the first time in her life she could go to her mother after her match. It was a special moment as the bus had returned back to the hotel. Many of the SCW stars and bombshells went to relax after a jam packed action of Climax Control whether it be poolside or a seat at the bar. Christina however just wanted to see her mother and she slowly made her way down the hallway to her mother’s hotel room. She opened the door and as soon as she did she could see her mother sitting down at the edge of her bed. Her eyes move over to that of Christina who just sighs with her head down.

“Is there a reason why you have your head down Christina?!”

“Did you watch my match tonight?!”

Mary Hilton could only smile in return as she keeps her eyes locked on Christina. She stands up as she walks over to her daughter and embraces her as tightly as she possibly can. She brings her head close to her as she replies back to her.

“Of course I watched you wrestle tonight. It was absolutely outstanding.”

“Mom… I didn’t win though… How can you say I was outstanding when I didn’t win. I didn’t emerge as a five time champion. Andrea beat me yet again and it’s now time for everybody to begin laughing at me again. People are going to say how I am a fluke… How I don’t matter. How I was a transitional champion along with being a fake, a fraud and a phony…”

It’s at this moment that Mary Hilton looks at her daughter as she quickly shakes her head at her as she glares deeply into the eyes of her daughter.

“You aren’t any of those. Look you have nothing to be ashamed of. So what if you didn’t win tonight. Just because things don’t work out doesn’t mean you have to go completely off of the deep end because things didn’t go your way. Winning isn’t everything. Sometimes you can learn from your losses and shortcomings. Tonight you went out there and you did your absolute best. People are going to talk about you but deep down you shouldn’t take any of that to heart. For the longest time I would have rather got high instead of trying to make amends with you…”

Mary shakes her head as she continues to speak.

“I just didn’t want to have that confrontation with you. Whenever I saw you on television I thought about all of the years I had hurt you. All of the years I wasn’t around. I missed out on so much of your life but I couldn’t say sorry because that meant I would have had to dealt with being an awful mother. I would have to accept all of my shortcomings. Yet as much as I thought I wanted it. I was too afraid to face it because that meant you would have told me off face to face. You would have rubbed it in and I didn’t want to deal with that. I know they say that acceptance is the first step of many and once you have acceptance you can finally get closure and move on…”

Mary shakes her head.

“I didn’t want that though… I was afraid of getting that closure but instead of owning it and being able to move on I just brushed those issues under the rug. I furthered myself into depression by trying to use drugs to numb the pain. Yet no feeling of being high could ever get me to acceptance. I just kept going on that dark path of trying to reach a state of being high that wasn’t quite obtainable. However when you tracked me down in that crack house I finally had the type of closure I needed. You helped me overcome my biggest fears. The moment I had been dreading for so long had been what saved my life. Now because I have such a strong willed daughter in my life I feel more focused than ever to really put that drug addiction part of my life behind me. I feel like I want to build on a relationship with you so I can also be there for my daughter in law and my grandchildren. None of which would have even been possible had you not came into my life…”

Christina doesn’t know what to say as she sighs shaking her head in disgust.

“But mom… You don’t understand… It still doesn’t help me deal with the fact that I lost and…”

Mary hugs her daughter as tightly as she can as she looks into her eyes.

“And is losing the end of the world? No it isn’t… I don’t think it’s losing that hurts you. I think what hurts the most is that you are looking for gratification in all of the wrong places. You aren’t going to receive acceptance that way, and you can’t try to do everything under the sun to find it from others as well. By harping on this lost and worrying about too much how others view you is just a repeat of what you did when you were in high school… I know I fucked up and I wasn’t there for you. I know you were in what you felt was a bad place when you were raised by my sister and her four kids. Yet you had all of the tools to take the bad circumstance and make it into a promising one. You were the biggest prospect in softball. You had scouts looking at you. I know your dream had been playing division 1 softball for Michigan State Spartans and they were looking at you when you were in 8th grade…MIDDLE SCHOOL CHRISTINA!!!”

Mary smiles as she looks at Christina.

