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~*~Wise Old Words~*~
Three Weeks Ago
New York City
Late Morning
The city didn’t slow down for anyone.
Not for traffic, not for weather, and certainly not for the kind of uncertainty that had been following Bella Madison like a shadow for weeks now. But for once, she wasn’t trying to keep up with it.
She stood on the sidewalk just off Park Avenue, one hand wrapped securely around Máire’s tiny one, the other adjusting the strap of the small bag slung across her shoulder. Máire bounced lightly on her feet beside her, bundled in a puffy little coat that made her look twice her size, her knit hat slipping just slightly to one side.
“Up,” Máire demanded, already reaching.
Bella smiled despite herself, bending down with a soft grunt as she scooped her daughter up against her hip. The movement still pulled faintly through her ribs, not pain anymore, just memory. A reminder of what she’d put herself through.
“Someone’s feeling dramatic today,” Bella murmured, brushing a kiss against Máire’s temple.
“Up,” Máire repeated proudly, as if she had personally invented the word.
“Yeah, I gathered that.”
Bella shifted her weight and glanced up toward the building in front of them. It was tall, clean and expensive in that quiet, old-money way that didn’t need to prove anything to anyone. Jeffery O’Neil’s building.
For a second, Bella just stood there. Not because she didn’t want to go in.
Because this... this felt different. Just her and somehow, that felt heavier than anything she’d dealt with in a ring.
Máire squirmed slightly in her arms, tugging at a loose strand of Bella’s hair, "Go,” she said, as if she could sense the hesitation.
Bella huffed out a small laugh, "Bossy already. You get that from your father.”
Máire beamed like it was a compliment. Bella adjusted her grip, squared her shoulders, and stepped inside. The lobby was exactly what she remembered.
Marble floors polished to a shine, soft lighting, the kind of quiet that came from people who didn’t need to raise their voices to be heard. The doorman greeted her with a polite nod, already recognizing her before she even reached the elevator. He was a kind man with kind eyes that would occasionally have candy for the kids that would come through the door.
“Hey there Bella, Ms. [size=105]Máire[/size], I heard that Mr. O’Neil is expecting you.”
“Of course he is,” Bella replied, a small smile tugging at her lips, "Thanks Marcus.”
The elevator ride was short, but it gave her just enough time to feel it creeping back in. That question, the one she’d been avoiding.
What now?
She shifted Máire slightly, pressing her closer as the doors opened. Jeffery O’Neil’s apartment felt less like a place and more like a presence. Warm wood, framed photos lining the walls, especially a beautiful one that he had specially painted of his wife, Wanda. Bella’s grandmother who had passed away from cancer some time ago. Bella stopped and said a quiet ‘hello to it’ as she glanced at it. Maybe some day she’d tell [size=105]Máire about her, but for now, she would stand among a[/size] lifetime of decisions and victories and mistakes quietly displayed in still images that didn’t need explanation.
And right in the middle of it all....
“Bella.”
His voice carried before she even fully stepped inside. Her grandfather stood near the sitting area, dressed casually but still put together in that effortless way that came from decades of knowing exactly who you were. His hair had gone more silver than she remembered, but his posture hadn’t changed. It was always straight, grounded and practically unshakable.
But the second his eyes landed on her, that melted away, "There’s my girl.”
Bella didn’t realize how much she needed to hear that until it hit her. Her shoulders dropped just slightly as she crossed the room.
“Hi, Grandpa.”
He stepped forward and wrapped her in a hug that was firm without being overwhelming, careful without being fragile. The kind of hug that didn’t ask questions but somehow answered them anyway. Then he pulled back just enough to look at her properly.
“Still standing,” he said.
Bella smirked faintly, "Last I checked.”
“Good,” he replied simply. Then his attention shifted to the little girl in Bella’s arms, and the stern executive steadiness left his face altogether.
“Well now,” Jeffery said, voice softening as he reached up to straighten Máire’s hat with careful fingers, "And there’s my favorite little visitor.”
Máire blinked at him for half a second, as if deciding whether or not he was worthy of her approval. Then she leaned forward and patted his cheek.
Jeffery laughed, surprised and delighted in equal measure, "Ah. Yes. I’ve been inspected.”
Bella let out a quiet laugh, the first one that felt unforced all morning, "That means you passed.”
“I should hope so.” He looked back at Máire with absolute seriousness, "I wore a respectable sweater and everything.”
Máire stared at him, then planted both of her little hands on Bella’s shoulders and announced, “Down.”
Jeffery raised an eyebrow, "I see I’ve already been dismissed.”
“No, that means she wants to explore,” Bella said, lowering her daughter carefully to the floor, "You’re about to lose control of your apartment.”
“Well if there is one thing I learned from your mother, control is overrated.”
Máire hit the floor like she had been waiting for release, toddling away with the determined confidence of someone who had never once doubted the world would make room for her. Jeffery watched her go with open amusement, his hands settling on his hips as she made a beeline toward the sitting area rug.
“She walks faster every time I see her.”
“She runs now too,” Bella said, "Usually in the direction of anything breakable or to whatever the dog was.”
Jeffery gave a grave nod, "Excellent. Strong instincts.”
Bella smiled again, but it faded quicker this time and he noticed. Of course he noticed, he always had.
He stepped aside and motioned deeper into the apartment, "Come on. Sit. I had tea brought in for you, and I am told there is also coffee if the tea offends your generation somehow.”
Bella snorted softly, "I can still do tea, Grandpa.”
“Reassuring.”
He led her into the sitting room, where the late-morning light spilled in through massive windows, painting soft gold across the wood floor and the edges of the furniture. Central Park was visible in the distance between buildings, winter-bare trees etched against a gray sky. The whole room held that same quiet confidence as the lobby downstairs, nothing loud, nothing gaudy, just taste built over years rather than bought in a rush.
Máire had already found a basket of children’s books that absolutely had not been there by accident. Bella noticed it immediately and looked at him as he pretended not to.
“You put those there.”
“I have no idea what you’re talking about.”
“There’s also a stuffed rabbit on the chair.”
“I’m shocked. A mystery.”
Bella laughed under her breath as she lowered herself onto the sofa, "You spoil her way too much.”
Jeffery remained standing for a moment, watching Máire flip open a board book upside down like she was reading state secrets. When he finally looked back at Bella, his expression gentled.
“I’m allowed,” he said, "I earned it and I’m still feeling like I’m making up for missed time.”
That landed somewhere tender in Bella’s chest.
He sat in the chair across from her, not directly opposite, but at an angle that made the conversation feel less like an interview and more like an invitation. A tray waited on the low table between them, tea, coffee, small pastries, fruit cut neatly into pieces that looked almost too careful to eat.
Jeffery poured her tea himself, Bella noticed that too, “You don’t have staff for this?”
“I do.”
“But?”
“But I wanted to pour my granddaughter a cup of tea.” He handed it to her. Bella took it with both hands, the warmth settling into her fingers.
For a moment, neither of them spoke. The quiet wasn’t awkward. It never had been with him. It just gave the truth somewhere to arrive. Jeffery leaned back slightly, studying her over the rim of his own cup, "You look tired.”
Bella let out a breath through her nose, "That subtle, huh?”
“I did not say exhausted.”
“But you implied it.”
“I implied many things, my dear.” He took a sip, "You also look better than I expected.”
That made her glance up. He held her gaze evenly.
“I watched,” he said.
Bella’s mouth tightened just a little, "I figured.”
“I imagine you did.”
There was no judgment in his voice. That somehow made it harder. She looked down into her tea, watching the faint movement on the surface, "It was ugly.”
“It was costly.”
Bella gave a quiet, humorless laugh, "That’s one word for it.”
Jeffery didn’t rush to fill the silence after that. He let it stretch, let her sit with it instead of rescuing her from it. It was one of the things she’d always respected about him. He never shoved comfort at people just so he could feel useful. When he finally spoke again, his tone was calm, "Do you miss it already?”
Bella looked up, caught off guard by the bluntness of it, "The ring?” she asked.
Jeffery lifted one shoulder, "The fight. The noise. The version of you that walks through fire because everyone expects her to.”