“That is fantastic. There are so many people who wish they had any school looking at them yet you had one of the biggest schools in the state of Michigan let alone in the nation looking at you. You let the world hurt you with their opinions. Instead of focusing on all of the opinions that were pulling you in the right direction you rather hover in on the one that doesn’t seem right. You could have really stuck it to those high school bullies but yet you let your emotions overwhelm you and because of such you found love in a boy instead of your own confidence. You had Brittany at a young age. Yet when people mocked you for that you left for something else. Same thing with wrestling school your father tells you something you don’t like you take off your mask throwing a hissy fit and walk away. You finally make it into wrestling yet not as the job you wanted you settled for being a valet and an interviewer… I could go on and on Christina but it’s always the same stuff no matter how you spin it…”

Mary takes a long deep breath as she continues to speak.

“When things don’t pan out in the way you want or the way you want people to perceive it you take this notion that you have to completely change in order to get that little bit of acceptance you are seeking. You have been doing this for the past twenty years and no matter what you never find what you are looking for…”

“But mom…”

“BUT MOM NOTHING CHRISTINA!!! The biggest problem of yours is you try way too hard to be a people pleaser. You put every single egg into trying to please others. The reality is you can’t please everyone, and you cannot be everybody’s friend. Some people just won’t ever look past your past. I know people will only see me as a drug addict that will never change. I can sit here and cry about it or I could say they could go FUCK THEMSELVES and I can prove them differently. I can look them in the eye keep my ground and eventually OVER TIME they will have to accept it. I already accepted my past so now it’s time to focus on the present and the future… It’s not something that will happen overnight. It’s not going to be a change that occurs in five minutes. IT TAKES TIME!!! Just like when you are having marriage issues with your wife. You can’t stab her in the back one minute than two minutes later ask for forgiveness. She needs time and sometimes you have to give people just that….”

Mary looks at her daughter grinning.

“So before you cut the crap with the I need to do better next time speech and you feel so hurt REMEMBER WHO YOU ARE EXACTLY. YOU ARE CRYSTAL HILTON… And whether you wish to put that side behind you because she was too vicious and call yourself Christina Rose… Or try to be a great wife and call yourself Mrs. Zdunich… Or even try to embrace your Hispanic heritage and call yourself a LOPEZ… the fact is they are just names. You can park a piece of shit broken down car in the most expensive garage in the world. At the end of the day it will still be a piece of shit. Covering it with something nice really doesn’t do anything for it. I know you want to go back to Detroit so you can hold onto your roots but you don’t need to do something as drastic as that… That sounds ridiculous. Just accept everything and go from there. The moment you finally accept it the words of everyone else don’t sting as much…”

Mary points at her daughter as she smiles.

“Besides I have already seen this play out way too many times and to be honest you remind me of Simba from the Lion King. That’s exactly who you are. You were born to be great but you made a mistake. In the movie Simba felt he was the reason for his dad’s death and didn’t want to deal with it so he ran away to not face that. However Nala comes and that’s when he finds out he is needed more than ever to take his place. Sometimes you just need to face your past and own it. You did that the moment you saved me out of that drug house. However I want you to take it a step further. I want you to take control of your life. I want you to accept the position you are in and instead of fixing it build from this moment. The moment you do that you will feel better about it in the long run… Trust me…Now you can leave if you are going to have that dumbfounded look on your face…”

“But mom…”

“But mom nothing… I don’t want to see that stupid look on your face Christina. You know what you need to do. No reason to cry about it because that’s not going to solve anything. Anyway enjoy your night. I am proud of you but it shouldn’t matter what I say or think or what anybody else thinks. You need to be proud of what you did tonight. Not many people have the luxury of being a main event player like you CONSISTENTLY do… That’s an achievement in itself…”

With that Christina walks out of the room as she nods her head in agreement. As tough as that felt truth be told Christina actually liked that feeling of speaking to her mother. It was a feeling she had missed out on the 32 years of her life and she was feeling good about herself. There was no reason to change anything about who she is… NO REASON FOR A TURN OF HEEL OR FACE or anything of the sort… She felt confident as she was more determined than ever to drive herself to even new heights…





Last Sunday
Mother’s Day

Mother’s Day was an exciting time to be Christina. Not only was she a mother herself but it was a special time that she got to spend with her mother. Three different generations of Hilton women all sat in a room as Christina was forced to wear a blindfold. As Mary and Brittany all couldn’t help but giggle in return. Seleana was also there as she looked at everything with a shocked expression on her face. Christina sighed as she took along deep breath.