Bella leaned back slowly, tea still cradled in her hands. Her eyes drifted toward Máire, who was now sitting on the rug happily turning pages and babbling to herself, "I don’t know,” Bella admitted.
Jeffery nodded once, as if that answer pleased him more than certainty would have, "That,” he said, “is at least an honest place to begin.”
Bella let her head tip back against the sofa cushion and stared at the ceiling for a second, "Everybody keeps acting like I’m supposed to know.”
“Know what?”
“What comes next?” She looked at him again, "Am I going back? Am I not? Am I taking time? Am I done? Am I just pretending I’m taking time until I get restless enough to throw myself back into it because I don’t know how to be anything else?”
Her voice didn’t rise, but it sharpened on the edges anyway. Jeffery remained still and Bella swallowed her words for a moment before she continued on.
“I’ve had more time than I’m used to,” she went on more quietly, "Time to heal. Time to be home. Time to be with her.” Her eyes flicked to Máire again, "And I love that. God, I love that more than I even know how to say. But then there’s this other part of me that keeps...pacing.”
Jeffery’s brow lifted slightly, "Pacing.”
“Yeah.” Bella gave a small shrug, "Like something in me doesn’t know what to do when it isn’t bracing for the next hit.”
There it was. The thing she hadn’t quite managed to say out loud before.
Jeffery set his cup down, "When your whole life has been built around surviving impact,” he said, “Stillness can feel suspicious.”
Bella’s eyes snapped back to his. For just a second, she forgot to breathe because that was it. That was exactly it.
She looked away first, a tiny shake of her head following like she was irritated he’d been able to name it so easily, "I hate when you do that.”
Jeffery’s mouth twitched, "Do what?”
“That thing where you make one sentence sound like I should’ve had it figured out myself.”
“My apologies. I’ll try to become less insightful in my old age.”
Bella laughed despite herself, and this time it lasted a little longer. Across the room, Máire looked up at the sound of it, smiled because her mother was smiling, then went right back to aggressively chewing on the corner of a cloth book.
Bella sighed, "That’s probably expensive.”
Jeffery turned his head to look, "Then it’s fortunate I can replace it.”
She shook her head, amused.
Then the amusement passed, and the honesty came back.
“She needs me,” Bella said quietly.
Jeffery looked at her, "Yes.”
Bella’s fingers tightened around the cup, "Not the version of me that comes home half-broken and tries to pretend that’s normal. Not the version that can’t get comfortable in her own body for a week because everything hurts. Not the version that acts like bleeding is proof of something.”
Jeffery’s expression didn’t harden, but it did settle into something more serious, "And what version of you do you think she needs?”
Bella blinked. The answer should have been simple but it wasn’t.
Jeffery waited as he watched as Bella looked down at her hands. At the faint scars. At the strength in them. At the wear. She was very much like her mother in more ways than just half the DNA
“I don’t know,” she admitted, "I know I want to say she needs me whole. But that sounds nice in theory. I don’t know if I’ve ever really been like that.”
Jeffery was quiet for a long moment after that. Then he leaned forward slightly, elbows resting on his knees, his voice lowering just enough that it felt like something meant only for her, "Bella. Look at me.”
She did.
“You do not owe anyone your damage as proof of your passion.”
The words hit hard enough that her throat tightened. Jeffery held her gaze.
“You do not owe an audience your body in pieces just because they once applauded you for enduring it. And you do not have to keep proving that you can survive difficult things merely because survival became one of your talents.”
Bella stared at him. There was no dramatics in his delivery. No grand speechmaking. Just truth, laid out cleanly between them.
She swallowed hard and looked away toward the window before she could stop herself. Outside, the city kept moving; yellow cabs below, tiny figures crossing the sidewalks. Life, indifferent and constant.
Inside, everything had gone very still.
“That’s easy for you to say,” she said after a moment, and even to her own ears it sounded less like defiance and more like exhaustion.
Jeffery accepted that without offense, "No,” he said gently, "It’s easier for me to say now.”
Bella turned back. He sat back in his chair, but his eyes had gone distant in that way they sometimes did when memory had entered the room.
“When I was younger,” he said, “I confused usefulness with worth. A lot of men of my generation did. If we were producing, deciding, winning, building, then we knew who we were. The second things slowed down, we felt threatened by the quiet because quiet left room for questions.”
He glanced toward the wall of framed photographs.
“I built a life out of decisions,” he continued, "Some good. Some extremely selfish. Some brilliant. Some expensive in ways money does not cover. And for a very long time, I thought momentum was the same thing as purpose and status was the proof of power. I hurt your mother with that one and lost a lot of time with you because of that.”
Bella listened without interrupting.
Jeffery looked back at her, "It isn’t.”
A small frown touched her mouth, "So what is?”
“That,” he said, “changes.”
She frowned more deeply, "That’s annoyingly vague.”
“Yes,” Jeffery agreed, "Because simple answers are usually lies.” Bella huffed a laugh and he continued, “At one point, the purpose was building something big enough that your mother, her brother and her sisters would never have to worry about the things I worried about. At another, it was learning how not to confuse control with love. Later, it became understanding that being needed and being cherished are not the same thing.”
Bella lowered her tea to the table, giving him her full attention now. Jeffery’s eyes flicked to Máire, and his whole expression softened.
“And these days,” he said quietly, “Purpose can look an awful lot like sitting on the floor and allowing a great-granddaughter to hand me blocks for twenty minutes while the rest of the world insists there are more important things to do.”
Bella followed his gaze. Máire had abandoned the books entirely and was now trying to stack two soft cubes on top of one another with ferocious concentration. Bella’s chest ached, not painfully, just deeply.
“She’s good at making everything else feel stupid,” Bella murmured.
“The best children are.” They sat in that for a beat. Then Jeffery looked back at her, and his tone shifted just enough to tell her they were circling the heart of it now, "Tell me what you’re afraid of.”
Bella exhaled slowly. There were so many versions of that answer she could have given him. The polished one, the tough one, the easy one. None of them felt right here. So she went with the ugly truth.
“That if I stop,” she said, “people will forget.” Jeffery didn’t react immediately. Bella stared ahead as she kept going, words quieter now, stripped of everything but honesty, "That if I take too long, I’ll disappear. That everything I fought through, everything I built, every time I dragged myself back up and made people pay attention,” She stopped, jaw tightening, "What if it’s all shorter-lived than I want it to be?”
Jeffery folded his hands loosely, "And if they do forget?”
Bella looked at him sharply, "That’s not helpful.”
“It’s necessary.” Her eyes flashed, but not out of anger, out of vulnerability. Out of being forced to stand too close to something she did not want to examine. Jeffery didn’t soften the question, "And if they do?” he repeated.
Bella was quiet. Finally she said, “Then what was the point?”
Jeffery’s answer came without hesitation, "The point was never to be remembered by strangers forever.”
She sat very still.
“The point,” he said, “Was that you did it. That you became who you are by doing it. That you loved it when you loved it. That you endured it when it demanded endurance. That it gave you pieces of yourself you would never have found elsewhere. That is not erased if applause fades.”
Bella’s eyes burned.
Damn him. Damn him for being right in that calm, infuriating way of his.
He went on, quieter now, "You have spent enough of your life making yourself legible through performance. I am asking whether you know how to value yourself when no one is looking.”
The room went silent except for the soft little babble Máire kept up on the rug.
Bella blinked hard once, then again. She laughed a little under her breath, but it came out shaky, "You really know how to ruin a perfectly good tea, you know that?”
Jeffery smiled faintly, "A family gift.”
Bella reached up and rubbed at one eye, annoyed at herself more than anything, "I don’t want to be done.”
“There’s a difference,” Jeffery said, “Between not wanting to be done and not being ready to decide.” She looked at him. He held her gaze, steady as ever, "You are allowed not to know yet.”
That hit even harder than the rest. Because everyone else seemed so desperate for clarity. For the headline. For the neat answer:
Coming back.
Stepping away.
Retired.
Rebuilt.
One final run.
Everything always had to be named before it was even fully understood.
Bella let out a long breath, "I’m not good at uncertainty.”
“No,” Jeffery said dryly, "You’re very bad at it.”