“Is there a reason why I have this blindfold on?! I know its Mother’s Day and I love surprises but seriously what could you have honestly gotten me that I need to wear a blindfold for… I mean there’s not much you can do in the world…”

Brittany chuckled as she replied back.

“Actually I can do a lot after all I am a Williams and of course a Hilton. I can do whatever I put my mind on and you are going to love this surprise right Ryleigh?!”

Christina seems befuddled as she hadn’t heard about Ryleigh in a while. Ryleigh Knite was of course Brittany’s best friend but after the whole ordeal of causing her death in time travel and having to travel back to the past and what not she was back and in good shape. Christina had thought Ryleigh was done with their family for a bit but she was mistaken as the Texan native begins to speak.

“Ok listen up…Mother’s Day is a special day of the year. Especially for somebody like Crystal Hilton because that’s what I am totes calling you seeing as that’s who you were before you went through 9000 name changes….”

Brittany opens her eyes in amazement as she smirks in return.

“IT’S OVER 9000!!!!!!! CRYSTAL LITE… CRYSTAL CHRISTINA ROSE HILTON MILLAR WILLIAMS LOPEZ ZDUNICH…”

Brittany screams out as Christina just sits there shaking her head in disgust.

“I get it… Make fun of my name… I change it A LOT!!! QUITE OFTEN!!! SO MANY TIMES….”

Brittany replies back.

“Nah you don’t change it that often. You only do so when you want for people to believe you are changing alignments which is like every other week…”

“Oh Brittany what does your mom change more… Names, alignments, hair colors, or gimmicks…”

“Wow that’s a good question I honestly don’t kn…”

Before she can even finish her statement that is when Christina begins to scream at the top of her lungs.

“Would you girls just get on with this already?! I feel like I have been sitting here for a while now. Climax Control was over a long time ago and you still haven’t given me my gift yet!”

“Mommy you need to relax. This took a lot of work to do. Do you know how much I had to beg Mark Ward to give you this special gift?! Seriously it took a lot of convincing and of course we had to sign waivers and legal fees. We have to have her go through the Corona Virus testing but everything has cleared and we have reunited the two of you…We know this gift would mean the absolute world to you…”

Christina sighs as she shakes her head.

“Brittany don’t tell me that you actually…”

“Mommy dearest you can feel free to take that blind fold off…”

Christina takes her time as she removes the blindfold and as soon as she does she can’t help but jump backwards as there is a woman standing directly in front of her. That woman is none other than her longtime best friend and former tag team partner Zelda Knite. Zelda Knite smiles as she crosses her arms as she looks deeply into the eyes of Christina.

“BOOOOOOO!!!”

Christina seems scared shitless as Zelda hovers over her and places her arms on her hips. She looks down at Christina as she cracks a grin.

“Wow is that how you are Crystal?! I really didn’t know I had that much of an impact on you. I mean when your best friend is standing mere inches away from your face I would have expected a hug, or a YES it’s my best friend is here. Yet you jumped back! So either I scared you shitless or is it my breath?!”

Zelda blows into her hand as she smells it. She makes a disgusted expression as she glances back at Crystal.

“Ouch… It must have been the sushi I ate… Sorry about that…”

Christina can’t help but rise back up as she looks over at Zelda. She raises her eyes in complete shock as she begins to reply back to her.

“What the hell are you doing here Z?! I mean… This is awesome and all but don’t you have a busy life and something to do…”

“BUSY LIFE?! I am your Mother’s Day Gift… That means I am here for you Crystal. I am here to be right by your side and I am not going to go away that quickly. Would you have preferred for me to be gift wrapped or placed in a bag?!”

Christina shakes her head as she looks back at Zelda.

“Ummm no… I would have preferred if you would have stayed your butt in Texas where you belong. You know you are my best friend and I love you with all of my heart but…”

“BUT NOTHING… I have been watching you for a while now and everybody wants you to be the real you. Now it’s perfect that Brittany, Ryleigh, and your wife Seleana wanted to surprise you with me. So you are going to get exactly what they asked for. Which means I am going to help you bring the real you out. I know you the best. We have been best friends for 11 years so my word obviously means the most. First things first when were you going to tell me you were MARRIED to a WOMAN?!”

“…Considering you were my maid of honor at my wed….”