That pulled a real smile out of her. He gave one in return. Then, in a gentler voice, he added, “But uncertainty is not weakness, Bella. Sometimes it is simply the cost of taking your own life seriously enough not to lie about what you need.”
Bella sat with that. Across the room, Máire pushed herself to her feet with all the grace of a tipsy sailor and toddled toward them holding one of the soft blocks in both hands like an offering.
“Bop,” she declared.
Jeffery immediately leaned forward to accept it with appropriate reverence, "For me? I’m honored.”
“Bop,” Máire repeated, then turned and shoved another one at Bella.
Bella took hers too, "Wow. We’ve both been chosen.”
Jeffery nodded solemnly, "A rare distinction.”
Máire then climbed, with zero warning and complete authority, into Bella’s lap.
Bella made a soft sound as she settled her daughter against her chest, one arm wrapping around her automatically. Máire leaned back into her like it was the most natural place in the world to be. Because for her, it was. Jeffery watched them for a long moment, something tender and thoughtful moving behind his eyes.
“She looks very content there,” he said.
Bella looked down at her daughter’s rosy cheeks, the sleepy blink beginning behind her lashes, the tiny fist still loosely clutching the corner of Bella’s sweater, "Yeah,” Bella whispered, "She does.”
Jeffery was quiet for another beat, then asked, “And do you?”
Bella looked up. The question settled over her differently than the others had. Not as a challenge. Just a real question.
Did she? Here. At this moment, in the stillness she’d been mistrusting.
Did she?
Bella looked back down at Máire, then out toward the city, then finally at the man who had known her long enough to ask the question underneath all the others.
And for the first time in weeks, maybe longer than that, she didn’t try to answer from the part of herself that was always preparing for the next war. She answered from the quiet.
“Yes,” she said softly.
Jeffery smiled. It wasn’t triumphant or even relieved. Just warm and certain, "As I thought.”
Bella shook her head a little, "Sometimes you are unbearably smug for a man your age.”
“I’ve earned that too.”
She laughed again, and this time it came easier.
Máire, sensing laughter and safety and the possibility of attention, reached a hand up and patted Bella squarely in the face. Bella caught the tiny wrist and kissed the little palm, "Assaulting your mother in front of witnesses, huh?”
Jeffery lifted his tea, "I saw nothing.”
“Traitor.”
“Realist.”
Bella settled deeper into the sofa, her daughter warm in her lap, the city stretching beyond the windows, the ache in her ribs still there but quieter now. Not gone. Not resolved. But quieter.
And for the first time since she had stepped away long enough to hear her own thoughts, the question ‘what now?’ didn’t feel like a threat.
It felt like something she might be allowed to answer slowly.
~*~Chosen Violence: Initiation~*~
San Diego
Present Day
Early Evening
The camera didn’t turn on right away. For a few seconds, it just sat there, angled slightly wrong on the kitchen counter, catching the edge of a cutting board, a half-filled bottle, and the soft blur of movement in the background. A small hand smacked against the lens.
“Hey, hey, no, that’s not yours...”
Bella’s voice came from just off-screen, followed by a soft laugh as she stepped into frame, gently rescuing the phone from Máire’s determined grip.
“There we go,” she murmured, brushing a kiss against the top of her daughter’s head before setting her down on the floor.
Máire protested immediately, "Up.”
“You were just up,” Bella replied, crouching slightly to fix the little girl’s shirt, "You can survive thirty seconds without me, I promise.”
“Up.”
Bella smirked, "Persistent. I respect it.”
She stood, adjusted the phone, and finally settled it into place. The angle corrected, now centered on her, with the warm, lived-in space of the kitchen behind her. Soft light spilled in from the windows, catching the edges of everything in gold.
In the background, Máire wandered just into frame, dragging a small stuffed toy by one arm like it had committed a crime. Bella glanced down, making sure she was safe, then looked back at the camera.
For a second, she didn’t speak. That same quiet from weeks ago lingered there. Not heavy this time. Then she exhaled softly and leaned her hips back against the counter, arms folding loosely across her chest.