“SILENCE I DIDN’T SAY YOU COULD TALK WOMAN…On top of that I am going to call you Crystal. I have only known you as Crystal and you will forever be Crystal. You know we don’t use those ugly real names here. Which means you will not call me by my slave name of Sydney you got that…”

“Slave name… You aren’t even…”

“SILENCE WOMAN… I didn’t say you could speak. Now that we got that out of the way we need to do things that will help you remember who exactly you are. I can help you with that and this isn’t just an one off thing. I was able to speak to your wife for a bit. She has given me the okay to be your manager so I am going to whip you right into shape. You need to get back to the very core of the basics instead of being a Goomba do I make myself clear?!”

Seleana raises her eyes in return.

“Goomba?!”

Christina turns her attention over to Seleana sighing at her.

“Yes Goomba the stupid little things that Mario jumps on, my friend Zelda over here likes to live her life like she is in a fantasy. Everything is a game to her and…”

Out of nowhere Zelda reaches into her pocket and pulls out a Nintendo DS Stylus and chucks it right at Crystal’s forehead. Crystal is able to dodge it as she smiles in return.

“You aren’t ever catching me with that EVER AGAIN… Seleana my best friend Zelda is a big time gamer girl and she was basically voted as the most underrated and overrated women’s wrestler in wrestling.”

Zelda smirks as she continues to speak.

“Hey SHE BASICALLY STOLE MY GIMMICK FROM ME… That’s all you need to know. Granted I technically did get Crystal into video games and everything of the sort. Yet soon as our tag team separates and she goes on her own. She basically straight out took my shit! How you just going to take my shit like it didn’t matter. On top of that you seem to be doing it all wrong. I built an empire for a reason. I also CARRIED Crystal to a few tag team championships. Isn’t that right Crystal?!”

“…”

“Crystal remember that time in 3WL when I held both the World Title and the Sky High Title, and all you needed was the Sky High Title to be a Grand Slam Champion. They booked me against you in a two falls match with both titles on the line and I pinned you two falls to nothing. So much for getting that other belt off of me…”

“Go to hell Z…”

“Don’t be so angry… I am here to help you see the truth plus all of your closest people brought me here. I mean you should have told me you reunited with your long lost mother, and you have a super-secret long lost son, and your daughter is now time traveling and she just got married at the age of 18… Holy crap does this sound like one huge convoluted mess…That’s just bad and awful Crystal. It sounds just as bad as Final Fantasy 8 and you know how bad of a convoluted game that is…”

Crystal quickly replies back.

“THAT’S MY FAVORITE FINAL FANTASY IN THE SERIES!!!!”

“Hence why you are totes a convolution of a mess. Next thing you are going to tell me is you own a zoo, wait tables at some restaurants, and double as a casino worker…”

“Z I hate to break it to you but…”

Zelda quickly shakes her head.

“Damn it Crystal that just sounds bad. You can’t always fix shit by doing stupid shit! No, no… and no… At least you aren’t on the full deep end trying to live a double life being Christina and Crystal that would just be…”

Seleana smirks in return.

“Ja… She does that… Kate Steele too calling herself Diamond and…”

Zelda shakes her head.

“SHUT THE FRONT DOOR… I have heard enough! Just because you watch Dragon Ball Z and Sailor Moon, where you see everyone transformation doesn’t mean you have to do it just to fit in. Transformation doesn’t give you some power up especially if you do it so much that it loses shock value. That’s why DBZ was always crap how many transformations is a character going to have?! WE GET THE POINT YOU ARE SUPER STRONG…Nobody has to worry about anything anymore because I will save the day. I will be the chosen one and I will bring balance to the force. Before we go any further is Mercedes Vargas still just as boring?!”

“Yes…Still the same always three days late with the sports reporting…”

Zelda raises her eyes.

“And is she still just as boring, I mean we have known her for about ten years and I still haven’t figured out who she is as a person. You have to be more in life than the Mystique of wrestling. If she was fighting you she’s an actress, if she fights me she knows all about video games, if she is against a boxer she was a Olympic boxer in her lifetime. She just so happens to KNOW everything… That still a thing?!”

“Still the same… Hasn’t changed a bit…”

“Well at least that’s normal but that’s what can happen if things completely go wrong. Some people change too much and some just try to mold themselves to whoever they are facing in the ring. Where’s the originality in that… We have so much to do Crystal and I can’t wait to show up on Sunday and talk up what we are going to do together. With me managing you of course… No offense Seleana but I had to pull you out the game and I am coming out of the bull pen now…”

“ZELDA YOU CAN’T JUST TAKE MY WIFE’S SPOT AS MY MANAGER… THAT’S NOT HOW IT WORKS…”

“Totes can because I CALLED IT…. SHOTIE CRYSTAL’S MANAGER…”

Crystal looks at everyone in the room.