“There’s a moment...” she began, "...Right before you step through that curtain. It doesn’t matter how many times you’ve done it. It doesn’t matter how many scars you’ve collected, how many matches you’ve survived, how many times they’ve said your name like it meant something. That moment? It’s quiet. WAY too quiet.
And for a long time... I didn’t trust that quiet. I thought it meant I was losing something. Losing the edge and losing the part of me that made me this. But here’s the truth I had to sit with, I wasn’t losing anything. I was finally hearing myself without the noise. And now? Now I get to choose when I step back into it.”
Máire waddled back into frame, stopping just at Bella’s leg, one hand gripping the fabric of her pants like an anchor. Bella didn’t break as her hand dropped instinctively, fingers brushing through her daughter’s hair as she continued.
“Five weeks ago, I didn’t have an answer. Hell, three weeks I didn’t...Not a clean one, anyway. People wanted headlines. Is she back? Is she done? Is she broken? Is she rebuilding? Is she pregnant? I didn’t give them one. Because for the first time in a long time, I wasn’t making a decision for them. I was making it for myself.”
She shifted slightly, lifting Máire up onto her hip without even thinking about it. The movement was smooth, practiced. Máire immediately tucked in against her, satisfied. Bella adjusted her hold, eyes never leaving the camera.
“And now here we are. Bella Madison back....Not because I have something to prove. Not because I need to remind the world who I am, but because I want to. That’s the difference and if you don’t understand that difference? You’re going to, real quick.”
She tilted her head slightly, something sharper settling into her expression now.
“Brittany Williams, it’s your debut, your moment and your opportunity to walk into SCW and make your name mean something the second that bell rings. And I get it, I really do. Because every single one of us had that night. That one chance where you look across the ring and think, ‘If I can just take her down...everything changes.’”
Máire reached up and grabbed a loose strand of Bella’s hair, immediately trying to shove it into her mouth. Bella caught her wrist mid-attempt without even glancing down.
“Not that,” she muttered softly, then returned her full attention forward like nothing happened, "You’re hungry, I’m sure you’re confident. You’ve got that name behind you, that arrogance wrapped around you like armor, and your brother lurking at ringside like he’s the insurance policy. Like he’s the thing that tips the scales in your favor.”
Bella’s jaw shifted slightly.
“Let me make something very clear. I have built my entire career in situations where the scales were never in my favor. I’ve walked into matches where the rules didn’t protect me. Where the odds didn’t favor me. Where the only thing I had was the willingness to go further than the person standing across from me. So if you think a “wildcard” at ringside is going to rattle me? You don’t know who you’re standing across from.”
She adjusted Máire slightly higher on her hip, her grip protective but effortless.
“But here’s the part you really need to hear, because this isn’t about tearing you down. This is about reality. You’re stepping into the ring with someone who already knows exactly who she is without it. And that? That’s dangerous in a way you’re not ready for yet.”
The room felt quieter now, even with Máire there. Even with the soft background noise of life, everything centered on her.
“See, the version of me that used to walk into that ring, she needed it. She needed the fight, the noise and the damage to prove something. This version? She doesn’t need any of it. OH I am STILL the Queen of Hardcore. But this means everything I do in that ring now, is a choice. And I am choosing to walk straight through you.”
Máire shifted, resting her head against Bella’s shoulder. Bella’s hand came up, rubbing slow circles along her back. Her voice didn’t soften.
“Not because I have to. Not because I’m trying to make an example out of you. But because this is what happens when you step into the deep end before you know how to swim. You don’t get eased into it. You don’t get protected. You learn or you sink.”
She leaned forward slightly now, just enough to close the distance with the camera.
“So Brittany, bring the attitude, bring the name. And by all means bring your brother. Bring all of it, because when that bell rings? None of that is going to save you from the reality of standing across from me. I’m not coming back to prove I’m still the Queen of Hardcore. I never stopped being her, I’m coming back because now, I get to decide what that actually means.
And you? You just happen to be the first one standing in front of that decision.”
Bella reached forward, pausing the recording, but not before Máire suddenly perked up, leaned toward the camera, and declared proudly:
“Bye!”
Bella blinked once, then laughed under her breath and the video cut to black.