“Who thought it was a good idea to bring my best friend on the road with me…”

Zelda nails Crystal in the forehead with another Stylus.

“OWWWWWWWWWWW….. DAMN IT Z…..

“I always carry two you should know that. Anyway is there anything I should know about SEXY CUTIE WRESTLING?! It’s not like that one company we were in where everybody was a LE….”

“I’M MARRIED TO SELEANA… Don’t disrespect my wife in front of me Z…”

“What did I say?! You know what I am saying is true though. It just seems like you go to a wrestling company that is predominantly female and POOF, BLAM, WHAM I bet 80 percent of the roster are in a Lesbian relationship, or they are filthy rich, or they own a company, and on top of that they have some legendary wrestling knowledge in their bloodline which TOTES makes them AWESOME!!!”

“…”

“DAMN IT CRYSTAL DON’T BE A MEME YOU ARE BETTER THAN THAT!!!! Even if you fit about a good 100 percent of everything I hate with women in wrestling today… At least it’s not as bad as forcing relationships in the wrestling world. Lord knows that shit NEVER works…”

“Zelda there’s at least Roxi Johnson?!”

Zelda rolls her eyes.

“Which one?! The one that was MARRIED TO RICKY JOHNSON in NCW or the one that just suddenly appeared after that one DISAPPEARED… How weird is it that two women with the same name, with the same birthday, and look exactly the same just exist…”

“Could be different Earths Z could be the multiverse in play…”

Zelda shakes her head as Christina continues to speak.

“I mean if you show up on Sunday people might get confused seeing that there was a woman named Alice Knight who used to work for SCW which is SIN CITY WRESTLING by the way. She looked just like you and how does it look that you would show up and with the last name KNITE. People are going to think you are her and…”

“You aren’t getting out of me managing you… Not now and not ever. We are going to have ourselves one huge THIS IS YOUR LIFE SEGMENT… It’s going to be super fun. You will definitely love it and I might have a special surprise for you…”

“Surprise?!”

Zelda smirks as she looks at Crystal.

“It’s time to bring back EMF…”

Crystal smirks in return.

“Really?!”

“Yep… You want to be yourself you know what you need to do… I will be right by your side. We just focus on you being yourself and once you do. We will deal with all of the convolutions and go from there… One day at a time and one step at a time. I got your back and I am here for you no matter what…”

With that the two women smile as they hug one another and we slowly leave on this image.








On Camera


Long behold what is happening SCW… I just want to say that it feels absolutely great to be able to talk to you all right now. I can sit here and claim how it feels so heart breaking to fight the likes of Andrea and not come out on top. I wanted a rematch and I beat Keira to get there, and yet Andrea turned me back by beating me.

Am I angry that I didn’t get the job done?! To be honest no I am not… What do I honestly have to be ashamed of?! Life isn’t easy and if it was I would say everyone would be getting through it with a breeze. There wouldn’t be curveballs thrown in our direction. In the way the world wasn’t ready to deal with the Corona Virus I simply wasn’t ready to deal with Andrea. She is an exceptional talent and as much as she had been denied throughout her life and her career. She has managed to break through her shell and she has become something great. She is defining her very legend and she should be happy with the strides that she has made in the ring.

I won’t Bitch… I won’t complain… I will simply say that she is the best of the best. She beat me twice and she deserves to be the champion. I know people give me a lot of shit because they feel I am fake or a phony. They don’t think I have paid my dues or I even belong here. I would normally get offended by those words and quickly go running to make a change to make myself feel better but I don’t have to do that for anybody. I am proud of all of my shortcomings.

Losing isn’t necessarily a bad thing because now it serves as motivation for me to get better and to propel myself to an even higher position. I have nothing to be ashamed of and I don’t give a shit if Alicia Lukas feels I tarnished the title. I don’t care if Vargas wants to run her mouth. The world doesn’t revolve over what you did in the past or even last year. It’s all about what have you done lately and I am here to wrestle.

If I get beaten in the ring by all means I will stand here and put over my opponent because they deserve that. Everybody should be proud that they even have the courage to step through those ropes and keep fighting. That’s amazing. I don’t care if you are Jessie Salco who hasn’t won the big one, or Sam Marlowe who seemed to be in a downward spiral, or Keira who keeps asking for a world title. You just need to keep at it and keep on persevering.

Even when the world tells you that you aren’t liked or don’t belong keep on fighting. Once you give in the way the world views you that’s when things become hard to follow. That’s when you start changing your very identity and for what exactly?!

To receive a cheap pop, or to receive a quick five minutes of fame?! It doesn’t work and you will never receive the happiness you are searching for. Trust me that has always been my life in this company. There’s a reason why I am bringing all of this up for the record. You see this week I get to step in the ring with Tallyn and to be honest I am not impressed by her.

This is not me no selling her nor would I go out of my way to bury her. Yet I am not impressed because she focuses on burying herself. As soon as she saw that she was booked she immediately stated that she’s going to lose again and she doesn’t even care. She isn’t even going to try to win and might as well call it another lost.

Seriously?!  This woman has already defeated herself before she even stepped foot in the ring with me and it seems to be a common trend with her. I honestly would have expected more out of someone who spent an endless amount of time around Gabriel and Odette yet that isn’t the case with this one. So let me ask you Tally why are you even here then?! What is the end game for you?!

I looked at your last promo and it made no sense to me. You basically contradicted yourself stating as usual you are going to lose because you don’t even care. Things aren’t going to turn around for you so why bother. You told Marlowe that she was a fading star but out of the blue by the end of it you wanted to change people’s opinion of you. You were going to do something to stand out?!

How exactly is that the case when you beat yourself up so much throughout your promos and your tweeting. Am I honestly supposed to take you seriously when you don’t take yourself seriously?! How does that make any sense.

I know you mentioned Mikah’s name in your last promo talking up how people don’t acknowledge or respect her as being the best of the best. Yet when Tommy Knox had his little reunion show didn’t she get voted as being the GOAT and simply the best of the best. She ripped through the division when it was at its strongest and I think your facts are a little misplaced. Besides why are you worried about Miks… It’s not like you are Miks or anything. Let her defend herself and you need to worry about you.

You have a lot of potential to be a major important factor in this company. You just need to find your niche in this company and once you do that the sky is the limit for you. You will be a future champion and I know that for a fact, However you just haven’t had that much luck considering your run in Blast From The Past was short lived.

I think you can do better but you need to motivate yourself. Instead of wasting time on Twitter by posting an endless supply of random photos and selfies you could be out there getting better as a wrestler. You could be working out. You could be preparing yourself so you don’t go into matches with this I am going to lose every single match mentality. It would make you stand out more plus you would improve as a wrestler.

I know what to expect from you when it comes to this match though. Just like everybody else I am going to be called a fake or a phony. You are going to talk about how much I have changed or the amount of times I have changed my name or hair color. I get the point I know I change alignments just about everything else when it comes to names or alignments but what hasn’t changed is the wrestling ability.

That’s the one constant that has been throughout the career and it’s the one thing you should take very seriously. I know that’s probably going to come from you. The sudden change of not caring to suddenly thinking you are going to win and that only makes you look stupid and basically a hypocrite. Please don’t do that.

I want you to be gung ho for this match. This is your chance to improve and to get better. Even in losing you can learn from your mistakes and improve upon them.

If you have this mindset of not caring my question is why are you even here?! Wouldn’t that make you a waste of a roster space?!

Wouldn’t that mean that you are simply just here for a paycheck and nothing more?!

You have to be better than that and I know you have all of the ability to do just that. You surrounded yourself with some good wrestlers and I know you had the best training in the world. You just need to find a way to apply it your career so you can improve. As far as I go however I am coming off of a lost and I am going to do whatever I can to get back into the fray.

I don’t even know if you want this win but I am always looking to get better and take my career to the next level. What exactly is at the unknown to be honest I don’t know but it’s super exciting. This is actually a great place to be in and I am looking forward to being in the ring with one of the most promising bombshells on the roster.

Will shock the world by beating me or are you going to continue to be a let down?! Only you can answer that question. As far as I go I am going to do my best and see where that takes me. Win or lose I ma here for the long haul and I just need to handle my business.

Best of luck and see you soon.

Nothing will ever stop this rose from blossoming…
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